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Once to Live
Chapter 4-
Muffy's quivering hands held onto the letter, squeezing it protectively against her chest as tears flooded from her eyes. I love you. I love you so much. You don't know how much I love you, the letter had read. But Muffy did understand. If he had loved her anywhere near as much as she loved him, she understood all too well.
Sometimes, this love would lock onto your every being, and make you feel like you were floating on air. But other times, the times Muffy had spent the last four years feeling, was the feeling of suffocation. Like you were drowning and there was no escape. A love that makes your heart clench and makes it so hard to breathe that you can't help but believe that your near death. It was a blissful love, a painful love.
Rubbing her face with her sleeve, she moved to the thin velvet box, opening it carefully. She broke out in laughter, between her long helpless sobs, at what she saw. It was a simple silver chain, but connected to the end was a large seashell, one side cracked. It was the seashell.
"Why can't you understand?!" The young blonde haired girl yelled over the rain that pounded down on her back heavily.
"Muffy! Come back to the bar, your going to freeze to death in this kind of rain!" Called back an older man, who was only in his early thirties, yet gray already was beginning to touch the sides of his brown hair.
"I don't care!"
"Well. I do." He began to walk over to her slowly.
"Stop! Don't touch me! Don't. Please. Don't." She fell to her knees in the wet sand, her tears hidden in the rain.
"Muffy, your being ridiculous. Just come back with me."
"I love you! Griffin! I love you. Stop acting like you don't know. I love you!" How many times had she said those words to others? It was more than she could count, but she had never felt this way before when she'd spoken them. She truly loved Griffin.
"Muffy... your confused. Just come back to the bar and we'll talk there."
"I'm not! I'm not confused!" Muffy jumped to her feet, grabbing a large seashell that sit nearby. "Idiot!" She chucked the seashell, her aim better than she expected. It nailed the side of his head, and he watched stunned as she ran off.
It had been a long time since then, so much more had happened. So much more could have happened. Sometimes, Muffy looked back and regretted everything. If she had not fallen in love with Griffin, perhaps she could be happy now. Perhaps she wouldn't spend her nights drowning herself in her own tears. But she didn't, she really didn't regret it. She had loved every moment. The happy, the angry, the sad. What she regretted was her own ability, or more appropriately, her inability. Her inability to move on.
He had known. Griffin had known that when he died, which they were all aware would most likely happen, that Muffy wouldn't be able to continue on like normal. This thought made Muffy smile slightly, something that rarely ever came across her face anymore. Griffin had worried about her, in his time of crisis, he had worried what would happen to her afterwards.
Strapping the necklace around her neck, Muffy decided. She was done crying. She was done pitying herself. She would laugh again, she would smile. She would again become the women Griffin had fallen in love with. No matter how long it took. Maybe she couldn't rewind time, or change the past, but she could change herself, change the future.
Oh my goodness, I feel like a total cheese ball. This chapter just screams it. Its been forever since I wrote this story so I was having a hard time trying to get back into the feel and style of the story and it ended out really cheezzzey. So forgive me. And plus I used a flashback, and I HATE flashbacks.