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"Well, well, well, looky-here boys, Miss Waldorf has decided to grace herself with her presence. This is the last place I thought i'd ever run into you, Blair."

"Keep it in your pants Baizen."

Blair knew she would find Carter here, he was just the guy she needed right now. He was sitting at a table in the dark corner of a stingy bar with a crowd of boys and some girls who Blair suspected to be hookers.

Carter laughed at Blair's reply and everyone joined in, she rolled her eyes. "Actually Carter, I came here to see you. Do you have a moment?"

Carter smiled at her with a cunning look in his eyes, "it would be my pleasure."

He got up from his friends and followed Blair to the other side of the Bar, Blair turned and looked at Carter, not sure where to start and had second thoughts.

"So Blair, what can I help you with?" He smiled at her again but then dropped his voice a little. "I'm sorry about Chuck, how are you holding up?"

"Don't act like you care. I'm fine, I just need some distractions that's all, so..."

"So...I'm your distraction am I?"

"Don't flatter yourself. You're not the distraction, your...'stuff' is." Blair looked away from Carter, afraid to see what ever reaction he had to what she had just said. She didn't want to see him all smug because Blair Waldorf had come to the 'dark side'. Carter didn't speak and Blair became impatient and turned back to look at him. She was shocked to see that he wasn't smug, he had a weird look, a look Blair didn't recognise on his face, she realised what it was though; pity, disapproval and disbelief all rolled into the one expression.

"What's wrong?" Blair questioned. "Do you have anything or not?"

"I do, but..." he hesitated.

"But what?"

"Blair, you don't know what this stuff can do to you. And I don't think Chuck would want you to resort to this. There's others ways to cope, just please don't get involved with drugs."

"Chuck's dead carter." Blair tried not to flinch. "What he doesn't know won't hurt him, and since when did you care about what he would want?"

"I know me and him weren't friends or anything, but I know how much he cared about you. And I personally don't want to witness the Blair Waldorf train wreck." He looked serious and Blair wanted to hurry up and get something in her, to take the pain and everything else away.

"Chuck and Serena took drugs, Nate still does, you do too, why can't I!" Blair almost screamed, he shushed her, scared that people might hear them but Blair continued. "I just want to let loose for one night, it's none of your business, your just the only person I know that is involved in this...'business'."

Carter breathed out a laugh and shook his head, "you can't even say the word, who says I even know what you're talking about?" he winked at her.

"you know very well what i'm talking about."

"i'm not to sure actually." He was being an ass, he knew very well what Blair wanted. "Be more specific and i'll see what I can do. Tell me what you want."

"Drugs Carter. I want drugs."

Carter smiled, "there we go, but Blair...i'm still not sure."

"Look if you're really worried about me then i'll stay with you and you can keep an eye on me...please Carter, I just want to get rid of the pain." She was almost in tears, the pain was getting too much for her and she couldn't believe that she had resorted to begging Carter for drugs.

"Fine. But just tonight, I'm not going to be part of your self destruction more than I have to be." Carter reached inside his pocket and pulled out a bag of little white tablets, marked with 'C.B' "How many do you want?"

"The whole packet, no questions." Blair glared at Carter.

He shook his head in disapproval and passed the bag to Blair. She took it and handed him an envelope of Money. "I think that should be enough, but if it's not just let me know and I will pay you more later."

"Pleasure doing business with you, welcome to the dark side." He picked up his drink from the bar and winked at Blair. "They were Chuck's favourite."

Blair just nodded at Carter as he walked away from Blair and back to his friends, now understanding where Chuck got his supply from, she didn't want to bring up the overdose though with Carter, not tonight anyway. Tonight she was going to let loose.

She followed Carter back to the table and squeezed in next to him and another man she did not recognise, when she sat down Carter but his arm around Blair, she didn't bother shaking it off because she knew he would simply just put it back where he liked it. She looked down at the little bag that was in her hand and contemplated flushing it down the toilet but the thought only lingered for a second then was overcome by a bigger thought.

"Do you want to get kicked out?"

"Hello to you too, lover. Long time no see."

"Put that out."

"You didn't say the magic word." Chuck didn't look at her and there was no emotion in his voice, as though he wasn't really there.

"What are you even doing here? You should be passed out or hooked up to an IV."

"I didn't want to miss the first day of school, though it looks like I already did." Still no hint of emotion.

"That's the only reason you came here?Not because you had something to tell me?" She wanted him to tell her that he loved her, that he came back here to see her, but she wasn't a fool.

"Like what?"
"You know like what. Look at me!"

His eyes were bloodshot, as though he hadn't slept in days, when she looked into his eyes she was expecting to she her Chuck but he was no longer there but clouded by an imposter. She drew her hand away from his cheek and stood back. He drew in anther drag of hash and blew it out again.

"Who are you?"

"Blair you're supposed to take it, not stare at it, how do you expect it to make an effect if you just look at it?" Carter whispered in her ear, a shiver ran down her body. "Second thoughts?"

"No!" she replied a little to quickly. "I was...i was just thinking."

"Well then ,what are you waiting for?" He raised his eyebrows. "Pop it in!"

"How long does it last?"

"Those ones?" Carter thought for a second. "Roughly three to four hours, so really you just need one tonight."

"That's all I want," Blair insisted. "Well for tonight anyway."

"Don't do anything stupid Blair." He had his worried tone again, and it really didn't suit him. Blair needed him to be Carter so that she wouldn't over think what she was about to do.

"I'm already doing something stupid by coming here to see you." She pointed out. "Can you have one too? It will just make having one easier for me."

Carter reached into the bag and pulled out two pills and handed one to Blair, "Too an interesting night!" he toasted.

"To an interesting night," Blair mimicked. In sync they popped the pills in their mouths and Blair reached for Carters drink to help wash it down.

Blair didn't feel an immediate reaction when she felt the pill enter her body, she didn't know what to expect. The voices around her became louder though and she began to feel dizzy, she clutched at the table. Carter grabbed her then, around the waist and pulled her back to his side, "just sit with it for a second, you'll feel...normal again soon."

Blair looked up to him then his eyes were getting bigger and bigger which made him look evil, but this was the Carter she was use to. She distracted herself by watching the dancers on the dance floor, wanting to join in, she grabbed Carter's hand and led him to the dancers.

He laughed gleefully as he watched Blair dance, though he kept a protective eye on her, when he thought things were getting to intense with one of her many dance partners he would pull her away and simply say "she's with me." To Carter's, liking she never protested.

They had been dancing together for sometime when Carter saw Nate come into the Bar, "oh shit." he said under his breath.

"What is it?" Blair looked up to him giggling a little.

"Nate just walked in."

"So? I don't care."

"Ok then, your funeral."

Blair turned away from Carter then and walked over to where Nate was at the bar, but before she could get there Carter pulled her back, "If he finds out your high it won't take long to realise who you got it from. Please Blair, just stay away from him, I don't want to be in trouble with your lot again."

"Oh come off it Carter," she tapped his nose with her index finger. "It's Nate, he wouldn't be able to but two and two together in any situation. NATE!"

Nate looked up from where he was at the bar and spotted Blair, with Carter's arms wrapped firmly around her waste. He rolled his eyes and went over to wear Blair was trapped.

"Let go of her Baizen, she clearly doesn't want to be here with you."

Blair giggled. "I told you so," she whispered to Carter.

"Actually Archibald, she found me, and we're having the time of our lives. Thank you." He winked at Nate.

Nate grabbed Blair hands and said. "Come Blair, you shouldn't be here."

"No Nate. I'm having fun." She glared at him.

"What is wrong with you? What has this douche given you?" He stared at Carter with hate in his eyes.

"Just one tablet," Blair laughed. She looked down at her hand where Nate was still grabbing her. "Let go of me Nate."

"You heard the lady, let go of her." Carter laughed.

"No, you let go of her!" Nate punched Carter in the face causing him to fall to the ground, and grabbed Blair pulling her out of the bar.

"Are you crazy!" he yelled at her.

"No."

"What are you doing with that ass then?"

"Just having some fun. If that's ok with you, dad."

"Do you really think Chuck would want you to act like this?"

"Chuck..? Chuck who?"

Nate sighed and pulled Blair to his limo. "Come on, we're going home."

Blair acted quickly then, she kicked up her leg and kneed Nate in the crotch letting him fall in pain to the ground and ran back inside to the bar where she took Carter's hand and led him to the dance floor again.

The next thing she knew she was sitting in the back of a limo with Carter at her side. Her head buzzed as she turned to look at him, she couldn't remember what had happened in the last couple of hours, scared to know too. "Thanks for an interesting night." She whispered.

"You, know you really are an amazing dancer Blair," Carter replied with a smile on his face.

"Your were amazing...out there."

She moved over from her spot to reach Chuck's side, meeting his lips and shared a sweet kiss with him.

He drew back from the kiss.

"You sure?"

Blair snapped her eyes open in shock to see Carter's lips moving but hearing Chuck's voice. He leaned into Blair and kissed her again, Blair pushed him off her, "Carter no!" She felt the car draw to stop and was ready to get out. "Come on Blair, what chuck doesn't know won't hurt him." He quoted her, he tried to kiss her again but Blair managed to push him off her and slapped him. She threw the door open and ran out of the door, hearing Carter yell behind her "SLUT!"