I do not Own Twilight Stephenie Meyer does

Edward Masen P.O.V

The last couple of weeks after the funeral I couldn't take it. All I kept thinking about was my mother and the letter that my father wrote to me. He wanted Carlisle and Esme to be my parents. Who was he to tell me who was going to be my parents or not. All the choice he made were wrong, I mean look what he ended up, six feet under Chicago. He really think that I would forgive him after I got the letter he wrote. He didn't even apology after putting her brain dead.

I couldn't make myself to visit my mother. It hurt seeing her there. I thought of that afternoon and how I was going to hate her because she was going to break up our family, because she was cheating. I felt kind of better that I wasn't the cause of her being in that state. I knew it was wrong feeling like, I regret talking to my father that day. I knew something was wrong when he called, because first of all he told me he loved me, and on other accounts he made it clear that he didn't want me in his life, he felt obligated to take care of me because he help made me. I should of pressed for answers about his behavior, I should have went over there to see what was wrong maybe he would of killed me if I did , maybe I deserved it.

I stayed in my room for weeks. At first Esme and Carlisle came up to check on me. Then Emmett and Jasper came up and tried to make jokes but that wasn't working. Rosalie only came up to yell at me about how I should get over myself because I'm making her depressed. I just ignored her. Alice came for moral support

."Edward." Alice said interrupting my thinking. when she came in my room.

"Why don't you come downstairs and eat as a family." She said pleading with her eyes.

I wanted to tell I wasn't apart of the family but instead I said "I'm not hungry

."Come on Esme is even making your favorite, Steak." my eyes lit up for a second.

"You barely ate for awhile, and you've been up here for weeks." I looked over at her

.If you really want me to come down stairs then I'll go."

"We all want you to come down stairs." She said it like it was obvious.

I walked with Alice down stairs to the dinner table. They looked up when they heard us. They looked surprise to see me. Emmett mouth even pooped open. They act like it was a miracle. I piled food on to a plate and took my seat next to Jasper like I usually do. I knew everyone was looking at me but my eyes was on my plate. I started to stuff food into my mouth. I almost forgot how hungry I was. I was eating so much everyone was looking at me.

"What.."I said with my mouth full.

"I'm hungry."

"Yeah I can see the way your inhaling your food like an animal." Emmett said. And everyone started to laugh. I half smiled

."I'm glad your eating something." I heard Esme say.

After dinner we all piled into the living room to watch a movie. Esme brought out tape.

" I found this upstairs in the attic, I wonder if you remember this.."

The tape was with Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie and Alice, it looked like they were little. It started by Emmett impersonating Arnold Schwarzenegger Terminator 2 . And Jasper was the little Boy who was John. Rosalie was his mom and Alice was the liquid metal guy trying to kill John (Jasper). They were little actors. Emmett was dragging himself into a hole like he was hurt, he was acting out the ending of the movie. And Jasper was pleading Emmett not to go. You had to admit it was kind of funny. Everyone was laughing. Then I realize that you see this family in the tape laughing and having fun and you see them here laughing and having a good time. Which I wasn't doing, I wasn't apart of.

"I'm going to call it a day." I said as I got up and walked to the stairs..

"Are you ok son." Carlisle asked me. I nodded.

"I'm just tired ." I said with a slight smile, and went up stairs to my room and drifted off to sleep.

The next mooring was Monday. I had to go to school. I to force myself out of bed. I haven't been to school for weeks because I was clouded in my depression, I had to go in order to get out of this town. Everyone was surprise when I joined them in the car. I guess they thought if I didn't want to go to school. It was silent on the way. I didn't talk to Alice on in first period. When I walked through the hall people were staring at me like I grew an extra head. I guess they heard what happen. After all it is a small was even worse. We all had lunch together. I was walking to get my lunch when I heard:

"Masen, I heard what happen,"

I didn't turn around to see who it was but knew it was, he was the biggest trouble maker in the school. If you wanted anything illegal he got it for you. He was the kind of person you'd want to stay away from. I kept walking to get my lunch

"Masen I'm talking to you, hows your brain dead mother.

" He said laughing at his was it. I clenched my jaw, balled my hands into a fist turned around and punched him in his face. He staggered back and swung back at me, I dodged it and kicked him in his knee. At that time people were coming over trying to see what's going on. I felt Emmett arms around me trying to hold me back. The aid of the lunchroom was holding James by the shirt.

"Stop it Edward its not worth it." he'd said in my ear.

I calmed down a little but I was glaring at while he was concerting on his bloody this point me and James was in front of the Principle office. The Principle was talking to our Parent/Guardians about our little fight. We sat as far away from each other. I was glaring at the floor while he was bleeding over the chair. I couldn't hear what they were talking about in there because he his room was sound proof. I heard the door open and saw Carlisle and Esme walking towards me, they looked disappointed..

"Come on Edward lets go home."

He didn't say anything as we was a quiet trip home. They didn't say anything. We Walked up to my room and closed the one bothered to wake me up the next morning to go to School. I kind of felt left well. I thought you'd better get use to it after all your suspended.

I went downstairs to get something to eat, it was about 12 noon. I frozed when I saw Carlisle And Esme sitting across from some lady in a suit on the couch. I descended down the stairs slowly. Esme and Carlisle turned when they heard me

."Good afternoon Edward come down stairs we have to talk to you about something."

I stopped in front of Carlisle and look at the lady in front of him. Then I looked at Esme who looked like she was crying.

"who's she". I said without averting my eyes away from hers talking to Carlisle . Carlisle was about to speak but this lady cut him off.

"Hi I'm Amy Rushford, I'm with social services." She offered me her hand, but I didn't take it. I looked over to Carlisle.

"But no one here is being abuse, why are you here?" I said.

"I'm here for you." she said looking at me.

"why. I'm not being abuse." I said confused.

I looked at Carlisle, but he looked away from my eyes and Esme was whimpering into his chest.

"Edward after the fight you had and not going to school for awhile foster care had to step in and since were not your legal guardians we can't do anything about it."

"I'm sorry." He took a deep breath and put a hand on my shoulder.

"Their taking you away to another home so you can be yourself again." I moved away from his hand.

I knew this would happen, I knew that you didn't want me to be apart of your family." I nearly shouted.

"Edward it isn't like that, you know-"

"BullShit." I screamed at him cutting him off.

I looked at all three of them and ran out of the house. I stared at nothing as I ran. My feet had a mind of their own. Before I knew I was in front of a house, My house a place where I know I would be safe. I walked up the stairs and looked around. It was empty. I winced as I looked towards the living room remembering what happen that day. I went up stairs to my old room, and curled up into a ball on the floor and before I knew it I heard a the door open.

Six months later……

"Edward come down stairs and put the garbage out now." My foster mother Victoria yelled as I lit up a cigarette and laved on my bed. I never listen to anything that bitch say she has nothing to hold over me. I don't owe her nothing.

"Edward didn't you listen to what I said." she yelled again as she busted through my door. I mean come on can people knock.

" No I wasn't paying attention could you run that by me again." I said as I took another puff.

"Put out the garbage and stop smoking in the house only I can do that and then she walked out.

I took my skateboard that had Led Zeppelin on the bottom and threw my bag over my shoulder, I walked pass the garbage cans and f licked my cig in the garden

. God she's going to be pissed when she see that. I thought to myself.

I started to skate down the street. I passed a couple of blocks when I saw their house but I wasn't going there. Ever since that day they told me that they didn't want me. I didn't want nothing to do with them. I knew that they didn't want me and was out to get me. Alice tried to talk to me but I didn't want to hear what she had to say.

I stopped in front of my old house that was still abandon. I don't think their going to sell the house after what happen, who want a house that someone died in. I sighed as I looked up at my house. I hid my skateboard in the bushes and started to climb to the side of the house where my room held. I didn't want to walk pass the living room, I didn't want to remember what happen that day. I jumped in my window. I looked around which was nothing there but a mattress. I sat down and started combing through my bag. I pulled out my poetry book. I haven't wrote in here in awhile since I knew My mom was brain-dead. I couldn't pull the plug on my mother. The decision was up to me because I was here next kin. I felt like I killed her again. Today I felt like a poet again. I pulled out a pen and stated to write:

A Flower the color of blood

Wind howled through the tree all aroud me

Whipping the branches in every direction.

The sky overhead chured,

Thick with roiling in every direction.

Each rain-beaded petal was vividly red, slender and blade like,

The way some tropical orchids are.

Yet the flower was lush and full, too,

And it clung close to the branch like a rose.

The flower was exotic, mesmerizing thing I'd ever seen.

It had to be mine.

I realize as I was writing this I souned like such a girl so I tried to write it again

Thunder rumble.

My heart beat faster.

I turned away and looked back at the floweras it trembled on the branch

A single petal was torn away by the wind.

Pushing my hands through the throns,

I felt lashes of pain across my skin,

But I kept going

' Dtetermined

But my fingertip touched the flower,

It instantly darkened,

Withering and drying as each petal turned black.

Then I feel asleep in my old room on my old mattress it felt like home again.

The next moring was school. I still had to go to the same dumbass school and see the same dumdass people including my family. I quickly went to Victorica's and changed and skate my ass to school. I got there in time to see Emmett and the rest flie out of the car. I didn't want them to see me so I hid behind a tree until I could no longer see them. I came behind the tree and went to my first period class. That was math. Also when my family disowned me I changed my program so I had none of the classes with them, only lunch.

I sat in the back of the seat as usual. Nobody bothered to look at me as I sat down because I was concedered a outcast maybe its because I looked so depress, even Jessica stopped bothering me that was relief. The day passed quickly before you know it, it was lunch. I got my lunch and went to sit in the back of the Cafeteria where I usually sit. I could see every face and these children didn't even know it . Its like I'm their Predator and their Prey,never know when I'm going to strike.

Since I was done with lunch, I was done with school. I only had Biology next period, so I decided to leave. I needed some weed anyway, I was running low. Before I left that morning. I took some money from Victoria's house. I was headed towards Port angles to meet the dealer. When I got there he was standing on the corner by a store. I looked around to see if anybody was watching. I walked up to him and asked for an ounce of grass I slipped him my cash and he slipped me my stuff. Then that when I heard Sirens. I guy was out as I car was in front of me. I was trapped. "Shit' I cussed at myself. They read me my rights and took me down to the present.. They said I had to wait for a guardian to bail me out.

Great. I thought. She going to bitch about this.

I waited around for a while. First I thought They forgot about me. Then I heard

"Edward Masen." A guard said as he unlocked the gate.

I thought I could go back home then I saw Ms. Amy Rushford. The stupid social Worker who put me in that home I clenched my teeth and walked toward her.

" What do you want, to ruin my life again."

"I'm here to help you just don't see that " She said

"Your right I don't" I said to her.

" Your always in trouble Edward especially the drugs they found on you, this was the last straw. You have two option Jail or rehab for two months."

We pulled up to Fresh Pines rehabilitation center. We change people. That was there slogan. I groaned internally. Rushford delivered me there herself to make sure I don't escape or something. Why would I escape If they are going to put me in jail.

"Edward." She said

"I know' I told her

We walked in the place and she checked me in, and left, and left. This place looks more like prison. The guards took to my room. They said that we eat three meals a day. Have therapy sessions one on one with our therapist and do the work the sent us from our schools so that we don't fall behind.

When I opened the door guess who was there. James Michaels. He was kind of one of the reasons why I was here.

" Edward Masen. The was the last place expected to see you" he said laying on his bed. I walked across from him on the other bed. I didn't say anything to him.

I stared at the gray walls that could make you commit suicide just from looking at them.

"Come Edward I'm sorry about the last time I was an ass." He held out his hand I stared at it for along time and shook it.

We and James became good acquaintances during the time here it was really boring without James. He was the life of the party. He reminded of Emmett minus the drugs which he smuggled in at nights. We and couple of other guys staying here got high on the roof. So much for the security. As for the one on one sessions of therapy with Ms. Underwood was very informative if you know what I mean, She even wrote progress fake reports on how good I'm doing . Before you know it My two months was up and it was time to go home. This time Victoria picked my up. And we rode to her house. She didn't say anything on the way there. We pulled up in front of the house and got out. I lit up a cigarette.

"I see things haven't change" she said as she went up to the house.

I rolled my eyes and, I walked down the street in the rain to my old house. I was happy that I got to be by my self where I belong. As I turned the corner I saw a light on where the living room was suppose to be. I looked at it confused. The electricy was turned on and who was in MY house. I avoid the front of the house and went around the back. Where the kitchen was at. The light was on there too. I opened the screen door and walked in. I saw that the house was furnished. I looked around and heard

"May I help you". A girl said looking at me stand in the middle of the kitchen. She was Averaged height, slim with long brunette hair. and big brown chocolate eyes.

I ignored her looks and walked into MY house.

"Hello, are you lost " she asked.

"What are you doing in my house." I asked confused.

"I'm sorry but this is mine house, it has been for two months." she said confused.

At this time officer Chief swan Came up behind The brunette and said.

"Edward you need to leave this isn't your house anymore, they sold it." He said as he put distance between me and the girl.

"Bella go up stairs to your room, I'll handle this." Watched as she walked away from my sight.

" Edward you need to leave before I'll escort you "

"I know, I know I'm leaving" I said as I walked out from the back of the house to the front into the rain again.

I glanced up where was room and saw the girl looking down at me with sad eyes. I walked away from my escape.

A/N: I hope you like it. Bella P.O .V is next chapter it may be awhile before I post it. I'm going to have to think about. Review. (Likes , dislikes, Criticisms, questions) thank you

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