I never meant to hurt you.

The next morning Lexa found herself lying in her bed, in nothing more than a t-shirt and panties. Judging by the light that came from the window it was no later than 9am and Lexa wondered just how she managed to sleep that much, she was a very morning person, she usually got up around 7am every morning. Sleep just wasn't her thing, especially because of the nightmares that haunted her down throughout the whole night. But not today. She got up from the bed and headed down the stairs, as soon as she stepped into the living room she was met with a drop dead gorgeous blonde lying on her couch. Her hair were all over the place and she was still fully dressed. If sleeping with jeans was uncomfortable she surely didn't give it away. Lexa quietly made her way to the kitchen and started making herself breakfast, she made some extra coffee figuring it would be highly appreciated by the blonde once she decided to come back from the dead, she poured herself a cup and placed the one for Clarke on the table near the couch before heading back upstairs.

Lexa was sitting in her bed reading a book when a voice suddenly made her jump on her feet, book falling to the floor with a huge smash.
"Thanks for the coffe."

"Fuck Clarke. You scared the shit out of me." Lexa grabbed the book from the floor and placed it back on the bed, while a hand was rested near her heart as she was trying to catch her breath.

"Language." Clarke said serious.

"Pft I'm a big girl you know?"

"Yeah you are," the blonde chuckled "good morning."

"Good morning to you sleepyhead." Lexa smirked "Was my couch comfortable?"

"I bet your bed was better but it wasn't that bad." She winked at the brunette and smiled.

"So.." Lexa said sitting at the edge of her bed "I wanted to thank you for yesterday. For showing up and for staying with me."

Clarke smiled again "You already thanked me and it really is no problem, I think you know I highly enjoy spending time with you." The blonde remarked the last words and Lexa noticed it but didn't comment.

Her relationship with Clarke really was one of a kind. They met when she was at her third year of college and Clarke was just starting out. Lexa sure noticed the blonde girl walking around campus, how couldn't she, Clarke was, and still is, beautiful, but that was all that she did, admire from a distance, because there was no way Lexa could talk to her, she couldn't. It was wrong. But then life happened and Clarke was all over Lexa, and as much as the brunette tried to avoid it, the blonde managed to break down all of her walls and here they were. Even if it was still so damn wrong.

"Earth to Lex." Clarke said snapping the brunette out of her thoughts.

"Yeah, sorry. Were you saying something?"

"No I wasn't." Clarke smiled slightly and Lexa mirrored her face.

Sometimes all she wanted was to kiss Clarke, to feel her lips pressed against hers, but then she'd realize it wasn't right, that it could never happen so she'd push that thought at the back of her head and force herself to think about something else.

"I need to go." Clarke said sadly "Winter break will end soon and I need to study."

"Yeah sure, don't worry." Lexa followed Clarke to the front door and held it open for her "See you soon Clarke." she said and Clarke smiled and nodded her head.

Before the blonde could actually leave the house Lexa leaned forward and placed a soft kiss to her forehead counting down three seconds knowing Clarke would be counting it too. It was her way of showing all she didn't have the courage to say. She knew it wasn't enough, not for her and surely not for Clarke but it was all she had and it was all she could give.

Stepping back she took in Clarke face and it broke her heart to see the tears that were fight to fall from the blonde eyes. She was glad Clarke understood exactly what that kiss meant but the way she cried every time she kissed her made her want to stop doing it. "I'm sorry" she whispered and placed her forehead to Clarke's "I never meant to hurt you." She added closing her eyes.

I wanna be with you.

Clarke was sat in the passenger seat of Lexa's car, they had been out for lunch and now Lexa was taking Clarke back to her house because she really needed to study, she was intelligent but good grades meant she had to do a lot of studying, being intelligent wasn't enough.
As Lexa drove down the streets the blonde was changing through the stations to find some cool music to listen to.

"Oh I love this song." She exclaimed turning towards Lexa.

"Really? Taylor swift?" The brunette raised her eyebrow in question.

"Yeah. So what? She's cool."

Lexa laughed and shook her head in amusement as Clarke began singing out loud.

"'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile." The blonde turned towards Lexa again and kept singing "Get me with those green eyes, baby." She smiled and winked at Lexa who was waiting for the light to turn green and was currently watching her.

Lexa laughed some more and Clarke heart filled with happiness.

"I love that." She said unable to hide her smile.

"What?"

"Your laugh. Is the most beautiful sound in the world."

Lexa turned her eyes to road again "You're so cheesy, is unbelievable."

"What can I say, you bring out the best in me." Clarke kept her eyes fixated on Lexa as the song kept playing.

"You're staring Clarke."

The blonde smiled and singed the lyrics of the song once more, smiling slightly, because it was like they were made exactly for her "I'm captivated by you, baby, like a firework show."

Lexa shook her head and rolled her eyes with a smile.

"See? Taylor Swift is just cool like this."

Lexa stopped her car and turned it off looking at Clarke "We're here."

"Wanna come in?"

"You need to study."

"I wanna be with you." Clarke knew things like this usually scared Lexa off but she said it anyway because it was the truth.

"I.. Um.." As she imagined the brunette looked taken aback, suddenly unsure on what to do.

"It's okay Lexa. Just come in please." She watched the older girl in the eyes silently praying for a yes and when Lexa nodded she couldn't help but smile big. She loved this girl.

Once inside the house Clarke took off her shoes and went to sit on the couch motioning for Lexa to join her. "We can watch some TV."

On hour into the film Lexa was lying on the couch her head on Clarke laps while the blonde was stroking her face gently up and down. The brunette usually didn't let Clarke be this loving with her so when Lexa asked to lay down on her laps she didn't hesitate a second to answer yes.

"Clarke?"

"Um?" The blonde kept running her fingers up and down Lexa's face eyes fixated on the screen.

"I think I am in love with you."