Midoriya absolutely loved the school week. Yes, because everyday he got to work towards his future, and he had no choice but to be the absolute best so he had to work hard, but that wasn't the only reason. He also got to spend a little bit of his day everyday with Todoroki. Whom he undeniably had the biggest crush on in the entire world. The thought of him just made his chest swell with admiration. Just thinking about it right now forced Midoriya to hide his face in his hands at his desk so no one would ask him why he all of a sudden turned the same shade of red as his shoes.

Midoriya couldn't stop his brain from wandering all throughout class to thoughts of the wonderful weekend he had. The past friday he had made plans with Todoroki to work on homework together, which Midoriya knew would just be the two of them sitting quietly side by side working but he was excited nonetheless. What he didn't expect was to end up staying there until the middle of the night watching comedies sitting next to his crush on his crushes bed in his crushes room. The only damper of the night was when he went to leave and of all people Bakugou was right outside the door. Midoriya knew that there was no reason to feel so guilty being caught, they had only watched movies afterall, but there was still a nagging in his brain and a tightness in his chest that made him certain it wasn't good that Bakugou was there.

Yet, here he was Monday morning in class, and he hadn't heard a single rumor or gotten any weird looks. Midoriya wasn't sure he would say he would be nervous if people find out he's gay, because Midoriya wasn't sure he'd call himself gay. All he knew right now was that Todoroki existing made him want to curl up into a ball and scream.

His closest friends were in on his little secret, which was a conversation he won't soon be forgetting. He had felt horrible to learn that Uraraka had liked him when he confessed his crush on Todoroki to her, and it had taken a couple days for things to feel normal between them again but now she was supportive as ever. Iida on the other hand had been so shocked he went off on a rant about how he should have been more observant and should have noticed his friends feelings sooner, with a whole lot of ridiculous arm movements that Midoriya found endearing.

He really felt lucky to have made such good friends at UA. After his study date (As he was absolutely going to call it) he had lunch with his two best friends and told them all about it. There wasn't really much to tell besides the adorably awkward way Todoroki had asked if Midoriya wanted to stay a little longer to watch the movies, and how Midoriya's arm felt like it was on fire whenever it slightly brushed against Todoroki's due to them sitting just oh so close on the bed. He knew he was being a bit dramatic but he couldn't help but feel things to the fullest extent.

Sitting in class this Monday he had to physically stop himself from staring at his crush. Todoroki just looked so stoic, so calm, so elegant in everything he did and it turned Midoriya into an actual puddle of goo. Crushes were distracting, but he was very okay with it.

…

Uraraka knocked her knuckles lightly on Midoriya's desk to get his attention "You ready to go eat?"

He beamed a smile in her direction "Yeah! Sorry, I was just copying down the last notes."

"It's fine!" Uraraka said with a chuckle "Iida is already in the cafeteria getting a table for us."

Midoriya nodded his head and got up from his seat quickly shoving his notebooks into his bag. They walked down to the cafeteria in a comfortable silence, that is until they stepped into the large room.

"Uraraka, do you see who is sitting at our table?" Midoriya asked frozen in his tracks.

"Ha, looks like it's you're new boyfriend." She said as a smile stretched dangerously across her face. Midoriya didn't appreciate the look in his friends eyes one bit.

"Shut up!" He exclaimed, waving his arms around to make her look at him and not at the unaware new table member. "I can't eat next to him! I'm gonna choke and embarrass myself and then I'll die right on the spot!"

Uraraka reached out and grabbed both of Midoriya's arms and held them tight to his sides. "Oh come on! It'll be great! You're always talking about how you wish you could find more ways to spend time with him! Well here is your opportunity, and best part is he took the initiative!"

After getting their food Uraraka was already moving Midoriya towards the table, and there wasn't much he could do to resist it. He really did want to spend more time with Todoroki, he just didn't expect it actually happen. It's one thing to daydream about all the amazing scenarios he could find himself in with that beautiful boy, but that was in his head where everything worked out perfectly and he was always able to form coherent sentences that were actually always interesting. In reality, he was likely going to sit there quietly while Todoroki sits there even more quietly, since that was just the way he was, and Uraraka would probably be tempted to say something super embarrassing, and gosh this was just going to go very very poorly.

Midoriya tried to sit next to Iida, across the table from Todoroki, only to have the seat stolen out from under him by one of his supposedly best friends. She was painfully determined to make this excruciating. He instead stiffly took a seat next to Todoroki keeping his eyes trained to the plate of food in front of him.

"Hello" Todoroki said in a low voice, his eyes also focused on the noodles in front of him.

"Hi!" Midoriya practically squeaked. He could feel his face heat up and he was too nervous to glance over to see if Todoroki had noticed.

He could practically feel Urarakas eyes burning holes into him and he silently prayed she wouldn't say anything.

"So?" Uraraka started "why did you decide to sit with us today?"

Midoriya considered punching himself in the face at full strength just to remove himself from this situation, but he couldn't do that to recovery girl.

"I'm sorry, did you not want me to? I could-"

"No! No, I'm happy you sat with us! I was just curious!" Uraraka interrupted.

"I usually eat by myself but I wanted to eat with my friend."

Midoriya's heart jumped into his throat. He absolutely considered Todoroki as a friend, especially after everything they've all been through, but it still felt wonderful to hear it come out of his mouth.

"You mean Midoriya?"

"Yes." Todoroki gave a small nod.

If Midoriya's cheeks weren't red before, they were now. He glanced to his side to finally look at the boy sitting next to him and almost jumped out of his skin when he realized Todoroki was staring right at him. Two different colored eyes stared at him with such intensity he thought he might suddenly combust.

"Midoriya? Are you okay?" Todoroki asked innocently. Completely unaware of the effect he had on this poor boy.

"Ye-Yes! Why?" Midoriya stuttered out.

"You look feverish all of sudden."

Midoriya let out a quick laugh that sounded more like he was choking which, to his dismay, caused Todoroki to give him a worried glance. Todoroki reached out and placed a warm hand lightly on his back. Midoriya snapped his attention forward trying with all his might to ignore the way the warmth from the hand against his back spread throughout his entire body. Staring back at him were the smug faces of his friends. Even Iida looked like he was enjoying this way too much, very un-Iida of him. He was not surprised by the smile on Urarakas face at all, it was like she thrived on him being embarrassed.

His eyes pleaded for them to start talking, anything to get the attention off of how awkward he was, and they did. Midoriya had never been more thankful. He zoned out for a while not focusing on the conversation manly dominated by Uraraka and Iida. Every now and then Todoroki would respond and his voice would bring Midoriya out of his thoughts just a little. He couldn't believe how nervous he was just from Todoroki calling him his friend and from him just slightly touching him. His face was just starting to heat up again at the thought when he noticed everyone staring at him.

"What?"

"You're so spaced out. Todoroki was just asking you a question." Uraraka said with a giggle.

Midoriya turned his attention to the boy at his side. Were Todorokis cheeks a little pink? Midoriya was instantly concerned his friends said something out of line while he wasn't paying attention.

"I just asked what you were doing this weekend." Todoroki didn't phrase it like a question, or maybe that's just how Todoroki always talked.

"Oh! Uh, I don't think I'm doing anything besides homework."

"Would you like to come watch movies in my room again? We could also do our homework together. It was nice doing it before."

How Todoroki could so openly ask him over again without being embarrassed was beyond Midoriya. He was so excited that his crush just asked him to hang out that it took him a moment before it occurred to him that, oh, Todoroki can ask him so easily because the feelings are one sided. The thought crushed Midoriya so fast he thought he might just dissolve into the seat. He felt like his heart had literally crumbled away and the pieces were slowly falling creating a heavy weight where the organ used to reside. He hoped it didn't show on his face because the last thing he could do is say no to the beautiful boy in front of him.

"Absolutely!" He said as cheerfully as he could muster.

Todoroki gave him a nod before turning back to his food.

…

"What the heck happened at lunch today?" Uraraka asked as she walked back to the dorms with Midoriya and Iida.

"Yes! What did happen? You got sad very suddenly!" Iida exclaimed much more loudly than Midoriya wanted to deal with.

"I had an earth shattering revelation that I'm a giant idiot." Midoriya mumbled. His eyes were trained on his red shoes, the heavy weight was back in his chest. It had been easier to ignore his sadness as he focused on his classes all day, but now it was all he could focus on. He would have a whole week to sulk, and not to mention a not-so-date with Todoroki.

"What are you going on about Deku?" Uraraka asked. He still loved when she called him by his hero name. He loved what that name meant to him now and on another day, any other day, it might be able to make him feel better, but not today.

"There's no way Todoroki sees me as anything but a friend. It's so obvious."

"You have literally no way of knowing that." Uraraka points out.

"Oh come on! You're telling me everyone doesn't feel nervous asking someone they like to hang out? He did it way to nonchalantly. Couldn't you tell just how platonic it was?" Midoriya asks desperately.

"Honestly, not everyone does. You're just a nervous wreck because you're an emotional person, and I'm not saying that's bad it just is." Uraraka insists "And anyway, you can't just decide he wasn't nervous because he didn't look nervous."

Midoriya let out a sigh in response, not really sure if he's up for this conversation.

It was almost easier to think Todoroki didn't like him because he would just keep his feelings to himself. If he were sure about it he could just pretend everything was normal and continue to be friends. With the possibility that Todoroki could like him back it opened the door of possible rejection and heartbreak, but it also allowed the possibility of something wonderful. Midoriya honestly thought both sounded like too much for him to handle. He did not come into UA thinking he would find anything other than a remarkable education. Yet, here he was faced with some very inconvenient feelings. He couldn't help but think of just this morning when everything felt so possible, how did Todoroki have such an effect on him that his whole perspective has shifted.

…

The rest of the week carried on similarly. Classes were, well, classes. He worked as hard as he could and it helped keep his mind focused on something other than his weekend plans, but as Friday crept up on him he felt more and more nervous. By the end of classes Friday he considered cancelling his plans with Todoroki. But what would he say? He wasn't good enough at lying to make it believable, and Todoroki was too blunt to not ask about whatever excuse Midoriya gave.

Midoriya was still trying to understand his elusive crush. Todoroki was a hard person to read with his constant expression of indifference. Except for the few instances he saw Todoroki angry he had to really search for signs of how the other boy was feeling. For instance, that past weekend on their first (what Midoriya was now not sure he'd call a) date Todoroki wouldn't look him in the eye while he asked Midoriya to stay and watch movies. He could only assume that meant he was nervous to ask him. He could be wrong, and it didn't necessarily mean anything, but it was different than Todorokis normal behavior.

Once Midoriya was in the privacy of his own room he let his body collapse onto his bed. He just wanted to let it swallow him up and spit him back out right before class on Monday. He could just feel that this would be a long weekend.

Before he could spend too much time feeling sorry for himself his phone vibrated once. Twice. Three times.

Todoroki~

I'm in my room.

Todoroki~

I won't start my homework until you get up here.

Todoroki~

So whenever you're ready come up.

Midoiyas heart pounded in his chest as he prayed to whatever heavenly being that existed in this world that he would have the strength to get through this without embarrassing himself, or acting like a lovestruck dweeb. Which, he figured would most likely be the main cause of his embarrassment.

With all the courage he could muster he pulled his body off of his bed, slung his book bag back on his shoulder, and took a step into the hallway. By the time he got to Todoroki's door he had to will his hands to stop shaking before he could knock. He would just blame it on all the trauma his arms have gotten since the start of the school year if Todoroki noticed, but he would prefer not to lie since he was just seriously so bad at it. So he took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

It only took a few seconds for it to open to reveal Todoroki, and were Midoriya's eyes deceiving him? Was Todoroki actually smiling? Well it was a slight up turn of the corner of one side of his mouth but that was different and it made Midoriya's heart skip a beat.

"Hey" Midoriya said quietly. Much more quietly than he had intended.

Todoroki stepped aside to allow room for Midoriya to come in. Which he did so immediately. Midoriya took in the sight of the Japanese styled room. He'd only seen it a couple times before and really thought it was awesome. The low desk Todoroki usually had against the wall was now pulled into the middle of the room with his homework already on top of it, but not started like he said it wouldn't be. Midoriya thought the gesture of pulling the desk out so they could both sit on the floor and use it was endearing, even tho he knew that it made the most sense and his feelings were totally silly. He kneeled on one side of the desk pulling his books out of bag and placing them on top of it. Todoroki sat across from him and flipped his books open.

…

It was a while before they finished all the work they had. Midoriya would have much preferred to split the work up over all the days they had off, but Todoroki had insisted that they do it all then and get it out of the way. The sun was completely set by now, and in fact he had watched it lower slowly while he worked. And maybe, just maybe, he watched how beautifully the light hit Todoroki's white hair and glistened on his pale skin making him look like an actual angel.

Now he found himself again sitting on the bed next to Todoroki with a laptop in front of them. This time he made sure to take a seat first, giving Todoroki the chance to sit at a comfortably distance. He didn't want to get into his space and have it be unwanted. It wouldn't make it any easier to hide his crush if he did. But to his utter disbelief Todoroki sat just as close as last time. Maybe even closer. Last time there arms would lightly brush every now and then, but now they were pressed more firmly together. Maybe Midoriya was just imagining the change because he wanted on to be there. As far as changes go it was harder to ignore the fact that this time Todoroki also turned the lights off, had snacks ready, and got a cozy blanket to put on both of their laps. Thankfully Midoriya was pressed against Todoroki's cold side. Mostly likely intentional to balance the warmth of the blanket.

Midoriya was trying very hard to focus on the movie in front of him. It was proving to be nearly impossible though because Todorokis fingers kept bumping into his leg, and with every little movement he felt his chest get a little tighter. Midoriya had made a real effort to keep his hands clasped in his lap while retaining any semblance of a calm, relaxed, not internally freaking out, person. Todoroki on the other hand had his arms relaxed with his hands at his sides under the blanket with a random twitch every now and then causing Midoriya to think he might just die. I mean he just kept nudging Midoriya and Midoriya was finding it increasingly harder to fight the urge to just reach out and intertwine their fingers.

He was definitely getting date vibes, but was he just being self indulgent? Letting himself believe something was happening when it really wasn't? As if to tell him to shut his brain up and just enjoy the movie he felt another nudge against his leg.

He tried to let out a quiet sigh to calm his nerves. Forcing his shoulders to relax he slouched against the wall a little more, and maybe pressed a little more into Todoroki's side. He almost couldn't believe it when Todoroki mimicked the action and snuggled, yes, snuggled, into the green haired boys side. The only reason he did believe it actually happened is because there was no was he could even imagine the feeling in his stomach right now. He tried to look out the corner of his eyes to read Todoroki's expression. He couldn't really tell what he was thinking, but he couldn't turn his eyes away. Todoroki just looked so serene with the artificial light washing over his face. Maybe this was different too. Todoroki always looked calm, but this was softer, maybe even vulnerable, but Midoriya wasn't sure about that. He would have stared forever but he was forced to stop when Todoroki suddenly, but slowly, laid his head down on his shoulder. Midoriya didn't think he's ever blushed harder in his life and thanked the universe for Todoroki turning the lights off. He could hardly processing what was happening and just hoped it would last. The movie wasn't even halfway done and he couldn't imagine anything better than this. That is until he felt Todorokis cold hand slip gently, maybe cautiously, onto his leg. Just resting it on his thigh, but my god did that make Midoriya feel things. He took back every time he said he thought he would die on the spot because never had his heart tried to burst out of his chest quite just like it did now.

…

Bakugo didn't want to see Kirishima at dinner. Bakugo didn't want to see anyone ever again as long as he lived. He found himself absolutely drained, just like he had been after his last visit with the school therapist. This time, however, had been different. The advice she gave him wouldn't leave his head especially after seeing Kirishima in the common space. The second he laid his eyes on that ridiculous red hair he felt all the stress leave his body, and yeah he had been annoyed when Kirishima asked how therapy went but he would be a fucking liar if he didn't admit it also made him incredibly relieved to know Kirishima cared. Especially after the silence on their weird last weekend all fucking week. As soon as Kirishima asked if he'd see dinner him at dinner he knew he was fucked. And that was solely because of the god damn look on Kirishima's face. That stupid fucking smile, and those big dumb expectant eyes. He was just so totally fucked.

Bakugo was completely content acting like the only thing he felt was anger, but that smile had him running what what's-her-face said through his head over and over like a broken record.

Sometimes when we can't decide how to feel about something it's because our mind is fighting against what we actually want and what we think we're supposed to want

What did Bakugo want? What did he think he wanted? He thought his head might explode just trying to figure it out.

…

To Bakugo's disgust he found Kirishima already seated with Kaminari and Sero. Who he really didn't hate. He didn't like them, but their presence had stopped making him furious eventually and now he could tolerate them. On another day he wouldn't have really cared about them being there but no part of him was up for it tonight. They just didn't hesitate to push his buttons and he was already set to blow. He reluctantly took a seat next to his pointy toothed friend. He tried to keep his eyes low trying to stay out no

of whatever dumb thing they were talking about.

He did risk a glance at everyone's food and was relieved to see that the other two boys had near empty plates. Kirishima's looked as if he'd just gotten his food.

"Took you long enough Blasty." Kaminari said in a way too annoying voice.

"Shut the fuck up." Was all Bakugo could muster. All bark and no bite, he knew it and they knew it.

"I wasn't sure you'd come down!" Kirishima exclaimed with a big smile. He always had a fucking smile.

"I said I would see you at dinner, didn't I Shitty hair?"

"Well, yeah! But-"

"But, nothing. I always do what I say I'll do."

He refused to look at the boy next to him. Eyes focused on the curry in front of him, carefully shoveling just enough into his mouth to avoid speaking. He could hear a quiet chuckle come from beside him.

"Well me and Sero are gonna dip. We were just waiting with Kiri since he refused to start eating without you." Kaminari said casually

as he stood from the table grabbing his tray.

Bakugo tried, and Succeeded, to hold in his confused expression. With a neutral face he glanced at the boy next to him and watched the pink dance across Kirishima's cheeks.

Once Sero and Kaminari left he grew the courage to ask, "why were you waiting for me?"

Kirishima looked shocked by the question "I wanted to make sure you actually came down."

"but why?"

"I just wanted to make sure you ate"

Bakugo let out a grunt, while not satisfied by the answer he could tell he wasn't going to get anything better.

Both of them ate their food in silence and Bakugo wasn't too sure if it was the comfortable kind. Something seemed off tonight and it was making him anxious.

"Are you uh," he cleared his throat "Are you alright? You're being abnormally quiet shitty hair."

"Yeah! I'm just tired." Kirishima said a little too casually

"Right. Then you shouldn't have fucking waited for me."

Kirishima frowned at that and Bakugo didn't like the look of it on his usually bright face. Even more so he didn't like that he just caused it.

"I was just being nice."

"I didn't ask you to be"

"That's just what friends do Bakugo."

He could hear anger in Kirishima voice but he just couldn't stop himself.

"Yeah, well, I didn't ask you to be my friend either." Bakugo bit his lip as he stared at the food in front of him. He knew he was being an ass for no reason and he knew Kirishima didn't deserve it.

Kirishima didn't say anything else. He got up grabbed his tray and stormed out of the cafeteria.

Bakugo cursed himself under his breath. He didn't mean to be such a prick all the time and he knew it was only a matter of time until Kirishima got sick of him. Someone can only put up with a jackass like himself for so long. He didn't have much of an appetite anymore and decided he'd just go back to his room.

On the walk back to his dorm room he couldn't help but wonder if maybe he was being a dick because of what the therapist said. He didn't want to wear himself out thinking about it too much but he had definitely been weird with Kirishima lately and he can only ignore it for so long. He knew Kirishima would tell him it wasn't manly to ignore your own feelings but feelings just weren't Bakugos thing. What the hell was Bakugo feeling anyway? He knew he liked spending time with Kirishima more than anyone else he was forced to be around, and maybe having Kirishima around made him feel just a little bit better about everything that has been bothering him, and he definitely felt like a piece of shit for upsetting him just before.

Bakugo found himself standing in front of his neighbors door and even though every part of him screamed to just turn away and go to the solitude of his own room he still stood there. With some self reassurance that he was a little bitch, and that he could definitely have a normal conversation without biting someone's head off, he reached out and knocked hard on Kirishima's door.

Kirishima opened the door with his usual stupid grin, but as soon as he saw Bakugo it fell into a small frown, and Jesus fucking christ Bakugo's stomach fell with it.

"I didn't mean to be a dick." Bakugo blurted out. Which to his delight caused the corner of Kirishima's mouth to turn upwards just a little.

Bakugo wondered for a second when he got so used to reading Kirishima's face like that.

"Are you trying to apologize?"

Bakugo rolled his eyes "Fuck off"

"You are!" Kirishima had his usual smile back, sharp teeth on display, and Bakugo felt a little better.

"I just didn't want you being all moody"

"So you care about my feelings blasty?"

"Fuck you no"

"Like a proper best friend"

"Shut the fuck up Kiri"

Kirishima's mouth opened, and closed, and opened again.

"You look like a fish, why are you looking at me like that?"

"You just called me Kiri!"

Bakugos eyes widened, face going warm "No I didn't"

"You just used a nickname! Since when did you go soft on me?" Kirishima was practically beaming now and Bakugo imagined himself burning up from the sight of it.

Bakugo didn't know what to say. His face still felt incredibly warm and he knew he had to be blushing. All he could muster through his embarrassment was a small grunt.

"You're forgiven Best Friend."

Bakugo felt like Kirishima was really trying to kill him. He quickly turned away and started walking to his door, but Kirishima reached out and grabbed his wrist. The sudden touch sent fire up Bakugos arm.

"Hey, wait, let's hang out!"

Keeping his head turned away to hide his ever growing blush Bakugo mumbled out "Okay, fine."

AN

Rviews give me life! Also this chaptyer got cut in half so the story may end up a little longer than I was expecting!