IM ALIVE! SO FAR... im REALLY REALLY REALLY SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING and its almost a year... or it is a year... since i last updated... well.. please dont expect anything from me since im naturally a lazy person and i have so many ideas that i just cant write/type.
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(im sorry for the wrong grammars but try to read this in a child's point of view since these characters are still children ^_^ and i hope i could plan on when i could finally place them in the black order arc)
She's my innocence
chapter 3
It's been a year since we came here in the circus. We really thought it would get better if we stay longer and get to know them better but it was the total opposite of what we expected; the longer we stayed the harder they punished us. It was hard for Red but he kept on telling me that he'll be stronger then we could leave this place but the only reason we haven't left is because we don't even know where to go. Here in the circus we have somewhere to stay and sleep while in the outside we would sleep in the streets. But I hate them for hurting and false accusing him for no reason! I want to destroy them but he told me not to...why?
I walked along the snowy field until I came up a hill, it was a beautiful view. I could see the town below me and the circus behind me. "This place is so peaceful" I said to myself then I spotted a boy walking around the snow, it was Red! I waved and shouted his name "Red! Red!" I then ran down the hill and jumped in his arms making him wince.
"Hey Red, come on I have something to show you!" I said happily as I grabbed his good arm he gave another wince this time I eyed him seriously "are you okay red?" I asked
"Yeah I'm okay you don't need to worry a thing" he said innocently
"Liar" I silently hissed to myself but clearly he heard something giving me a reassuring smile.
"I'm okay crystal" he said again this time he folded up his long sleeve revealing that his arm was full of bruises blue and purple all around "its just the usual... its not that bad". This time Red kneeled down and looked up at my face, he could see that I was fighting not to cry. "shhh don't cry I promise you that I will be stronger then we could leave this place and go where ever the wind would take us." he then started to comfort me by making a soft humming tune "stop crying crystal or else you wont look cute with that sad face on" he joked making me a little irritated
"STUPID RED!" I shouted then pushed him on the snow "wait here, I'll get some medicine for those bruises" I said looking at him with annoyance. "Okay" he laughed.
"Oh and please just lay around the snow, it would help you ease the pain"
"okay crystal I will" with that i ran off back to the circus and went to our tent where I secretly hide herbs and medicine because of how often we get hurt from the mistreating of the circus performers.
after a few minutes of leaving red alone i came back to the hill where i told him to stay, I saw a boy talking to red then i heard him scream "FREAK! FREAK!" then dashed off. My mind seems to be in a state of shock until i came back to reality and realized how cruel this world is and how fast humans react negatively when they see something they don't understand, I hate it, I hate how they misjudge others by appearance and how weak they are towards fate. no wonder they always fell prey to the millennium earl. Why won't they allow themselves to understand that those who passed away are now in a happier place. Then I looked at Red sadly "would that same mistake happen to him?" i asked myself. "That's impossible, he told me he will become stronger and i believe it" i smiled to myself.
"Hey Crystal! Where have you been?" he ran towards me
"Oh I was- ummm well- ermm i just-"
"Never mind. i just want to go back to our tent because some no good kid showed up and asked what kind of performance i do in that stupid circus." he mumbled
as we where walking back to our tent we heard a loud noise coming from one of the performer's tent.
"shhh" I told red as i pulled him down near a crate of pilled up boxes.
"What's going on?" he asked
"Nothing good that's for sure"
we waited until it suddenly became quiet and a figure came out of the tent. "Cosimov!" red gasped but i place my hand over his mouth to prevent us being discovered.
"i heard he was jealous of the new comer so he beat me up just to release his anger." red whispered
"That stupid cosimov! I'll make sure his soul will burn in hell!" i cursed. "i think its better if we clean up that tent and make sure nothing is missing" i stood up and checked if its safe to come out then i gave a signal meaning its 'safe to come out'
"I guess if something would be missing it would be us to be blamed." red said with a sigh
"Yeah they always blame us for any misfortune"
As we finally entered the tent, the tent was thrashed but nothing was broken.
"This place is a dump" red complained
"Well at least nothing is broken" i said happily
"Yeah yeah yeah... let's just start cleaning so we could finally go back to our own tent"
The cleaning was simple and easy. by the time we where almost done a dog popped out under the bed and took one of the balls.
"Hey come back!" red yelled
"I'll take care of the cleaning while you catch that dog."
"Okay" with that he ran off leaving me with the cleaning. "oh well" i sighed "i guess i should tidy up the place before red gets back"
-Red's POV-
"Come back doggy!" i yelled as i ran through the snow chasing the brown and white dog.
I feel like i was almost going to give up on the dog, im so tired and my body hurts. i finally collapsed on the soft cold snow "im never going to get that ball back" but then the dog came back and placed the ball on my head then i looked at the dog with its big black eyes and ask "do you want to play fetch?" then the dog replied with a joyful bark. "Okay then... here i go... FETCH!" i threw the ball ungracefully in the air and then the dog barked happily as it chased the ball then returned it to me.
Being with that dog was fun. i feel like all my pain was gone as i played with him, it felt like i haven't played like a child for a long time but now it felt so great to feel as if to play like a normal child would with his dog. i never realized how the time flew by until heard a clown whistling and calling the dog, without hesitation the dog ran back to its owner but it gave a short bark at me before continuing to run back to its owner's arms. i didn't even knew the dog's name but i guess its for the best since they wont stay long and it would only hurt me in the end.
I just stayed there and collapse again on the soft snow bed until finally my face was dumped with a snowball.
"How long are you going to lay around there and get sick?" crystal appeared out of no where
"Hey crystal, i didn't see you there. How long have you've been watching me" i questioned half innocently and half annoyed
"Well enough to get my butt frozen on the snow. it seems like you've enjoyed playing with the dog" crystal secretly smirked "it was kinda cute too"
"Wait. You saw me playing?!" i flushed then crystal gave a short nod
"I don't really mind, its good to at least be happy and have fun in playing, it's quite normal" then she gave me a reassuring smile
I sighed "but soon that dog will soon leave the circus. it will only hurt me if i get too attached to it." i said sadly
Then with out warning crystal threw a snowball at me then started to pet me on my snow covered hair "baka!" she laughed "dont think anything negative and STOP sigh-ing. Do you want to turn old? Just remember all the good times that you share so you won't regret anything in the future! Come on smile for me!" she place both of her fingers on her face and gave a huge grin that somehow made me giggle.
"Alright alright i give up" i laughed
"That's more like it!"
"Never forget the fun times you share and never regret it..." ill try to remember that...
i understand that mana was mentioned in the last chapter and you guys didnt expect this one coming but this will be explained in the next chapter ;)
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