There is a need for aloneness, which I don't think most people realise for an actor. It's almost having certain kinds of secrets for yourself that you'll let the whole world in on only for a moment, when you're acting. But everybody is always tugging at you. They'd all like sort of a chunk of you. In all secrets there is a kind of guilt, however beautiful or joyful they may be, or for what good end they may be set to serve. Secrecy means evasion, and evasion means a problem to the moral mind.
She rubbed her eyes for a moment unsure if she heard her clearly. Was Robin asking her to keep this secret from Patrick? Was she agreeing to keep this secret for her? And if she was why? Was she going to admit that she was carrying Patrick's baby to his wife of all people. Or was this just Robin pretending she overheard something in order to find out the truth.
"Sabrina, I know that you don't want Patrick to know about this. And honestly I don't want him to know about this either. Patrick doesn't want anymore kids. He is happy with it just being us and getting back to the family that we have so longed to be. The reason that you didn't tell him is because you know that he wants to be with me and you never want him to feel like he has to be obligated to you or this baby. You don't want him ending up resenting you or that child. We both, or should I say that we all know that ou are doing the right thing. Patrick would not want to be a part of this babies life but he would feel like he had to. So you are doing the right thing, for everyone. And I won't say a word. I never heard you say anything and you can go on living your life with Carlos. Maybe the two of you should just get married. And raise your child, together and away from Port Charles."
Sabrina looked at her for a moment. "What are you trying to say, you want me to leave Port Charles. Robin, I am sorry but this is my home. And where Carlos and I decide to raise this baby is up to us. It has nothing to do with you or anyone else." She spoke simply still unsure if Robin actually heard the truth or not. She was taking in all the words that Robin was saying her mind running two forty an hour. Maybe she did hear what they were saying. But who could she have known?
Convincing her was not going to be easy but knowing that Sabrina was in the same town as her made the chance of Patrick finding out the truth, that much greater. "And you can go back to Puerto Rico, that was your home for so long. You and Carlos can move back there and start things over. You can actually move anywhere and start your lives together. Your family together and you don't have to worry about your past coming up to get you. I think you should really consider it. Believe me when I tell you this. Patrick doesn't want anymore children. He is happy with the family that he has. He doesn't want anyone or anything involved in it." Robin looked at her. "You should really listen to what I have to say. Like I said Patrick and I talked about it, after we renewed our vows on New Years Eve and he told me that he didn't want anymore children. So I just think that you need to keep up with your story and don't tell anyone."
Shaking her head it took nearly everything in her not to break down and cry as Robin showed off her ring, now raced perfectly around her finger. "I have to get back to work." She sighed walking from the room and setting everything down before signing out and headed towards the elevator running right smack dab into Patrick. "I'm sorry Dr. Drake. Excuse me I have to be going. " She spoke softly hoping that he did not see the tears that was starting to form in her eyes, quickly trying to press the elevator button to get herself out of the line of fire that was coming her way
"Dr Drake, since when do you call me Dr, Drake. Normally it is just Pat..." Patrick looked at her. Her eyes were tear stained as though she had been crying. "Sabrina what's wrong?" He looked at her. "Why are you crying? What is going on? What is wrong?" One of his free hands rubbed her arm the other tried to wipe the tears from her face.
She was far from being in the mood to tell him anything as she slowly pulled away. Screaming out that his wife cornered her was not something that she wanted to get into at that point and time. She was so over everything and just wanted to be left alone. It might have seemed selfish but that is what she needed. "Patrick, nothing is wrong. Everything is fine. I just.. there is a lot going on and it has been a really long day and I just need to get some sleep. You don't have to worry about me. I told you I have everything under control." She said sadly.
"Sabrina, is something wrong with the baby? Is something wrong with you? Look I know that we aren't together, but I still care about you. And I want you to be okay. You know that you can tell me anything right, I won't judge. I won't be mad." Patrick continue to watch her. This was definitely not the Sabrina that he knew. She was always smiling, always happy. But she looked hurt. Something was definitely bothering her.
She starting crying a bit looking at him. "I told you I am fine. There is nothing wrong with me. It has just been a really long and I just need to be by myself. Go back to your wife. And leave me alone." Sabrina walked into the elevator and pressed the door to shut it behind her. Once inside and moving she allowed the tears to flow from her eyes. Maybe Robin was right, maybe the best thing for her to do was just leave and never look back. Maybe she should just start her life over.
He watched the elevator go down and sighed softly. His mind started wandering back to the last time that they were together. Everything was coming back to him and it sort of pieced together. There was no way that she could be pregnant with Carlos baby. If it was the day of the wedding, she wouldn't even know yet. Everything in his body was telling him that she was lying to him. She had to be. But why. She looked him in the eyes and told him that she was carrying Carlos baby. Why would she put them both through that? Especially after everything that happened with Britt. Why would she hurt him like this, especially when she said she loved him. Especially when he loved her. He loved her. "I LOVE HER." He finally admitted outloud. Louder than he thought. Sure he loved Robin, but he loved Sabrina too. More than he was willing to admit before. He needed to find her and needed to find her now.