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I feel like I might need one more shot before I go up there and sing. I start to shake my hands, something I have done since I was little when I get nervous. I look over to see the beautiful blonde sitting in Vegeta's lap kissing on his neck. I get a sharp pain in my chest. Not again I can't do this right now. "Hey, Paul do you want to go and take a shot with me before I go sing?" I ask smiling at him.
"Sure thing blue eyes." He winks. We walk up to the bar. I keep my head down, as to not alert Vegeta I am here yet. We get up to the bar and I see the cute bartender, he tells me his name is Chris. I smile at him and ask if I could get a Jaeger-bomb. He laughs and said anything for a friend of Laurens. I put the drink up to my lips and inhale, then tip it back and let the burning take over my throat on the way down. Chris looks at me, and proceeds to say, "Are you going to be singing tonight?"
"Yeah, I believe so, I'm actually a pretty singer, but I don't sing a whole lot publicly." I say confidently.
"You do know that the winner gets $1000 dollars cash?" he says smiling.
"Wow, I didn't know that, how do they determine who wins and loses?" I question.
"Well all I know is you don't want to get booed. I do believe if you get the most cheers you win." He says handing me water.
"I will try my best! Thanks Chris, I owe you one!" I say walking back to the table. I sit back down next to Lauren, who has the karaoke book of songs they allow.
"Hey, Let me see that chick." I say. She smiles and hands it over to me, looking over my shoulder at the songs with me. I need to pick a good one I think to myself. I flip the pages annoyed I haven't found the right one yet. As I am flipping the next page, I stop at the song I see and proceed to smile like the cheshire cat. Perfect. Lauren looks at me and says, "Are you sure you want to do that? I mean it's a pretty deep song. It's to the point though, that's for sure."
"Yep, I am going to sing it and look him straight in the eyes while I sing it, so he knows how I feel. I will mean every word that comes out of my mouth." I say. I walk up to the booth next to the stage, and see the D.J. I lean in close to his ear to tell him my name and what song I will be singing. He tells me that I will be up next. I look at Vegeta and think okay this is it. I can do this. Albeit, I'm drink and high right now, but I got this!
"Okay, everybody the next entry is the lovely Bulma Briefs! She will be singing the classic I Cant Make You Love Me by Bonnie Raitt. " The D.J says over the speaker. I look over to Vegeta and he looks right at me, shocked. I feel like the breath has been sucked right out me. I want to cry looking into his eyes. I know that I have to do this. The music starts up. Vegeta and I keep looking at each other in the eyes as I start to sing.
Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head.
Lay down with me;
Tell me no lies.
Just hold me close
Don't patronize.
Don't patronize me.
'Cuz I cant make you love me
If you don't.
You can't make your heart do something it wont.
Here in the dark
In these final hours,
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power;
But you won't
No, you won't.
'Cuz I can't make you love me
If you don't.
I start to softly cry as I am singing. The whole time I am staring into his eyes. I am literally baring my soul to him in this moment. He is looking at me with what seems to be sadness? Can it be? No I must be mistaken.
I'll close my eyes
Then I won't see
The love you don't feel
When you're holding me.
Morning will come,
And I'll do what's right;
Just give me until then
To give up this fight.
And I will give up this fight
'Cuz I cant make you love me
If you don't.
You can't make your heart do something it wont.
Here in the dark
In these final hours,
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power;
But you won't
No, you won't.
'Cuz I can't make you love me
If you don't.
I finish the song and look back up at him, tears streaming down my face. I can hear the blonde ask him if he knows me. He just grunts at her. She looks at me, and grabs his face and plants a kiss on his lips. I can't do this. I need to get out of here. I look around panicked searching for Lauren. I see her friend Paul and he grabs my hand and yanks me from the stage. He says, "Are you okay there beautiful?"
"No, I'm not. I can't do this. It hurts too damn much! Do you have anymore cocaine?" I beg and plead.
"Yeah sure thing, Bulma. Let's go." He says leading me to the bathroom, pulling out the white powdery substance from his pocket.
*Across the Bar*
"What the fuck Alice?" Vegeta says.
"What? I just wanted to kiss you. Is that not okay baby?" she whines.
"Whatever." Vegeta rolls his eyes. Is that how Bulma really feels? I didn't mean to make her feel like that. She looked miserable. As I am thinking I see this guy with sandy brown hair and brown eyes grab her from the stage. Why does this enrage me? It is then I see that they are headed to the bathroom. I see him pull something out of his pocket. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT, I think boiling angry. If that is what I think it is, I am going to kill somebody.