A/N: Been away in Yorkshire for two days so hadn't had time to type up stuff I got loads of ideas on the train though (:
A/N 2: I felt I rushed the UTI chapter on: Mother Love I think I wrote it late at night so here's a Director's Cut of UTI. Nasty things UTIs I've never had one but I've known people have and it effected their heads a bit. It's as accurate as my research and experiences can be lol. Also I found out antibiotics can make your hormones crazy I kept on having a crying session whenever I pictured Sharon leaving Holby and Elliot looking sad in my head crazy but my antibiotics made me feel really sick and emotional.
It seemed that one minute that Serena's temperature was up and then down, "Let's run LFT's Full Bloods, Us and Es again please," Ric ordered Chantelle, "This doesn't make sense."
"Maybe it's effecting her Kidneys," Edward suggested, "Because they haven't worked… look at her White blood cell count," Edward looked at the results, "If the antibiotics were working the white blood cells would be going down, they've multiplied."
Ric was confused they had been working fine, now her body's natural defences were multiplying and she seemed to be getting sicker. Ric put his hand to her forehead, "She's getting hotter."
"Pass the thermometer," Edward said to Ric he waited for the result, "Fourty-two point one."
"This isn't making sense," Ric knew it wasn't long until the UTI might possibly effect her head, "Wait for the lab results and hopefully we can find out what's going on."
"Dad what's going on?" Eleanor asked she had gone for a coffee.
"We don't know," Edward answered and he checked her heart, "She's Tachycardic… ECG."
Eleanor looked worried she then looked up the antibiotics, "Why haven't they worked?"
"That's what we're hoping to find out," Ric answered and then Chantelle back, "Thank you Chantelle."
Edward looked over Ric's shoulder reading the results, "Her white blood cells have gone up again, but her kidney and liver function is fine," Edward frowned, "What have you given her again?" he walked up to the drip.
"Ciprofloaxcin," Ric answered and Edward's eyes grew, "Edward?"
Edward looked at her chest it was red, "How long has she had that rash?" he asked Ric and Ric looked over he looked confused and concerned.
"It's just come on," Ric put on his glasses he then checked her temperature again, "It's gone up again Serena can you hear me?"
Serena could hear voice but wasn't sure who it was she felt too ill to open her eyes, she had a massive headache and was cold and itchy, "Who's that?" she asked weakly.
"Serena it's Ric," Ric noticed that her body was freezing, "Get me blankets," Ric said to Eleanor, "Her body temperature is freezing but yet she has a temperature."
Edward was feeling more than concerned it was only a matter of time before the UTI effected her head, "If we don't get this under control… it'll make her mind confused."
"I know," Ric checked Serena's pupils she slapped his hand away the light was making her head hurt more, "Serena."
"Just get it away," Serena turned her head sideways, "I want my mum."
"What?" Ric asked shocked since when did Serena Campbell as for anyone?, "Serena how many fingers am I holding up?" he held up four.
"I want my mum," she repeated Edward and Ric looked at each other knowing exactly what was happening.
"We need to change the antibiotics those haven't kicked it," Edward disconnected the drip causing the machine to beep, "Also bring her out of the reaction to the drug."
"Serena we're going to change your antibiotics OK," Ric explained and Serena said nothing she was shaking.
Edward walked out but then ran back it clicked to him, "Ciproflaxin!" he shouted causing Eleanor and Ric to jump, "She's allergic to it."
"How do you know?" Ric asked Edward walked over.
"She got a UTI whilst pregnant how didn't I see it? Anyway she went exactly like this," Edward explained and Ric frowned, "Ric?"
"Change her onto Cephalosporins," Ric ordered Chantelle, "And also find Adrienne."
Serena was really pale she blended in with the bed sheets, "We'll get you sorted out," Edward looked down at Serena who looked at death's door, "How didn't I notice it?"
"Well you've divorced for years you don't tend to keep track of Ex wives medical history," Ric answered and Edward felt guilty, "Look we've managed to catch it."
"But the psychological effects… you know when she's not right when she asks for her mum," Edward walked around and sat on the end of the bed.
"You know when something is not right when she looks like this," Ric looked at her chart to stop himself from seeing his brave, bossy, scary colleague looking so weak and helpless.
"Will she be OK?" Eleanor asked Ric and Edward had forgot she was there she had been so quiet, "Dad?"
"We're starting her on another course of antibiotics and hopefully they will kick the infection right up it's arse," Edward looked at Eleanor she looked almost in tears, "Els she's going to be fine."
"Mum said that about Granny and she wasn't," Eleanor shot an accusing glare at Ric before realising it wasn't his fault, "So what if mum isn't OK?" she asked her dad and Edward looked down unable answer with a hopefully answer he stayed quiet, "She's not is she?" Eleanor asked but Edward said nothing, "Look at me!" she shouted.
"Eleanor shh!" Edward looked around at the ward patients looked scared to death, "Remember where you are," he pulled her out of the ward.
"Then tell me the truth," Eleanor folded her arms and leant back against the wall, "Dad I'm not a child."
"No but you're not very good in stressful situations carry on I'll send you home," Edward hated to be horrible to his daughter but the last thing he and Ric also Serena needed was a hysterical teenager, "Upper UTI's are a lot more dangerous than Lower UTI's Upper UTIs can infect the kidney's because it's near the kidney where the infection lies, unfortunately for your mother the antibiotic we were using she reacts too," then it clicked to him why her white blood cell had been so high, "Eleanor stay there."
Ric was sat next to Serena not wanting her to be alone, "I thought it wasn't wise to leave her."
"Has she come out of the reaction yet?" Edward asked and Ric shook his head, Edward put his hand on her hair, "Come on Serena fight this."
"Get my mum," Serena said with her eyes closed Ric and Edward looked sad, "Just get her."
Eleanor walked back in looking guilty, "Sorry for my outburst earlier."
"It's fine," Ric put her on more IV fluids and sat back down Edward stood by the end of the bed he was still trying to figure out how he had missed it.
"I just don't get how I missed it," Edward looked confused Ric looked at him with sympathy.
"It's not your fault," Ric reminded and Edward turned his head, "Like I said ex's don't keep track of medical records… yet I know how you feel about feeling responsible still."
"Why does she keep asking for granny?" Eleanor asked she was sat on the other chair legs crossed.
"UTI's can make the head go funny," Edward explained in the most simplest terms after hearing her daughter was asking for her Adrienne walked in, "Sorry."
"So what's happening?" Adrienne asked Ric, Ric being a gentleman stood up allowing Adrienne to sit down, "Well?" she asked again whilst holding Serena's hand.
"The first lot of antibiotics didn't work…we were unaware of an allergy whether Serena forgot herself or if she didn't tell us but the allergic reaction to drug has caused her to become psychologically effected not terribly just we think her asking for you is from the psychological effects, but we need to bring down her temperature but also keep her warm," Ric saw Adrienne's face look worried, "We are sorry this happened."
"Knowing Serena she forgot which is very rare, I know she can be… stubborn but she wouldn't forget to mention about an allergy," Adrienne used her thumb to rub Serena's hand, "I just hope these work."
"Her temperature should go down as soon as these kick in," Edward said confidently but he couldn't help but worry, his puppy eyes looked deep into Serena his stomach twisted he felt like this when she reacted first time when pregnant, "I still can't believe I missed it."
"Edward it's not your fault," Adrienne comforted Edward was about to disagree, "Serena's just like her dad stubborn."
"Must not forget the temper," Edward laughed Serena's dad lost his temper during times like Christmas, family dinners and it was entertaining.
"Mum never talks about Granddad," Eleanor walked over, "She seems to blank the subject acts like he never existed."
Adrienne knew why she was close to Duncan it broke her heart when he died, "Serena and Duncan were like two peas in a pod, you've only got to look at her and you see Duncan, but like you Eleanor with your father," Adrienne pointed out Edward and Eleanor both smiled, "They were both as stubborn as each other neither one would admit they were wrong, but in less than an hour they would make up best of friends again," Adrienne laughed at the memories, "I don't think she's been back up to Scotland apart from that conference since."
"Remember when we went up to the Highlands? And he started talking about the Massacre of Glencoe?" Edward asked and Adrienne nodded.
"And you looked so scared your face when he kept on glaring at you," Adrienne saw Edward go red, "Duncan was a very proud Scotsman."
"Too proud," Serena mumered she must've of been listening, "But he was right about Edward," she said weakly but yet she still managed to sound terrifying, "I should've listened to him."
"If you had we wouldn't have Eleanor with us," Adrienne pointed out.
"True," Serena whispered so faint she then had the strength to open her eyes, "Ughh what's happening?" Serena asked.
"You're in hospital remember?" Ric asked, "Upper UTI."
"That explains why I feel like this then?" Serena felt feverish, her head was pounding and when she moved a bit her abdomen hurt she didn't shout out the pain instead she kept it in and collapsed her head on her pillow she felt humiliated again she was laid in a hospital bed, she didn't have a mirror so she couldn't see what she looked like but judging on her medical health probably looked a state, she had asked for her mum like a toddler would and now she was being pumped drugs into her and they were making her feel sick, "Kidney dish," she said through holding in vomit Ric rubbed her back as she vomited Serena leant her head on his other arm, "Sorry."
"You done?" Ric asked her and Serena shook her head she vomited again, Edward poured her a glass of water, Adrienne handed her tissues Eleanor looked away she didn't like vomit, "Now?" Ric asked and Serena nodded, "Eleanor can you dispose of that please?" Ric pointed to the yellow bin.
"Urmm yeah," Eleanor stood up and took the grey cardboard kidney dish and disposed of it, urging in the process which meant she had to run to the bathroom.
Serena was laid back down all dignity gone now all she needed to do was vomit in Hanssen's presence and that would be the icing on the cake. Edward noticed her face it looked sad and red almost like she could cry, without warning even Serena's mind didn't give her warning her face crumpled and tears spilled out the corners of her eyes, "Don't cry," Edward handed her some tissues he looked worried Serena took them and dabbed at her eyes, "It's OK," he placed his hand on top of her free hand, feeling Edward's touch sent a warmth around her only one that he could give.
Adrienne noticed Serena's comfortableness it worried her Edward couldn't hurt her again, charming and funny like Edward is he can also get bored very easily and not again could she see Serena be broken by the exact same man, "Edward why don't you get Serena a magazine from the shop or something," Edward went to say Eleanor can do it but then he realised why she said it, he took his hand off Serena's, she looked in no fit state to be able to read but that was the first thing that popped into Adrienne's head.
"Eleanor why don't you come with me?" Edward gave her the "come on" look, Eleanor caught on and left.
When they were out of sight of Adrienne and Serena Eleanor asked a brave question, "Dad why did Granny send you away? You weren't doing anything wrong... I mean it's weird holding hands and that but she didn't have to send you out."
Edward stepped into lift and so did Eleanor he clicked the ground floor button, "I think she thinks I'm trying to worm my way back in."
"Are you?" Eleanor asked suddenly protective over her mother, Edward himself noticed the tone in her voice.
"It's complicated," Edward answered when they reached the ground floor, Edward walked out quickly then approached the shop.
Eleanor decided to use some of her Psychology trick on Edward, "If you still love her you should tell her… because else she might get the wrong signals."
"Waaait," he sensed her trick, "If you're doing some Psych trick on me then it's not going to work."
Disappointed Eleanor grabbed a magazine for herself and storm to the counter, Edward laughed to himself realising how much like Serena Eleanor actually is, "Thanks," she handed money to the cashier and waited for Edward to come, "Took your time."
"I'm sorry if I ruined your plan," Edward joked he saw Eleanor's eyes roll, "But I'm not being tricked into admitting things that I don't even feel."
"Yeah you still love her," Eleanor walked into the lift, Edward stopped the doors from shutting.
"I don't," Edward argued.
"You doooo," Eleanor sang.
"I dooon't," Edward sang back, "Besides that ship sailed ages ago," when they walked back Serena looked more ill, Ric was squeezing in more fluids, "What happened?" Edward asked.
"She's got pain in her abdomen and back so I've sent a urine sample to the lab and also Us and Es," Ric answered.
"Diagnosis?" Edward asked.
"Well judging by the symptoms they're the same as an Upper UTI but her fever has risen," Ric showed Edward the thermometer, "She's vomited earlier-"
"It wasn't a side effect was it?" Edward asked, "Pyelonephritis?" Edward asked and Ric nodded.
"Assumed that it was the side effects," Ric kicked the bed, "Left untreated she could've got worse."
"Calm down," Adrienne stood up, "Argue in front of Eleanor and Serena it's going to make things worse."
Both men dropped their anger building inside, "Sorry," Edward sighed heavily, "I hate to say it but it's good they came on quickly... if they had brewed we would just keep treating her for a UTI."
"We'll put her on Co-Amoxiclav," Ric said to Adrienne, "It's a form of Penicillin but it's used to treat those who are allergic, but it's used to treat Pyelonephritis."
"That means?" Eleanor asked.
"Kidney infection," Ric said to Adrienne clearly he thought Eleanor was too young to know this kind of knowledge, "We'll monitor her infection, any side effects and very soon she should be feeling much better."
"The Upper UTI was what caused it to happen," Edward added, "Due to the allergic reaction her white blood cells I'll make it simple… white blood cells are the body's first defence in the recovery process, Serena's white blood cells multiplied because they were fighting both a UTI along with a forming Kidney Infection the antibiotics gave her an allergic reaction so the white blood cells got confused thinking the antibiotics was the enemy they attacked the antibiotics and then her body panicked sent out signals to react hence the rash, extremely high fever and the signs of psychological effects. Instead of healing her they made her sicker."
"That's simple terms?" Eleanor had her arms folded she looked confused, "So let me get this straight they body's first line of defence attacked mum's immune system?"
"Only because of the confusion between the antibiotics being the enemy," Edward added on Eleanor still looked confused, "With the Co-Amoxiclav they should work as soon as possible."
"What if they don't?" Eleanor asked shaking, "What if she gets attacked by her own immune system again?"
"Listen to your father," Adrienne said gently, "So is she aware of us?"
"She's aware just she's far too weak," Ric walked over and hooked her up to the antibiotics, "They should start working straight away… side effects must warn you gastrointestinal effects such as nausea, vomiting she may get dizzy spells."
"So what do we do?" Adrienne asked.
"Just stay with her and make her feel safe… she's probably a bit worried though she won't say it and also if she has another psychological effect she'll need support," Edward answered, "I've got to start my shift I'll come check every once in a while."
Chantelle came in to do obvs, "She'll probably just be sleeping for a while so if you want a coffee or something."
Serena could hear muffled voices of two women unsure who they were because she felt too ill, pressure was still in her ear but suddenly she was overpowered by nausea coughing she sat up Chantelle grabbed the kidney dish and Serena vomited her head felt dizzy she was disorientated, "Where am I?" she lifted her head from the bowl.
"You're in Keller Ms Campbell," Chantelle took the kidney dish away, "It's OK."
Serena was shivering, panicking and wasn't too sure about her surroundings, "I… I?"
"What's wrong?" Adrienne stood over, "Serena?"
"I shouldn't be here," she went to move but was stopped by the wires, feeling trapped by tight blankets and wires she felt less than safe, "Get me out."
"Ms Campbell calm down," Chantelle said kindly, "It's OK you're safe," she tried to comfort her but Serena looked terrified, "I'll page Mr Griffin."
"What shall we do?" Eleanor asked now she needed to be the understanding and caring one, "Granny?"
Serena had shuffled under the covers the infection was still playing with her head, "Serena," Adrienne said above the china white cotton duvet, "Serena you're OK," she shook the duvet.
"What's going on?" Ric asked he lifted the duvet off her head she was hot her forehead was covered in sweat, she was shaking almost looked childlike with her duvet off her head her usually dark scary eyes were shining with unshed tears and fear, "Serena can you hear me?" she couldn't respond her mind wasn't able to respond, "Serena squeeze my hand if you can hear me," Ric watched as Serena's hand connected tightly with his.
"Where am I?" she asked with almost a wobble in her voice, "Where AM I!?" She shouted and Ric pushed her down.
"Calm down," Ric said gently, "Serena you're at Holby it's me Ric."
She felt less disorientated her mind was connecting with the real world, "What?" she sat up but Ric gently pushed her down.
"You're OK," Ric sat on the bed, "Serena listen you have Pyelonephritis we're treating it with Co-Amoxiclan, you had a bad reaction to the Ciproflaxin they didn't fight off the Upper UTI so the infection spread to your kidneys before you panic… we've caught in time you'll be fine," Ric got off the bed, "Rest Serena."
Serena was taking it all in she then spoke, "I don't get it why how?"
"Dad explained it as your body's natural defences turned against you," Eleanor sat on the bed Serena rolled her eyes trust Edward to make it sound like that, "White Blood Cells didn't like the medication or something."
"Yes I know Eleanor," Serena's head still felt heavy but she was over the worse of it, "Could someone get me some water?"
Adrienne filled the cup up and Serena sat up slowly, "Thanks," her hands were shaky, "I feel so weak," she admitted and rested her head in her palm.
Adrienne fussed over Serena which Serena didn't take too kindly too, "Stay still," Adrienne ordered she was trying to get Serena comfy, "For goodness sakes Serena."
"I'm fine," Serena had her arms folded, "Mum."
"Shh," Adrienne placed one finger to her lips, "Looks like the antibiotics are taking effect you're sounding more like yourself."
Serena laid her on the pillow and looked up at the white ceiling then looked straight ahead Edward was standing at the end of the bed, "How you feeling?" he was in his blue scrubs stethoscope hanging loosely around his neck.
"Well I've managed to make a complete pratt of myself in front of everyone, I've vomited in front of my colleagues and now I'm stuck hooked up to IV so how do you think I feel?" Serena glared Edward brushed it off she hit her head against the pillow, "Sorry."
"It's fine," Edward walked over and felt her forehead, "Your temperature has gone down a bit."
"It's still high though," Serena closed her eyes Edward's hands were cold from washing them after being in theatre the coolness, made her feel relaxed Edward noticed her relaxed body language and removed his hand knowing, Adrienne wouldn't be too happy. Serena was annoyed Edward had removed his hand but she wasn't going to show it.
"I best be off," Edward walked out Eleanor watched Edward bang his head against the wall, "Pull yourself together… she doesn't like you… you don't like her."
Eleanor smiled lightly it was quite entertaining because she knew deep down that her dad loved her mum and that her mum still held a torch for her dad, Adrienne didn't want to admit it but Edward had once again caught Serena's eyes and was slowly worming his way back in like a parasite hatching onto its host, she could see it in Serena's eyes they were like a baby fixated on its mother but the question is has Edward really learnt his lesson?
Serena was once again wishing for Edward's touch he made her feel safe like she felt all those years ago, "Serena," Adrienne said.
"Yes?" Serena turned her head to the left, "Mum?" Serena pushed for Adrienne to speak.
"I know it's your life… but," she grabbed Serena's hand, "Unless you want to make your own mistakes again… please don't give him any reason to be allowed back in."
"You mean Edward?" Serena frowned and Adrienne nodded, "Like I said nothing is going on."
"I've seen the way you look at him," Adrienne admitted, "Your eyes they go all-"
"Ughh don't going all cliché on me," Serena ordered, "I can't stand it."
"I can see he's getting back in there," Adrienne used a finger to point to her heart, "I don't want it being broken again Rena."
Edward was listening hid behind the walls, "He won't… I won't let him back in."
"I know it's your life but… I saw the hurt he caused last time, do you really want that again?" Adrienne asked and Serena shook her head defeated, "Exactly you're a smart woman too smart."
Eleanor had her music in completely oblivious to the conversation, Edward looked between hurt and confused, "I can't help but… you know."
"Feel something?" Adrienne asked and Serena nodded, "He'll always hold a place in your heart, you just need to learn to know when to stop it at a certain point."
"What point is that?" Serena asked.
"Friendship?" Adrienne suggested, "He'd make a good friend… if you let him."
Serena sighed heavily the antibiotics were playing havoc with her emotions, "I don't know how to stop it."
"Of course you do," Adrienne said kindly, "What about you and Mr Griffin you're friends."
"I was never married to him though," Serena tilted her eyebrow down, "I never had a child with him… I feel something and…." Serena was cut off when pain shot through her abdomen, "Ahh!" she sat forward she squeezed her mother's hand a little too tight.
"Everything OK?" Edward walked in again avoiding Serena's gaze, "Serena are you OK?"
"Yeah just a cramp," she answered when Edward touched her stomach she used her free hand to grab his wrist, "Ouch."
Edward removed her grip, "Side effects remember? Gastrointestinal problems you're in for a rough night," Edward poured her some water, "Here."
"Thanks," Serena sensed Edward felt awkward as he couldn't even look her in the eyes, "Mum it's late why don't you and Ellie head home?"
"You sure?" Adrienne asked, "I can stay."
"I'm not going to be the best of company," Serena pointed out, "Gastroenteritis isn't pretty."
Adrienne took the hint Serena didn't want to have an audience whilst she was uncomfortable, "I'll come see you tomorrow," Adrienne kissed her goodbye Eleanor done the same and they set off home.
Serena got out of bed and pulled the IV stand along with her to the bathroom, Edward was stood talking to Ric, "And now I can't even look her in the eye."
"They're very protective of one another," Ric pointed out, "Obviously Adrienne is going to feel protective especially after what happened last time," Ric saw Edward's eyes look sad, "Don't go blanking her it'll just confuse her."
Serena was back from the toilet Ric and Edward noticed her looking very weak, she looked about ready to pass out but luckily Ric grabbed one arm and Edward the other, "Let go," Serena snapped at both men clearly embarrassed, Edward let go and Ric did to Serena managed to get back into bed before her stomach cramped again, "Fucks sake!" she exclaimed.
"Want a hand?" Ric asked Serena glared at him as she got out of bed, "Serena let me take you to the bathroom."
"What am I incapable?" Serena asked insulted but she had no time to argue she had rush, Ric and Edward stood trying not laugh.
"Oh dear," Edward bit his finger, "Well I think she'll be up and down during the night… one of us best stay here unless she needs help."
"I think that's you," Ric ordered Edward looked confused.
"Why me?"
"Because you're her ex and you of all people know her better than me," Ric answered, "I'm off to do paperwork if there's any problems page me."
Edward waited for Serena to come back out, he wondered how she was going to deal with the night. Serena came back out looking drained her body was shaking, "Let me help," Edward offered.
"So now you talk to me," Serena sat on the bed she didn't want to risk getting comfy Edward felt the icy coldness coming off her body.
"You're freezing," he wrapped a blanket around her she didn't reject, "I didn't want to make Adrienne upset."
"Of course," Serena stayed staring forward, "My mum doesn't run my life," even under the nice warm blanket she still felt cold, Edward felt her shaking again.
"Serena you need to be in bed," Edward advised.
"No… not until my… stomach has settled down."
"Ohhh," Edward felt awkward, "I guess the antibiotics are showing their side effects."
Nodding Serena felt dizzy, "Oh."
"Woah," Edward pulled her back up, "You need to be lying down," he finally looked at her, her eyes again weren't filled with the usual ready to use glare they looked warm and terrified, "Why do you look so scared?" he asked her gently.
"Oh I didn't realise," she tried to readjust her facial expression with difficulty, "Anyway haven't you got work to be doing?" she crawled back into the bed then sighed heavily.
"It can wait," Edward sat on the bed, "So you've got from an Upper UTI to a Kidney infection."
"I'm thrilled you find my medical state so amusing," Serena looked up at the ceiling then she felt sick build in her throat, "Kidney dish!" she ordered Edward reached over and gave it to her vomit shot out of her mouth Edward rubbed her back.
"Finished?" he continued to rub her back in a circular motion, "I take that as a no," Serena sat back her head hitting the pillow, "Better?" Edward asked whilst pouring her water, Serena took the glass the bland tasting water combined with an acidy taste wasn't very nice. She shook her head as not long after she was vomiting again, "Haven't known you to vomit this much since… well since you had morning sickness," Edward had one hand resting on the bed and the other was rubbing her back again, "Done?" she nodded and Edward took away the kidney dish.
"Sorry," she apologized subconsciously.
"Don't be… you can't help it," Edward looked sympathetic, "Lay back down," when she laid back down Edward pulled the duvet back up then poured her another glass of water, "Keep your fluids up."
"I know," Serena grumbled he didn't need to treat her like an idiot, "But thank you."
"I think those antibiotics are messing with your head… this is the nicest you've been to me," Edward joked Serena laughed slightly. He placed his hand to her forehead, "Your temperature has gone down a bit," he smiled, "You're not wearing your necklace?"
"I never wear it around the time," Serena informed him, "It doesn't feel right."
"He'd want you to wear it," Edward said carefully he knew she was touchy around the Anniversary of her father's death it had hit her very, very hard, "He got it for you when you returned from Harvard."
Serena looked at the necklace sat on the beside table, "I'll wear it once the day is over and done with."
"Your call," Edward shrugged, "I'll come see you in a bit OK."
Serena watched Edward walk off she closed her eyes waiting for sleep to overpower her.
I love train journeys especially long ones because I got loads of Sedward ideas haha (: review please xx