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Chapter 4 - Alone

The next morning when I woke at about 6am, there in front of me was Alice. "Which outfit today Nessie. The blue jeans and a red boob tube or because its sunny today the dark denim mini skirt with a turquoise strappy top, this black jumper goes with both?"

"Alice what time is it, don't you have to go and get ready for school too" I replied sleepily. I was probably sleep talking without realising it.

"Nope. Its sunny out and you know what that means"

"Oh devils on earth" why did it have to be sunny second day at school! Now I was going to be at school with Jacob and know one else. The good thing is Julian will be there. But what about getting to school? That means car sharing with Jacob. And only last night I was crying myself to sleep because of him. My life is so messed up right now.

"Alice that means I have to car pool to school with Jacob right?"

"Right"

"You set this up. I don't know how - but you did" Then I jumped out of bed and over to Alice. Then, I stated tickling her. This was fun until my dad walked in and then I picked the mini skirt outfit off the bed and stalked into my bathroom.

"Ness-" My dad started to speak before aunt Alice cut him off.

"Just leave her Edward"

As I was in the shower I overheard my dad and Alice's conversation.

"So…Alice"

"Yes Edward"

"How is she?"

"You can't hear her?" Aunt Alice asked sitting on me bed.

"No. It's like she's blocking me out or something" I heard my dad wipe his face with frustration and sit down on my bed next to Alice.

"I don't think she'd want me talking to you about her. You know you shouldn't even ask. Edward she's your daughter, BE HAPPY. None of the rest of us can have children and you just go and fall out with yours."

"Alice-"

"Don't 'Alice' me! you should have told her Jacob was coming down as soon as you knew. I couldn't because you didn't even tell me. As you know I couldn't see either of them. You also knew she was sad. Think of Bella when you left her. all Bella wanted was you back even though you hurt her, you thought it was best. Think about it Edward, this is the same situation. Make it right because if you don't, I might stop talking to you" Alice giggled "Okay?" I heard Alice give my dad a hug. Then my dad replied,

"Okay. But Alice?"

"Yes"

"How do I make it right?" From then on the conversation went in to a mental mode.

So my dad couldn't hear me? I wonder why. I couldn't block him, only mum could block him out. Mum must have been blocking me out from dad, giving me some privacy. I knew my dad was sorry, and I knew he could be like that sometimes. But he should have told me. How could seeing Jacob make me sad? well apart from now.

I finished my shower, got dressed and went downstairs to see dad, mum, Alice, Jasper and Rosalie watching some 'Chick flick'. I found it funny that Jasper was content in watching the film. I strolled into the kitchen at a reasonably slow speed. Emmett was there in a Esme's pink, Filly apron. I really couldn't help but burst out laughing.

"What? Esme only had a pink one. Okay that's it kid if you don't stop laughing I'm going to come over there and-"

"And what? Hit me with your teddy weddy?" before I could dodge out the way Emmett had me against the wall by the waist. This could have looked wrong to some people. People with dirty minds. But we were playing. Tickle fighting to be precise.

Emmett always made me laugh, like when I was little and crying because Jacob wasn't there, because he had to go and do some 'Alpha' business. He decided to tear down a mountain. Yes, a mountain. Well near enough a mountain. If you've heard of mount St. Helens. That was Emmett's doing. Most people thought the volcano blew the side of it down, but they had no proof of it ever being real.

I've always loved it when my mum or Emmett or Jasper crushed rocks in their hands, it was never funny if anyone else tried it. I'd scream for Emmett. He was funniest.

"Okay, I give, put me down!" By this point, he had me by the ankle, holding me upside down, so our heads were a foot apart. With his other hand that wasn't holding my ankle, he was tickling me.

"What do you say"

"Please Emmett-o-gracious master, please will you release me from your gigantic muscles?" And with that he'd release me to fall on my head - which was quite strong, but my hands would fling out ahead of me first so it was like I was doing a handstand or something. "Anyway, what are you doing in Esme's apron?"

"making you and Ja-… breakfast" He smiled a big cheesy grin and put both thumbs up for good measure. Where was Jacob anyway? I hadn't forgiven him yet - well I thought I hadn't forgiven him. But I don't know anymore. I'm a confused 'Teenler'.

'Teenler' - Jacob had made this up combining Teenager and Toddler. Because I had grown up so fast. I was really 5 years old, but look and act like a 15 year old.

"Where's Esme? shouldn't she be making me breakfast?"

"She should. But I offered. I didn't want to watch that stupid film everyone is watching and Esme had to go to an auction - for some land to buy for her next 'project'" he said project with little - well big - finger quotation marks in the air. Esme's projects were actually architecture projects. "I made sausage, bacon, beans and potato cakes."

"Thanks, are you sure your not burning it?"

"I hope not" I looked into the pan. He was doing quite well, except he put the potato cakes in the pan. Since the pan wouldn't hurt me that much, I picked them out of the pan and said,

"These go in the toaster"

"Oh" Emmet spoke puzzled Then he put the food on two plates "I'm just going to" Then he pointed towards Jacob. He was probably in his room. I ate my breakfast and everything was fine until Jacob came in and then out again. Did he just ignore me?

"Time for school Ness" Jacob called from the living room. Okay he didn't completely ignore me.

"Mum, do I have to go to school today?" I asked sitting down on the sofa next to her.

"Yes, of course you do" I scowled at her until I was broke from my trance by Alice shaking my shoulder violently.

"Today will be fine and so will the car journey" I hugged and thanked her, grabbed my bag and walked out into the garage. Of course Jacob was there sitting in the Volvo, waiting for me.

"Hi" he said curtly.

"Hey" I replied curtly too. Then it was silent from then till we reached school. Then when he spoke, it was in a sharp way again. Was he doing this on purpose or something? Did my family even hear me crying last night?

"Bye"

"Cya" I knew I was being just as curt. But it hurt my feelings. Jacob was being foul towards me. But now that I think about it, I was being mean towards him yesterday. I didn't even give him a chance to say sorry. I felt selfish and hurt.

I knew what I had to do. I knew it. But how come I couldn't bring myself to say it, or to even go up to him and look him in the eye. I used to be able to talk to him like a normal person, like breathing. It was that easy. But now I felt shy! Jacob was my life wasn't he? Were we falling apart? I wanted to cry again - like last night - because I loved him. I knew he loved me and I probably hurt him in doing what I did yesterday. Now he was hurting me back, in a way I couldn't take?

I vowed to myself that tomorrow, at the end of school. We would make up, no matter what. I just had to get through today. At least I had Julian today, didn't I?

The first three lessons went fast, but I was Alone. Where was Julian?

My next lesson was French so yet again I was alone.

In French we had to work in pairs. Since my dad wasn't at school today - I wonder why - I had to work with a Guy named Martin. He had short black hair which he had spiked up with a bit too much gel for my liking. Black hair and his blue eyes went well together if you had asked me. He was also so sweet. But I only wanted to be his friend - nothing more - and since I would have to eat lunch on my own again I thought why not?

"Hey Martin, can I ask you a favour"

"As long as your 'friend' Julian doesn't take part" Okay did everyone really have something against him? I'd ask later.

"No not really." I giggled, I felt shy for some reason. I didn't like him. "May I sit with you and your friends at lunch please?" Then it clicked. I was shy because even though Martin was the second hottest guy in school - After Julian, if you ask me - he was one of the 'popular' gang. So he was bound to say 'no'. I waited for the two letters that would make me sit on my own at lunch, but they didn't come. I looked up and there on his face was a crooked smile that my dad had. "What?" I asked.

"Nothing, and of course you can sit with me and my friends at lunch" though by friends, I'm sure he meant girls flirting non-stop. But if I sat with Martin at lunch, who was Jacob going to sit with? He would be alone and I would feel even more selfish.

At lunch I made a few new friends who sat with Martin. I started talking to a girl named Caitlin. She was the only non-flirtatious girl there. Mainly because she already had a boyfriend - Joe - who was Martin's best friend. She had Short, shoulder length brown hair with honey blonde and black highlights To match her brown eyes, she was stunning. No wonder she went out with one of the populars'. Joe on the other hand had modelled his hair from Martins. He also had Dark eyes - almost black. He was the quietest one there.

After lunch I had two more lessons Maths and geography. Of which yet again, I was sort of alone. Caitlin was in Geography. I didn't get along well with Martin and his friends. Only Caitlin, and she was in Geography not Maths. Jacob was in both classes though. I really did feel sorry for him. He was sat on his own just like me in Maths. But I Truly wanted to walk over and sit next to him leaving Caitlin sitting on her own in Geography.

I had vowed to myself that I would try to make-up with him after school tomorrow, so I would have to wait till then. When the bell went for the end of the day - finally. I got up and walked to the car park with Caitlin. As we were walking past the fountain at the front of the school, I noticed Caitlin kept looking over her shoulder every five or so seconds, looking paranoid. I couldn't take it anymore "What's up Caitlin?" I spoke

"That guy from our geography class, the one with the longish black hair is following us. He's kind of hot for a guy with long hair." I turned around instantly regretting it. Caitlin was talking about Jacob and she thought he was hot!? He was mine!

"That might be because he lives with me and I'm getting a lift home with him" That shut her up. " anyhow I'll see you tomorrow" I said as I gave her a hug and sat down in the Volvo.

This time on the journey home, I didn't even get a 'hello'.

We arrived home.

I grabbed my bag, got out the car and ran to my room, where I'd hopefully find Alice waiting for me to describe what had happened at school today, even though I'm sure she just wanted to know something more about me and Julian. I desperately had to ask her something, something important.

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