Chapter 4: Explanation

Bella's POV

It could have been seconds, days or weeks, eventually time came back to me. Three things happened to me, one time restarted, my body was cooling, and I was getting stronger. I could feel the control over my body slowly coming back to me in small measures. Those measures were my first signs that time was truly coming again. I was able to move my toes and ball my hands into fists. But I didn't. Though the fire did not falter one bit, I developed a capacity for the flame. I gained a new sensitivity to it, I could fell each tong of flame that flowed through my veins. I found I could think about other things but the fire for once. I could remember what had happened to me. And I was able to think why it did. This all had happened just in time. If there was anyone watching me now, they would see no change in me. But I struggled to keep in my screams. I had just enough strength and courage to lie there and char. My hearing became more sensitive, and I listened to my heart beat to count the time that had passes. Although time still meant nothing to me, I still knew it was there. I felt pressure on my right wrist.

"There is still no change. The process is still going. Bella can you hear me?"

I knew that is I opened my mouth for a split second I would lose my concentration and I would scream. If I moved my body in any form, I knew that would be the end of my control.

"How much longer Alice?" Who is Alice I pondered in my head. She must have been taking care of me.

"I don't know Edward."

"Can you at least try?"

"Fine" I, like Edward, wanted to know as well. How much longer would I burn like this? Just as I was asking myself these questions, the pain changed. The pain in my feet and hands started to cease. I knew it, this had to be the end of my suffering. The bad part about it was the fire inside of my heart got worse. My heart beat increased.

"Alice get Carlisle." I didn't know any of the people he was talking to.

The fire pulled out of my hands and feet and left nothing behind but the cool air. I heard a series of footsteps entering the room.

"Carlisle listen..."

"Yes, its almost done."

My arms and legs were soon cooled. And more footsteps entered the room.

"Bella, are you there? Can you hear me?"

I didn't want to answer him for fear of breaking my concentration. And then suddenly my heart jump started! My heart raced faster and faster. The fire flared in my chest consuming what was left of me. The pain was to much, and I broke focus, I arched my back in pain. As my torso fell back onto the bed a battle started in my chest. Between my hear and the fire. Each were racing for victory but neither was ahead of behind. My heart became a steady thrum and with one final beat, a deep thud sounded in my chest. I felt the coolness wash over my body. I slowly opened my eyes.

Everything I saw was so defined, sharp. I could see everything, hear everything and smell everything. As I sat up I could see a family of gods before me. They were all pale and beautiful. As I marveled in there beauty, one stepped forward.

"Bella...Can you hear me?"

"Yes." My voice chimed with a clarity and grace. I was shocked, I didn't know the voice that had come out of me.

"Where am I? What happened to me?" I chimed again.

"I am Carlisle, and your in my home. We brought you here after....Well I think we should let Edward explain what happened." And as soon as he said that name, it all came back to me. Edward had attacked me, this was his fault! I was furious.

"Edward," He motioned for his to come forward "We will give you two some privacy."

As his family exited the room I got one glance from a spiky haired girl. She smiled at me and then left in a blur that my normal eyes wouldn't have caught.

"Bella, lets go for a walk. I have a lot to tell you." So I did as he commanded, and slid my self off of the bed. He led me through a maze of a house, we past several doors. And then I saw a reflection in the mirror I didn't recognize. I stood there looking at the goddess staring back at me, and realized it was me. I had changed. My body was pale, and set in stone, like I could never change. The house was open and bright. As we exited out the back door he lead me off into the woods. He was walking at inhuman speeds but I was easily able to keep pace with him.

"Can you please tell me whats going on?

"Bella, you'd better sit down. I have a lot to tell you." I moved towards a rock that looked stable enough for me to sit on.

"Bella, please just let me get through everything I have to say before you ask any questions. Can you do that?"

"Yes." Why wouldn't I be able to. I had room in my head to form questions while listening to him speak. I was pretty sure I could juggle at the same time as well. Edward was pacing back and forth in front of me.

"I don't know how to start this, but I guess I will just start with the history behind what me and my family are. Bella there are things in this world that no one can ever know about. And those things are werwolves and vampires. Yes they exist. No most of them aren't friendly. Me and my family are vampires. We are the worlds most dangerous predator. We have strength beyond any humans imagination. Our senses are extremely in tuned. We can see, smell, hear, and feel what most humans cannot. There are two types of vampires. My family and I call our self's vegetarians."

"Why?"

"Because we only survive on the blood of animal's. We don't kill humans. We call it vegetarian because it like only surviving on tofu, it keeps you strong but your never fully satisfied."

"Bella I have to tell you, you are a vampire." I KNEW IT!

"What?"

"When I attacked you in the meadow. I changed you. If it wasn't for your friend Jacob I would have killed you."

"What do you mean you changed me? How?"

"Vampires have venom that is used for paralyzing there prey. It sits in our fangs and injects into what ever we bite. If the venom is left to spread through the body, is changes them. For those who are lucky enough to survive a vampire attack."

I couldn't believe it. I was a vampire. Then my dream must have been somewhat true. If I was a vampire than what did that make Jake? Why didn't he get attacked like me. I had so many questions, that were answered all at once.

"What did you mean by those who are luck enough to survive?"

"When we taste human blood, a frenzy begins and its almost impossible to stop. Bella I know this is a lot to take in."

I thought about what Edward had told me in the past 10 minuets. And I suddenly remember Charlie.

"I have to go see my father. He is probably worried sick about me!" I got off the rock I was sitting on and headed back in the direction we came from. Edward walked in front of me and stopped me in my path.

"Bella you cannot go into town."

"Why not! Who are you to tell me what to do?"

"Bella you cannot be around humans. Its to soon."

"What do you mean by that? You think I cannot control myself?"

"Bella I know you cannot control your self. As soon as you smell him you will go crazy and try to feed. I know its hard to grasp the fact that you would attack someone you love. That's just the way it has to be."

"So your telling me I can never see my father again?"

"No Bella I am saying you cannot be around him. At least for a few months while you adjust to your new self." I took into consideration that he was probably right. So I gave in.

"Ok. I guess your right." I sat back down on the rock and prepared myself for what Edward had to say next.

"Bella I am sorry for my actions. If I had been able to control myself, none of this would have happened, and you could have lived your life in peace."

As Edward left me sitting on that god forsaken rock, I was speechless. His voice was so full of pain and anger. I had no clue that my changing into a vampire caused him so much pain. I sat there in awe and listen to him walk away.

Edward's POV

I walked away from Bella, trying to show the lest bit of emotion I could. I couldn't live with my self anymore. What I had done to her was inexcusable, I was truly the soul less monster I had first sought to destroy. I pulled her whole life out from underneath her. I didn't think I could stand to be around her any longer. The pain inside of me flared every time I saw her.

Once I got clear of the tree I took off into a sprint. I had to leave before she returned home. The house wasn't to far ahead of me and I was positive that she wouldn't know about the running. So I could pack my things and tell Carlisle.

As I arrived back at the house Emmett Rosalie and Alice were standing on the back porch, waiting for me.

"Your leaving?" Alice whispered.

They were all staring at me now.

"Yes Alice I am. I can't stay here." Alice started to get another vision.

It was an empty highway at night time, the trees were coated with snow, and flashing by me at almost 200 miles per hour.

"Ill miss you Edward." She hugged me. "No matter how short a time you are away."

Emmett and Rosalie exchanged an apprehensive glance.

"You should tell Carlisle by your self."

"Be safe Edward, and come back soon." Emmett thought to him self.

I smiled as they all got up and took off into the woods to retrieve Bella. I had less than 30 seconds. I headed to Carlisle's study up stairs.

"Carlisle, I have to leave town."

"Why Edward?"

"I can't stand to be here anymore. I cannot look at Bella every day and live with myself. I have done a terrible thing Carlisle. I took her life away, and I cannot give it back to her." Carlisle looked at me a concerned stare. There was nothing he could say to stop me from leaving. I couldn't stay.

"I cannot stop you Edward, I can only ask that you stay. But I can see now that it is impossible. Be safe son. Ill tell Esme for you." He through me his set of keys to the Mercedes. He knew I was going to need a fast car.

"I have to go. Goody bye father."

I raced to my room before he could say another word to change my mind. I packed what little cloths I could stuff into my travel bag. I hurried to the garage and started the engine. As I was backing out I could hear Bella speaking inside the house. I speed down the drive way, not knowing where I was headed.