When my alarm goes beep, I punch it until it shuts up. Probably not the smartest idea, but my brain doesn't work in the morning. If you ask Akio, fuck I still need to ask him about Kyoya, he'd say that my brain doesn't work at all. But no one listens to Akio, because everyone knows I'm smart.

I started the shower and decided to go pick out some clothes. I decided to take a page out of my friend Harper's book and chose to wear a fuzzy black sweater and some black jeans with my favorite chucks. Although she made questionable decisions most of the time, she did wear comfy clothes. I can see why she loves this so much. Well her boyfriend Logan also gives her his sweaters, so she kinda has to wear them.

I put my hand under the shower, and it was warm. Time to wash off. As I stepped under the hot water, I realized why doctors prescribe hot baths for cramps because holy shit did that feel great on my bruises. As I cleaned off my stomach, I looked over the bruises. They were healing quite nicely, although the yellowish color was a bit disconcerting.

I stepped out of the shower in a blast of steam and vanilla lavender body wash. As I dried off and put on my comfy clothes I thought about how soon these bruises would heal. I must say I'm impressed with the salve I'm using. I've never had such quick healing bruises all my life. Gotta ask dad where he got it.

As I thought of another item to add to my ever growing list, I decided to strike one off of it. I called up Akio on the phone as soon as I could.

"Yo, Aki" yes, I call my friend Aki, It's a nickname from when we were super little. I was like three, and was too lazy to use his full name. I guess nothing changes cause I'm still lazy as fuck. Maybe even lazier if that's even possible.

"What's up Didi" Luckily for my BFF, he has a nickname for me. A way to even the embarrassing names out. At least he's not Flora, another one of my friends, we called her Ra for a bit, and when Aki went on an Egyptian gods kick, he started calling her Sunny. (the god of the sun is called Ra) The name stuck and she's just Sunny now.

"Hey… Akio-"

"Uggg, What did I do!?" I never use Aki's real name, so he must've known that he fucked something up.

"You didn't tell me your brother went to school here" I checked the clock and realized I should get going. I shifted my phone so that it was on my shoulder and got my skateboard. After leaving the house and locking the door I began to head school-ward.

"Ohhh yeah, Kyoya. I guess he does go to your school." Wait, he didn't remember!? How do you not remember what school your brother goes.

"You guess!?"

"Sorry, but I'm the youngest lawyer in the state, I'm kinda busy" Wow, guess I never thought about that. I don't ever get waylaid by him, and whenever I call him he answers. Weird.

"Sorry. I guess I didn't think of that." Some depression made my voice a little lower than normal so I braced myself for some questions.

"Hey, hey. It's okay. You don't need to work yourself up about it." This is why I love my friends, I swear they can sense when I need a good amount of comfort. That bond is just about the only constant in my life. I keep it in mind when I feel overwhelmed. "So, how's the move been, did your dad stay like he promised?" His voice was painted with sympathy. He already knew the answer.

"No. Guess work is just more important than me sometimes." While I try to be grateful, sometimes the little pockets of bitterness seep through. They're only ever revealed when I talk to my friends. I suppose the bitterness is why I have to fight. Gotta work off your emotions somehow, right?

"Yeah… Look I have to go now, ttfn" Wow, perfect timing. Just as Aki said goodbye, school came into view.

"Nice Winnie the Pooh reference, nerd. I gotta go too. Bye." If you don't get it, head person who may or may not be reading my thoughts, ttfn stands for tah tah for now. It's one of tiggers lines from Winnie the Pooh.

I stowed my phone away inside of my bookbag then walked confidently into the halls of school. For a pink building, it was surprisingly not barftastic. I surveyed the architecture as I walked to my class. Sunny would love this stuff, She's such an archaeology nerd. She's planning on majoring in it in college. Gotta love a girl with plans for the future.

When I finally reached my class I realized no one was here. When I checked the clock I realized why. I was an hour early to school. Well shit. I wandered into the host club so I could sleep on one of the couches. Pro tip: If you ever visit the host club, check out the couches. They are super comfy

Just as I realized that I probably wouldn't wake up in time for school, I slipped into the not so peaceful oblivion of sleep.

/ Dream Time \\\\\

I was walking with mom. It was a sunny afternoon and I was walking with my mom. I was eleven at the time. We had just left the local library, and I was walking home with an armload of Stephen King books. I was such a horror nerd back then. But no amount of reading could prepare me for what was going to happen.

Just as we rounded the corner, a driver came speeding around. We were sitting ducks in the middle of the street, and the car was going too fast for us to dive out of the way. My mom jumped on top of me shielding me with her body. I felt as the car ran over my mom. I felt when it hit my leg, breaking my tibia and fibula.

I passed out soon after. I woke up in the hospital with a cast on my leg and a black dress to wear to my mother's funeral. What a wonderful wakeup call right? Hey, glad you're okay kid, time to go to the funeral where we're going to put your mother, the woman who raised you all your life, the only family you really know because your dad's gone all the time, into the ground.

I cried at the funeral, and in the month that followed. Eventually dad brought me to a shrink who diagnosed me with depression. Didn't take a genius to get that one. I took meds and went to group therapy for a year, and they declared me cured. Little did they know that after we moved I attempted suicide.

We were leaving the place we buried my mother, and I knew that we wouldn't be coming back. I guess that just pulled me over the edge. I stole some of pop's sleeping pills and took about forty. We immediately went to the hospital, and I got my stomach pumped. They saved my life. I haven't done anything since.

/ End Dream Time \\\\\

I awoke to the feeling of someone poking me in the upper thigh. Hard. I gave a groan and sat up discreetly checking my face for tears. Luckily for me there weren't any. I would've died of embarrassment if anyone saw me like that, especially that Kyoya guy. Something tells me he would've sold me out to make the club a few bucks. On the other hand, I might have been-

"Hey Diana, are you okay!? You were screaming!" That would be Haruhi, shaking me to get an answer. If I can be honest, brain person, No. I'm really not okay. I feel like jumping off a bridge just to stop the aching in my heart. But I made a promise to Aki and Sunny, I will stay alive and well. I will never do that again, no matter how hard it hurts.

"...Yeah" Well, It's not like I'm going to shove all my baggage onto these poor saps. They'd probably run away in terror. I mean Momma's death was only the tip of the iceberg. I have so much more darkness coursing through my blood, that I'm surprised my heart isn't completely black by now.

"Are you sure?" Not really.

"Yes, yes. I'm fine Haruhi, is anyone else here," As I looked around I noticed that the room was empty. Guess that answers my own question. "Ignore that question and answer this one: Where is everyone?" Maybe they're at some fancy pants, normal student,non scholarship meeting.

"They're at some kind of student meeting, kids with scholarships," So basically just Haruhi and I, yay us. "Were excluded." Just as I thought. Wait, does this mean that there will be more meetings like this. Wait is it the end of the day!

"Haruhi! What time is it!" Shit, shit, shit. I wasn't supposed to skip until I knew what was going on in classes. I probably missed something super important. Leave it to me to literally sleep the day away.

"Uh, I don't have a watch, but classes are over if that's what you mean." Well fuck me over sideways with a lunchbox. I'll have to go tell the teacher that I'm sick and try to get some notes. Maybe I can do some makeup to make the act convincing. That seems like a good way to spend an otherwise lazy afternoon. Wait, I can just ask Haruhi over here!

"Hey Haruhi, what happened in class today?" Well I hoped she'd be nice enough to tell me.

"Nothing much. We basically went further in depth with what we learned yesterday, and started linear functions in math" Well I knew what was going on last class and I can do linear functions in my sleep so I think I'm good.

"Thanks Haruhi, you're a lifesaver"

"No problem Diana" She's so nice, maybe I should let her use my nickname. I can talk pretty freely about stuff with her. She hasn't tried to pry even though she heard me screaming in my sleep. She's giving me space, and letting me know what happened. Yeah, she's going to be declared my friend.

"Hey, call me Didi, all my friends do." Will she reject me. Probably not, but I guess when your imagination is far, far, too active, you think anything is possible. Well anything is possible, but what I mean is that the worst case scenario is always possible.

"Cool… Didi. Um, want to hang out together while we wait for the boys to get back?" Heck yeah. I made a new friend. I did a tiny victory dance in my head .

"But of corse darling," I said in a ridiculously over the top french accent. "Would you like to wait on the couch with me and read?" I inched my way over to my bookbag and pulled out the original sad cancer book, AKA The Fault in our Stars.

"I'd be honored" Haruhi answered in a similarly flamboyant british accent. She too pulled out a book and began to read. I couldn't tell what the title was, but judging by the way she got absorbed into it, it was pretty good. Maybe I should ask her for recommendations or something. She seems like someone with a good taste in books.

We sat there and read for a while. Can I just say that I want one of those fancy voice operated blind person video games like in my book. I mean it would be like roleplaying without having to interact with real humans. I wonder if they do stuff like Skyrim or Fallout. That would be uber cool.

I was rudely interrupted when somebody pulled the book out of my hands. To be honest I'm not sure if Tamaki can read english, so I wonder if he's confused. I'll probably get verbal confirmation soon.

"What are you reading?" two voices in unison. Guess it was the twins who grabbed it. I wonder if they speak English. I wonder if anyone but me speaks English. I bet Haruhi speaks English. Why did I just mention English so much? Can I stop saying the word English? "Hello Diana?" Oh yeah, guess I should respond when people talk.

It's called 'The Fault in our Stars' It's an American book by an American author." Bet they'll ask me if i'm obsessed with the USA or something.

"So what, are you obsessed with America or something?" Judging by the snobby tone only Hikaru had asked. I wish he could just try not to sound so fucking obnoxious all the time. Self important pricks really get on my nerves.

"None of your business. Is my uniform ready, I should really try it on and make sure it fits." I hope this uniform doesn't look like crap. I also hope it won't make me look like an attention whore. Who am I kidding, these boys would probably truss me up in nothing but satin ribbons and sell me off like a show pony.