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Izaya's pov
Turning around I saw Shizuo watching me. His hands were at his side and his beloved bartending outfit was in disarray. I watched as his still wet hair dripped down onto his shoulders. And even from where I stood I could smell my brother's shampoo on him. A sickening sweet blend of strawberries and bananas. Which were Shizuo favorite flavors of milk.
I wonder if Psyche got that scent because of Shizu-chan. It would make sense. He must have been happy when he saw it in Psyche's bathroom. God why do I think things like that? It's bad enough that I already know he cheated on me. I wonder if he is here to confess his sins and break up with me. I wish we could go back to how we used to be in the beginning. When we couldn't get enough of each other. When we actually talked every day. Before we stopped talking and went in the opposite directions. Sort of.
I should probably stop crying. Haha even Shizu-chan is looking worried even though he moved on. Does he want to apologize for what he did? Sorry to break it to you but it's a bit too late for that to fix everything. You were my world and than you destroyed my entire reason for living. My universe.
Did our relationship ever have a time were we might have made it to the end? Or was it doomed from the start? Were we just hurting each other the entire time? I know this is my downfall but will it be yours too? I don't think we every really learned about each other. Seeing that you went with Psyche. Will my heart always be yours though?
"It's okay Shizu-chan. I know." Izaya forced a smile onto his face. At odds with the tears falling down to collect under his chin. "We had a good time though, I think. You can pick up your stuff later if you want."
"Izaya I'm sorry. Truly I am. I didn't mean for it to happen. But I do feel like we should break up." Shizuo stiffened as if expecting for Izaya to hit him. Izaya couldn't help but shed a few more tears at the fact that his ex-lover trusted him so little.
"I'm not going to hurt you. Just so you know. No matter how mad I am at you." Betrayed. "But I am going to do the right thing. For you and for everyone." Izaya turned around to walk over to the side of the building. He looked down at all the life that was going on. Watching as couples walked down the street. Looking perfectly content.
Izaya felt himself being engulfed in Shizuo's arms and he was yanked back from the ledge. And for a second he let himself pretend that everything was alright before returning to the present.
"Damn flea. Don't kill yourself. That is never an option. You hear me!?" Shizuo stuck his head into the crook of Izaya's shoulder. Holding him close like everything was alright. Taking in deep breathes, trying to steady his breathing. "I can't let you do that to yourself. Not over me."
Slowly moving his head back until they were staring each other in the eyes. Lowering his eyelids, Shizuo moved forward to gently brush his lips with Izaya. Tasting the salt from his tears with every movement. Izaya stared in shock at the blond. But even he closed his eyes as their kissing got more urgent. Wishing the moment would never end. That all of this would prove to be just a horrible dream and he would wake up in Shizuo's warm embrace.
Please let me wake up.
A/N: Hello. Hope you liked this chapter. I hope to post the next one soon. Again please fill out my poll. I would really appreciate it. Oh and I was listening to This Love (will be your downfall) by Ellie Goulding. It is awesome and i would recommend listening to it. I used some lines from the song, guess which ones. Anyway I'm tired so bye and review please.