Chapter 4

After stopping by a florist to pick up some flowers, Sabrina headed over to the cemetery. As Sabrina approached Gabriel's grave she closed her eyes and took a deep breath, knowing this wasn't going to be easy. When she opened her eyes, she was surprised to see someone at Gabriel's grave. She didn't remember seeing them when she first came in.

She took a step closer and realized that it was Patrick and Emma. Sabrina took another deep breath, she wasn't expecting to see them so quickly and she didn't think the first time she saw them would be here. She had barely prepared herself to visit Gabriel; she definitely wasn't prepared to see Patrick and Emma.

"Daddy?" Sabrina heard Emma ask. "Even though Gabriel isn't here, am I still a big sister?"

"Oh Emma, of course you are. You're always going to be Gabriel's big sister. And you're really lucky, you know why?" Patrick asked.

"No, why?" Emma asked.

"You're lucky because your little brother is going to be watching over you all the time," Patrick said.

"Just like Mommy used to when we thought she was in heaven?"

"Just like that," Patrick said as Emma started to give him a hug.

Watching the two of them together tugged at Sabrina's heart. She realized that Patrick and Emma were hurting just as much as she was. As she watched Patrick hold his daughter, she took a closer look at him. He still looked as gorgeous as ever, but he looked worn out, like he wasn't getting much sleep, his hair was long and he still hadn't shaved his beard. She knew that losing Gabriel had been hard on him, but he had seemed so much stronger than she was at the time that she was convinced he would be fine. Now she was wondering if she had been wrong.

Sabrina didn't want to intrude on them; they obviously needed the time together. Although she didn't want to interrupt, seeing them made her feel better, she felt less alone knowing they missed Gabriel as much as she did. She walked far enough away so they wouldn't see her, but she continued to watch them from a distance.

"Well what do you say kiddo? Are you ready to head to camp?" Patrick asked.

"I'm ready Daddy," Emma said pulling away from her dad. "Bye baby brother, I miss you!"

"Bye Gabriel," Patrick said as he stood up. He placed his hand on the top of the headstone, pausing for a minute before walking away.

As soon as Sabrina was sure that Patrick and Emma had left he cemetery, Sabrina went over to visit her son. She sat down on the ground in front of her son's headstone, and put the flowers she brought down in front of her, and started tracing her son's name with fingers. "Hi Baby," Sabrina said as she felt a tear slide down her cheek.

"Mommy's sorry she has been away for so long, but losing you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do and I don't think I handled it very well. Even though I haven't been here, I hope you know how much I miss you and how very much I love you. There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't think of you. I keep thinking about all the things I wanted to do with you and sometimes I feel really sorry for myself. But then I remind myself about what Daddy said, that we need to remember how perfect you were for the short time you were with us.

I was surprised to see your daddy here today. I hope you are watching out for him, it looks like he needs it. I'm going to try to do the same. I know he hasn't had it easy lately, but I know he fought to get justice for you and it cost him a lot. He helped me so much while you were sick and when we had to say goodbye to you my sweet boy, it's Mommy's turn to be there for Daddy now. I love you my sweet Gabriel," Sabrina finished as she kissed her hands and then touched them to the headstone.

Patrick returned to his empty home after bringing Emma to camp. He looked around the home that he and Robin had built together. Everywhere he turned there were memories and pictures of the three of them. Their wedding picture was on the bookcase and the most recent picture from Christmas was sitting on the mantel, but Patrick's eyes landed on the picture of Emma with Sabrina. It was an old one, Sabrina still had glasses and her big hair, but she still looked beautiful.

After his conversation with Robin this morning, when she refused to come home again, Patrick knew that it was time for him to move forward. After he thought Robin died, he didn't think he would ever move on or be happy again. Somehow, Sabrina managed to change that. She fixed him when he thought he couldn't be fixed and she made him realize that he could truly be happy again.

When Robin came back he sincerely believed that his heart belonged with her and he broke Sabrina's heart because of it. If someone had told him then, that he would be walking away from Robin after he finally got her back, he never would have believed it. He loved her and a piece of him always would, but he knew that if Robin ever decided to come home he would never be able to get past her choosing Jason over him and their daughter.

He sat down at the desk and pulled out the paperwork that Alexis had sent to him. Everything was straightforward, just like he had asked. He wanted to keep things as simple as possible for Emma to make it as easy as he could for her. He knew that she was upset when they had the conversation at the park about him and Robin divorcing and she has already gone through more in her life than anyone her age should have to.

Patrick took out a pen and signed the papers, as he set the pen back down on the desk he was confident he was making the right decision, for both him and Emma. After signing the papers he went around the room and gathered the few pictures of Robin in his arms and carried them upstairs to Emma's room. After putting the pictures around Emma's room, he went to his bedroom and took their wedding photo from the dresser. He pulled out the box that was kept on the top shelf of the closet and put the picture in the box for safekeeping in case Emma wanted it one day. As he reached up to put the box away, he noticed the ring on his left hand and knew there was one more thing he needed to put in the box.