Hermiones PoV

It was everything I imagined it to be. Had I imagined it? I don't know. All I could think about was the feel of his warm lips against mine.

Malfoy stiffened and my mind finally caught up with my body. I quickly pushed hard against his chest causing Malfoy to stumble back.

"Oh God what have I done?" I muttered.

I turned around and was about to make a run for it when I felt a hand grab my arm. I was quickly spun around and Malfoys lips crashed back onto mine.

Shock ran through my body but soon my hormones took over and I started kissing back.

My hands went to his hair in an attempt to pull him closer. I was deathly aware of his hands on my back. I was standing on tip toes to reach him.

I felt his tongue on my bottom lip asking for entrance which I gladly gave him. I could feel his hand pull at the bottom of my shirt.

Before I could comprehend what was happening I felt my t-shirt being lifted over my head. I felt his lips suck at my neck making my breath hitch.

I felt his lips leave my skin and I opened my eyes to see him raking his eyes up and down my body. For the first time I felt a sense of confidence over my body Malfoys eyes met mine something clicked and he took a step back.

"We can't do this." He hissed before walking away.

I heard his feet stomp up the stairs and his room door slam.

Leaving me alone, confused and shirtless.

Draco's PoV

Shock ran through my body as I felt her lips crash onto mine. I suddenly felt her lips leave mine. She said something I couldn't comprehend and she turned away.

Before I knew what I was doing my hand grabbed onto her wrist and I pulled her back onto my lips. Her lips felt so right yet so wrong against mine.

I felt myself getting carried away. I could easily forget that this wasn't Hermione Granger I was kissing and it was Pansy Parkinson or another of the many girls I had slept with.

Without meaning to I had subconsciously taken her shirt off. I let my eyes scan her body.

I then saw the scar that read mudblood and memories flooded back into my mind.

Her screams. Her blood. She doesn't deserve this.

Then I felt it hit me.

Guilt.

"We cant do this." I hissed more at myself then at Granger.

I quickly turned on my heels and speed walked up the stairs and into my room slamming the door behind me.

When I was sure no one could hear me I swore at the top of my voice and kicked my foot as hard as I could against the wall, making me swear again.

I hopped over to my bed and sat down against the pillows. The same question repeating over and over in my head.

What had I done?

Hermione's PoV

I stood there before reality hit me and I quickly picked up my shirt and slipped it back on.

Why had he left me I had no idea.

Was the kiss good?

Yes.

He was so rough so violent but I loved it so different to the soft and gentle kisses I had with Ron.

Oh my Gosh.

Ron.

Oh my Gosh what have I done?

Tears started rolling down my cheeks. Maybe the tears were from the recent rejection or maybe it is because the realization of what I had just done had sunk.

Probably a bit of both.

I ran out of the room I needed to get out of here.

I found my feet running towards the big oak tree next to the black lake. I pushed past students as I continued to run.

I saw a girl sitting under the tree. I was too tired to find somewhere else to go so I slumped down next to her.

I recognized the girl as the girl who had be partnered with Harry. Lucky her. Her eyes were glossy and her face tear stroked. I imagined I look like her at this moment.

"Hermione right?" The girl asked.

"Yeah." I said. "Maddi right?" I asked.

She answered with a small smile and we sat in silence.

"Boy troubles, huh?" Maddi asked her voice hoarse.

I almost laughed if she didn't wear such a pathetic expression on her face.

"Your partnered with Harry Freakin' Potter for crying out loud, I'm partnered with my nemesis!" I said exasperated.

She laughed and weirdly I found myself laughing along with her.

"Okay, okay." Maddi laughed catching her breath. "I will tell you mine if you tell me yours."

I don't know why but I found myself telling her everything that I had happened from the beginning of this stupid project.

"Wow" she breathed at the end of my story. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

"Yeah" I sigh leaning my head against the tree. "Your turn." I demand.

"Harry kissed me last night." I gasped at this new information.

"He left last night and I fell asleep. This morning I found him in bed... with Ginny." Maddi rushed through the whole thing while I stared at her in disbelief.

I watched as tears rolled down her cheeks. I could see where Harry went. Guilt was probably consuming him as it is me and was trying to forget what he had done and try to make up for what he has done.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told on your best friend like that." Maddi said sheepishly.

"Its ok." I assured her with a small smile.

"Lets just forget all of this." Maddi sighed. I smiled at her.

We sat there for 2 hours talking about whatever came to my mind.

I found myself laughing and smiling despite all that had happened.

It felt good to forget everything and to relax.

I looked up to see that the sun setting.

"Is that the time!?" I exclaimed getting up to leave.

I walked up to our 'houses' with Maddi .

When I reached number 13 I said goodbye. I was about to open the door when I heard Maddi shout.

"Wait!" I watched as Maddi ran back to me.

When she got back to me she pushed my hair infront of my ear. I gave her a confused look.

"You've got a hickey." She explained with a whisper a small smirk playing on her lips.

I blushed deep red. Maddi quickly hugged me goodbye.

I pushed the door open.

One thought kept repeating through my head as I got ready for bed.

What now?

*Week 2, Friday*

I sat in Parenting class, my last class of the week, today we were learning about what ever the hell we are doing for the ultrasound thingy. I Sneaked a glance at the Bushy haired girl next to me.

Her head was buried in books... again.

We had been ignoring each other since... that day.

God.

I ran my hand through my hair and let out a small sigh, so I wouldn't disturb the attractive girl next to me.

And that's when I started choking in freaking air. Which didn't only disturb the girl I had just called attractive but the whole class.

After I had finished my coughing fit class went back to normal with me just leaning back in my chair not listening to anything McGonagall said and dwelling in my own messed up thoughts.

This time my thoughts were on the girl sitting next to me.

And that night.

And the kiss.

Did I Regret it; Yes, life would be so much easier without the confusion.

Would life better if I hadn't, still deciding.

Would I kiss her again; Yes

Should I kiss her again; No

I hate my life.

I saw Granger sneak a glance at me when she thought I wasn't looking and when our eyes met she blushed brighter then weasles hair and she quickly turned away.

Weasle.

Well Fudge (A/N This is a non swearing book. Just substitute the words :p)

Great well this just got a shoot load more complicated.

"Class Dismissed!" I faintly heard McGongall dimiss us.

I quickly packed up my books and followed behind Granger.

I watched as her butt swayed from side to side and thought about all the things I could do to it.

BAD THOUGHTS DRACO!

I mentally slapped myself. I took off my bag and pretended that I was trying to find something in it to hide my... unwanted guest. While thinking about whatever horrible thing to diminish it.

"Why are you following me?" I heard an annoyed voice call me out.

I looked up to see Granger glaring at me.

"Uh." I said, was she messing with me? "We kinda live in the same place?" I questioned her.

I saw her cheeks flame up and I couldn't help but smirk.

"Shut up." She snapped.

"I didn't say anything" I said still smirking. Man she's hot.

Her cheeks got redder as she looked down.

I followed her eyes and swore under my breath.

My friend hadn't decided to leave.

The color of her cheeks couldn't match the red of mine right now.

I did the first thing that came into my mind.

I ignored it and continued walking.

I heard her footsteps behind me. Why would she be following me?

Why didn't she just go up to her besties Potty and Weasle.

We finally arrived at our tempory home after 5 tortuously long minutes.

The moment the door closed I hear Granger take a sharp intake and I already knew what she was going to say.

"We need to talk." She said. I groaned internally.

"About what" I said knowing full well what she was talking about.

"About... w-well that... night." she stuttered. I smirked at her embarrassment.

"And uh about... that." I look down and it was my turn to be embarrassed.

When I remained quiet she continued.

"We cant just keep ignoring it." she stated. I knew she was right, she always is. But I tried to fight my feelings.

"Why? We're doing pretty well so far." I sarcastically remark.

"Stop it!" Granger randomly shouted and I was shocked to see her eyes welling up with tears.

"Stop what?" I questioned quietly.

"Pretending that the kiss didn't mean anything to you!" She shouted and to my horror I watched a tear escape and roll slowly down her cheek.

"Maybe I'm not pretending." I lied pathetically.

"Oh" she said taking in my lie before realizing my lie.

"Maybe?" she questioned. Fudge. When I didn't respond she continued.

"Look me in the eyes and say that it didn't mean anything to you." She demanded.

Now I was in for it.

I looked her in the eyes shocked to see the tears were replaced by a burning fire of anger.

"I-I... uh" I stuttered before looking down.

"I cant." I mumbled quiet enough that I believed she couldn't hear me. But her being Hermione Freaking Granger she heard me and instead of a smug smirk crossing her face a look as it would mine, but a look of exasperation and relief crashed over her face.

"Then why do you pretend and lie." She almost whispered.

"Because it's easier and safer." I state with a shrug. And she closes her eyes.

"The easiest and safest way is not always the best way." She stated.

She's right. As always. Becoming a death eater was the easiest choice at the time but definitely not the best.

Watching her be tortured and not intervene was the safest way but not the best.

I'm sick of taking the easy way but I just can't seem to stop.

"Do you regret it?" She asks suddenly.

"Yes." I answer before changing my mind. "No. Ugh. I don't know." I sigh.

I knew the answer was no but I was taking the easiest and safest way... Again.

She sighed and checked the clock that lay on the wall. I was shocked to see the time was 9:21 and I watched as Granger started walking away. Half in defeat and half in victory.

My mind is so messed up.

"It's too late for this Malfoy, I'm tired and I've got homework to do." She sighed.

I watched as she walked slowly up the stairs. Suddenly when she turned right to get to her room I saw the smallest of bumps rest on her stomach.

I was so engrossed in whatever the hell was happening right now between Granger and I, I had forgotten complete about the project that messed up my life.

My head was beginning to throb and I started making my way up the stairs to get ready for bed.

My dreams were littered with A bushy haired girl with a small bump of life resting on her stomach and the smile I hadnt seen for ages present on her face as I held her in my arms.