Getting Myself Back To Your Heart

Chp3: I Want More

Lol. I liked Athrun last chapter when he was trying to get laid with Cagalli, but nothing happened. haaaaa. Thanks for all your reviews! hehe I really appreciate it. I dunno tho, it's hard to try and come up with something to write. And when you do have something, it's so hard to still try and make it work. Like for example Love Is A Book, I really have no idea what to do for it next. I might make it like a sequel or something just because...yea... it's totally whack, but I'm going to finish it, one way or another...Through the Wire is my favourite story beside this one, but its hard to think about to. This story is the first story that I've actually written down on paper, because the idea was kinda cool to me. But enough of the process making story, lets go to the actual story.

E-n-j-o-y !

Okey here's to clear up somethingss... Most of you always speculate Cagalli of always beating the crap out of people, but she obviously isn't like that...Especially in this story. Sure she'll be like that in some parts, but it'll be like a funny kind of beat up...not like dangerousness...unless its for like yuuna or somethinn XD But yah...DOn't expect bashing in every chapter XD But I'll make it up to you!! I promise.

Ookey there's a kinda lemon, but it doesn't describe it in like some negative connotation. It's not revealing actually. We can all say we're mature, and this definitely can still fit in the T rated section.

DISCLAIMER: The Authors of this site (including me) don't own our library books. Lol so don't expect any one of us owning Gundam Seed.

Getting Myself Back To Your Heart

Chapter Three: I Want More

Hospital Room-308- 10:30PM

"Yes, Lacus?" Kira popped his head through the door. WHen he saw that the doctors weren't in the room anymore, he went inside and slowly closed the door. He walked up to his pink haired lover and kissed her forehead.

"Who were you talking to?" Lacus said with a tired voice.

"Oh, I was talking to Cagalli." Kira said when his face suddenly turned suspicious.

"Huh? What's wrong, Kira?" Lacus asked with concern.

"Athrun was at the house..."

"..."

Kira nodded as their gazes met in disbelief.

"As in Athrun Zala, OUR Athrun?" Lacus asked almost raising herself from her current position.

Kira nodded slowly.

"He found Julian too..."

Lacus had a concerned look on her face. They both knew that Athrun was just supposed to come in a week's time. Did he want to come back that quickly? Their baby started to cry, not very far from Lacus' hospital bed. Kira walked over to her, and gently stroked her back. After a few minutes she had peacefully gone to sleep. Kira returned to his lover.

"They sounded like they were having fun...I don't think she broke the news yet." Kira's face sterned.

"Maybe he was happy about being Julian's father..." Lacus said.

"I don't know... Cagalli's not going to be straight with him. I know her. We don't even know what's really going on with Athrun either... They're both liars to themselves..." Kira shook his head disappointedly.

Lacus placed her hand on top of his, as a gesture, "Honey, don't use such words. They just have to come out straight to each other, some time. It's been long, I know, but I think if they were having fun then it's a good thing. Maybe when Cagalli tells him that Julian is his son, they'll probably have many more kids, or married, so he won't be that mad."

"I don't know Lacus, I don't mind seeing them together again that much, but there's a child involved this time. It's harder. What if Julian catches them having sex or something inappropriate? It really might affect him. Or if he got too close to his father and Cagalli never told Athrun, but they would break up again. It would be chaos. Cagalli has to straighten things out soon before something bad really happens." Kira said worriedly.

"Kira...you know what I like about you?" Lacus smoothed his hair.

"What?" Kira said plainly. He knew he was gonna get a sermon.

"You know how to protect, but you do it just too much. It's Cagalli's life, you know? She'll sort it out. I think if Athrun just found Julian by chance, it wasn't only chance. Something is supposed to happen. Something special between Athrun and Cagalli, and from the bottom of my heart I really hope that it's love." Lacus said with hope.

"I hope so..." Kira rested his head on his lover's lap.

"Plus..." Lacus added, "Athrun came a week earlier than what he said...He must've remembered something."

Kira's head slowly rose to meet Lacus' gaze. Kira smiled. Athrun...he remembered Cagalli's birthday. Lacus waited for a reply from her husband.

"I don't know how you seem to figure out these things all the time..." Kira pecked his wife on the lips.

Orb Royal Highway- 10:30PM

"Oh crap..." Athrun began to curse in his mind, "I was so caught up in kissing her that I forgot to tell her happy birthday...wrong move Athrun!"

He didn't know whether to to stop at the side or wait till he got home. It would be hard for him to talk at the side because he wouldn't see the numbers. So he figured that he had no other choice but to talk to her when he got home.

The highway was a dark and scary place, obviously for anyone who travels it alone. Although not really for Athrun. In the past when he and Cagalli were still together, he would ride to her house and they would go to his for one of their little "sleepovers" He missed those days. He just remembered that her being in his life as boyfriend and girlfriend was a hell of a lot of fun. They went on so many adventures, In highschool, when the rest of the grade went to this cabin house at the most northern tip of Orb, the two lovers had booked a trip to France and stayed there for the amount of time that the rest did. KNow one knew about it, not even Kira. Why? Because Lacus was too much of a distraction for him.

Before Athrun met Julian--almost running over him, he was about to head to Cagalli's house...which he actually thought was somewhere else. He would have ended up trying to find her house anyways, but he had to do something good for the world first. Running over a little kid wasn't something good that you could put on your resume. Especially if you wanted to become a truck driver. Not that he wanted to be one! He was happy where he was in regards to employment.

He did remember it was Cagalli's birthday, and as Lacus predicted, it was why he had came home early. After being away for five years, he felt that she was someone that he really needed to see. Especially after being alone in Japan. Plus he missed her...was it that bad to miss a person even after you broke up?

It was true he had to admit he came back for her because he really did miss her. Although there was another reason...He had to visit his mom. Well I guess his mother's grave. His mother, Lenore Zala, was a very close person to Athrun and deeply affected on who Athrun behaves and acts today. Well he kind of got wilder after she passed away, but not to the extreme.

She had died in a car accident by some guy who was really drunk. It was when he was fifteen years old, when him and Cagalli first started dating. Lenore loved the fact that he was dating this girl. She thought that Cagalli was really a fun person to be with Athrun, plus the fact that their mothers used to be friends. Cagalli's mother and father had died as well, but more recent, when the twins were nineteen, a few months after Kira and Lacus' wedding.

He was coming from the cemetary when he was going to Cagalli's house, or what house he thought was hers. Something Lenore said to him while they were gardening outside really sparked his love for Cagalli. She said that you only needed one person to make you happy in your life. If he made the right decisions. He suddenly remembered all the wonderful things that she did to make him happy, especially that one time when she made a dinner for just the two of them.

FLASHBACK-October 29 C.E. 63-Athrun's House

It was Athrun's birthday, and he was finally turning eighteen. Earlier in his life, Athrun had been working at the old man's convenience store that he used in his lie. It was a real store, and he used to be the cashier. It was finally seven in the evening, and his shift was finally over. He rode on his motorcycle, looking so cool, and so fresh.

He parked at the front of the house, and opened the garage to put his bike in. When he arrived, the lights were on, and Cagalli was there, leaning against the hallway smiling. SHe wasn't dressed in anything fancy, just her regular blue jeans and t-shirt. Athrun was surprised, he thought he was going to go take a shower first then meet up with Cagalli.

"I got to you first! Happy Birthday, Baby!!!" Cagalli said as she ran into his arms.

Athrun laughed at her childness, "Thanks, Cagalli. I thought I was going to pick you up."

Cagalli looked into his eyes, "I know, but I had something to do...Let me show you."

SHe took his hand, a led him through the hallway to the kitchen. On the table, there was a whole dinner prepared for the two of them. Candle lit too. Red rose petals were spread across the table and the floor. Athrun's eyes started to tear up, and he tried his best to fight them back. ALthough Cagalli saw right through him.

"Athrun, are you crying?" she looked at her boyfriend. He just began to wipe his tears. After he took her hands in his, and smiled.

"You know...I've never told you this. But it's something my mom told me, and I had a feeling that it was about you. She said that you only needed one person to make you happy in your life. And this, Cagalli...what you did for me, I think this is the happiest birthday I've ever had..." He smiled. Cagalli punched him lightly on the arm.

"Athrun...Don't go soft on me. I just hope you'll still love me if what I cooked doesn't taste good." She grinned.

"Heh." He wiped the final tears, "Nah. I'd probably still love you...But if this doesn't work out, then I'll order pizza, 'kay?"

SHe rolled her eyes. They approached the table and Athrun pulled out a seat for her, and gently pushed her in before sitting in his own. Cagalli gave Athrun a small thanks, and both began to eat. Athrun looked at Cagalli after his first bite.

"Cagalli..."

Cagalli looked at the man in front of her nervously. "Mmm Hmm?"

"YOU CAN COOK!" Athrun congratulated her as they high-fived. Athrun held onto that hand.

"Four years together, huh? It wasn't that hard...I mean your temper and Kira's creates a hell of a storm, but I think I can manuever through it..."

He paused.

"Cagalli...thank you. For just everything...I really am speechless..."

Cagalli now was as red as the rose petals scattered on the floor. Athrun knew how to thank people, and he knew how to thank them good. Damn him and his ability to always feel so important.

They ate for a while, and talked about their next year in university, sophmore year. It was actually pretty weird talking about it because they had seemed to young. 18 still is pretty young, but not as young as they wanted to stay. Growing up together was almost too easy, because somehow they would always end up together doing something. Although when it was time for them to separate, like now since they were going to different universities...It was important for them to talk and communicate with each other. They could possibly drift apart.

After their dinner Athrun and Cagalli helped each other wash the dishes.

"You know what would be funny?" Cagalli said out of the blue.

"What?"

"If we ever chose to get married, and not have any moments like these anymore..."

Athrun laughed, "Like I'd be some couch potato, and you'd be a fat lady taking care of children?"

Cagalli laughed, "Yea..."

Athrun wiped a plate, "I will assure you that will never happen...Unless I cook you really fattening foods, or I don't get accepted into any jobs."

Cagalli's face turned into an interested expression, and turned around, "Hmm...and what would you cook me?" she kissed his lips.

"Hmm..." He said kissing her back, parting with every word, "I... would cook you...anything that you'd want..." He finally circled his arms around her waist.

"And we all know, Cagalli, that you'd want anything that isn't healthy...and you'd demand for it..."

She turned around to continue to wash the dishes. She knew what he wanted, but she wanted to torture him first. He kissed her neck affectionnately and slowly, as he tried to get a response from her.

"What are you trying to do, Athrun?" Cagalli asked.

Athrun kept on kissing her neck, and drew circles on her stomach with his finger. It ticked her, and was making it hard for her to not give what he wanted. She knew it was his birthday, but still...It was more of a mental war on which she should listen to. Her body, or her head.

He placed the cloth, at the edge of the sink and started to get a response as her head started to slowly move back, leaning on his shoulder. SHe was starting to lose...she couldn't, not after all the things she had achieved today.

"...Somethin' healthy...that you'll absoulutely love..." he smiled at his own catch phrases. If it was one.

She finally gave in. If she hadn't made a move at that moment, she would have been starting to torture herself too. In his arms, she turned around and slowly found themseleves gazing into each other's eyes. Her removed gloves were hanged at the edge of the sink. Cagalli suddenly thought of an idea...

"Athrun...I still have a few things for you..." Cagalli purred.

Athrun liked the sound of that. He knew where this was leading to... and he liked it. He was going to play along with her, make sure that it would be a hell of a good night for the both of them. Suddenly while his thoughts flowed through his mind, he felt Cagalli's lips fiercly pushing against his. He fought back and sneakily slid his tounge into Cagalli's mouth, making her moan in surprise.

"Mmm..." Athrun moaned inside her mouth. He started to slide his hands down from his shoulders to Cagalli's back, and eventually lower.

Cagalli tiptoed, because Athrun was a bit tall for her to reach on just standing on her feet. She felt her insides turn out as Athrun had been giving her one of his best kisses. His tounge swirled around in her mouth, trying to play tag with her tounge. She gently bit his lower lip trying to tell him that it was time for them to continue. Athrun got the message, but pretended not to. He just wanted to torture her...just a little.

He slid one of his hands to her pants, and undid the button and the zipper. He slowed down the pace while they kissed, intentionally so he could gently stroke the sensitive area between her stomach and her cave of pleasure outside her underwear.

She had a gasp of air, the chills started to run down her body. She felt his hands stroke her lower stomach, and boy did it feel good. She started to get wet in her lower area, as she was already feeling pleasured and losing to her lover's expression of love. She tugged on his shirt, pulling the both of them towards the living room couch. She tripped on the arm portion, and stumbled on the cushions. Hitting her head against the other side of the couch.

"Shit." Cagalli cursed under her breath as she broke the kiss.

Athrun, only a few millimetres away softly chucked at her cursing and kissed her lips.

"Don't worry, Cagalli...You'll forget all about that bump once I'm through with you..."

"Not if I get to you first."

He began to kiss her again, her defiance seemed to fuel his passion. He kissed her a full five minutes before he reached under her shirt. She stopped him.

"Athrun, upstairs." she commmanded.

"Cagalli! Be patient. Let me work on you for a second. Just relax."

"Athrun, upstairs. You're dad's gonna find something on the couch."

"Something like what?"

"..."

"..."

Cagalli smirked at him. Athrun sighed as he slumped into Cagalli's shoulder. Both of them laughed.

Cagalli relied on her elbows for support, and had her legs already spread apart. Talk about excited. Athrun just lay flat now, after slumping.

All of a sudden, he got up and lifted her by the hips. She screamed in surprise, but held on to him by lacing around to the back of his neck.

"Athrun, you maniac! You can't climb up the stairs!"

"Yea I can."

And climb up the stairs he did. Backwards. THe only mistake he did was bang on the door while it was closed. He gained a little laugh from Cagalli, because obviously someone else's pain in another person's pleasure. He practically dropped her on the bed and removed his shirt off. She once again got a chance to look at his body. His HOT body. She loved it. They had been doing it for a while now. Just probably last year. Even they tested their love through a lot of things, and when the ultimate test had finished, they felt that it was the right time to do it. It was the most reasonable time, it was the most valued. They were going to marry each other anyways, he promised her that.

She loved his body, she didn't know how he got it like that, but it was hot. Every muscle on his body almost chisled to perfection, pecs, abs, arms...it drove her mind crazy. The way he held her, ahh...that was pleasure enough.

She just lay back on his pillows, watching as her man quickly undressed while she did nothing but watch and drool over his body. He caught her looking, then she noticed that she was still fully dressed. He looked at her funny while trying to remove his socks.

"Well...UNDRESS WILL YOU!" He said almost shyly.

He, now clad in his boxers climbed onto the bed. He crawled to his lover, after reaching kissing her gently on the lips. She reached his ear, breathing nervously while he kissed her neck.

"Happy Birthday, Athrun...I'm your birthday gift."

He removed himself from her neck and met her eyes. He loved his present, simple yet has so much meaning. She didn't know how much she meant to him, how good she mad him feel. SHe didn't know the half of it. He just kept staring until she broke their silence.

"Well...UNWRAP ME!" SHe demanded urgingly. She blushed.

IN a matter of seconds he was pulling down her pants, and they became property of the floor beneath them. He saw the end of a silky, lacy green dress popping out from her shirt. They both blushed.

"Lingerie?"

"Yea...um this was bound to happen sometime tonight, I hope you know that...so I prepared myself."

"You are simply too cute. I love you." he said the last sentence singing-like. He started to lift her shirt up, and decided to keep the dress on because it would be pointless if she only wore it once for like five seconds.Trust me, if he ever got that lucky again to see that dress on her, they would probably be on their honeymoon. Although this was almost too close to one.

"Now...What shall I do with you Cagalli?" Athrun decided to make her wait.

Cagalli had felt such urge to drive herself into him that it drove her crazy. She had to do something soon, before the urge would fade away. So she slipped above him, ordered him to lay down, doing things to him that he would never ever think anyone could ever do to someone. He exploded with the utmost passion, and flipped her over anxiously to make such love that her mind would overload with pleasure.

Once the two lovers joined that night, no one could stop them, and there wasn't a soul that tried. THey moved together with a pace so lustful, so beautiful, that it drove her to the most dangerous edge of pleasure. It was starting to get too much for her, and there was nothing she could do but moan in reply as Athrun kissed her senseless. He felt the session almost coming to an end, and exited her body, making love to her by teasing her senses.

He touched her everywhere, but made sure that it wasn't so forceful. She wanted more of it, she could have never felt any better. This was the best night in her life. He removed her green dress and threw it, but threw in a crappy manner that made it go under his bed. He continued to tease her, and at last after their thoughts coming together that they should join again, they did.

This time it was faster, and Cagalli together with her love moaned like there was no tomorrow. Rhythmically, they seemed to keep in time with each other, as well as Cagalli's moans. She kept them close to his neck, Athrun feeling a newer kind of adrenaline and sensation than the first. Suddenly Cagalli ordered him to go faster, and he followed. He played with her body with her response after each push, the music that he could listen to forever in his ears.

After another minute passed, the two teenagers soaked the gaps between them, and their love passed through their connection. It was beautiful to say the least, because that was the moment of her darling son's conception. Their love juices exchaged and seemed to have put the two lovers in a more happeir state than what they would ever feel before or after this night. Nothing would ever compare. He slowly dropped himself on top of his lover, she was still panting for recovery, her final moan still screaming in his memory.

He turned his head to the right to whisper an 'I love you' before kissing her cheek so lovingly. She hugged him in return and felt each other's body still trying to calm down. He rolled over so she could sleep on him instead, knowing that if it was the other way around he would be sure to find his lover dead. Cagalli limply followed his moves, because she was dead tired and so needily wanted to sleep.

Athrun had stayed inside her for the whole night, but sadly morning came faster than expected. They did another round of their little naughty games, before heading to the shower and heading for school.

End Of FLASHBACK

It was almost weird and awkward to express the way that Athrun had felt right now. He felt guilty, he didn't even know the half of it either. He didn't know that he was Julian's father, that Cagalli had never really gotten physically or even emotionally linked remotely close as they were, that she felt totally abandoned. He had no knowledge of this, but he still felt guilty. If he had stayed with her, Julian would be his child. Although remember that he didn't know, he wondered what Julian would look like if he had his genes (Which really Julian had). If he had stayed with her, she would be his wife and they would live far away from this place where everything seemed to be so dull.

He would think they'd had a beautiful life on the beach. Not just because it was beautiful there, but it was also the place they had met. Kira and Lacus were holding a volleyball party, and the blonde plus bluenette were on opposite teams. Lunamaria decided to play a few tricks here and there, and they finally decided to hook up. All in that same day. THen they actually noticed that they went to the same high school (Cagalli and Athrun weren't really good with names, especially since there was a large population of students).

Athrun still riding through the highway, exited right and began to drive on regular streets again. He thought of the day he left her...

FLASHBACK

It was the middle of November, everything seemed to be dreadful that day. THe trees were already sapped of their life for another year. They sat patiently as winter began to rip through them.

The students had taken a five day trip to Canada. It was for an internation basketball tournament. The lovers had ended up in their school teams. The winters there were almost breathtaking, but deadly. THe snow that had already fallen to the ground was probably as much as 5cm, covering most of the grass, and some of the floor. Salt was spread everywhere on the streets, and cars drove in thin layers of slush that seemed to splash about anywhere it wanted to.

The two lovers were constantly arguing during the trip, even recently, they had been at it all the time. The most idolized couple in both schools (far more than Kira and Lacus) were breaking up. Everyone could see it, and he was the one that told her to get off the bandwagon...

The two had met secretly in a street tunnel that night, because he had called her up to do so. She was already pregnant at the time, and thought that it was the best time to announce the good news. So that night she left quietly, leaving Lacus in the room.

It was about five minutes later that they had finally seen each other. When they did, they hugged. Athrun was seemed a little nervous and sad. IT made it even more harder for him to tell the things that he needed to say, when he saw the bright smile that occupied his face. The smile that he would miss for the next five years and counting. He held her hand.

Cars had seldomly passed by, but they could still hear each other speaking. He took a deep breath.

"Cagalli..."

"Uh huh?" Cagalli made a smaller smile because of the seriousness in his face. It made him look older than what he actually was.

"You know...for the past week...we've been having fights, and I don't know why..."

Cagalli's face turned serious, but had to joyuously explain, "But I--"

He didn't give her the chance.

"It's gonna be kinda tough to break these four years, but...I've never seen you like this. I've also been seeing you around with other men..." he spoke softly, but stern.

"..And for me...to truthfull tell you...I'm beginning to go with other women."

Cagalli's eyes grew wide. He was lying! He must be! He can't just break four years like that!

"You knew this was falling apart, Cagalli...But I still wanna remain friends."

Cagalli dumbfounded, was furious in her mind, but she dared not show it...there were witnesses. How dare he use the 'I wanna still be friends' line against her? THat jerk!

"Cagalli?" He made her focus.

"I thought you looked like you wanted to say something earlier..."

She just didn't want to speak anymore. A kind of unsteadyness seeped through his mind, and through his voice, as if he was about to cry.

"Cagalli...Thanks for understanding...I'm sorry it had to end tonight. But I know you're a strong person..." he turned to walk away. She could swear that he heard the words 'I love you' still come from his mouth. Why would he cry if he wasn't still in love? A tear started to fall from her eye, and soon more would begin to form. She whispered once he was finally out of sight, out of her life...for good. Or in this case, for the worst.

"But Athrun...I'm pregnant..." she said alone in the tunnel, as she furiously ran back to the hotel room to her eyes out.

So much...for a 'sweet November'...

END OF FLASHBACK

Cagalli's house 11:30PM

Cagalli wiped a tear as she held her pillow tightly and watched the two lovers on the tv screen separate for the absolute last time. It was the most saddest thing that she had ever seen.

Okay. What was so bad about watching soap operas at night? There were specials going on! No one was going to stop her from watching her soap operas. Especially this one her---

RING!!! RING!!!!

"DAMNIT!" Cagalli yelled. She wide-eyed, and quickly scanned around the room if any of the children started to stir. She huffed a 'Thank God' and picked up the phone.

"Cagalli?" She thought furiously in her mind, "WASN"T HE JUST FUCKING HERE?!?!"

"Zala, listen. This better be a good reason because I'm watching my soap opera, here!!" she fumed through the phone.

"Soap opera?!?! What the hell? Since when were you a fan of soap opera's?" he said through the other line.

"Since I became a mother, now what do you want Athrun?" she siad impatiently. Damnit it was commercial now.

"I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday...that's all..." Athrun smiled through the phone, he knew she would become silent for a few moments.

He was right. A blush migrated to her cheeks as she began to smile on the phone.

"Thanks, Athrun. I have to go, I really have to watch this." Cagalli smiled as she noticed the commercial was over.

"Okey then, Cagalli. Good night. What channel is it on?" Athrun asked interested.

"...Channel...six..." she forwarded her attention to the television rather than to him.

"Okey...thanks...Cagalli?"

"Yeah..."

"Are you sure that I still can't stay there tonight?"

...'click'

She hung up on him.

SHe quickly sat herself back down, and couldn't help but think about how the couple so rememinded her of Athrun and herself nearly five years ago. How happy they were, and how stupidly they fell apart.

She remembered all of the good times, and just because of one bad he decided for it to end. But now she knew that it was starting again. She could feel it, she felt it in his kiss. That slow, gentle, loving kiss that he had decided to imprint on her mind for a while. She remembered something else particular.

The day that he promised that they would be married. The day that he proclaimed his everlasting love, and how they would be together no matter what happened.

He gave her a promise ring. It held a purple gemstone, and had a particularly fancy design, but didn't over indulge itself. Sher remembered him placing it on her ring finger, the one that only people that were getting married would wear a ring on. He told her that she would never be forgotten, and if something had ever happened, they would still com back for each other.

Ironically he gave this ring to her two days before they split up, and she had only noticed it until now...

Was he finally coming back for her?

She continued watching her show and noticed the girl's lonliness and compared it to her own.

Maybe she did miss him, just a little.

GAHHHHHHH!!! Finally its done! I hope that you guys aren't too upset...or upset at all for any of that matter when I didn't describe the lemon as much as I should have. I had to withhold it for another chapter... Some chapter that's more important than this one. Athrun seems like a bitch, doesn't he? Cagalli...well Cagalli got angry. I hope that made you happy. XD I can't really promise you anything. ahaha. I just hoped you liked the chapter. The next one will be about...let's see...It will be about the future. Literally...well kinda. XD Please review! Thanks 3

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