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Chapter 4: Enter...Sailor Pluto! WTF?
For the second day in a row Will got up to start the day much earlier than she liked. Of course she laid in bed for almost an hour before forcing herself to climb out while debating if she should even bother. It wasn't as if they stupid bible banging group would accept her anyways, so why bother even trying? Why keep her word to a girl that at the moment the redhead was seriously debating if she should trust or not. Trust was just something Will didn't have much left to give, if she had any left at all. The nightmare that had been the last few years had stolen about every ounce of trust Will once had for people.
After getting ready for school Will went out to the kitchen to see about getting a pop-tart before leaving, but ran into her mother who was sitting at the table. Susan had seemed to be in a bad mood the night before and barely said anything to Will during dinner before the older woman retreated to her bedroom and slammed the door shut.
"Where are you going?" Susan asked, a little angry as she looked sadly at Will.
"If it's any of your fucking business, I promised someone yesterday that I would try going to their club twice a week in the mornings before school." Will snapped before she could help herself. Whenever her mother challenged her anymore it was hard to keep from lashing out at the older woman.
"What kind of club?" Susan asked skeptically.
"It's...a...youth group sponsored by one of the kid's dad who is a pastor." Will said, trying to keep from realizing how weak and stupid that excuse sounded despite it being the truth.
"Well, then if I drive you on my way to my interview for another job you won't be late if you stay for breakfast." Susan said as she got up from the table and went to the fridge and opened it up. "Would you like eggs and toast or some pancakes? Or how about some waffles?"
"Your serious?" Will asked in shock as she stared at her mother. The anger was still there with the older woman and it took a few moments for Will to realize what was going on. Susan was making sure that she went to school and not somewhere else. There was a split down the young girl's being as anger warred with shock as she tried to decide if it was good that her mother was doing this and not sucking on a bottle of beer or if she should be pissed at Susan's lack of trust and plans to take her to school.
"I'll make some eggs and there's some bacon left I can make." Susan said, "Can you make us both some toast?"
"Sure, I guess." Will said as she moved to help prepare their breakfast. The atmosphere was filled with tension as the two barely spoke after that until they were both sitting at the table eating.
"I'm sorry, I'm just having a hard time believing you are voluntarily joining a group full of...well..." Susan said, as she played with her plate of eggs while staring intently at Will.
"Bible bangers?" Will offered.
"I was looking for something a little nicer, but yes. And honestly...I'm not too sure I like the idea of you being a part of that." Susan sighed making Will look at the woman in shock. Right here was her chance, a way out of the crap Taranee backed her into and yet...Will wasn't taking it. Why the hell wasn't she taking it?
"Why not? Rather me be out trying to get high?" Will asked sadly as she took a large swig of orange juice. Well, orange drink as actual orange juice was just too expensive.
"No, but I don't think I want you joining a cult. A cult can be just as bad." Susan said rubbing her temples. "Will, I don't want you getting hurt."
"Why do you give a shit all of a sudden?" Will asked as she glared at the woman while a part of the redhead was shocked and...happy that her mother said that. So why couldn't she tell Susan that instead of verbally attacking her?
"I always cared about what happens to you." Susan sighed, "I may not have...showed it very well...not since...just forget it. Let's just finish up and get going."
Will couldn't help sighing as she was hoping that Susan would say it, say that the reason she cared was because she loved Will. She didn't, Will could tell how disappointed and disgusted the woman was with not only Will's choices, but the redhead herself. It was enough to make her cry, but she was strong, she had to be.
"Hey Will, I wasn't sure if you were going to make it." Taranee called out as soon as Will forced herself to walk into the meeting room that the school let them use for these meetings.
"Yeah, I almost didn't bother." Will sighed, feeling heavy from the morning turning crappy with the tension between Susan and herself. She really didn't feel up to formally meeting this whole group of Jesus freaks today, but she didn't have a choice. She kept reminding herself that this wasn't by her choice.
"Well your here so come have a seat." Hay Lin chirped indicating the desk next to her that was empty between Irma and Hay Lin. All of the desks in the room was in a small circle with other desks pushed back against the walls.
"Glad you could make it." A large dark skinned boy said. Looking in the boys eyes Will could see traces of self-doubt along with a lot of warmth and kindness. It was something she wasn't used to seeing in the eyes belonging to a guy. She couldn't help but give the boy a smile before turning to another boy sitting next to him with a look of lust in his eyes as he looked her up and down. His eyes was what she was used to seeing in most men she met which made her frown slightly.
"You already know the girls, so why don't you boys introduce yourself?" Irma said almost lazily. "Hopefully her majesty and Caleb will be here by then."
"Well I'm Martin, the schools heartthrob and Irma's future husband." Martin said giving a grin which Irma snorted at.
"Please, I'd rather marry a dog." Irma scoffed making everyone laugh except Will who was a little shocked to see Christians acting like this as well as Martin himself who looked a little embarrassed.
"Hey girl, name's Tim. If you need any help with school stuff I'm more than happy to help you." Tim said.
"And I'm Caleb and this is my girlfriend Cornelia." Caleb said coming into the room making Will's eyes nearly turn into little hearts seeing the man of her dreams that she saw in the lunch line standing there. Her world came crashing down though when she realized what he said and how Cornelia went on about her supposed boyfriend. The world wasn't fair that those two were together...then again she knew someone like that would never care for her. Well, he would while they were together, after all that's all guys really cared about. A lesson she learned the hard way a long time ago, and no amount of wishing otherwise would change things for her. "Anyways Will, we all talked last night and we came to a decision. No matter what you do, no matter how you may mess up."
"No matter how rude or crude you may act at times." Hay Lin continued.
"No matter how much you try and push us away." Irma said.
"We will be there for you with open arms." Taranee said.
"And we won't give up on you. Face it girl, your stuck with us now." Tim said with that friendly smile as he looked at Will a little shyly, though with determination. Will shook her head in annoyance as she didn't want to be some religious group's little pet project.
"And what if I didn't want you to?" Will asked as Caleb and Cornelia took seats next to each other, holding hands which Will couldn't help glaring at while Cornelia looked at the redhead in confusion for a few moments before her blue eyes widened in realization then settled on a spiteful glare.
"Tough, you are our friend now and we don't abandon our friends...ever." Caleb said with gentleness, yet with conviction. "Also, I have some news about the retirement home. We won't be able to go until possibly Saturday because of some stuff that they are doing Friday."
"That's good news though because Friday night my dad got the empty warehouse again on Jefferson. We're be throwing a rave Friday if we can get everything put together for it in time. It will be a lot of work, but I think we can do it."
"I can go set up my equipment there tonight and DJ it." Tim said as he looked at the group, but Will could see a sadness in his eyes which. For some reason it was bothering Will, though she was shocked that they would be planning a rave.
"Are you serious?" Will asked in surprise. "You, a bunch of Jesus freaks, are throwing a rave. You do know what a rave is, don't you?"
"Of course we know what a rave is." Martin said grinning at Will, "If Irma doesn't mind I might even save a few dances for you."
"She can have all the dances you little deviant." Irma said making everyone laugh while Martin and Will both blushed. Martin seemed like a nice enough guy, but he seemed to have a perverted side that he didn't seem to mind showing unlike what most guys in Will's experience showed.
"Thank you, but I think I'll pass." Will said nervously while looking at the depressed look on the boys face. "Okay, maybe one dance."
"You won't regret it!" Martin said happily.
"You don't know what your getting into, Will." Irma laughed while shaking her head.
"One dance can't hurt, and besides he is kind of cute." Will whispered back. Still, no matter how cute he was she didn't plan on sleeping with him. She knew it would be the only way for him to care for her really, though she knew it wouldn't last. She may have entertained the notion of love, but the only real love she believed in was family love...and that wasn't something she knew much about. The only thing between two people was lust, love between a man and a woman was a joke and the only way a man would care for a woman was if they gave them what men wanted. It was something Will hated, but it was a truth she learned over and over again.
"Anyways, any volunteers on decorations or advertising?" Caleb asked.
"Irma and me can work on decorations." Hay Lin said happily.
"I guess, I'm not really busy except for the meeting tonight." Irma said as she smiled at Will. "Care to help?"
"Sorry, I have some stuff I have to do." Will said, which she really did. She had to decide on classes and she wasn't sure about what was happening at home.
"It's okay Will, this isn't something that was planned in advance and if you can't do anything, then at least come to it." Caleb said smiling at Will making the redhead smile a little shyly in return making Will curse herself. Of course the boy was hot, and if there was anyone here she wanted to actually do anything with it was him, but she was confused about it. She hated doing it for the most part, of course it could feel good but it always left her feeling...dirty afterward. The money she was usually paid didn't help that feeling any either. And yet a part of her wanted to do that with this boy, wanted to be with him and held by him and actually told that she was loved by him.
"I can make flyers during lunch or my free period." Martin said, "Can anyone help pass them around?"
"We can pass some around this afternoon." Cornelia said.
"Give me some to." Taranee said.
"I might be able to get my brother to play a little maybe if Tim needs a break." Elyon suggested.
"Okay, what else do we need?" Caleb asked.
"Food. Don't worry, I can handle most of that." Cornelia said.
"I can help to." Elyon suggested.
"I don't know...you two aren't going to bring caviar this time are you?" Irma asked as a couple of the others looked sick at the mention of that while Will blinked a few times. The two girls wore stuff that Will knew was very expensive, but were their families that rich?
"I told you that was an accident." Cornelia said blushing.
"We brought the wrong boxes, that stuff was supposed to go to our parents dinner party." Elyon said as Cornelia giggled.
"I still would have loved to have seen their faces when Doritos and dip was delivered to them." Cornelia said. Will couldn't help laugh a little at the image in her head of a room full of snooty people looking blankly at chips and dip trying to figure out what it was.
"Okay, so we should be set for the rave." Caleb said as he checked hi watch. "I'm sorry we were late, looks like we better pray and then head to class. Would you like to start Will?"
"No thanks...I...I'd like to see how you do it." Will sighed, refusing to admit she really didn't know how to pray.
The whole prayer experience was a little weird, but Will couldn't deny feeling a warmth that spread through her as a peace settled down around her. It felt...good. Now though she had to go drop off her homework and tell Mrs. Knickerbocker that she was still thinking about classes and ask for the weekend to make sure that she had time to decide.
"Go on in honey, she's expecting you." A young woman in the office said smiling to Will as the redhead entered the office.
"Thank you." Will said as she pushed her way into the office where Mrs. Knickerbocker sat behind her desk with a woman with long...green hair...and red eyes sitting on the opposite side of the desk.
"Good morning Will." Mrs. Knickerbocker said waving at the empty chair next to the woman that unnerved the redhead a little.
"So your Wilhelmina Vandom?" The green haired woman asked, smiling gently at Will.
"Please, just Will." Will said as she sat down and pulled out the little card and sat it on the desk while unable to pull her eyes from this woman. Seriously, was her eyes really red or was she going crazy.
"They're contacts." The woman giggled as she took one out and showed a blue eye making Will sigh. She wasn't sure why, but the red eyes were a little scary.
"I've been telling Mrs. Meiou that not everyone will understand the whole contacts and hair dye thing." Mrs. Knickerbocker said making Will wonder just where she heard that name before.
"My name really is Setsuna Meiou, and since so many kinds seem to like anime I decided to dye my hair and wear contacts to look like a character that shares my name. It helps put a lot of children into a more relaxed state so they will more easily open up to me.
"Sailor Pluto!" Will snapped pointing at the woman who giggled at the shocked accusation from the redhead.
"I'm not really Sailor Pluto, but yes we share the same name and I figured it would help." Setsuna explained making Will shake her head as she dropped her hand. She wasn't sure if she should laugh or feel wary around the woman. "Anyways, I'm the school counselor and I wanted to meet you. I was hoping that maybe we could talk some later today."
"It isn't mandatory Will, but I would really like for you to see her." Mrs. Knickerbocker said.
"Okay...I'll see her if you give me until Monday to choose my extra classes." Will said as she looked warily at Setsuna. "And are you sure she's an actual counselor?"
"Hey! Just because I like to dress up doesn't mean I'm not good at what I do." Setsuna said in mock hurt, a smile tugging at her lips.
"Anything you say Puu." Will said, unable to stop herself from smiling at the woman.
"Okay, but Mrs. Meiou will also help you find a program for you sign up for since you are reaching the deadline for it." Mrs. Knickerbocker said as she reached into her desk and pulled out a plastic wrapped cup. "Which reminds me, here."
"What's this for?" Will asked curiously as she looked at the cup.
"Take it to the nurses office and tell them who you are and that you are their for the random drug test." Mrs. Knickerbocker said making Will sigh. She forgot all about that crap and was kind of hoping she wouldn't have to deal with it. "Don't worry, there's a small bathroom there you can do it at so you will have privacy."
"And to make sure someone else doesn't do it for me?" Will asked as she gave the older woman a knowing look.
"Well, that to." Mrs. Knickerbocker said.
"I'll see you after lunch, Will." Setsuna said as she got up and helped Will up as well.
"I guess." Will sighed again as she turned to head out to the nurse's office.
The rest of the morning was spent in relative peace except for chatting with Irma and Hay Lin who were excited about the Rave. Will had to admit that she was a little excited about it as well as it had been forever since she went to a good party, but did she really want to go? On one hand if it was like other raves that Will had been to there would be drugs and alcohol and expectations to do things Will didn't think she wanted to do...unless it was with a certain person who was seeing an annoying blonde. Then again, this was a rave thrown by Christians so it was sure to be boring and lame.
"Are you coming?" Hay Lin asked as the last class ended, Mr. Collins sitting at the desk looking over his own tablet.
"I'll meet you guys later." Will said as she waited for them to leave. She wanted to ask Mr. Collins something that had been bothering her.
"Can I help you Will?" Mr. Collins asked as everyone filtered from the room leaving only Will standing in front of the teacher's deck with the man sitting behind it, sitting his tablet down.
"I...I need to know something." Will said softly, a little scared of the answer that this man could give.
"What is it Will?" Mr. Collins asked as the redhead fidgeted a little, biting her lip anxiously.
"I want to know why...why didn't you really want to do anything? Was it because Mrs. Knickerbocker was there? Or do I disgust you that much?" Will asked, hating the way it was making her feel. She didn't want to do it with him, but she couldn't help feeling the sting in her eyes at the thought of being that disgusting.
"I'm going to be completely honest...and direst here, Will. No, to be honest I find you very attractive Will. Does that mean I want to have sex with you? No, because there are so many reasons why it would be wrong to do so." Mr. Collins said rubbing his forehead as he thought about how to put it.
"So you do want..." Will started before she was cut off.
"No, Will, I don't want to at all. You are a very beautiful young lady, but you are my student. You are also a lot younger than me and I can't help but see you as a student, a daughter. I see all my students as my children and I love all of you as such." Mr. Collins said as he got up and came around the desk to hug Will and push her back at arms length, hands resting gently on her shoulders.
"But you're a man...the only reason a man would love a woman is...if...only reason you would care about me is if I gave myself to you." Will said softly. "Love is a joke between a man and a woman, there's only...lust."
"I don't know who told you that, who taught you that, but it's wrong. There is love between men and women, between father and daughter, between brother and sister and between teacher and student. All of those relationships can involve love without sex. Love and sex are two different things just as making love and having sex are two different things." Mr. Collins said as he took a step back releasing Will.
"They aren't though...all of it is the same thing...lust. Lust is the only thing that can ever be between a man and woman. Lust is the only thing that can ever be between a man and a woman." Will said ignoring the burning streaks leaking down her cheeks.
"No Will, it isn't. I do care for you, love you even as a student and a daughter and I will do anything to protect and help you as I would all of my students. What you are talking about Will...it's...it sounds like someone used it to hurt you. Will, you need to tell me if someone is hurting you." Mr. Collins said with worry.
"Not for awhile." Will sighed, "Not since Justin was arrested."
"Justin...you aren't telling me that..." Mr. Collins said sadly as he looked at Will in realization.
"Disgusted yet?" Will asked in a choked sob as she glared up at the man through her tears. She was shocked to be pulled into the mans arms as he held her tight, feeling little splashes on her head as he whispered to her.
"You poor child."
Will let the man hold her for a few minutes before pulling away and hurrying from the room.
Will found herself skipping lunch after her uncomfortable conversation with Mr. Collins, feeling shaken up as she hid in an empty classroom waiting for the bell to ring signaling the end of lunch. She was regretting not getting lunch by then though and since she put in the money Mr. Lair had given her, she didn't have money to buy a snack. So now she had to decide what to do as she didn't feel like sitting in the cafeteria and she didn't know if Martin as going to be in the media center working on fliers. Of course she also had an appointment to keep with the counselor who seemed...a little weird. Smiling a little Will had to admit that at least it was a good kind of weird.
"Why not." Will said to herself as she headed to the counselor office.
"Come in." Setsuna called just as Will raised her fist to knock on the door making her stop in surprise. Just how did the woman know she was out here. Pushing the door open Will saw the inside of an office just like the outer office of the principal office. There were only one desk, filing cabinets that Will had suspected was mostly empty, and two doors with one marked restroom and the other marked counselor. Like the other office though there weren't people rushing back and forth working, only Setsuna sitting at a chair behind the desk looking a little lazy.
"Am I early?" Will asked as the woman stood up, giving Will what the redhead thought was a reassuring smile.
"Not at all, Will. Please come this way." Setsuna said as she gracefully stood from where she was sitting and led the way to the office marked counselor. As the woman let Will inside the inner office, Setsuna closed it as she followed and hit a button on a strange machine on a little table near the door. "White noise machine so no one outside hears what we talk about. Please, have a seat."
"I was kind of expecting a couch." Will said softly, a little nervous as she had no idea what to expect as she sat down, seeing two trays of food with plastic over them making her mouth water a little.
"Since you skipped lunch, I brought you some stuff. I wasn't sure what you like so I got some different stuff together so eat whatever you like." Setsuna said as she took her seat behind the desk while grinning at Will before continuing. "As for the couch, it's on back order."
"I don't have the money to pay for this stuff." Will said as she fought off the urge to reach out and grab the food before her.
"You won't pay me back, I don't want you to. As for the food, you will eat it. You should not be skipping meals." Setsuna said before saying sternly. "Now eat."
"Yes Ma'am." Will gulped as the woman's mood seemed to change so quickly. Reaching out and pulling off the plastic Will took a bite of a taco while the older woman looked pleased and clapped her hands together under her chin.
"Good girl, now don't let me see you skipping lunch again." Setsuna said happily making Will wonder if this woman was really a counselor or a patient. "After you finish, we can have a little chat. I'd love to get to know you better."
The session with Setsuna was really weird to say the least, and Will couldn't believe that she told the woman as much stuff as she did. Despite Setsuna's weird personality, Will had to admit that she liked the woman and there was just something about her that made Will trust the older woman. What was even more surprising was that she spent most of the afternoon with Setsuna after the session just talking about everything from the weather to the school and even about the kinds of things Will liked. Seeing Caleb walking her way though, surprised her as she didn't see Cornelia anywhere.
"Hey Will, what's up?" Caleb asked as he stopped to talk to her.
"I was heading to the office to pick something up before leaving." Will said as she ignored the other students milling about around her before she got an idea. It was kind of a mean thing to do she admitted to herself, but she didn't really like Cornelia and she doubted the blonde liked her. "Are you any good with math, Caleb?"
"Yeah, I'm in honors classes actually." Caleb said as she smiled a little proudly at that.
"That's great, I need help with my assignment tonight. Can you please tutor me a little before the group thing tonight?" Will asked as she gave Caleb her best smile which seemed to make the boy a little uncomfortable.
"I don't know." Caleb sighed, "I kind of had plans with Cornelia."
"That's fine, I just thought you really meant it when you said if I needed help with anything at all to come to you guys." Will said sadly as she turned away from him, grinning when he put his hand on her shoulder stopping her.
"I'll help you, but you better be serious about needing help." Caleb sighed, shaking his head. "Where do you live?" Caleb's jaw hung open as Will told him how to get to her house. "Y-You live in that area? That's the worst neighborhood in Heatherfield."
"Gee, thanks a lot." Will sighed as her shoulder slumped. It really stung that he outright told her that in that way. She wasn't sure why it hurt so much, usually if someone said something like that to her she would just tell them to fuck off. Damned this asshole for making her feel like this, she didn't know what to think about him as a part of her felt like she was going crazy being around him. She usually kind of hated most guys as knew what the wanted, but this one made her feel thing she didn't want to feel. For the first time she wanted to actually be held by a guy, but when she thought about it it made her feel safe and warm instead of revulsion. In fact she wanted to be with him, something she only did either because she was forced to or she needed to.
"I didn't mean anything, I'm sorry. Look, I'll meet you there as soon as I can and I'll give you a ride to the church." Caleb sighed in defeat, though now Will wasn't feeling as excited as she thought she would be.
Will couldn't help feeling as if this was a bad idea despite the excitement feeling her. She kept reminding herself that she was doing this to prove Mr. Collins wrong and there was no such thing as love, only lust. She knew Cornelia and Caleb hadn't done anything, the blonde was too straight-laced and would never do anything like that as the Christian thing to do would be waiting until they were married. Poor Caleb must be starving for this kind of affection and if Cornelia wouldn't give it to him, Will would. Why was she feeling so guilty about it though?
"Don't look at me like that!" Will snapped at the redhead in the mirror looking back at her. She had some make-up she stole from her mother's room including ruby red lipstick to make sure Caleb would look at her lips and think about them. Make him want to kiss them. She was wearing a tight, stretch top that showed every single curve of her body. Even with the crack in the mirror on the back of the dresser, she could still see her reflection, though it didn't show the tight mini skirt that was too small for her and threatened to ride up too far with every single movement that she made. Her black lace stockings covered her legs giving her a little warmth in the house that was feeling chilly enough to make her nipples even more pronounced through her top since she was going without a bra. This is the type of outfit she hadn't worn for awhile and knew that guys loved it as it showed off her body without hiding much while at the same time covered everything.
"Maybe this is a bad idea." Will sighed as she hugged herself and turned away from the mirror. What would she do if Caleb did take her up on her offer? They would have what, a night or two together? Maybe even a few weeks? He would get tired of her soon enough and move on to another girl if Cornelia didn't dump him. Was alienating everyone worth it? Was proving that Mr. Collins worth destroying the friendships she had made here, even if she didn't exactly trust them? The knock at the front door broke her from her chain of thoughts and forced her to make a decision as she took a deep breath before going to answer the door.
"Will...what are you wearing?" Caleb asked as he looked her up and down which sent a thrill through the redhead as well as a jolt of disappointment.
"This, it's something I've had for awhile." Will said as she closed the door and leaned back against it. "Don't you like it?"
"It's nice, but a little...a lot...I'm not sure if it's appropriate for tonight." Caleb said, swallowing nervously.
"Well, we should get started, come on." Will said grabbing Caleb's hand that wasn't holding his bag that contained his notebook and dragged him to her room.
"Shouldn't we go to the kitchen or living room?" Caleb asked as Will took his notebook and sat it on her dresser before turning to Caleb and pushed him back making him trip and fall on her bed.
"Why? It's much more comfortable here." Will said as she climbed into his lap, leaning in to kiss him before he pushed her off. She cried out in shock as she landed roughly on her ass on the floor to look up at an upset Caleb.
"I should have know better." Caleb said as he got up and stormed from the room.
Caleb had to take deep breaths as he walked from the room, stopping as he leaned against the wall to calm himself down. He wasn't going to lie, Will was hot and there was a large part of him that did want what Will was obviously offering. The problem was, he was in love with Cornelia and refused to cheat on her. On top of that, he couldn't bring himself to see Will like that most of the time. He saw her as one of the girls in his therapy group, where they all saw each other as brothers and sisters, and taking advantage of her was wrong when it was obvious she was confused. Problem was, it was hard not feeling aroused when someone as beautiful as Will wore something like that and was rubbing against you in ways that made it almost impossible to ignore.
"FUCKING WHORE!" Will shrieked just before a loud crash and shattering glass was heard. Rushing back into the room to make sure the girl was okay Caleb found her curled up on the floor sobbing and a book on the dresser that wasn't there when he came in the first time with a shattered mirror, some pieces laying on top of the dresser around his bag and the book.
"Are you okay Will?" Caleb asked as he forced himself to stay calm and kneel down next to the crying girl.
"What do you care?" Will snarled as she looked up at him with such pure hatred and loathing that Caleb was taken aback. It took a few seconds for him to realize that it wasn't aimed at him, it was aimed at herself just like the one girl from his therapy group.
"I care because I love you Will, just not in that way. You are a very special girl and deserve to be happy, but do you really think this would make you happy?" Caleb asked as he rubbed her back as she sat up and he pulled her into a comforting hug while trying his best to ignore the tender flesh in a very thin and tight top rubbing against him.
"I'm a disgusting, filthy whore. There's no wonder you don't want to touch me." Will cried into his chest as he rubbed her back.
"No you aren't, Will. And you have no idea how hard I'm fighting to keep myself from giving in. You have no idea what you are doing to me right now, but I love you like a friend, like a sister." Caleb said as he gently pushed Will back and looked deep in her eyes. When she tried to look away he gently cupped her cheeks and leaned in as she closed her eyes. He kissed her forehead and rested his against it. "You are Wilhelmina Vandom, a beautiful young woman who will someday find someone you love and will treat you like you deserve. You deserve much more than you think."
"I don't understand." Will sobbed, choking a little. "I don't understand any of this. Why do you make me feel so good when all I want to do is hate myself. I want to hate you so much because your a guy and only want one thing! So why can't I hate you? Why? Why? WHY?"
"Because your a good person, Will." Caleb said softly, "If you want to believe it or not, you are."
"No I'm not. You don't know what I've done." Will cried.
"The past doesn't matter, it's what you do in the present and what you want to do in the future." Caleb said, "If you regret the past, then change it. Do better now and make a new past that you can be proud of in the future."
"Do you know how stupid that sounds?" Will asked, laughing through her tears.
"Honestly I do, but it's true." Caleb said as he wiped away Will's tears. "Did you really need help with homework?"
"Yeah, I do." Will said smiling up at Caleb.
"Then why don't you get cleaned up and changed, and I'll wait in the living room for you." Caleb said kissing her forehead again. "And no surprises this time, okay?"
"Okay." Will said softly as Caleb got up then helped her up.
About fifteen minutes later Caleb was sitting on the couch waiting for the pizza he ordered for them after seeing the note he found sitting on the coffee table saying Will's mother would be late home again tonight. When he finally heard a sound he looked up to see a very shy redhead free from makeup wearing a pair of old, somewhat raggy jeans and a black long sleeve shirt that was pretty loose on her.
"You know, I think your more beautiful now that you were with all that makeup on." Caleb said softly as Will smiled at him.
"Thanks." Will said shyly as she sat down on the couch next to him.
"Well, let's get started then we can head to the church." Caleb said, "And I ordered us pizza to snack on."
"I really mean it...thank you...for everything." Will said hugging Caleb as she sat down before turning to the coffee table where Caleb had both of their computers on and running. "And thank you for proving me wrong, even if it's still a little confusing."
Sorry this chapter is late, I wasn't feeling too good this week and on top of that I was feeling a little bummed as I only had one review for the last chapter until late in the week. I was beginning to not many people like the story and support it. If you do like the story, please let me know.