A/N: Stephanie Meyer owns Twilight and all recognizable characters and situations contained therein. Again this story is rated M and contains strong language, lemons, and drug use if you are under 18 or any of that shit offends you then this is not the story for you! Everyone is OOC and all human.

**Bella POV**

I wake up the next morning and my lips are swollen and bruised. It hurts but it hurts good. It makes last night real to me, before I felt the stinging in my lips I thought it had been just another lifelike dream. I know that Quil said he doesn't want a girlfriend right now but he also said it has nothing to do with me just him wanting to be single.

I get up throw on a pair of yoga pants and a tank top and head downstairs. Charlie is at the kitchen table and he does not look happy, "Bella, why was the front door unlocked when I got home this morning?"

I shrug as I pull out a bowl and pour myself some cereal and sit down with it before I answer, "Quil left about an hour before you were due to be home so I didn't bother locking up behind him."

His face turns red with anger, "Damn it Bella I know this is Forks but we have crime too! If we didn't I'd have been out of a job a long time ago! What would you have done if right after Quil had left a stranger came into the house, found you in your room, and beat or raped you? Would you be able to stop something like that from happening?"

I sigh, I know he's right but he doesn't have to be so dramatic all the time, "Damn Dad, dramatic much? You're right I should have locked the door I was just so tired I hadn't expected him to stay so late and I didn't want to go downstairs."

He rolls his eyes, "Bella you know that I do my best to stay out of your affairs, you're 22 and can make your own choices, sometimes I worry about you and that boy though. He's polite enough and seems to be a good friend to you but there's something there and I'm not sure it's a good thing."

I roll my eyes back at him, "Dad you've always been here, you didn't check out mentally when Renee left you did your best with me and you're right I can make my own decisions and if Quil turns out to be a wrong one you can feel free to say 'I told you so' if it blows up in my face."

I go back to my cereal as Dad finishes his eggs before saying, "I'm going to bed Bella, I'm on nights this whole week, please remember to lock the door tonight regardless of if Quil is here or not."

I nod and wave him off, I finish my cereal and put my bowl in the dishwasher before heading out to smoke a cigarette. I pull my Blackberry out of my pant pocket and call Jared. It's relatively early but he sounds wide awake as he picks up on the third ring, "Merry almost Christmas Bells!"

I smile at my terminally happy older brother but I know he's going to be majorly pissed at me, "Hey Jared, what are you up to today?"

"Not much the store's closed till after Christmas, why what's up?"

I sigh a little as I reply, "Nothing really I just wanted to get together figured we could talk about some stuff."

I can practically see the frown on his face as he says, "That's cool, everything okay?"

I think for a second before answering, "Yeah, I think so. I'm gunna come down to the apartment okay?"

He replies, "Yeah, that's fine, see you in about an hour okay?"

I reply that that's fine and we hang up. I go in and take a shower careful to cover my hair with a shower cap so I don't wash the dye out yet, using the bottle of satin soap I carefully wash my belly ring checking the connections on the plain surgical stainless steel banana barbell to make sure that it's not coming loose.

Satisfied that it's healing nicely I finish washing up and get out, I use a dry shampoo on my hair and flat iron it, it looks good I'll have to wash it tomorrow and probably re-do my color but that's the least of my problems right now. I get dressed in a black corset style top with red embroidery flowers on the bodice and along the sleeves. It's kind of old world German style not really sexy but cute, I have class tonight so I pair it with a pair of black slacks and cute black slip on shoes.

I make it to Jared's apartment about 20 minutes late but he's used to that. I head up and let myself in with the spare key, he's in the kitchen on the phone with his girl Kim and it sounds like they're fighting, again. I wave at him as I go through to the living room and sit on the couch; Embry comes in asking, "What the hell are they fighting about now?"

I shrug, "fucked if I know Em, I just got here, chances are it's about the time he spends with me like always. I don't know what her deal is, I've told her multiple times that I'm not into J that way, she knows that he thinks of me as his baby sister so unless he has some sort of incest kink that I don't know about I don't know what her problem is."

Em shrugs, "She's just insecure, I mean you're a lot hotter than she is B, she thinks that J is lying when he tells her he's not interested. She's afraid that you'll change your mind about not liking him and he'll drop her for you."

I huff, "that's pathetic, really, I hate insecure bitches. I don't know how Jared deals with that, I lived that for 5 years. I could never do it again."

Em nods and turns the TV on to some daytime court show. I hear Jared in the kitchen still yelling at Kim, "Ya know something Kim, Bella is part of my family! She's not just a friend, she's my fucking sister she may not be my blood but she's my sister all the same and if you can't accept that then you and I are going to have to seriously re-evaluate our relationship because I'm not cutting her out of my life! She's family and that's that, you knew coming into this relationship that she was my best friend and part of my family; the terms didn't change on you without your knowledge. If you have a problem now then you and I can very easily be done and over with, that's your call."

He comes in and tosses his still ringing cell on the couch between us as he sits down and says, "I hung up on her, she's going to call every two minutes now. I don't understand her fucking deal! I don't know how many times both of us can tell her we don't think of each other as anything other than family. She always gives me shit when she knows you're going to be around or she'll call CONSTANTLY and leave me 800 messages about how I'm not answering and what am I doing that I'm not picking up."

I shake my head and pat him on the shoulder, "I don't know how you do it J."

We're talking about our plans for Christmas 20 minutes later when I'm cut off as his phone starts ringing again only this time it's his two-way tone and Kim's voice cuts in, "Jared you better fucking pick up or we are fucking done. Bella, if you're touching my man, I swear to God I will beat your ass you fucking slut!"

Embry sucks in a breath as he gets up and heads back to his room, J looks like he's going to kill someone and I finally have had it. I ask him real quick, "J are you ready to be done with her? If you are I'm going to do something, but if you're not just say so and I'll drop it and go chill with Em so you can deal with this."

He looks conflicted but nods and says, "yeah I'm ready, I can't deal with her jealous bullshit anymore it's ridiculous!"

I smirk at him a little and pick his phone up, I hit the two way button and start moaning, "Ohhh Jared, yeah baby just like that. Mmm yeah J fuck me hard!"

I'm moaning and groaning like the slut that Kim already thinks I am and Jared suddenly breaks me out of my fake sex haze as he groans out, "fuck yeah Bellllaaa. You're so fucking hot babe!"

I let my finger slip off the two-way button and collapse onto the ground laughing my ass off as Em comes running out into the living room with a shit-eating grin on his face. Kim has hit her two-way and is screaming and calling me names and just going ballistic when Em grabs the phone and joins in like we're having a fucking threesome.

I'm still rolling around on the floor J is on the couch holding his stomach and laughing so hard I think he's going to bust something, his face is bright red and he's gasping for breath.

Em finally just turns J's phone off and falls down on the floor next to me laughing. About 20 minutes later we finally get shit under control and I get up and go sit next to J on the couch as he asks, "So what's going on with you B? You said you had something you wanted to talk about?"

I glance at Em who catches the hint and peaces out to go back to his room and call Deanna to make sure Kim didn't call her and start some bullshit. I listen to make sure that his door clicks shut and spill it, "Umm, don't be mad ok? I kind of hooked up with Quil last night. I know you think it was a bad idea but I don't know J, it just felt really right to me and I had to do it."

J is gaping at me with his mouth open and his face is turning bright red. He gets off the couch and starts to pace and I know he's really pissed, "What do you mean you 'kind of hooked up' with Quil? Damn it B, we talked about this! Remember? I said 'it's a bad idea B, if he couldn't restrain himself from trying to get in your pants for one fucking night when you were high and drunk as shit what's to say he wants anything more from you than a piece of ass?' Do you not remember that conversation Isabella?"

Oh shit, he did NOT just call me Isabella, and now I'm pissed, "Now wait just a fucking second J, first off don't EVER fucking call me Isabella! Second, you don't know Quil the way I do. He would NEVER use me that way! We've been friends for the better part of a decade; he just wouldn't do that to me!

Yes I remember you telling me your feelings on the matter but this is MY LIFE, not yours you have no right to tell me how I should live! I stayed out of your bullshit problems with Kim for the last year I never pushed you to dump her for being a possessive psycho bitch, I never put myself in the way of your happiness! Why can't you do the same for me?"

J is staring at me and running his hands through his hair in exasperation, he sighs and says, "Bella I don't want you to get hurt, I know you think I don't know Quil like you do and you're right but I DO know him well enough to know that you aren't his type. Christ his father and grandfather are the two most racist men on the Res, you've been friends for almost 10 years, have you EVER met any of his family besides his mom?"

I goggled at him in shock, "No, but that has nothing to do with Quil, J. It's unfair of you to put his father and grandfather's prejudices on him!"

Jared looked pissed, "Damn it Bella I'm trying to save you from having your heart broken! I know you love him but he doesn't love you romantically I guarantee it! Have you ever met Quil's old girlfriends?"

I shake my head in the negative, I hadn't ever met his exes not even the one he was dating when we first started hanging out for real, I had however met a bunch of the girls he had hooked up with. Most of them were girls I knew from the scene or I met them because they wouldn't take the hint that he was done with them.

J continued on, "I didn't think so, well let me tell you about them, they were preppy bitches who listened to bubblegum music and shopped at Hollister. Now, you've met some of the girls he's hooked up with right? The one's he's had one night stands with? You know, the girls he calls Hit it and Quit it's"

I nod the affirmative and sit down on the couch looking at my lap because it's starting to sink in where J is going with this. I don't want him to but he continues, "Now, which group do you fit in with B?"

He tilts my face up so that I'm looking him in the eye as he tells me, "I love you baby sis, I don't want him to use you like you're some whore at a bar. He owes you more than that. Hell he owes himself more than that! I know he loves you but baby he's not in love with you. Unless he wants to properly date you don't let this go on. If you do please don't tell me about it because I can't stand to watch you setting yourself up to be hurt like this."

I nod and tell J that I have to go. I decide to take Jake up on his offer to stop by Billy's before I have to go to class.

I drive over to Billy's and see Jake's VW Rabbit in the driveway confirming he's home. I park behind him and go up and knock on the door. Jake answers it wearing his signature grin and a pair of cut off shorts with a black wife beater. He's grown out a goatee beard thing and his hair is long and tied back in a ponytail, he's also wearing a pair of black docs.

He scoops me up in a hug and swings me around yelling, "BELLS!"

I laugh and beat at his shoulder, "Put me down Jake!"

He drops me onto the floor and I stumble but gain my balance before I fall, I take a good look at him, "What the fuck's goin on Jake? You look like shit!"

He looks a little uncomfortable as he tells me, "Nothing B, just dealing with some shit right now. Paul and I are not getting along right now and Nessie is breaking my balls big time!"

I look at him confused, "What's goin down with you and Paul? Last I heard you guys were BFF's. Also, how is the Loch Ness Monster breaking your balls?"

Jake scowls at me answering, "Well honestly Paul's beef is that I told you to come by and he's pulling the 'your boy's old lady is your boy's old lady for life whether she's with him or not she's off limits.'

Nessie is my old lady, Vanessa is her name but I call her Nessie, she hates it but whatever! She's pissed because we've been together for the last year almost and she brought up getting engaged and I laughed in her face."

I roll my eyes, what the fuck, "Dude, that's so lame! I'm gonna call Paul and set his ass straight, you and I have never been more than friends, hell we're practically family and he needs to get the fuck over it and move on. It's been two years, he's had at least 4 girlfriends and 20 one night stands in that time I'm sure so why is he still getting involved in my shit? I didn't give him shit when he joined that motorcycle club I didn't come down and beat that skank Kaycie's ass when she started talking shit on me about how I had decorated our old place. I stay out of his way and he needs to do the same!

As for your lady probs I dunno Jake if she wants to get hitched and you don't you need to quit it because chances are if she's shady she'll try to trap you if you know what I'm saying."

He nods confirming, "Yeah I know, she tried to get me to stop wrapping it when we fuck. Told me she's on the pill now, you know that shit's just code for 'you're gunna give me a baby whether you want to or not' fuck that shit. I'm probably gunna dump her ass when I see her tomorrow. It depends if she's gotten this marriage thing out of her system or not."

We sit down in his living room and he pulls out his grinder and throws some bud in it grinding it up and pulling a cotton candy flavored blunt wrap out of the end table drawer. He rolls it and sparks it taking a couple of drags and then passing it to me.

I hit it taking a big drag and holding it for 5 seconds before exhaling as Jake asks, "So do you wanna tell me why Quil was up in my face this morning about selling to you?

I gasp and suck back in the smoke I was just exhaling and start choking on it. I'm coughing and sputtering trying to get my breath as Jake comes over to me saying, "Shit B! I didn't mean for you to take it like that! Breathe girl!"

I finally catch my breath and choke out, "He WHAT?"

Jake nods, "Yeah he showed up here probably around 9:30am, rang the bell, and tried to punch me when I opened the door! Told me that if I wanted to fry my brain with that crap that was my choice but that if I wanted to stay healthy I wouldn't sell it to you anymore. I told him if you wanted it I would give it to you no charge and there wasn't nothing he could do about it at least with my shit you know it's not laced or grown in some shady basement or something. Motherfucker threatened to call the cops! I told him go the fuck ahead I have a medical grow op card for my dad and he can't prove that I'm selling to anyone else."

I shake my head trying to clear it and wrap my head around this shit. Oh he and I are gunna have it out. This shit is ridiculous, I know he doesn't like that I smoke but that's my choice like being a goody two shoes is his, I don't rag him for that why can't he show me the same respect?

I finally get my breath back and I tell Jake, "I'm sorry he did that, Jake. I had nothing to do with it and you can believe that he and I will be having a talk about this. Just because we hooked up one fucking time doesn't give him the right to bully my friends about shit that is MY decision.

I'm not making excuses for him but he doesn't know all the shit with Renee so he doesn't really know why I smoke, the few times he's asked I brushed him off and just told him I need to disconnect every so often and turn my brain off."

Jake looks shocked, "wait, you and Quil? Oh Bella, that's such a bad idea…I mean I know it's not my business but Quil's family is all about native blood. He'll never see you as more than a casual hook up."

I scoff, "I think you're wrong, Jake. I think him coming here today and doing what he did proves that he sees me as more."

Jake rolls his eyes, "see this is the problem with chicks. They say they don't want a guy to control them but they fall all over themselves for that caveman shit! That's what got you hooked on Paul way back in the day, you guys went on one date and he saw that Mike guy staring down your shirt and beat the crap out of him."

I look at the clock and see it's getting late, "I gotta go Jake, I have class tonight and we're having a test first thing."

I get up and give him a hug as he tells me, "I got you when this shit blows up in your face, B. When he breaks your heart call me and we'll hang out and I'll get you through it. I love you girl, I'll see you soon."

I tell him he will and go out to my car and start the drive to PA.

A/N: So basically everyone but Bella knows that this thing with Quil is a bad idea. Unfortunately she has to find that shit out for herself. I'm going to warn you now that the fallout is going to find Bella doing some things that are extremely OOC even more than her bad girl persona try not to judge her it's all just a bump on the path.