Lady Serena: Hey y'all. It's been a while cuz I've been busy. The computer messed up my other version of this chapter so I've been screaming and crying for the past few hours. I'm so upset. SIGH.
Yuki: Well, let's hope this version is halfway decent despite you having to start all over.
Lady Serena: Life sucks.
Kyo and Haru: Deal with it.
Lady Serena: (cries)
Kyo: Damn. Now I feel guilty for making her cry.
Haru: Nice going jerk.
Kyo: Hey! You were in on it too!
Yuki: There, there Lady Serena. Just start the story ok?
Lady Serena: Yuki's so nice…unlike two others sexy bishonen I know! (glare)
Warning: Boys in love!
Song: White Flag by Dido
Breathless Dawns
Chapter Three: White Flag
Yuki's POV
"Rin, what are you doing here?" Haru asked.
She smiled at him, which seemed more like a smirk, and said, "Isn't it obvious? I'm here for you Haru."
I was stunned. How did she know to show up here right after I confronted Kyo about the information she had given me? Could she have planned this?
"Huh?"
She stepped away from the trees she had been lurking behind and sauntered over to him as she explained, "I came to save you from them…and from the darkness within you."
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
Ok seriously, she was pissing me off. First she told me that Kyo was cheating on Haru and me with Tohru and although I had called her a liar at first…the seed of doubt had been planted and it grew until I went mad from all of the images in my head. Now I was starting to think that she had lied to me. Kyo would never cheat on us. Tohru was just his friend. His really close, adorable, kind, sweet, loyal friend. I had just been a jealous fool and had pushed my love away with cruel words borrowed from Akito.
"Back off, Rin! He doesn't need you because he had me and Kyo. I think you've caused enough damage here so just leave before I lose control and make you pay for your lies," I spoke as coldly as I could and saw her shiver.
"What did you do Rin? Why is Yuki so angry?" Haru asked quietly, he seemed so weak and unsure.
She glared at me and lied again, "He's angry because he's an idiot. I told him that Kyo had been hitting on that girl and that he's taking advantage of her feelings for him. I saw them together and they were way too close for comfort. Friends don't lean against each other and whisper sweet nothings in each other's ears."
Haru's eyes widened and he glanced at me in shock. I frowned and shook my head. I was such a fool to believe her. I just hoped Haru wouldn't make the same mistake I had.
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well, I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
"No. Kyo would never betray us. Yuki…you know better and you should be ashamed of yourself for even believing it for a second. Rin, I don't know what you're playing at, but messing with my boyfriends is not going to make me want to come back to you. All you're doing is pissing me off," he said as he crossed his arms and gave her a hard stare.
She seemed to wither a bit as she bit her lip and tears gathered in her eyes. She must really still love him. But I didn't feel sorry for her. She was the one who pushed him away back then and he was happy with me and Kyo now so she had no right to come and try to ruin that. Although, I hate to admit that I was partially to blame because I had believed her and called poor Kyo a whore. How could I ever make it up to him?
I know I left too much mess and destruction
to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
"You're making the wrong choice Haru. They won't be able to help you because they're too busy fighting each other! When you come to your senses…you know where to find me," she said.
I released a sigh of relief as she turned and stomped away. Her dark long hair flowed around her with the wind and I prayed that the darkness she carried had gone with her.
"Yuki, let's go find Kyo. You have a lot of explaining to do to our kitten," Haru said firmly.
I nodded and swallowed as my mouth suddenly went dry. I was feeling extremely nervous to see him again. I followed Haru as he walked briskly towards the house. My eyes were trained on his back and my heart stopped as I got a flash of a vision. Haru's back was in front of me and he was walking away. I was running after him but I was slowing down because I was struggling to breathe. My chest kept tightening and I was trying to scream his name, to beg him to stop…don't go. I collapsed to the ground and sobbed as darkness swallowed me up and Haru disappeared forever.
Well, I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
"Yuki, are you alright? What's going on? Yuki?!" his voice came to me as the vision ended.
I grasped my chest as it heaved and I felt cold sweat dripping down my body. Haru stood before me with a frightened look on his face and his hands grasped both of my shoulders tightly.
"Haru…Ha…ru," I panted and ignored the tears streaming down my face.
He asked again, "What's wrong?"
"Don't go. Please don't go."
There was a moment of silence between us as I tried to regain my composure. Haru's voice had become devoid of any expression and I worried that I had pushed him too far. Was Rin right about him losing a battle to the darkness? Or was it just my own paranoia taking over? I wanted to tell him…but I was afraid of the truth.
And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
I felt a wave of relief wash over me as he smiled and lovingly caressed my cheek with one hand as he squeezed my shoulder with the other, "Don't worry koi…I'm not going anywhere. Ok?"
Despite the fear lingering in the back of my mind, I felt reassured and nodded, "Ok."
"Good. Now let's go find our poor neko. I'm sure he's moping on the roof right now."
I had a mental picture of Kyo pouting with angry tears in his red eyes sitting on an edge of the roof and sighed. No one knew how to brood better than he did. But at least this time he had a valid reason. A pang of guilt struck my heart and I grabbed Haru's arm and dragged him faster towards the house. I had to set things right immediately.
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
We finally arrived and I smiled sadly as I recognized the figure with a mop of bright orange hair standing on the edge of the roof staring down. Kyo did not seem to notice our presence and Haru was equally quiet as he nudged me forward. I knew this was my time to apologize and beg forgiveness, and I was terrified. I loved Kyo completely and was scared that I'd lost him for good. Even if he hated me, I would always still love him.
I climbed the ladder carefully and quietly so as not to startle him but when I got to the top I felt a rush of dread. He was far too close to the edge and the way he was peering so intently over it made me think he was considering jumping. Kyo has jumped off before, but he usually hung on to the side of the house as he did it. Also, ever since Tohru had fainted when he did it the last time, he swore he would stop so as not to give her a heart attack.
Was he seriously just ignoring his promise or did he just not care anymore and wanted to hurt himself? When Haru had found him trapped in the cat house, I was told he had been poised with a knife to his chest, ready to plunge it into himself. Could Kyo still be suicidal and I had just made those feelings re-emerge? I felt dizzy and gripped the ladder tighter as I saw him take a deep breath. He was about to jump!
"No, Kyo! Don't jump!" I screamed.
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I belatedly realized that my shout had startled him as he jolted and turned to glance at me in shock. My mistake was a lethal one as his foot missed the tiles and he toppled backwards off the roof. I watched him fall and felt my heart shatter. I tried to reach out to catch him but I was still on the ladder a few feet away. Kyo was going to die and it was my fault.
"KYO!"
Wow! A cliff-hanger! Don't you guys love/hate me? Please review!
Japanese lingo:
bishonen- a term for sexy male anime/manga characters
koi- love (like saying sweetheart or dear)
neko- (cat)