And I wonder what I'm doing in a place like this

by berryslushie

Rachel and Quinn overcame a lot in highschool to finally admit their feelings to each other but now they're in college at opposite ends of the country and being apart is proving harder than they'd imagined. R/R? Faberry.

4. If it's not keeping you up nights

Mercedes drew back the curtains with a swift tug. The room was a mess. Dark and cluttered, she had almost stumbled over the unpacked suitcase. She had come to visit Quinn not work as a maid.

Quinn woke up, startled by the light creeping through the window and by the image of her best friend standing before her. It was the most light she'd seen in days.

"Get out of bed, Quinn. This is ridiculous!"

Quinn moaned and pulled the blankets over her head, mumbling about how all she wanted to do was sleep. Mercedes was having none of it. She managed to get Quinn out of bed, give her a caffeine fix and get her out of the scrubby t-shirt that she protested so much about removing.
They sat on Quinn's balcony in silence for almost an hour. Quinn was near impossible to talk to. She just stared into the distance. No matter how many times she snapped her fingers, Mercedes couldn't snap Quinn back into reality.

Quinn wiped away the tear that was rolling down her pale cheek. She didn't want to break in front of Mercedes. She had to be stronger than this but she just wasn't able anymore.

"I need out of her, Mercedes. I need to go to Rachel." She almost whispered.

She explained everything to Mercedes. How much she missed her, the unbearable pain, how Rachel hadn't even replied. She felt so weak. She felt so guilty for not being able to be strong enough to give Rachel the space she needed. She explained how she hadn't unpacked her suitcases because every day she thought of running away.

Quinn ached to leave. There were other schools. She would have other chances at getting an education. It didn't have to be here, so far from the love of her life.
Mercedes listened intently and tried to reason with Quinn. She tried to make her understand that Rachel not responding wasn't a good sign. She tried explaining that maybe it would be better if she put herself before Rachel, but Quinn was determined.

She was going to be with Rachel Berry again and no distance, no silence, no one, would hold her back. She wouldn't give up the one thing in her life that she felt was true and real.