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No greater gift has man

Than to lay down his life for love

And I wonder, would I give my life

Could I make that sacrifice

If it came down to it

Could I take a bullet?

I would

Keith Urban - For You

It was late at night and the darkness of the house only played on her fears. She walked across the wooden floor again for the thousandth time, a chill running down her body as she realized how late it actually was. She had spent every moment, since putting the kids to bed, listening for the door to open, for her phone to ring, for anything to tell her that her husband was safe. She had left ops early tonight under anything but her own free will, and she was regretting it every passing second. Eric had told her he had it under control, for her to go home, his wife Clara was home with the kids and was expecting him to be late. Hetty doubled up on the orders telling Nell to go home to her children, so even though she wanted to stay for G and Kensi's undercover assignment, she had found herself in her car heading towards home. A small part of her was relieved because even after 13 years of marriage, she was a coward towards G's undercover love interests but that small part was erased by her desire to be able to have a hand in bring G home safe. If anything happened to him, she would blame herself for eternity. But Hetty had spoken, so Nell had found herself at home, pacing.

She held her breath as she heard a noise in the darkness, but her heart fell again as she realized it was just somebody shifting in their bed. She sighed as she felt her nervous energy return to her. They were supposed to be home, hours ago.

She finally broke, dialing Eric's number, her fingers feeling klutzy on the pad.

"Nell?"

"Eric, what is going on? G was suppose to be home hours ago.." Her voice trailed off.

"Nell-"

"Why didn't you call me? Did something go wrong?"

"Nell-"

She heard the click of the door then, and silently as possibly she set the phone down, her mind racing with hope.

"G?" She called softly, keeping her voice calm.

"Nell?"

At the sound of her name, her lips curled into a smile and she found herself running into the next room, hitting him with her full force, her arms unconsciously wrapping around him. It took him a slight second, but he wrapped his arms around her, holding her tight.

"I thought-"

"I know."

She didn't have to say what she thought because he knows what she thought. It crossed his mind all the time too and he knew it must be ten times worse for her because he is in the field, a field that she has to watch everyday. Death isn't the last of their worries, the guilt, torture, rape, and kidnapping also find their ways into the corners of their mind. It's hard to be an agent and make friends, it's even harder to be an agent and have a wife, have a family.

"I love you, Nell." He said softly, kissing her lips.

"What happened out there?"

"We got ambushed Nell. They knew we were coming from the start. Kensi, Kensi was alone. Nell. I didn't even think, I just went after her."

Nell's breath catches and he takes her by her shoulders, squeezing ever so softly.

"Nell, if something happens to me, you have the team, you have our family, you have our home. If something happens to Kensi, she has three orphaned children."

"G." She whispers softly, and that tone breaks his heart, it's a tone that makes him rethink every action he did tonight. "Those three children would have the same family, they would have us. Just because I understand your reasoning, doesn't mean I have to like it one bit."

"It's not the same, Nell. Kensi is their mother. I know, I don't like it either. Believe it or not Nell, I like coming home to you."

"G, I'm trying to be serious here."

He smiles though, hugging her again. "I am too, Nell. I used to do my job because I felt I had too, to keep the world safe. Now, now I do my job to keep the world safe for you. I imagine how I would feel if you didn't come home, and that's why I do everything in my power to make sure Kensi comes home. Her children already lost their father, Nell. You are my first thought, my first priority along with our children, and that's why I had to risk my neck for Kensi. Do you understand?"

His honesty took her breath away for a few seconds. "You risk your life for Kensi, because you understand how it would feel for her children to lose someone, because that's how you would feel."

His kiss is gentle and she closed her eyes, thankful to God that she has at least one more day with him.

Flashback 13 and a half years.

They had been engaged for five months, and the wedding was really coming together. They had planned an April wedding, and Nell could only hope a case didn't come up on the day of their wedding, she preferred to have a nuclear war free wedding, thank you very much. It was ironic enough that she was wedding planning at her house with Kensi when Deeks phoned her that night. She had been surprised, to say the least, when she looked to see Deeks phoning her.

"It's Deeks." She stated, showing the phone to Kensi. "Is your phone dead, Kens?"

"Nope." Kensi replied, her eyes barley leaving the magazine.

"Deeks?" Nell answered, balancing the phone between her shoulder and her ear as she reached for another magazine.

"Nell, there has been an accident."

..

The next three hours had been the largest whirlwind of her life, Kensi rushing her to the hospital, meeting Sam and Deeks in the hospital, soon followed by Hetty. Eric followed later, his hair sticking up all over, evidently fast asleep when woken by Deeks's call.

"It's purely concidence." Sam had told her, taking her hand in his, concidencially her left hand, so the ring was shinning on top. "He was picking up a coffee when a man recognized him as the man who ripped his brother off a lot of money."

"An alias." Kensi had added. "An alias from a case. A really old case."

"He had been high, off his rocker almost." Sam had explained, "high as a kite. Who knows why they let crazy's get guns." Sam then let off a few choice words letting Deeks who had been surprisingly quiet, finish the story.

"He has two wounds. One in the shoulder and one a little frightening near his heart. He should be fine, Nell. Just in a small surgery, and the doctor already told us he has very little worries about his recovery."

Nell finally spoke her first words, scanning all three of their faces almost wearily. "So he'll be okay?"

"It's G." Sam replied, as if that explained all. And in a way, it did.

When they had finally been able to go see him, Sam went in first. They had all tried to persuade Nell to go first, but she had urged Sam to go first. Maybe she is trying to do the nice thing, but truthfully she is afraid to see him injured, or even worse, afraid that he won't remember anything.

"Nell?" Sam pokes his head around the door frame. "G says he likes seeing my face and all but he would really like to see his fiancés."

So she walks through the door, and there he is. He looks like G, other then the scratches and the bandages, but the smile on his face brings a grin to her face, and she settles down in the chair next to his bed.

"G, I was so scared."

He grins. " I would be lying to you if I told you I wasn't scared."

"G, don't ever lie to me okay?"

It comes out fast and it surprises her as much as if surprises him. Callen opens his mouth, to make a joke probably, but seeing the look on her face, he shuts his mouth. Finally he opens it again, pausing slightly before turning to her. "Where is the man now?"

She frowns, her mouth slightly open. "Renko. Renko has him. You didn't answer me G."

"Nell-"

"You live a dangerous life, I get it. We both do. We would be lying to ourselves if we tried to deny it at all. But I want to know the details. I'm with you most of the time, but sometimes the cameras go off. I want you to never hide anything from me."

"As long as you never hide anything from me."

"Never."

They lock eyes but they are interrupted by the click of the door opening. "Nice to see you Callen. Just wondering if you had any jello in here. Kensi's getting kind of hungry." Deeks replied, sticking his head in, a grin spread across his face.

"Nice to see you too Deeks." Callen replies, and Deeks's face lights up, he opens the door letting the rest of the team in. Celebration is in order. In their line of business, death is very easy to obtain. Living to the end of the day is a celebration, and boy will they celebrate tonight that Callen has a tomorrow.

..

"I'm going to say good-night to the kids." Callen replies, finally letting go of Nell. She takes a step back, reaching for his hand before heading down the hall with him.

"They missed you…I missed you."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah, I mean I know I complain about your socks smelling, and how you never make the bed, and how sometimes, actually you never sleep, so I find myself waking up a lot, but truthfully it's nice to have you here."

"I'm sure you could find some more things wrong about me."

"Maybe another night I'll give you a 101 reasons why my husband is crazy," She replied, as they walked into Clara's room. "But we will save that for another night. I have better plans for tonight."

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