Here's the newest chapter with Iris' pov!

I'd appreciate it if you could answer the question at the end of the chapter :) Thank you all for reading!

Iris' POV

Devastated. Heartbroken. Angry.

She'd never felt so lifeless, so done with the universe. Never felt so strangled and suffocated by her own pain. Not even after Eddie and Ronnie both died in a single day.

No, this time she'd lost Barry. Her Barry. For good.

There was no pulling him out of the speedforce using Cisco's vibe powers. This wasn't done to him. Barry made the choice to go in there willing and pay for what he'd done with Flashpoint.

He was too calm though, and that's what scared her. Almost more than the thought of never seeing him again.

She knew he loved them all, more than anything. That wasn't the problem.

He left so easily, without any real debate on the matter. He didn't talk to her, nothing. The man she was going to spend her life with didn't even bother consulting her.

Central City, the world, of course they were more important than her. Part of her felt like if he'd talked to her, she could've talked him down. Maybe they could've come up with a better solution that didn't involve him dying.

Or maybe that was just wishful thinking. It's not like they'd had a lot of time. But still, it was the what if that was killing her.

Then this nagging thought in the back of her mind kept repeating the same thing over and over.

What if he left so easily because he was tired of living? What if the pain and heartache he'd gone through in his life since the young age of eleven, was stronger than any love he had for her, Joe, and the rest of the team?

The thought of those being his final thoughts in life was enough to set her off again.

Her eyes were puffy and red rimmed, her chest aching, her stomach still in knots. Yet nothing was worse than the vice-grip her heart was in.

She'd been laying in bed for over three hours, unable to close her eyes without seeing his face. His smiling face was the last thing she saw of him.

At some point during the night, Joe knocked quietly on the door and poked his head in. "Do you need anything, Iris? Tea? More blankets?" Joe asked softly, dressed in his dark green pajamas, his eyes also dark and red-rimmed.

She was facing the door so she shook her head, the light from the hallway ensuring that he saw her response.

He sighed, stepping into the room and kissing her head, lingering longer than usual. Iris squeezed her eyes shut.

"Love you, baby girl." He smiled sadly down at her before quietly stepping back out and latching the door shut.

Iris pulled her blanket up to her nose, feeling absolutely miserable and broken. Watching someone else feel this kind of pain was just as heartbreaking, especially when that person was her father. Joe was one of the toughest people she knew. So seeing him crack made her lose even more hope.

She didn't know how much time had passed. All she knew was that the rain had been going back and forth from heavy to light. Her gaze stayed on the window as she thought through memories of Barry.

Her hero, her best friend, her fiancee, her other half.

He was so ready to give himself up so they were all safe, he was almost at peace with dying.

Ugh. She just wanted this pain to go away, even for a little bit.

The bath Wally set up for her had helped a little. It soothed the cuts on her knees she'd gotten when she dropped onto them minutes after Barry left. The devastation she felt was not something she was likely to ever forget.

She had stared at the spot unrelenting, unbelieving that the man she loved was gone for good. In the blink of an eye, half an hour after he'd sent out the save-the-dates for their wedding.

If it wasn't for Gypsy, she would probably still be there, waiting for the breach to open again. Gypsy was the only one not affected as much by Barry departure. So she took it upon herself to make everyone go home and even took Harry back to Star Labs.

And if wasn't for Joe and Wally, she wouldn't have been able to walk without falling over herself in tears.

She stared out the window, unable to cry anymore tears, but unable to relieve the frown from her face or the stabbing in her stomach and heart.

It was just so unfair. Life had been too unfair to them. And that made her angry. Amongst all her sad emotions, she also felt a twinge of anger. After all they'd done to help people, this was how the universe decided to give back. By ruining her happy ending, ruining Barry's.

Barry talked about how this was his penance for creating Flashpoint, but he was wrong. He didn't mess up time on purpose, he was a greiving son who'd lost his family. He affected a lot of lives, but it was never out of malice. He didn't deserve to die and be stuck inside the speedforce.

The rain ran down the window fast and hard, each raindrop creating a shimmering light on her walls thanks to the lampposts outside.

It was peaceful, a little too quiet for her taste. She didn't like that it felt like the world was already moving on without Barry. Because she sure as hell wasn't ready.

Iris rolled over in to face the wall, knowing sleep wouldn't be coming easy tonight. Part of her just wanted to stay in this bed forever, so she didn't have to get up in the morning and try to piece her life back together.

But his words kept running through her head and they were the only reason she hadn't completely given up yet. She had to keep living, Barry would be horrified if he ever learned she'd given up.

"You need to keep living your life. Keep growing, keep loving, keep running. For me. Promise me you'll run, Iris."

She didn't intend to ever forget her promise to him. It was the last bit of him she had left. She would make his final words her mantra from now on.

And she'd never, ever forget what they shared. Even if she moved on with someone else one day, she knew she'd never love anyone like she loved Barry Allen.

Iris was probably the hardest to write for in terms of really capturing her grief. But I hope it turned out okay.

Now we get into the new stuff, where I start making up my own storylines and baddies for them to deal with while Barry is gone. I'm excited though!

So, onto some questions for you all!

Do you like having these four povs (Iris, Cisco, Joe, & Wally)?

Or would you prefer I only have chapters in one or two of their povs? And if so, which ones?

Any feedback would be greatly appreciated! And thanks to everone who faved and followed this story!