Sorry for the longest wait in history of ever, guys. I was so stupefied reading updates of my favourites (you should check those out too) I almost lost track of my own story lmao.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight but I love it more than my cell phone.

*Cell phone (mobile for all you U.K beauty's) buzzed off the edge of the table. I flip it open and read "Than I wish to ddddiiiieeeeee… :-x. It cut off never to turn on again.*…

A/N- hope you guys don't mind but I have to dedicate this whole story to my ex which whom fuelled me with the passion to be able to write right now… So this is to Stephen.

Chapter Four

I clung to him desperately and after a few moments his sobs ceased.

He carried me all the way home in sheer silence.

I knew he didn't want to talk and if we remained in this noise-less situation my mind would wander. It would run down all the ways and times he could leave me… most likely at my front door -with such ease my insinuation of his feelings would crumble. So instead of wasting this time I contemplated on how to make him stay with me as long as possible.

I knew deep in my… brain that I didn't deserve such a gifting creature. But hey call me selfish I wanted to keep him any way, he bonded himself to me for eternity when he first spit out that he loved me, so he'd have to get over his pity party.

I thought of the possibilities; of him leaving me at the door.

I thought of bashing my head on the front door till he came back and demanded me to stop.

I thought of him saying he had to leave me eventually and thought of the fact that he'd never come back, I would go to his house and not leave until he stopped this nonsense.

I thought of him leaving as I slept… I couldn't think of a way to stop that, so I registered that Charlie's old unused coffee maker would be put to use immediately. We were at my door before I could think of anything else, he had the door open in an all too familiar- and sometimes annoying- speed.

He raced me to my room and put me down on my feet, before I could fall he spun around and held me till I was balanced. That's when I noticed and couldn't hold my tongue as I blurted out the dumbest question "When did it rain??" I inspected me drenched arm and finally felt myself shiver as a chill ran down me soaked and dripping back.

Ignoring my question he looked blankly at me and said "you should take a hot shower you're shivering". "No" I nearly shouted "I'm fine" I lied feeling a sneeze coming on and silently cursed it. AH-CHOO! I sneezed roughly making my nostrils burn and my sinuses puckered at the pain. He raised an eyebrow over an all too knowing eyes… wait? There's something there… he's worried… and smug… and still trying to guard himself from me. I lowered my eyes and mumbled, hoping for once he didn't have such extraordinary hearing "I'm afraid you'll leave me". He didn't respond, eyeing the floor. "Exactly" my voice almost cracked. "Bella you're going to get yourself sick… over me. Do you really think that makes this any better?" he said seriously, a growl buried deep in his throat. Easily irritated… NOT good. I didn't respond, I thought about my options for a moment after a minute or two I had an idea but being Isabella Swan I hesitated. "H-h-h how-about-I-take-a-bubble-bath-and-you-sit-with-me?" I stuttered the first word, and rushed the rest entangling them with each other. His eyes appraised me, shock painting his entire body (if I wasn't so terrified of his answer I would have laughed at his stature); I bit my lip at first hard, than before I could bust it open I stopped and looked at him determined and meaningfully. He sighed hard pinched the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger and said slowly "How would that work, Bella? Did you think about what just fell through your teeth or did it just slip?" he said. I was almost upset until I saw his eyes grow out of focus and his teeth started grinding into his bottom lip, I almost smirked (he was picturing me naked, I knew it). "I'll pour the whole bottle of bubble bath if needed… Just stay with me" I offered his defences were slowly slipping, I through my 'puppy- dog eyes' on and stared lovingly "please" I pleaded.

He grumbled –what I thought was a line of profanities- under his breath, and I had to bite the inside of my cheek to hold in a smile.

"Fine, Bella. Fine, let's go your trembling" he said as he towed me to the bathroom. He opened the door and started the water turning the hot knob noticeably more than the cold I sat next to him on the edge of the tub pouring the strawberry bubble bath that I got with my favourite shampoo. I stared at him deeply his eyes were –for the moment- relaxed, the soap poured on. He started to walk out; I panicked "WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" I shrieked in my all- too- well known horrified voice. "To get you, your bag of bathroom necessities and a towel, Bella" he replied- in a voice I some how couldn't trust.

Oh God he's not going to come back, a voice in my head sobbed.

"I'll come with you there are specific towels I want" I offered in the most composed voice I could handle. He rolled his eyes and shrugged… he held something back, but I let it go. We walked to my room, with my eyes glued to him and I grabbed 3 towels (2 unneeded), he grabbed my bag of toiletries and I grabbed a clean washcloth out of my drawer, we returned to the bathroom.

He turned the water off when it reached a perfect depth, I watched his body move, and it mesmerized me. I almost didn't hear him ask me to check the temperature, I rushed to him and slipped slightly and he caught me pulling me into his lap (I withheld a moan clasping my lips painfully). I breathed "perfect" as my fingers dipped into the bubble covered water, he shivered gently, and I blushed. He lifted me off his lap and mumbled he'd be in the hall while I got in, I swallowed ever drop of pride in me and whispered "please stay". "Bella" he spoke shocked, "I don't think you need supervision disrobing…" if possible he would have blushed, "and if I was leaving I would have left already". "I'm… scared, Edward. Please just don't go" I begged, "Just turn around and close your eyes, it will only take a sec to get in" I suggested. And don't you peak… heck he's already stalked me; he's probably seen everything you have to look at, Bella I thought. "Fine" he accepted and turned around, facing the corner like a child in time out. I rushed unbuttoning my shirt and it dropped to the floor with a soft flutter, his hands clutched into fists. I unzipped my pants slowly trying to make as little sound as possible… it didn't help he dropped his head against the wall covering his ears with his fists. I pulled them and my underwear down tossing them in the hamper slung off my bra shot it in the hamper and half- jumped in the soapy water. I covered myself in suds, so only my most innocent spots of flesh were- nearly- un-obscured "it's safe" I whispered to him. He turned hesitantly and froze at the site of me; he sat cross- legged on the tiles gazing at me. My cheeks burned hot and red, I slid my head under the surface counted to three and bobbed up (my back facing him). When I turned he kneeled wide eyed at the rim of the tub, he sighed my neck and face flushed pink again at his closeness. "Came to help with my back?" I giggled to him, my favourite smirk landed on his face, crooked and charming, and a devastating combination on Edward Cullen. My jaw almost dropped to the bottom of the tub as he picked up my washcloth, swirled it in the soapy water and wiped slow small circled around my back. I turned my head back aligning it with the rest of my body (facing the wall) and let my eyes roll to the back of my head. The sensation he rubbed into me condemning me to a stomach- tightening sense I was growing fully familiar with, when I was with Edward. His washcloth covered hand glided up my spine and as it caressed my shoulder the word popped into my blanking mind… Pleasure.

A//N: Sorry for the cliffhanger I may lemon the next chapter up a bit (to a degree) but nope not yet. I hope you like thanks to my reviewers, as long as at least one person's reading I'll keep writing. I'll try to write every week from now on. So review now. *Heart* ,Raven. *Heart*

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