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Chapter 3 'I have to get out'
Kendall just froze up. 'He's kissing me! Logan FLIPPING Mitchell is kissing me, Kendall FLIPPING Knight!' Logan silently urged the blonde to react, slowly licking the seam into the mouth that no one knew he dreamed about. That seemed to knock the younger boy out of his trance. He nervously opened his mouth, letting out a weak moan as the brunette's tongue lazily ran along his own. Both boys didn't wish to stop but the need for air became too great, and they reluctantly pulled away. "What was that?" Kendall asked, panting slightly. "That," Logan said began. "Was me telling you I like you Kendall, and I won't keep watching you put yourself through hell for something I can give you at no cost. I can't just sit and watch any longer." He took Kendall's hands in his own and squeezed gently. Kendall looked into the brown eyes of the boy he had secretly liked since before they moved to L.A. "I can't break up with Jett. I've tried. He almost k-killed me." The blonde saw the brunette's eyes light with things he hadn't seen in his eyes before. Logan's eyes held passion, drive, protection, and the one thing that looked so out of place in the normally passive boy's expression. Anger. "Kendall, I will find a way I swear. Until then we can date secretly. That is…if you'll have me." Logan said fiercely. Kendall's face dusted pink, and he leaned in and pecked the genius' cheek. "So Kendall Knight, Leader of Big Time Rush, best friend to James Diamond and Carlos Garcia, and finally and most importantly boyfriend to Logan Mitchell," Kendall giggled at his boyfriend's –he felt elated just thinking it- antics as he talked in his 'super-friend' voice. "Would you like to go on a date in the park with me?" The blonde smiled the first real smile since the whole Jett ordeal began. He nodded and laughed at the brunette genius as he had gotten up and cheered, doing backflips off of random things until he said, "Go get ready and don't come out until I come get you got it?" he pushed the blonde up swirly and to their room. Kendall giggled and turned to the shorter teen, leaning in holding on the door frame. "You don't have to anything extravagant for me." He said pink once again spreading across his porcelain cheeks. Logan smiled and took the blushing boy's face in his hands. He pulled his face to his, meeting his eyes. Emerald green met chocolate brown. Kendall blushed even harder; he swore his ears were bright red. The brain of the two just chuckled and said, "Your cute, yanno that?" and brought their lips together gently. Kendall kissed back loving the feel of Logan's lips on his. Logan grabbed his waist, urging him closer. The blonde came willingly, opening his mouth when a tongue lazily licked cross the seam of his lips. Their tongues wrestled fighting for dominance of the other. Logan shoved Kendall against the wall, winning the prolonged battle. Kendall pulled away with a whimper of fear, his eyes squeezing shut as memories flooded to the surface. Logan jumped off and Kendall slid down the wall, his eyes tightly closed. "Kendall I'm sorry." Kendall looked up and let out a weak smile. "It's ok Logie" he got up and went into his room, kissing the worried boy on the cheek and heading into his room. "Don't take too long. I might think you've stood me up" he teased as he shut the door. He listened for Logan's exit before he ran to his bed. He dug under it for something he had taken from James a few days after Jett had begun to abuse him. He felt his hand enclose around the pocket knife, and he brought it out. He ungauzed his wrist and put the new blade to the skin below his previous cuts. He made two more before he knew he had to stop. He quickly went to the bathroom and washed them and regauzed them. He took a deep breath. He looked in the mirror and said, "How do I get out?"