"Say that you believe in fairies.
'Cause if you don't I'll never fly again.
Falling down is not as scary
as never finding confidence to stand.
And now I guess, I'll never know.
I'm in Neverland forever, I never will grow old.
I'm leaving you lost boys and girls alone, and finally I've flown."
My eyes were sliding shut. I kept them open and Tavros softly played his guitar. I knew that he had written this song himself, because his favorite movie was Pupa Pan and Neverland was where Pupa Pan lived. I could remember him playing the guitar in the tent next to me.
"I'm a hero in a land of treasure,
and a failure in a body that's all wrong.
I tried to measure up to this adventure,
to fantasize and make believe I'm strong.
But if I give my all and still
amount to nothing in the end,
then I guess it was pretend.
When I thought that I could help protect my friends
and with my lance I'll charge
into the morning.
Look for me by the light of the second star."
I never heard the rest of it. I fell asleep and I woke up to Tavros being gone and there being a note on the floor. I stared at it and saw the lyrics to the song that Tavbro had written were on it. I smiled. The lock wasn't on my straight jacket and the table was gone. Tavros had his guitar in a metal case behind the recuperacoon. Saying that he was careful with it was an understatement. I understood his concern, though. I wouldn't trust one of my most prized miracles with a person like me. I heard the door open and stood up.
"Tavbro, that all up and motherfucking you?"
"You have three hours to walk around and socialize. Don't fuck it up." A cold, female voice drawled.
What the motherfucking hell is the motherfucking spider bitch doing here? I heard the familiar clank of Tavros' feet and jumped up. His legs were smoking and I heard a strange clicking noise. One of them collapsed under him in a shower of sparks. Vriska grabbed him before he hit the ground and kicked him before letting him hit the ground. I ran over and kicked Vriska. She flew into the wall. Tavros stood up and leaned against the wall. Kill her. She dared touch what is mine. Shut up shut up shut up! As motherfucking much as I would like to motherfucking kill her, this is the wrong motherfucking place to even motherfucking try!
"Gamzee, c-calm down… I-I'm uh, okay, see?"
I turned feral eyes on Tavros. Calm your motherfucking shit. He's motherfucking okay. He gasped a little, then quickly recovered. I was looking on the world through bloody red eyes, and I knew it. My vision was tinged red. Tavros took a shaky step toward me and I him. We kept on like that for about five minutes until he fell on top of me. I took a step back to balance myself again and Tavros' arms were entangled in the straightjacket. We both laughed a little and he carefully detached himself. He was picked up by a security troll who started to fix his legs. I stumbled back into my room and found myself unconscious once again. When I woke up, Karkat was talking to a troll with long black hair and a red symbol on the front of her shirt. The symbol was partially hidden by a white lab coat.
"He's going to fucking flip."
"I know, Mr. Vantas, but we don't really have a choice. It's Tavros' last request-" I tuned them out.
Tavbro's last motherfucking request? What the motherfucking hell does that motherfucking mean? I threw myself against the door in an attempt to get out.
"What the motherfucking hell are you talking about?"
I could see through the bars in the door that Karkat was even more upset. He leaned really close to the bars in the door and frowned.
"Tavros was murdered last night."
I staggered away from the door. Motherfucking no. No. No. Nononono. This can't be motherfucking happening. I heard the door open and someone walk in. I could tell by the click of their heels that it wasn't Karkat. I felt their hand on my shoulder and howled. I sounded like an animal. I didn't motherfucking care. My best friend was dead and there wasn't anything I could do. I felt them cover my mouth and indigo tears squeezed out of my eyes. I thrashed around until they let go and I was left to my own devices. I looked out of the barred window and noticed I wasn't high up enough. I sighed and sat on top of the recuperacoon. I sat there for what felt like ages, sometimes crying, sometimes screaming, sometimes just sitting. I heard Karkat walk in and felt him pull me into a hug. I bit him and he let me go.
"What the fuck is wrong with you, Gamzee? You seemed fucking fine before-"
"Before my best bro all up and motherfucking died? Yes, Karbro, I was all up and motherfucking fine!" I growled.
I knew my eyes were bright red and savage. I didn't care. I kicked Karbro across the room and stood over him. He was bleeding all over the floor and he scrambled up against the wall. I laughed and saw two people come barreling in. They grabbed me by my arms and I kicked back. I felt them sedate me and I refused to go down. I thrashed around until my fist connected with the syringe. The one on my right hit my temple and my vision went purple around the edges. I felt the syringe go into the side of my neck and I howled. I woke up strapped to a table with a tube connected to my arm.
"He's just too dangerous." The sound swam in and out of my hearing range.
I felt myself getting colder. My vision got lighter and I shivered.
"He could still make fucking progress!" Motherfucking Karbro…
I went deaf. I watched Karkat's lips move and felt myself get colder and colder. I lifted a hand and saw it was paper white. I looked at Karkat. He had bandages going around his head and his arm was in a sling. He had angry red tears in his eyes. I tried to say something but when I opened my mouth I couldn't speak. Guess this is motherfucking it then… The world went white and all I saw was Tavros.
He put his arms around me and I was all up and motherfucking home.