Ordinary world pt. 2
It'd been three weeks since Hakkai had touched down. He'd finally gotten use to the subway lines and the 7 am/6 pm flood of bodies and his job. Sanzo would be back in another few days but his search for an apartment had hit a dead end. There just didn't seem to be a decent studio near his school that was affordable. He sighed as he sat down heavily at the table in the teacher's lunch room.
"Hey Hakkai!" Goku's peppy voice called out from the food line. Hakkai grimaced as the younger man bounded over to him, tray stacked three deep of sandwiches and fruit and milk.
"Goku, must you really eat all of that in one sitting? It can't be good for you." He eyed the bowl of wobbling green jell-o wearily as the other made some sort of dismissive clicking sound with his tongue and started heaping forkfuls of food into his mouth.
"Nah, 'm good. How's the house hunt going?"
"Eh..."
Goku glanced worriedly at his friend's bowed head and patted him companionably on the shoulder, "Don't worry, I'm sure you'll find something, and even if you don't, you're more than welcome to come crash at my place until you do!"
"Thank you, but I'm sure I'll find something." Hakkai fervently hoped so at least, Goku's place was a disaster zone that most Health Departments would condemn if given the option.
"Hey, have you had a chance to see much of the city yet? Sanzo's not back for a few more days, we could grab a slice and wander around the East Village or something."
"Ah, no, thank you, but I have other plans tonight, maybe later?"
"Wow. You're going out on your own? You sure, you got lost coming in after that three day weekend last week."
Hakkai blushed and laughed nervously, "Yes, well, I have directions this time, so I think it'll be alright."
"You meeting up with a friend or something?"
"Something like that."
"Cool! Enjoy your night out then! Oh crap, that's the bell, I'll see you later, have fun tonight!" With a jaunty wave and lightning fast reflexes that allowed him to effortlessly maneuver through the sudden stream of students he was gone.
Hakkai wandered over to the trash and tossed his half eaten sandwich, fingers holding the black and red card up to the light and once again he was mesmerized by the play of light and shadow on the inconspicuous scrap of paper. He hadn't talked to Gojyo since the flight, he wasn't even sure what he was looking for by going there tonight, but as he headed back to class he knew one thing, he had to go.
***
It was dark by the time he'd made his way through the crowds and gotten off at the right stop, finally. Shifting uncomfortably as shadows seemed to stalk him while he walked he realized too late that he really was being stalked. A strong hand gripped his arm and jerked him up against the brick facade of a local shop, the darkened expanse of windows telling him clearly that he was on his own. As the alcohol stained breath ghosted over his face he heard a muffled gasp and the man crumpled into an unseemly heap at his feet.
"Man, you sure have some wicked luck following you around, you know that?"
Hakkai jerked his face away from the would-be attacker, startled to see Gojyo standing in front of him. He smiled cockily and canted his hips to the side, broken helmet hanging loosely from gloved fingers.
"Gojyo."
"Yo. Long time no see. Thought you might have forgotten all about me."
"Go..jyo..."
Hakkai reached out unconsciously, his arms pulling the rest of his body along after them and suddenly all he could do was hold the smiling man tightly and bury his head against the strong chest.
"Hey now, you're okay, you're okay. Come on, why don't we go inside, I'll put some coffee on or something."
"Gojyo?"
"Yeah?" Gojyo stopped and glanced down at the smaller man beside him, he had an arm draped over the thin shoulders pulling him in against his side, the comfortable warmth spreading from the contact as they walked was a welcomed respite from the chilly evening breeze.
"I'm sorry I didn't come by sooner. I...I missed this; you." Hakkai had his head bowed so low Gojyo couldn't see his face in the darkness, but he could feel the blush from where he has standing.
Squeezing his shoulder tenderly he smiled down at Hakkai, "Yeah. Me too."
***
Gojyo introduced Hakkai to Jien, his brother, on a tour through the shop; the two were as different as oil and water, but he also saw the same sense of guilt and sadness, the ironic humor that flowed between them and the utter devotion they had towards each other and the shop. Gojyo excused himself for a moment to get coffee while Hakkai got up and wandered over to a wall of photos.
Glancing over the various pictures of race cars and bikes, Indy races and personal shots of the brothers on the walls of the living room that doubled as an office Hakkai felt the warmth of another person behind him.
"There's an awful lot of memories up there." Jien's low voice surprised him, he would have bet it was Gojyo behind him.
"Yes, they all seem to be happy too."
"Well, you don't really put up the bad one's, you know?"
"That's very true."
"But they remind us of those as well. See this one?" A long, calloused finger tapped on a black and white photo of a very young Gojyo sitting a top what must be Jien's motorcycle.
"He was seven. Begged and pleaded with me until I let him sit on it. After wards, whenever I'd come home from school or somewhere, he'd be curled up next to it. It took me a month the first few times he did it to realize that my mother had been hitting him. It was a safety zone for him. She never went in the garage, so he was safe there, but still, no kid should have to find a place in their own house to be safe in."
"He mentioned that a bit on the plane, I didn't realize it was so bad though."
"Yeah well, he's not one to talk about the crap he's dealt with. It's one of the reasons I'm glad he met you."
"Eh?"
"He's never opened up to someone like this before. Seriously, this last month he's been like a different person. I was hoping I'd get the chance to thank you in person one day. So, it's a bit late, but thanks."
"Jien, I think you have it backwards, I should be thanking you and Gojyo. If it hadn't been for his kind words and actions that day, I don't think I would have made it here. It was...unexpected and I'll forever be in his debt for it."
"You two need to have a chat or something."
"I'm sorry?"
"There is no debt between friends, especially one's like you two. You may not realize it yet, but I really think there was a reason for your meeting that day. Can I ask you something?"
"Su..re..."
"This past month, did you ever think about it? About your meeting him? My brother's an idiot most of the time, but he's got good taste in people, he's just not very good at expressing himself, especially feelings, he tends to need someone to take the lead and force him to deal with what he's feeling. Ah, but you probably figured that out already. Anyways looks like he finally figured out how to work the coffee machine, you up for another cup?"
"Yes, thank you." Hakkai followed him back into the kitchen, Jein's words running through his head.
***
They spent the next several hours talking and laughing together about childhood escapades, friends, places they'd like to visit, goals they had for the future, everything and nothing while the time just slipped away like grains in an hourglass. There was an easy comfort between them as they sat together on the couch and joked. Hakkai, never one for personal contact with others, found the casual way Gojyo slung an arm over his shoulders and leaned heavily against his side a welcomed treat. He'd been surprised at first, thinking it had meant more than just a friendly gesture, but he noticed quickly that he did the same thing to his brother. Hakkai laid back into the folds of the couch and thought about his host, Gojyo was definitely one of those 'touchy-feely' people Hakkai normally shied away from, but the contact hadn't been unpleasant in the least. He'd probably be a bit tenser if it was someone like Sanzo, who just naturally oozed 'stay-away', but Gojyo's touch made him feel warm inside.
After several hours and way too much coffee he'd started noticing other things too. Like how Gojyo always bit the inside of his mouth before he talked about his past, or how he ran his fingers through his hair when he was nervous. Probably the most intriguing habit was how he breathed in deeply every time he draped an arm over Hakkai's shoulder, like he was trying to fill his lungs with Hakkai's scent. But maybe he was just imagining it all.
It was horribly late when Hakkai finally stood to go, his legs wobbling a little as he tried to stand and the blood rushed back into his feet, the tingles making him fidget as he gathered their cups and walked them into the kitchen. Placing them in the sink and rinsing them lightly to make sure they didn't stain he felt Gojyo come up behind him.
"Hey, if you want you can just crash here tonight, its Saturday tomorrow, er, today, after all." Gojyo glanced around nervously as Hakkai chewed on his bottom lip in thoughtful concentration. Sanzo would be back on Tuesday, so he still had plenty of time to finish cleaning and packing up, but he really needed to look for a new place.
"Why didn't you say so, we have an extra room here if you need it. It's a bit farther from your work than you might like, but I can guarantee the company'll be better than any place you're likely to find on such short notice."
Hakkai blinked several times. He hadn't realized he'd spoken aloud; he must really be tired.
"If you don't mind, I'll pay a fair price."
"Hakkai, man, you don't have to worry about that now, come on, you're dead on your feet, sleep now, think later. You don't have to make a decision tonight, just keep it in the back of your head, okay?"
"Very well, thank you Gojyo."
"Man, sometimes you can be way too stiff and formal."
"I'm sorry, does it bother you?"
"Nah, but it kinda comes off like a defense mechanism."
"Really?"
"Yeah, well, I can tell, I don't know about other people."
"You are incredibly perceptive sometimes."
"Yep, that's me, Mr. Psychic himself!" Gojyo laughed, a giddy edge to the sound that spoke of his own exhaustion.
"Here you go; it's not much, but the room's clean and the bed's pretty good too. The bathroom is right through that door, we each have our own and the kitchen is just down this hall. I'm the next door down if you need anything. You want a spare set of sweats to sleep in tonight?"
"I'd appreciate it, thanks."
"'Course, hang on a sec." Gojyo disappeared around the corner and Hakkai wandered around the sparse room. Finding it cozier than he imagined, a few new linens and a bright carpet on the floor along with a new lamp and the place would be completely livable.
"Here ya go! They might be a bit large on you, but it should be okay for one night anyways." Gojyo laid the shirt and shorts on the edge of the bed and watched Hakkai closely, the brunette had been oddly talkative all night, but he hadn't mentioned anything about his sister, or the attack he'd warded off earlier.
"Hey Hakkai..."
"Yes?"
"I'm serious you know. I think you'd like it here. It's not so noisy you can't think, but just enough to block out the memories, you know?"
"Hmm..." Hakkai tilted his head and smiled softly remembering Jein's words: 'he needs someone to take the lead.'
"That and um, I really..." Hakkai closed the distance between them and slipped a long pale finger across the still moving lips, a tender smile flitting across his.
"Gojyo?"
"Ye..ah, Hakkai?" Gojyo's voice hitched a little at the hungry fire burning in Hakkai's deep emerald eyes.
"Gojyo, please, just shut up and kiss me."
"Hold on, you sure you're okay? I don't wanna do something that you're gonna regret later." Gojyo held Hakkai's shoulders and searched the pale face and deep verdant eyes.
Hakkai sighed softly before reaching up and running fingers through Gojyo's Hair, the silky strands running through their lengths as he caught the tips and dragged them to his lips and pressed a feather-light kiss to their surface.
"I have been stupidly thinking that I was perfectly fine on my own for the last month. Yet even while telling myself I didn't feel anything for you, I found myself constantly looking for your shadow, hoping to catch it and pin it to my shoes so I would never have to worry about losing it ever again. So to answer your question, yes Gojyo, I'm sure, now would you please shut up and kiss me?"
Gojyo smiled softly as he reached down and pulled Hakkai's lips to his own, murmuring under his breath, "Sure thing babe."
He wasn't sure if it was the lack of sleep, or the absolute trust they had for each other right off the bat, maybe it was just that Gojyo had never seen someone so beautiful and damaged and utterly needing to be wanted. He felt the same way about himself, he was a broken toy that desperately wanted to find a home; maybe if he was really lucky Hakkai would think the same thing.
!-- /* Style Definitions */ , , {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman";} page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} 1 {page:Section1;} --
The first tentative brush of their lips brought physical sparks in its wake. Hakkai laughed softly and murmured something about static electricity. Personally, Gojyo thought the guy could stand to loosen up a bit and give in to the romance of the situation. He pressed in again and smiled as the contact brought a soft sigh from the green-eyed beauty before him. A quick flick of tongue over quickly bruising lips had Hakkai opening his mouth beneath his as he followed-up with a quick thrust of his tongue past yielding lips and into the honeyed cavern of Hakkai's mouth; the contact dragging a moan from the wet warmth.
Pressing in deeper he felt Hakkai's knees go and caught the petite brunette in his arms and carried him to the bed, falling onto the mattress after him as Hakkai clung on tightly and refused to let go.
"Hakkai...If we don't stop now, I don't think I'm gonna be able to." Gojyo brushed back coffee-stained hair from hooded green eyes and tried to control his pounding heart.
"Gojyo, there's something you should know about me...I have a bit of a possessive streak. I never learned how to share in the orphanage, so when I have something in my hands that I want, very little can persuade me to give it up."
Gojyo's eyes narrowed slightly as he searched Hakkai's face, finally smiling as he leaned in and kissed the pouting lips chastely, "Nah, I already knew that one, you're fine the way you are Hakkai, seriously, and I wouldn't want you any other way."
"You sure?"
"Hakkai, we can either keep talking about this now or we can stop talking, at least about anything intelligent anyways, it's your choice." Gojyo smiled seductively and Hakkai responded by fisting his fingers in the others hair, pulling the red mouth to his in a deeply passion filled kiss that left them both panting, chests heaving as fingers slipped over cloth and discarded the unnecessary clothing into unceremonious heaps on the floor.
Hakkai arched into Gojyo's firm but gentle touch, mouth falling open as he gasped for air. Gojyo ran the tip of his tongue from Hakkai's ear to the corner of his mouth, pausing only to lightly peck at the smooth lips before continuing down his chin, tracing a long, hot, moist line over his heaving Adam's apple, nipping lightly at the small hollow at the base of his throat. He smiled as Hakkai rolled his head to the left exposing the tender flesh at the joint of his shoulder and neck and lapped at the salty skin. Teeth sank into flesh, eliciting a chocked off cry from the brown-haired beauty writhing beneath him.
He licked at the worried flesh as a wounded animal would and then nuzzled child-like into the bruised skin, "You're mine now, I've marked you. You still okay with this?"
Hakkai glanced down at him through a dark curtain of hooded eyelashes, their light fluttering against his pale cheeks reminding him of the butterfly on their card. Hakkai licked his lips and nodded, "Please, Gojyo, yes, I want this, you, everything…ah!"
Gojyo bit down on an inky nipple as Hakkai's head flew back into the pillow, his back arching violently into the touch, forcing their bodies together, groans of pleasure being dragged from both of their lips as their hardened erections rubbed against each other.
Gojyo looked up through crimson strands at the moaning form. Hakkai had a knuckle clenched between pearly white teeth so hard blood was starting to dribble down his chin; his other hand was splayed out across the small bed, fingers fisted painfully in the sheets. Gojyo raised himself on one arm and pushed the other hand farther down Hakkai's stomach and abs, past opened belt buckles and flicked open buttons, pulled down zippers and then thrust past elastic to trail the blunt white tipped nails slowly through the dark curls and over the heated, pulsing flesh below. They both groaned when the fevered cock twitched painfully in Gojyo's hold and he started pumping it methodically.
"Ha…kkai…'Kai! Bloody hell, do you have any idea how fucking hot you are? Or what you've been doing to me all night? All month?! I couldn't get you out of my head, baby. You were so beautiful, so broken, I couldn't decide if I wanted to help put you back together or break myself so we could be a matching set."
"Gojyo, Go…jyo…please, more, I need more!"
"Fuck yeah, I wanna fuck you like this, fuck you so hard you see stars and then do it all over again. Tell me what you want, 'Kai. Tell me, love." Gojyo bent in closer and ran his tongue over the shell of Hakkai's ear, scraping his teeth down the length, all the while quickening his pace on the man's weeping member. Realizing as he did that this was one of those images that had been keeping him up at nights, frustrating him beyond belief, but now that he was actually doing it...he sucked in a sharp breath as Hakkai's body jerked beneath him, the reality was hotter and more desperate and needy and just perfect, than he could have ever hoped for and he finally understood, it wasn't the act itself he had been searching for, it was the man. He wanted Hakkai more than anything and it made their being together all the sweeter.
Hakkai gasped and turned into the smooth column of Gojyo's neck, his breath coming out in ragged puffs as he struggled to maintain some form of composure, "Ah! Go..jyo.."
"Tell me what you like, 'Kai. I wanna make you feel good."
"More," he rasped out, "I want you in me, now. I want to feel you in me, Gods!" Hakkai's eyes flew open as his hands twined painfully in Gojyo's hair, locking eyes he breathed out harshly, "Now. Fuck me now Gojyo!"
A strangled cry flung past his lips as Gojyo pulled away and looked around confused, "Shit! I forgot the lube back in my room, I'll be right…" A strong grip grasped his wrist in a strangle hold. Looking down Hakkai glared up at him dangerously.
"If you leave this room right now you will not be walking back in it." He ground out through clenched teeth, "In my bag, there's some Vitamin E oil, use that."
Gojyo smirked and retrieved the small bottle from Hakkai's bag, hissing as the cold liquid slipped over his heated fingers and onto Hakkai's hip, "Any particular reason you carry this around with you beautiful?"
"The scar…" Hakkai gasped as Gojyo pushed his slacks off with his foot and spread his legs open wider; readjusting his angle to better touch everywhere, feel everything with those long, nimble fingers of his.
"You mean this? It's pretty bad, what happened?"
"Kitchen knife."
"Seriously, what'd you do, fall on it?"
"Tried to."
Gojyo stared open mouthed at the serious look Hakkai was giving him, even completely naked, his body humming with unanswered arousal he could make that scarier than shit face, the man was quite the problem child.
"Hey, can you promise me something?" Gojyo leaned in and tenderly cupped Hakkai's chin while running his fingers through the sweat slicked hair clinging to his temple.
Hakkai softened his defiant glare to a mildly curious gaze, "What?"
"Don't do this again" He tenderly kissed the scar on his belly before rubbing the oil deep into the taut skin, "I just found you, I'm not ready to give you up yet."
Hakkai drew in a shaky breath, he knew he'd forced this on Gojyo, and though he was certain they had both wanted it, there was still the nagging doubt in the back of his head, "When will you be ready then Gojyo?"
"Never. This life and the next, I already told you, I've marked you, means you're not allowed to leave or die; you got that, 'Kai? You're mine."
"Then you better finish claiming me or I might wander off and get lost."
"Your wish is my command." Gojyo kissed those sweet lips once more as he pushed in one slickened finger past the tight ring of muscles and slowly started thrusting in and out to help prepare Hakkai.
"More!"
"Slowly love or you're not gonna feel anything but pain."
"I. Don't. Care! More Gojyo!"
"No. If you're mine than sit there and let me make you feel good, I promise, once you're ready I won't stop for anything, okay?"
A low snarl was his answer. He didn't straight out pound him into the mattress for that one, but he did speed up a bit faster. More of the cold sticky liquid over his fingers and another digit was pushed in, the two moving in unison as Gojyo memorized every moan and pant and harried breath that came out of the shaking figure beneath him.
Pushing in a third finger Gojyo also grasped Hakkai's cock and began pumping it in the same rhythm as his thrusts. Another low snarl escaped Hakkai's lips and he pulled out completely. Whispering into the brunette's neck he lightly bit down and slipped his fingers over sweat dampened hips.
"Turn over for me 'Kai, I wanna fuck you on your hands and knees."
Hakkai complied druggedly, his movements slow and still painful as he turned over and stuck his ass in the air, pushing back into Gojyo as he felt the other kneel behind him on the bed, calloused hands running over the firm contours of his hips and ass. Gojyo leaned over him heavily, using his weight to push Hakkai's face down into the pillows.
"Now Gojyo, fuck me now, please!"
"Gods, you keep talking like that and I'm not gonna make it you know?"
"I thought you'd like it."
"I do. I do. What would you normally say to this though?"
"Don't know, haven't done it before."
"What?!" Gojyo pulled back sharply, and Hakkai hissed and reached back, capturing his painfully swollen dick in a surprisingly strong hand and pushed it back against him, holding him in place as he steadied himself and then slowly impaled himself on the quivering flesh, gritting his teeth through the initial burning pain.
"'Kai…'Kai, you okay, shit man, why'd you do that?"
"Shhh…this doesn't hurt, I'm fine, just give me a moment."
"Love, if it didn't hurt, you wouldn't need a moment." Gojyo gingerly leaned in and wrapped his arms around Hakkai's chest, face pressed into his shoulder blade he gently kissed the sweaty skin.
"No, I'm good now, but thank you Gojyo. I was just getting rather frustrated with having to wait."
Hakkai straightened himself up against Gojyo's chest, the motion pushing Gojyo deeper within him and dragging more heady moans from both of them.
"You ready?"
"Whenever you are, I do believe we have been quite patient long enough for one night."
Gojyo smiled and gently thrust into Hakkai, gasping at the sudden assault of his senses, the tight heat, the wet squelching sound as he pulled back and thrust in again, harder this time, faster, pace picking up as Hakkai's mouth dropped open and his breath came out in tattered little heaps of hot air, his body swaying in a counter beat to the slapping of skin and the pin pricks of pressure digging into his hips as Gojyo's nails dug in a trifle deeper.
"Gods, 'Kai, Ha..kkai! You're so tight and fucking brilliantly hot! I want to see you come for me while I fuck you, please 'Kai, come for me love, come for me."
Hakkai didn't even notice the blinding pain as he bit clean through his bottom lip; he was too consumed with the feel of Gojyo's hot cock pounding into him, hitting his prostrate over and over until his entire body felt scalded in boiling water. And then there were his hands. Those cool fingers than gripped him so intimately, jerking him off in a steadily increasing tempo, the other pressing against his chest as he held him in place and twisted a nipple harder. The touch of those silky lips running over the hickey from earlier and those sharp teeth recreating the mark while whispering his desire into his neck sent Hakkai up and over the edge of the precipice.
"Go..jyo!!" he cried out as he came violently in his lover's arms.
His whole body felt electrified as his orgasm swept across his flesh, igniting nerve clusters and sending visible trembles across his skin. Gojyo could only hold on and ride the wave over the edge himself, cursing under his breath as he made one long moan out of Hakkai's name. He wanted to collapse onto the bed, wanted nothing more than to curl up still sticky and dripping into a tired mess on the once clean white sheets, but his knees seemed to be locked in place. All he could do was cling to Hakkai's thin chest greedily and wait until Hakkai's body weight dragged them both down into the sheets and the welcoming oblivion of sleep slipped over them.
Thank God Hakkai was just as tired as he was. Sleep came quickly as they fell together, their bodies still connected even when unconscious; matching smiles ghosting over their lips as they curled in against each other.
***
At the end of the hall Jien smiled knowingly as he closed his door. It sounded like there'd be one more for breakfast from now on.
***
Tuesday saw Gojyo carrying Hakkai's duffel bag back to his bike, watching as the brunette handed the keys over to Sanzo and waved back at Goku's bouncing form. Gojyo tossed the spare helmet to Hakkai as the green eyed man climbed on behind him, arms wrapping tightly around his chest, his heart rate mirroring the rev of the engine. He smiled behind the dark face shield and pressed in even closer to the red-head. If anyone had bothered to ask, Gojyo would have sworn the man was trying to crawl into his very skin.
He chuckled softly, well, that was an idea they could try tonight, but first things first. Spinning his wheels in an adolescent display of his feeling he gripped Hakkai's knee quickly and then peeled off into the moonrise, the fresh night air wafting around them; caressing them on their journey home.
***