I made sure my door was locked and everything. Kise's still downstairs... eating. He won't go here. He can't peek inside my door. He won't know my secret.
Yes... Have faith. He won't know. Okay?
I sighed as I go deeper inside my bath tub. I'd bandage my chest again. I luckily didn't took my bandages off last night... or else he should know already...
The secret I don't want him to know.
I want to keep it hidden from him...
Forever.
Yes I admit... I can love him as a girl...
Well... O/O
Yes...
I DO.
But... I don't want him to know that I'm a girl...
But I don't and I can't even imagine him with some girls...
Ghad... I don't know what to do...
Just... Kise...
You simply ruined my life...
If I haven't met a guy like you...
I wouldn't be messed up like this...
Damn you Kise...
I love a stupid guy like you?
What the hell's wrong with me?
Arrr!
Just get the hell out of my life and jump off a high building PUHLEASE?
"Oi! Get out there soon! I am not a patient type of human! I'm gonna break in your room if you won't!"
Damn this guy. He's such a pervert... well, unconsciously yes.. but... He's still a pervy guy in my judgemental eyes. :P
"DIE"
"Waaah! So mean!"
And we argued while I'm inside my bathroom.
This guy... -_-
Yes he is stupid...
But I love him for who he is Even if he can't understand our recent lesson on math... Hehe.
I love him, I love him, I love him.
Damn... I am crazy.
And remember... I am such a good liar.
I might be lying.
Well...
I really don't know if this is love...
But why would I love him?
And I am a guy, right?
Well, that's what you call life.
When I got out of my room...
...ARRRRGGGHHH! DID YOU KNOW THAT FEELING THAT YOU JUST LET A HUMANOID INSIDE YOUR HOUSE... NOT REALLY BUT THIS HUMANOID GOT INSIDE YOUR HOUSE BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPIDITY AND HE IS NOW COMPLAINING THAT THERE ASDFGHJKLKJHGFDSA
(Translation: *error error*
Well, that didn't work, I think... Uhm...
Explanation-ssu!: She was too angry that her words were in a bluff and she can't speak clearly because she is too annoyed.)
I spent the whole freaking day with this annoying blonde guy in my freaking property. He's even acting like he's my guest but he just came barging in my own house and asdfghjkl
(There she is again. Don't mind her.)
ARR! Whatever...
This is not love...
This is definitely not love...
This is not LOVE!
(and they were fighting like a cat and dog on the street on the way to Kise's house. She walked Kise home so she'll be sure this guy will be out of her property. And then Kise went home with a smile and she...
With a plan to kill the blonde humanoid.. Haha.
The next day passed with no Kise/schoolmates around so she had a relaxing day. Hanaruko didn't even visit her because she's out with her girlfriends. Well, Naru just stayed at her house and slept all day.)
(School)
"Goddamit..." I said to no one in particular.
My classmates are surrounding me. I dunno if they are concerned or they are there to tease me.
I hate it.
I hate you all.
Is this what you call fair?
This is not fair! It is too unfair!
Even if it is unfair... I can't speak up... Because I am not the one in charge...
...it's just that...
It's our school fest and ofcourse...
We're gonna decorate our room for what we are assigned at.
Know what?
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We are assigned to...
Do a maid cafe... with a twist ofcourse... and the twist is that... some boys would be the maids at the cafe.
Shortly, I'll crossdress or simply wear a dress that suits my gender but I am known as a guy so it's called crossdressing and... Whatever. I think you've got the idea and all I am saying is nonsense.
I'll be a maid as a guy even if I really am a girl.
Terrible. -_-
Whatever. Life goes on...
"You look bothered, Narucchi." Kise said or teased.
"You're lucky you're not counted as a guy that'll crossdress as a maid." I said with bitterness in my voice.
Why isn't this idiotic humanoid chosen to be a maid?
"Well, they said that it'll be by partners. And we're partners."
"Oh... so I'm the girl and you're the guy... Partner. You're my partner." I absent-mindedly said... and it struck me, "What?! You are my partner?!"
"Yeah... hehe." He said and laughed.
My mouth was just about to spit another word of argument but it instantly went shut when I closed my eyes and sighed because... I am too tired. I don't have the energy to fight with this guy that looks like he's driking energy from water and he has a source of it wherever he goes.
"Go die." I whispered but he heard and shouted something.
I ignored his complaints and burried my face into my crossed arms on top of my desk.
-(dismissal)
"Kya!"
"Kise-kun!"
"Konaru-kun!"
"Waah! Kise-kun!"
"Smile for me Kise-kun!"
"Kise-kun! Be the father of my children!"
"Kise-kun! Marry me! How many children do you want!"
DEAR GOD... Why are these fangirls too... uhm... too... too... aggressive?
FANGIRLS... NO OFFENSE! Peace!
Well... "be the father of my children" is one great example of them being aggressive. RIGHT?
Well, what's worse is the "how many children do you want". -_-
Damn fangirls...
(a/n: guys no offense. she's a Kise FanGirl too so she's annoyed by the other fangirls... no other meaning. Haha!)
Can't you see I am here too? Come on!
I want hundreds of children. Lol joke. I'm out of my mind right now... what to do?
Kise's been silent for a long time since we entered this ocean-like pathway filled by Kise FanGirls.
Ghad...
I sighed and tried to open up a conversation, "Seems like they want a baby with you."
We blinked at the same time as we stared at each other.
We just said the same thing.
We are doing the same thing right now.
When I blink... he will blink.
And centimeter by centimeter, the corners of our lips are turning up as it fully formed a smile.
We both laughed at what we said when we realized we have too many crazy fangirls. We even said the same words, did the same movements, and we were also laughing in an unknown rhythm.
I laughed so hard that I ended up having hiccups.
He laughed at me while I tried to stop this unstoppable hiccups.
"Kise... Stop laughing. Buy me some wate-*hiccup*"
And we almost both dissolved into near hysteria.
It seems like the fangirls that surrounds us just minutes ago was gone and we're all alone now. Having a good time. I wonder what he feels like right now... probably normal. He's not affected by this... I am the one affected because I am a girl.
Well, I really don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I want Kise by my side... whatever gender I am. But... one thing kept on running inside my head...
How... what... why...
How he'd know that I am a girl...
What'll he do if he knew it...
And...
Why would he do that...
I don't need an answer for that. I'd love to avoid those questions forever... but I cannot be a boy for all my life.
In time... they will know it all.
I sighed deeply.
"Why're you sighing, Narucchi?" Kise asked.
"Well, I am thinking abou-*hiccup*"
We laughed again. Damn this hiccups.
"You should *hiccup* really buy me *hiccup* some water *hiccup*."
"Hai hai~" He said and walked off laughing. I followed.
I sat on the bench the store provided.
Kise's so slow. He's been there for some minutes already. Guess he's buying some food. That idiot.
And then when I was just staring at no where... I heard some loght footsteps running towards my direction.
When I looked at the direction of where it was coming from, I saw a cute girl on our school running with her arms close to her chest and with her head looking downward. Her long, dark chocolate brown hair was flying and bouncing in ever move she makes. She was runnintowards me and when she looked up... She smiled. I smiled back. Seems like another Kise fangirl would confess.
I tot I taw a puticat (tweety bird... ahaha. Lol.)
Well, I see a small pink enveloped in her cute small hands. Maybe that's why her arms are close to her chest. She's still thinking twice.
I stood up as she went infront of me. She bowed with her hands on her kness as she catches her breath.
"Confession?" I asked with a smile and she looked up and smiled again. She stood up straight and replied, "Hai... Please give it to Kise-kun. Arigato."
Many girls have chosen to go through me first to give it to Kise. I feel like I am the one confessing. Damn this fangirls, they make my role harder. Lol.
"Well, Kise'a just inside. Maybe you should just wait him to-"
"Nope. Just give him that letter Naru-kun. Bye bye." She said and ran off.
"Okay." She's weird. I mean, other confessions were made when Kise's there already.
When she's out of my perspective, Kise got out of the store.
"Your water." Kise said as he throws the bottle towards my direction. I caught it with no effort and said, "Dumbass, my hiccup's gone alre-*hiccup*. Well, not that much."
And we laughed again. I drank feom the bottle of water and gave the letter to Kise.
"What's this?" Kise said as he opens it.
"What does it say?" I asked and peeked a little.
"She wants to meet up." He said as he folds the paper back. He placed the letter in his bag and when I looked up to see his face...
He's kinda furious. What's with that girl? Why is Kise like this?
"Why?" I asked.
"Nothing. Let's go. She wants to meet up now."
-(this was supposed to be the ending of this chap... but, no. Haha.)
We walked back to school in silence. No one talking. It's kinda awkward you know. He's not saying anything. I want to ask something about that girl but, I thinkI should not do that.
He paused and turned around to look at me, "She said we'll meet here." He said.
"Uhh... okay. You can go now. I'll wait somewhere over the rainbow." I joked and he smiled a little.
I sighed. I felt relieved that Kise smiled because he's kinda angry seconds earlier.
"Don't worry... We'll be just right there and you could still see us." He said and pointed somewhere over there. I really don't care about it.
"Like I care." I joked again with a smirk.
"Okay... she's here." He said and he moved towards where she is.
"Be nice." I sarcastically said and he just laughed.
He walked away for the cute girl who'd confess to him. What if I try to stop him and admit everything too... who would he choose?
Wait... why am I thinking about things like this? Stop it.
Okay.
He walked up and when she saw him, a smile crossed her face immediately. Kise was the first one to talk. They were far from here so I really can't make out a word they were saying but when the girl's just about to answer Kise said something that shocked the girl. The girl stuttered and explained something. Kise sighed and he angrily replied. The girl smiled and said something that made Kise's eyes wide. He then sighed and said something. The girl smiled again and then ran off to who know where.
Honestly, I just assumed those expressions... don't believe anything I have just said. Okay?
Kise got back on my side so I asked, "What happened?"
"Nothing much..." He replied and walked ahead of me.
I caught up and asked, "Not interested with girls?"
He chuckled and replied, "Not that much."
I somehow smiled. He's not that interested. Good.
"Don't you want a girlfriend?" I asked. I want to know if he's into lovelife or something...
"Hmpf..." He looked at me with an unsure smile, "What are you saying? I have one..."
What? He has a girlfriend?
"Or maybe the right term is HAD..."
Oh... it's in the past... But why do I feel like it is something more?
This is not good...
"And she just told me minutes ago that she wants me back..."