I woke up with cement beneath my back. But it wasn't a road. It was the blacktop of the river court. With Peyton's faded writing all over it. Why was I here? Am I dead. Is Jamie dead?
"JAMIE! JAMIE, WHERE ARE YOU. JAMIE!" I shouted.
"Nathan." And that's when I saw her. Haley James-Scott. She was beautiful. Her long blonde hair was curly and past her shoulders like it was in high school. She was wearing my favourite green dress and a smile on her face that I hadn't seen in over a month.
"Haley." I breathed.
"Nathan." She ran to me with tear filled eyes and jumped into my arms like she used to.
"Haley, why are you here? Why am I here? Am I dead? Is Jamie dead. Oh my Haley. Our son!" I yelled as I held her in my arms.
"Nathan, calm down. You and Jamie are fine. Well at least for now. But, I'm not here to tell you on your condition. I'm here to help." She held my face so that I could see her big brown eyes."Help with what Haley? I don't need help. I'm fine. As fine as I possibly could be without you." I stepped back.
"Nathan, please I didn't want to leave you. I was sick. I couldn't help that. I couldn't change this." She grabbed my arm for some sort of comfort.
"I know you couldn't. But, I miss you every single day. Every single day I'm reminded of us. How am I suppose to change that. How am I suppose to live with the guilt because I wasn't able to save you? I was suppose to save you Haley! I promised you that Haley. I broke that promise and its all my fault. All of its my fault. You dying, Jamie in the car accident, I failed. As a father and as a husband. How am I supposed to live with that! Huh? Answer that Hales." I let the tears fall as I tugged at my hair. Haley wrapped her arms around my waist and held me as I cried. "It's all my fault. I'm sorry. For everything."
"Nathan, listen to me none of this is your fault and you have to stop blaming yourself for every thing. Your not superman and no one expects you to be. So stop thinking you failed everyone because you didn't. No one expected you to save me, and you and Jamie were in a car accident. It's was an ACCIDENT, Nathan, it's no body's fault."
"But, I expected my self to be Superman. Even if no body else did. I did. So I guess that means I failed myself.""Nathan, remember that day when Jamie almost drowned and you jumped into the pool after him?"
"Yeah."
"That was the day I knew you would do anything in your power to protect me and Jamie, even though afterwards I wanted a divorce." She giggled after saying that. "I still knew you would do anything you could to get me back and you did and that is why I love you because you to everything and anything to save the people you love. But, Nathan me getting sick was not in your power. It was in nobody's power. So what if I died? I'm still with you every single day. In Jamie, in his smiles, his laugh, his accomplishments, I'm still with you in that little pink bracelet, our wedding ring, and most of all, I'm always going to be in your heart. Always and forever Nate, I promise you."
I couldn't keep a hold of my self any longer. I just broke down, tears falling down my face, some tears even falling on my lips. I collapsed to the floor and just sat there in the middle of the river court crying. She was amazing, she knew exactly what to say. I may have only been able to know and love her for 7 years but, I'm going to keep loving her for the rest of my life and she's right, I still am always going to have her with me because I have Jamie and he is the most important person in both of our lives.
"Thank you, Haley. I love you, I always will. Always and forever, right?" I wiped the tears from my eyes, stood up and walked over to Haley with the biggest smile covering my tear covered lips.
"Right."
"You said that the reason you are here is because you're here to help me. What are you here to help me with?"
"Moving on."
"I am Hales.""No your not. You have started but you and I know that your not over me."
"It's been a month. How do you expect me to move on after a month?"
"I don't expect you to. But, I do expect you to be able to have found love in something other than me and beer."
"I do love something else. Our son.""I know you love him.
"But, are you ever going to be able to move on? To fine a amazing girl who is going to love you and our son. Who's going to teach you how to love again and who's going to teach Jamie how to be a part of a family again, Nathan? Are you going to try and find that? Because you deserve love and Jamie deserves a mom." Haley's beautiful big brown eyes are now glossy with tears.
I looked to the ground, I could look at the pain in her eyes and whispered so that Haley could barely hear. "Jamie already has a mom."
"No he doesn't Nathan. I'm dead. He doesn't have a mom who is going to be able to read to him at night or pack him a lunch in the morning or when he's older, to teach him how to treat a girl. He doesn't have that and he won't until your able to move on and accept reality."
"What if I don't want to because I like reality better 6 months ago before you go diagnosed with cancer. When I was able to hold you without worrying about hurting you or being able to have your warm body sleeping next to mine at night or even being able to love you without having to worry that you might not be there the when I wake up the next morning."
"You won't have to have those worries anymore Nate. You are going to fine a beautiful healthy girl. Who is going to love you till your old and grey and she is going to love you and Jamie with every inch of her heart because you're a great guy and a great father and no girl is ever going to pass that up." Haley smiled at me and pulled me into a hug.
"I guess I am a pretty great guy." I laughed.
"You're the best guy." Haley said as one tear fell town her face onto my t-shirt and that's when I could feel the body in my arms slowly disappear. "Goodbye Nathan."
"Goodbye Haley, I love you, always and forever." A tear fell down my face, I kissed the top of her head and just waited as her body and soul left me for the second time in a month.
The end of chapter 3. (:
I am SOOOOO sorry I have not posted in like a month I just wanted this chapter to be as good as possible and I was having a serious case of writer's block. I also had to use this chapter as a set up for the rest of my story, so that made it difficult also. Anyways, I hoped you liked this chapter. If you did feel free to review, and if you didn't you can review also. xD
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