A/N: This chapter is SO angsty it shouldn't be legal XD Lets see self harm to its max and no suicide attempts yet, sorry! Message to jacob-imprinted-on-me-hehe (since I was too lazy to actually PM back =]) you're welcome for the introduction to the song!

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I was fucking forced to patrol, not only was I forced to patrol I had to patrol by myself because Team Pedophile wanted to take Claire to the park! I was wandering not paying attention to my surroundings when then I saw the Cullen home. Just my fucking luck. It hurt just looking at the house. I hated Edward and Bella for having Nessie. I hated Nessie for taking Jacob from me. But they made me realize that by taking him away I would never have a chance and I should build a bridge and get over it. I ran away from that place that held so many memories for me. I sat in a clearing and howled a long heartbreaking howl. I laid down and set my head on my paws, I was so exhausted and weak. I lost so much weight in three weeks, I ate in front of them but I would puke it out later on in the day. I would much rather not eat. Why I was losing weight baffled everyone, I told them it was my metabolism working to fast.

My skin was turning a ghastly color and I was becoming weaker. Every time Jacob called I couldn't talk to him. He had been gone for five weeks and I only spoke to him once, it was killing me and Seth knew it. Why wouldn't he let me talk to him? I stopped think when I felt someone phase.

Who just phased?

Guess who!

I gasped at Jacob's voice and my tail unconsciously wagged. My ears perked up and I stood up my whole back end wiggling and I was like a puppy excited to see its master.

Hey Jacob.

Lee I haven't talked to you in forever!

Seth never let me talk or I was on patrol.

I can't wait to see you in two months; I'll take you out to the movies or something, maybe dinner?

I cringed as he mentioned food. But I didn't let that damper my mood.

I can't wait either, Jacob. I uh…miss you.

I miss you too, Lee! We're going to have a ton of fun.

Yeah, so how have you been?

Pretty good, you know, Nessie looks like she's five now, she is growing up way to fast.

I growled silently and my wagging stopped. I sat down and I fell onto my stomach.

Uh…oh…must be fun watching her grow…babies are handfuls…

That's the thing, Lee! She has an exceptionally high IQ, I'm so proud of her.

My chest constricted and I bit back urge to cry. I just need to toughen it out. He would never love me; I was destined to be alone. On my death bed I would tell him that I love him.

Lee? Are you there?

Yeah…I am…

Anyways, I never asked you, how have you been?

Well, pretty good, I feel lonely sometimes without your constant nagging.

Oh, thanks Lee, thanks a lot.

Actually I've felt…quite peachy, I guess. You know how it is, being in pack full of hormonal boys.

Wow, Lee…SHIT! I need to go, Nessie's trying to eat a skunk, love you a lot, Lee.

Bye, Jacob…

Bye, Lee.

His connection broke and it was silent, I wanted to slam my head into something. She always got Jacob's attention, when would he realized I was madly freaking in love with him!? I stood up and walked to a tree to lie under to get out the rain. I felt sticky wolf tears come out of my eyes and I was whimpering. Then I realized I could slam my head into the tree, I wonder how many times it would take for me to knock myself out. Hey, I kind of sounded like that Tootsie Pop commercial, 'How licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop?' but mine would be 'How many times does Leah have to beat her head into a tree to get knocked out?'

Well I was going to test that. I wasn't exactly use to this kind of pain, but I'd deal. I backed all the way to the other side of the clearing and ran full speed towards the tree. I hit it full speed and I felt blood pour down my head, matting my fur and getting in my eyes. I backed up again and repeated and I was still conscious. I backed up again and when I smacked head first into the tree my legs gave out underneath me, how ironic, three times to knock me out and three licks to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop.

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Seth's POV

Leah had not returned yet and her shift ended three hours and I was going out to go look for her. I walked into the woods and stripped tying my clothes to my leg and phased. I followed Leah's scent towards the Cullen and then it took a sharp turn towards a clearing. I stopped dead in my tracks I smelled her blood, so thick and heavy in the air. I ran found her laying on the ground stark naked. I phased back and pulled my shorts on. She was face first in the mud; I pulled her clothes off her leg and put on our dad's old Pittsburg Steelers shirt on her. Nothing is more awkward than seeing your full grown sister naked. She was skinny, gaunt, pale and covered in blood. The only thing left of my sister was a shell of what she had use to be. Her breathing was shallow and she was so frail. What happened to my sister? I pulled my phone out of my water proof case and dialed Embry's number.

"Hey, Seth! What's up?"

"I need you to call Jacob."

"What happened?"

"I found Leah unconscious in a clearing; she's bleeding and is nothing but skin and bones. Tell him we need Carlisle."

"All right, want me to send Quil?"

"Yes, please."

"Alright."

"Thanks."

"Yeah, bye."

"Bye."

I felt Leah's pulse, it was there, but fading, fading ever so slowly. Was she attacked? What happened? I need to get her back to the house…but…man this was going to scar me for life.

"Leah would kill me if she knew I dressed her…"

Nothing more embarrassing then putting your unconscious twenty year old sister's shorts and underwear on for her…Jesus, this was embarrassing, well she probably tell me to suck it up and just do it. I closed my eyes and did my best, when I opened them I saw that it was right, so it was okay. Now I didn't know what I going to do about the bra…I so hated life right now. I nearly jumped out of my skin when the phone rang.

"H-hello?"

"Seth, what the hell happened to Lee?"

"I don't know, Jacob! I looked around and saw nothing to help, its pouring out so it washed the scent away, I can't help it."

"Dammit! I'm coming with Carlisle. Try to keep her alive, please; I can't live with knowing she died while I was gone."

"I will, but, I'm in the middle of the woods, I'm about a mile from the Cullen home."

"Okay, listen, by the door you'll see a rock, pick that up and there's a little black door, open that up and there's the key. Take her to Carlisle's study."

"Okay, I will, is there anything else?"

"No, just if she wakes, let her know she's my best friend and I love her."

"Alright, how long do you think it'll take?"

"Well…maybe three days? Wait…no a day, Carlisle just booked us a flight on a privet jet."

"Alright, I'll see you then."

"Okay, Seth, bye."

"Bye."

I clicked my phone shut and looked around, stupid rain. It washed away any scent that could have been here. I looked around, I Leah's faded paw prints and that was it. She was by a tree, I looked at the tree and it had a large crack in it. Had Leah accidentally run into a tree? She has had a lot on her mind and she could had not been paying attention. Poor, Leah, she finally snapped, my once strong willed, level headed sister snapped.

"Oh, Lee, please be alright."

I picked her up piggyback style and started running, thank God for giving me speed. I could feel Leah's weak heart beat on my back. I was younger sibling, I was suppose to need the comforting, Leah was the older sibling and she was suppose to be helping me. She was such a wreck, she didn't deserve to suffer, before she became cold and heartless she was so kind. Always had a smile on her face and helped people, she would never hurt a fly. She was also helping with donations to charities and such, but that all changed after Sam left her for our cousin Emily.

I was so pissed at Sam and Emily; even though I was only thirteen it made me mad they hurt my big sister. I had to watch her change right before my eyes; no kid ever wants to go through that. She went from loving, to depressed to a cold bitter heartless harpy. I was still mad at Sam and Emily, but when she joined Jacob's pack I watched her change again. But it was for the better; she would smile a real smile and be kind. She would even tease me, like when she and Jake teased me about being dropped on my head and having gnawed on lead paint. I was happy to see that Leah again, care free and loving life.

I had finally had my sister back…or well until a few weeks ago. When Jacob left it was happening all over again, but she knew he imprinted and still fell for him. She fell for him hard. So hard that it's going to end up killing her. She thought I wouldn't notice all the times she snuck out at night and into the woods. That I didn't notice her turning a sickly white or losing weight. I heard that howl she did today; it was so heartbreaking and pitiful. She was constantly changing and why she was changing was because of the men she fell in love with.

But you really can't help who you fall in love with. Fate was always cruel towards Leah, first her boyfriend of four years leaves her for her cousin/best friend. Second she isn't able to have children and she has always wanted children and third, she fell in love again with a "taken" man. Well a man who would be taken in six years when Ness looked seventeen.

"Oooooohhhh!"

"Gees, about time Quil got here."

I looked over and saw a chocolate colored wolf running next to me. I stopped and the wolf mirrored my movements. He walked over to me and nuzzled my hand and looked at me and then at Leah. He gave a low whimpering sound.

"I don't know what happened; when she wakes she'll tell us."

He gave a whimper and huffed.

"We're taking her to the Cullen house, alright? Go ahead I'll be there in a few minuets, I need to rest for a second."

He whined but ran off anyways, I shifted her weight and began running again and when I got to the clearing by the Cullen house I saw Quil by the front door in his cut off shorts. I walked to the door and he took Leah off my back and held her bridal style.

"She's so…skinny…"

"You mean you haven't noticed?"

"I have but…I thought maybe she was sick."

"A shape-shifter getting sick?"

"Point taken…how do we get in?"

"A spare key."

I picked up the rock and opened a small black door pulling a key out. I opened the door and flicked the lights on and then had Quil follow me towards Carlisle's study. There was a bed there and we laid Leah on it. She whimpered and it shattered my heart, stupid fate. Why was it always so cruel to Leah?

"Hey, guys…"

"Hey, Embry…"

"Hi, Embry."

"She just gets worse every time…Seth…she's been eating right?"

"Yeah…but I think she developed an eating disorder…"

"Yeah…she was messed up when Jake left."

"Wait…what are you two talking about?"

"Quil, if you would have kept your head out of Claire's ass you would have seen."

"Seen what, Embry?"

"Exactly."

"Clue me, Seth?"

"Leah wasn't taking Jake's leaving well."

"Why, they hate each other."

"Uh…no they don't."

"Yeah they do Seth."

"No, they're best friends, wow Quil you're late by…six months."

"Really…?"

"Yeah, you idiot, gees sometimes you're worse then Jacob himself."

"Embry, Jacob is going to kill you for saying that."

"He won't know, Seth."

I sighed, and sat on the floor, my life sucked right now. These next twenty-four hours were going to be hell.

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A/N: Don't ask why I had Leah bang her head into a tree…because I don't even know why I did that. Uhm…there's nothing else…I don't think…