Chapter 4 Hoping

Hey guys sorry it took a bit to update but I have been busy. Well Happy New Year everyone. Hope yours was good. Well I hope this chapter is to your liking. Here it is.

James pov

After about 10 minutes of driving we finally made it to the hospital and we rushed Kendall in. We ran up to the desk and told the lady what was wrong and she had doctors to us in less then a minute. Two doctors grabbed Kendall out of my arms, put him on a stretcher and rushed off with him leaving the three of us behind. I didn't like that at all I wanted to go after him. I did try to go after him but Logan and Carlos grabbed me and held me back.

"Let me go you guys. I want to be with my Kenny bear". I said as I tried to get out of there hold on me. "You can't James. The doctors need to do what they do to make him better. Then we can see him. I am sorry James but that's how it is". Logan said sadly. "But but I wanna be with him. Please let me go". I said as tears started to run down my face. After a while I gave up and sat down. I knew Logan was right but I didn't really wanna listen. But I knew if I didn't listen they could kick me out of the hospital.

While we were waiting a nurse brought me some papers to fill out for Kendall since Mama Knight wasn't there to fill them out. It was hard for me to fill them out because every time I tried my eyes started to tear up. I finally got them done an hour later and I gave them back to the nurse. I was really hoping the doctor would come out soon and tell us how my Kenny bear was.

After about fifteen more minutes of waiting the doctor that rushed my Kenny Bear away was finally walking towards us. I ran up to him. "How is he doc?" I asked sadly. "He's stable but still in critical condition. He lost a lot of blood and we had to pump his stomach. So there's that 50/50 chance. We will know by tomorrow if he pulls threw or not. But you boys can go see him now if you want but don't bother him he needs his sleep". Said the doctor. "What room is he in?" Asked Carlos. "Room 205 in the icu". Said the doctor. Then he walked away.

All three of us ran to the room as fast as we could. We wanted to see him. Once we made it to the room, we walked in quietly. I was the first one in and I ran to my loves side. He was all bandaged up and had tubes in him everywhere. It made me sad to see him this way. I grabbed his had gently and rubbed circles on his knuckles soothingly. That small touch made him jump a bit and he woke up. I didn't mean wake him up but I did.

"Who's there?" Kendall asked in a groggy voice. "It's your brothers and your boyfriend". I said in a soft voice. Kendall just smiled at that. "Go back to sleep honey. You need your rest". I said. Kendall just nodded his head and fell asleep instantly. I was glad he was awake for a short time but I knew if he was gonna fight to stay alive he needed his rest.

BTR…BTR…..BTR….BTR…..

Me, Carlos and Logan stayed with Kendall all night long. The doctors told us we could just incase Kendall didn't make it threw the night. So we could be there to say our good byes. None of us wanted to sleep because we didn't want to miss saying good bye if it did happen that he wasn't gonna make it. Me and Carlos had to force Logan to sleep because he needed it because he was Pregnant.

All night long Kendall's heart would drop and almost stop at times but I never stopped beating. I was so worried about him. I hoped and prayed he pulled threw. I kept a hold of his hand all night long. By the time it was morning Kendall seemed to be feeling a bit better. Some color had returned to his face, his heart rate was staying steady and he even had a bit of an appetite. After we all ate something Logan and Carlos headed down to the gift shop to look around and to give me and Kendall some alone time.

"Love I am so sorry that I pushed you into anything or did anything to make you feel like you were worthless. I didn't intend to do that if I did". I said sadly. "No Jamie. It wasn't your fault at all. I just felt like I couldn't do anything right for you and I thought getting rid of myself would help you to move on and find someone who can give you a child". Said Kendall in a sad voice. "I don't care if you can give me a child. I love you no matter what and I'll do what ever you want me to do to keep you happy and healthy. I will even let you get me pregnant so we can have a child". I said with a smile on my face.

"We can try that. I have always wanted to top you. Sounds like fun. Also we can try your other idea too". Said Kendall happily. This made me so happy that I crushed our lips together in a passionate kiss. I knew he was hooked up to a lot so I was careful but I got on top of him and kissed him more. Before we could get any further Carlos and Logan walked in. "What the hell you two. Get a room". Yelled Logan. "Were in a room". I said jokingly as I got off of Kendall. Kendall just smiled at them. "Sorry but Kendall is doing better and wants to try new ideas and it got me all happy and horny. I said as my face went as red as a tomato in embarrassment. The other three just laughed at me.

A few hours later the doctor came in to check on Kendall's progress. "Seems like he is doing way better today. I think we can move him out of the icu by tomorrow if he keeps on doing better. Said the doctor happily. Then he left the room. Logan then left the room to call Mama Knight to tell her what was all going on and Carlos joined him. Me and Kendall just stayed in the room. Kendall had just fallen asleep and had a big smile on his face. I was feeling tired too so I decided to fall asleep to since my love was doing better. But I never let go of his hand.

Ok well there is chapter 4. Hoped you liked it. Told you he wasn't gonna die. I just wanted to put some suspense in the story. Plus I don't like killing them off in any of my stories. The only one I am doing that with is "Big Time Boys Don't Cry". I am only doing it in that one cuz that's how the story is but ya I don't like killing them off in my stories. Well R&R.