Heart Collision
Chapter 4:
Around 10:00pm that night we settled into the covers and held each other but I heard his throat clear as he said.
"When are you planning to tell Edward?" He said with deep and loving eyes inner twining our fingers.
"Tomorrow night, over a dinner just Mom, him and I."
"You seem pretty calm about this."
"Why? How should I be, you just gave me the best gift of being with you for the rest of my life." He smiled with enthusiasm but then got serious,
"Aren't you worried he might be mad?"
"Might? You mean he will be? No, I know he will be infuriated however, he knows by hurting you he's hurting me, there is not much he can do about it." He just stared as he processed in his mind how it would go then sighed.
"I guess." He looked down still in question but I lifted up his chin to look him in the eyes.
" I know, this is not going to be the easiest most non- shocking thing but whether he likes it or not I will love you , and marry you. You are the reason I exist." He looked away again with a faint smile.
"Renesmee, I love you. More then you'll know."
"That may be, but I try to exchange the same love to you."
"Well, I know that but there is somewhere I am going with this. You , are not the first girl that I have been in love with."
"Jake I know we are so many years apart bu-," He raised his hand for me to stop. He continued.
"I, love you more than anything, anyone, I would kill myself to even be away from you for more than a year, I will never let anyone or anything hurt you, but even though I can't love her ever as much as I love you, I was in love with Bella, but when you came it was like comparing a pretty brownish red cardinal, to a beautiful, glowing, gentle, glorious dove with satin flames of the heart."
My stomach started to curl in udder horror disgust and rage filled my body with tears down my cheeks I said with every ounce of patients I had left.
"Ok, but I need a couple of days, I need to get away. Please don't follow me." I kissed him on the cheek but my stomach only sickened worse. I ran, and ran and ran away from the house where my fiancés old love was away from him, away from the grandfather that wanted them to be together. Just away but something struck inside me like lightning to go somewhere so I stopped in my tracks and turned to my only solution and friend.
"Seth." I yelled as I knocked on the door, I heard footsteps coming toward the door I tried to hide my tears but they over whelmed me as he opened the door I through myself into his arms as the only one I trusted right now. He held me close as he pulled the door shut and lead me to the couch still crying into his chest but as the minutes went by I slowly settled and the tears went away, when I finally got enough courage to look up to see his beautiful, calm, happy, face with a warm smile. I sat up with his arms still around my waist and mine around his neck.
"Uh, something bothering you Ness?" He joked but still with a concerned look. I cleared my throat.
"I, I don't know what just happened but i don't want to know, I'm sorry for barging in but is there any way I could stay here, for a day or so?"
"Yah, sure. Ness is this about Jake and you?" His name made me a little nauseous .
"Yah." I choked.
"Well you can sleep in my bed, I sleep down here."
"Seth, no way that's not fare I insist to sleep here, thank you." He chuckled a bit.
" No problem. But it's getting late so I'm going to go take a shower, I'll start one for you in the other bathroom."
I glared out the window thinking of what to do after my stay with Seth how would things ever go back to normal? They wouldn't. Soon enough though it wouldn't be a total lie of I said I didn't expect for Jake to eventually come to my unwanted rescue. I turned to Seth as he said.
"Ok?" I looked at him a little confused like I had missed something but was too tired and out of energy to care. I got up a little while after he had left. I trailed up to the bathroom but I could hear the fausett running so I slowly walked into his room and without thinking opened his bathroom door and smash! I ran right into him as I collapsed onto the floor I saw him in his towel wrapped around his waist and his bare, wet chest he held me to as he lifted me off the ground and sat me on his bed and said.
"Ness, are you ok?" I blinked twice and said in a daze from the fall.
"Yah, I'm sorry I didn't know you were in there I thought you were taking a shower in the other bathroom."
"No Ness, didn't you hear me say I would run a shower for you?"
"No, sorry."
"It's fine, hang on stay there." He went back into his bathroom and came out wearing some night shorts carrying a small bowl with a cloth in it. He sat beside me and squeezed the cloth into a fold and said.
"Ness, that fall was pretty hard, lay down." The warm cloth graced my fore head as I said.
"Sorry, thanks Seth."
"Ness it's fine." He got up beside me and leaned against the pillow beside next to me and said.
"You know I don't really mind if you sleep up here."
"I know you don't but I do." He chuckled.
"So what do you like to do?"
"For what?"
"I don't know regularly for fun because you have to wait at least an hour before you can go to sleep in case of a concussion or coma." I rolled my eyes of that idea but I thought to myself. I don't know? I don't think I have been asked what do I like to do, except people assume I just love to play the piano like my father, but I do it to pass the time.
"Hmmmm….I don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know what you like to do?"
"I have never really been asked that question before."
"Well what is your favorite color?"
"Hmmmmm…" I thought for a moment but we both spoke at the same time.
"I like blue." We both laughed. As he asked me.
"What kind of blue, royal or midnight?"
"What's midnight blue?"
"Here, come on." He reached for my hand and helped me down of his tall, king sized bed. With my hand still in his he led me down the stairs and out on to the porch, it was pitch black and only the faint light of the house inside led me to not fall and manage to sit on the porch swing. Hand in hand we slowly rocked and looked at the stars and he said.
"That is midnight blue, see it's not completely black, it's a deep beautiful blue." For a long time we didn't say anything but I started to remember everything that happened since I got here with the shower and everything.
"Shower!"
"What?"
"The shower did we turn it off?" We looked at each other with worry.
"No." We both said at the same time as we ran into the house, we rushed upstairs and almost slipped on the wooden floor in the hallway across from the bathroom.
"Oh gosh!" I said opening the door. As I opened it more water rushed out. The shower had a glass cover door and a ledge before you step in so no water can get out unless it goes up. I stepped onto the soaking wet floor and peeked through the water that was flowing over all the way to the top there it was a wash cloth had stopped up the drain.
"I see it, the wash cloth is stopping it up."
"Ok we need to get it out obviously but if we open the door and that water gets out, everything will become an ocean on the top floor." I started to think, well maybe you don't go through, you go in!
"Seth give me a boost."
"What are you nuts?"
"No I am going to dive in and clog it."
"Are you sure doesn't that seem kind of dangerous and stupid?"
"Seth, you are my best friend I expect you to no nothing more than dangerous and stupid." He chuckled and lifted me up. I clung to the top of the tube like shower and went under, this was probably the craziest thing I have ever done, but it worked and slowly I made my way up to the top and let it drain, when it finally went down I stepped out soaking wet, and was embraced with a warm towel and a hug.
"Thanks Ness!"
"No problem." I said with a huff.
"Come on." He again led me to the other bathroom and handed me a towel, and laughed.
"You get to stay in here until I manage to get like 56 pounds of water out of your clothes in one dryer cycle. Oh, and it wouldn't hurt to take a shower either, you smell like marshmallows and woods." He laughed again.
"I know, thanks Seth."
"No problem."