Chapter 4.
A/N: I wrote this before I went back to school so I have something to post for you guys. I think it has gone well so far. Better than my others.
"As I'm sure you know, I'm schizophrenic. Only this me knows that so far because Tool says Rambo is a volatile character and I don't want to hurt Tool if he reacts bad. And well Rocky didn't know Tool so when Tool gets the chance he will have to explain it to them" Barney explained very uncomfortable.
"I didn't really want to tell you because I usually only swap when waking up because of dreams and nightmares (no one missed Tools and Barneys wince) but it can happen when I'm awake as I'm sure you have just seen" Barney continued. He was looking very sorry but he wouldn't say it. He didn't have to.
"Yeah and as I explained to Mickey, Barney in his twenties was the last survivor of his regiment and was diagnosed with PTSD which caused short term amnesia. Now when Barney recovered from his amnesiac state and mostly his PTSD he was a different man literally. He had developed schizophrenia because of his trauma. That persona called himself John Rambo. He shared the same history as Barney only with a different name and different memories" Tool looked at them to make sure they were following the story so far. They all nodded and everyone felt sorry for Barney. No longer bothered about being kept out of the loop. Well all but one felt like that. Sure Lee felt sorry for Barney but he was annoyed too.
"Well when he came back he was around thirty then he met me in the US Army. We became good friends. But he disappeared for five years. The army were unhappy with him when he came back but he told them about his PTSD and they were sympathetic, they did not know he was schizophrenic that would ruin his career. Then after he came back he would disappear for weeks or months" Tool looked to Mickey who said;
"He was training for me, One lengthy six months he went to Russia to box a giant called Ivan Drago who looked awfully like you only broader" Mickey explained looking at Gunnar. Gunnar smiled and said;
"Yeah Rocky asked me if I was an Ivan"
Everyone looked at Barney to see how he was dealing with all this and he seemed okay only pained. As if keeping this from them hurt him.
"That is basically all really" Tool concluded.
"You can ask questions if you like" Barney told them almost as if to make amends. He kept shifting from where he was stood and kept glancing mournfully at each of them.
Gunnar smiled at him every time Barney looked up at Gunnar. Barney had been there to talk when Gunnar went off the wagon many times. Yang also smiled reassuringly. Barney had saved him many times from Gunnar and others. Caesar and Toll also looked at him encouragingly. So did Tool and Mickey. Lee however was still straight faced.
"Do you remember anything from your others?" Asked Toll.
"Yeah little things, when Billy was (Barney gulped) killed I went Rambo only for a minute and I remember that bit loud and clear because frankly I also think it was all three me's" Barney said.
That would have explained the growliness that they didn't associate with Barney but now recently associated with Rambo. The defensiveness and grief must have been all three though.
"Does it feel weird when you switch to the others and then back to yourself?" asked Caesar.
"Yeah it is confusing and really hard if I'm not here or where the other me's and I know. Say Rambo was in Bowie, Arizona he would know where to go. Me or Rocky wouldn't. Same with Philadelphia, Rocky would know where to go but I wouldn't" Barney answered. It seemed honest to Lee and his hard resolve was slipping in his sympathy.
"Would you have told us if this didn't happen?" asked Lee staring right into Barneys eyes imploring him to tell the truth.
Barneys honest pained expression dropped, well the pain did.
"No" he stated rather coldly. A hint of cold steel entered his eyes and expression. Maybe Rambo was entering his mind. Barney shook his head swiftly. "No I wouldn't you wouldn't of needed to know"
Gunnar and Yin exchanged looks of shock. Caesar frowned and Toll looked down. Lee looked furious.
"Wouldn't of needed to know" Lee quoted. Coldly.
"We could have been put in danger and we wouldn't have needed to know!" He edited his last quote.
"You wouldn't have been in danger as long as you didn't trap Rambo in a corner or touch him he wouldn't have hurt you. Well he wouldn't have killed you at any rate and Rocky wouldn't!"
"How do you know? You can't remember being them" Lee challenged.
"Tool described my personality and we split me and Rambo into categories, now Rocky's a known persona Mick? Can tell you" Barney exclaimed.
Tool and Mickey who had been discussing in the corner piped up.
"Yeah, Rambo is the cold killer, the traumatised one. Barney is well him. All of him but not suffering Rambo is suffering the trauma instead." Tool said confidently.
"And Rocky is the gentle compassionate one with the fire for fighting" Mickey finished. Both looked at the team daring them to challenge their knowledge.
"Fine" Lee growled and stormed away. He saw Barney get ready to follow him but Tool and Mickey dived in front of him. They were telling him to wait that Lee would come round.
Maybe he would but not yet. Not until Barney came to talk to him. He owed Lee that.
A/N: Rather bitter isn't he Lee? Yes the team are also OOC but that is understandable when they are confused about Barney's condition.