I'm glad to say that my girlfriends cancer is gone :) hopefully for good. But today we got in a huge fight and broke up so now I'm in a depressed mood. Again this story goes out to her. The next chapter is already done, but I want to hear your guys thoughts before I post it. I hope you guys like it thanks for reading.

I woke up this morning and it was the same old thing. Just like every day I get up, get ready for football go to football, come home and eat, then go back to football, and somewhere in-between Theresa will want me to come over. I hate two a days it makes me so tired. I showered then made me some breakfast. My mom was still passed out on the floor and my dad was still sleeping thank god. I don't want to deal with him.

I couldn't shake the feeling that something big was going to happen today...I don't know what. It could be good or bad I don't know. All I know is that I hope it's good. I don't want another problem to deal with. I guess I'll just try to ignore it and go off to football.

At football I couldn't do anything right. It just felt like I shouldn't be there I should just go home. I don't know why, I hate my house I try to avoid going there as much as possible.

After the first practice The feeling still won't go away. I don't know maybe I should just go home and eat instead of going to Theresa's house, so I can just clear my head.

*Ryan's house*

When I walked in my house my mom is already drinking, and my dad is yelling at her. I walk to my room hoping that my dad won't see me. I'm only a few steps away from my room and he yells my name.

Dan: Ryan!

Ryan: What?

Dan: What the hell are you doing home? Huh?

Ryan: Practice is over so I decided to come home...

Dan: Why so I can see how big of a fuck up you are?

Ryan: ...

Dan: God damn it answer me when I talk to you boy!

He charged at me and started hitting me. I knew if I fought back that the beating would only be worse. So I just laid there and let him beat the shit out of me.

After what seemed like forever Dan finally got sick of beating the crap out of me and walked out. I hate how my mom just sits there and let's him do this to us. My whole body hurts; I just want to die right now. I'm sick of this pain, there's nothing I have that's good enough to live for so why should I want to be alive.

I limp to my room and go lay on my bed. Even though there's a lot of emotions going through me right now and everything on my body hurts. That feeling is still there. My computer is just jumping out at me and I have this huge urge to go on it but why?

Maybe it's because I want to get away from here. So maybe the feeling is get on the computer and get far, far away from here, ya that's it.

I get on the website that I'm so familiar with now. I have a bunch of messages from girls that think I'm hot. I just ignore all the ugly girls and just focus on the hot ones.

This one girl just stands out at me. She's so beautiful. I swear she has to be one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. I can't believe that a girl like that would ever want to message me. She's way too good for me.

I go and look at her profile hoping it would say single...but no...in a relationship. Ugh why me? Why does this gorgeous girl message me if she's already in a relationship? I read the little about her that she has and look at all if her pics. Damn if I could get a girl like that...her name is Marissa and it suites her perfectly. I go and look at the message.

Marissa: hey :)

What should I say...ugh just say hey back Ryan come on you can do this.

Ryan: hey

It says she's online so hopefully she will message me back. Please please please message me back. I'll do anything I just want to get to know you.

Marissa: so what's up?

YES! I can't believe she messaged me back. Why would a girl like that ever want to talk to a guy like me? She's amazing and so beautiful.

Ryan get yourself together she's only 14. Two years younger than you. Stick to people your own age girls that you could actually have fun with. Not a little innocent 14 year old girl.

But I can't deny this feeling I have. It's like I can't ignore her. I want to get to know this girl more than anything. I have a feeling that she's the one. If I saw her in person I would be too dumbstruck to go up to her. I would be too amazed by her beauty to get the courage to talk to her.

Say something back...but what do I say?

Ryan: Just got home from football you?

That one always hooks the girls.

Marissa: just got home from my softball game.

Sporty girl...nice but hopefully she's still girly...

Ryan: nice what position do you play?

Marissa: pitcher and 3rd base

Ryan: how did you do?

Marissa: good I pitched a no hitter.

Ryan: wow that's amazing.

Marissa: thanks

Ryan: you're welcome

Wow this girl is really amazing...

Marissa: so where are you from?

Ryan: California you?

Marissa: really me too where at?

Wow she could live really close...should I tell her that I live in Chino? If she's heard of it I don't want her to scare her away...

Ryan: Chino you?

I don't know why but I just can't lie to her. Like I can trust her...I don't know maybe I'm crazy.

Marissa: never heard of it...but I live in Newport.

Newport? That's only an hour away...my aunt and uncle live there.

Ryan: cool I have an aunt and uncle that live there.

Marissa: really? What's there name? I might know them.

Should I tell her? I heard a knock on my window and I looked out and it was Theresa. I walked over and opened it.

Ryan: What?

Theresa: I miss you baby.

Ryan: I can't hang out I'm sick...

I hope she buys it...

Theresa: Babe there's a party you should come. Everyone wants you to be there.

I want to just stay in and talk to Marissa but if I didn't go my friends would never let me hear the end of it.

Ryan: Ok I'll come just give me a few minutes.

I don't want to say bye to Marissa though...she's perfect...

Ryan: I have to go my friends are here wanting to me to hang out.

Marissa: that sucks...I'll miss you...

That just put the biggest smile on my face. Ok what do I say...she's only 14 so I don't want to say anything bad...

Ryan: I'll miss you too, bye cutie. ;)

Marissa: bye sexy;)

Wow maybe she likes me...nah I'm being crazy she's way too good for me.

I was bored at the party I just wanted to go home, I felt like I didn't belong there. The first time I left a party without drinking and without a girl. It's weird...but a good weird.

I have thus weird feeling in my stomach and a little to get away from her. It'll only lead to heartbreak. For the first time I don't want to.

I want to be with her. I want to make her mine...if it's the last thing I do. That's probably crazy talk because she has a boyfriend but it's worth a shot. If she hurts me then I get hurt I'll move on. I just can't run away from her...my heart hurts just thinking about that.

For the first time in a long time I went to bed with a smile on my face. I couldn't wait until I talked to Marissa again...

If I knew then the things I was going to go through just to be with her. I would of ran and got so far away from her. I wouldn't want to have my heart broken so much. Even though I think it's all worth it.

To know what love is and know what it feels like...but I wouldn't of thought that when I first met her, even though I was already hooked.

If you're looking for a happy story all the way through then just leave now cause it's going to be a lot of ups and downs. That's just the way life is...well our lives anyways. There's lot of heartbreak...but in the end it'll all be worth it. Just knowing her and what she's like is worth it. Be ready for a rollercoaster ride. If you think wow you go through a lot just with my parents. Then you're not prepared for everything that's going to happen that's worse than this. The story is only beginning and so is the drama that comes with it.