Title – You Found Me
POV – Bella and Jacob
Setting – Killeen, Texas (near Fort Hood, Texas)
Mortality – All human
Time Setting – Fall of 2007
Summary – The worst part of being an army wife is not the wait, it is when the wait is over and you find yourself with no husband and son with no father. That's the hardest part and at that point you can only find comfort in a certain person, when does the comfort become something else? Bella is what we call an army wife. She is married to Sergeant Black. He has been in the army since he was 17. He is best friends with Edward Cullen, a guy who is dedicated to the army but doesn't realize that it's taking a toll on his life. Tragedy strikes and soon there are two people left and they must depend on one another to get through it. Can they get through it without making a sinful mistake?
A/N –

Don't talk, don't say a thing
Cause your eyes they tell me more than your words
Don't go, don't leave me now
Cause they say the best way out is through

And I am short on words knowing what's occurred
She begins to leave because of me

Her bag is now much heavier
I wish that I could carry her
But this is our ungodly hour

–Ungodly Hour, The Fray

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Ungodly Hour

JPOV (Jacob)

Lying turned out to be extremely hard and exhausting. Monday morning came and that afternoon I was leaving. I had made the best of the time I had with Jake. I just had to keep it in my mind that it was one tour, just one tour. "Hey, Bells, I need to tell you something. It's important."

She turned from the fridge. "Okay, shoot."

I took a deep breath. "I might've…failed to tell you something."

"What's that?"

"I have somewhere to go at three."

I saw the confusion in her face. "Where are you going?"

"A….tour to Iraq." I said almost inaudibly.

"A tour," She demanded. "You're not due back for another month."

I sighed. "He called me the morning after I landed, the Colonel did. He said that he needed me."

"Jacob, that is so horrible. You should've said something. How can you wake and tell me 'I'm leaving to Iraq today', I had no warning." She ran her fingers through her silky brown hair. "That's so unfair."

"I know but I wanted to avoid this, the last time I left I was scared for you. I didn't want you to feel like I'm going to die the next day. I wanted to enjoy my days here without you worrying. Please see where I'm coming from. I am sorry."

"I don't know how long I can do this. It's so hard to recover from your absence. I miss you, I roll over on the bed and I feel so alone. Sometimes I'll talk to you and turn around and realize you're not here. Sometimes I'll need help with the simplest things and I call out for you and you're not there." I had never felt this pain before. I had never realized just how bad it hurt her. I pulled her into my arms.

I wanted to tell her I was done but if something happened she would be heartbroken. "I'll be back before you know it."

"You should've said something." Her voice was muffled against my chest.

"I wanted to inflict the least pain possible for the shortest amount of time."

"Sometimes it hurts more." She pulled away and closed the fridge after she took out the milk.

"That wasn't my intention." I assured her.

"I know." She wiped off her excess tears and poured a small bowl of cereal. "Do you mind getting Jake for breakfast?"

I shook my head and went to the living room where he watched Elmo. I picked him up from the couch and carried him over to the table. "You know I'm really sorry, right?"

"I know." She replied. "I understand." I knew she was still upset. "I'm not mad at all."

I brought the bowl to the table and started feed him myself. I was going to miss him so much. When we finished breakfast I went to my father's house. He knew that I was leaving, he has a sixth sense, and he always knew when something was up. I told him a few days after I found out but made him promise that he wouldn't tell anyone.

"Jacob, come to say your farewells."

"Yeah, I'm leaving in about two hours." He had a very sad look on his face, when I came to say goodbyes he never acted this way. Somehow he knew that I would be okay but he didn't give me the confidence that I would alive. "Is something wrong?"

"When it's time to let go, just let go." He said in a very wise voice. "We won't be mad, we know you will fight as hard as you can."

"I don't understand." I admitted.

"I know, in a certain way neither do I but I felt the need to tell you that. I think you'll need this…..How's my grandson?" He quickly changed the subject.

"Granpa, hi!" Jake exclaimed. I let Jake down so that he could hug him. My other friends Embry and Quil, joined us for a drink before it was time for me to leave.

"You coming back?" Embry asked.

"I hope so, take care of my dad though just in case." Beside me Bella silently left me. The talk of me dying really took a toll on her.

"Good luck, Jake." Quil called out.

I nodded. "I'll need it. Bye dad."

"Remember what I told you, when the time comes don't feel guilty. Things happen for a reason and always fight your hardest."

"I always do." I hugged him good-bye and met Bella in the car.

She put Jake into his seat and she drove. I told her to stop by Edward's house. I gave her directions and when we arrived no one was home. She then drove to the airport silently.

She didn't take her eyes off the road. Once we arrived at the terminal among the soldier's family I recognized Edward and his family. They waited for me.

"Bella this is Edward and Esme, Carlisle Cullen." I introduced them by gesturing to each of them.

"What a pleasure, five years after he tells me he met the girl, I get to meet her." Edward chuckled.

"Hello." She shook his hand and introduced Jake.

The announcer came on and said the plane was now boarding.

"I'll see you there?" I asked.

"Can't wait." Edward replied sarcastically. "It should be fun."

I turned to Bella. "I have to go, now."

Her eyes watered and soon tears spilled over. "Please don't go." She begged.

"I have to. I don't really have a choice."

"I have this feeling that I won't see you again. When you leave I usually feel optimistic but I feel something deep inside me and it feels like this is the last time I will see you." Her cries turned into sobs.

BPOV (Bella)

I was making a scene at the airport. I held onto Jacob for dear life. There was this wretched feeling inside me. I anticipated something bad, something horrifying. "Please." I begged once more.

"Bella, look at me." He commanded.

I inched my head up.

"Listen, you have to be strong. If I die then you have to keep going, it won't be the end of the world. You have Jake and you will have a life ahead of you. I tell you this every time, you will keep me in your heart and will move on. I can't change fate and neither can you." He pressed his forehead to mine and put his hands on either side of my face. "Just take the bull by the horns. You will be okay."

"Please don't die." He brushed his lips against mine.

"I promise I will fight as hard as I physically able to. In return swear to me that if something happens you won't will attach yourself to my memory. I want you to be happy and it won't be along with my memory. You will move on and you take care of my son."

"I can't."

"Yes you can, because if I die and you don't do this I won't die in peace. Just swear to me."

I sniffled. "I swear." I breathed. An announcement stated the plane was lifting off in 5 minutes.

He pulled away and picked up his bag. He forced a smile and took my hand. He brought it up against his chest. "Keep me in your heart." His saying was connected to a song called Keep Me in Your Heart by Warren Zevon. The first time he left he told me that when he was gone to remember him with that song.

"I will." He took Jake from Esme, Edward's mother, and hugged him tightly and kissed him.

"Don't forget me." He whispered before he gave him to me.

He moved on to say good bye to Esme and Carlisle, then Emmett and lastly Edward. "Drive her home." He said lowly thinking I didn't hear him.

He took one last look at me and mouthed 'I love you.'

'I do too.' I mouthed in return.

"Mommy, sad." Jake looked up at me.

I wiped my face though it was no help. "No, Baby. It's okay." I assured him, the truth was that something told me that it wasn't going to be okay.

"Let me take you home." Edward offered. He was the same guy I remembered from my wedding. He had reddish brown hair cropped short and glimmering green eyes. He seemed like a very honest and caring person. I guess that is why he and Jacob are friends.

"It's okay, I can do it myself."

He wasn't budging. "It would be like me letting you drive drunk, it's not responsible. Hand over the keys."

"No I'm fine, I'm not drunk."

"It's not you I'm so worried about, you can try to kill yourself if you want to but I wouldn't want your son to die."

"Was that supposed to be nice?" I demanded as my tears escaped me.

"No it was supposed to be factual. You won't die in an accident but he will."

He was right. I was in no condition to drive. I took my keys out of my purse. I handed him the keys. "Here." I tried to keep my composure but it was so hard. It was hard keeping myself on my own two feet, anyone can imagine what it was like with a child in my arms.

Edward saw my struggle. "Let me take him." He offered. I was certain he was a lot safer in his arms than mine at the moment.

I led him to my car and behind us followed Emmett. He launched a ring of keys to me. "Take my car."

He put Jake in his seat and I got into the passenger seat where I completely lost it. By sobs caught Jake's attention. "Hey, Bella, relax you're scaring him. Breathe and relax, Jacob….let your life take its course. At any rate you'll be fine."

"He's not coming back."

"No one knows that, not me, not you, not even him." That couldn't comfort me, I wanted to be sure I had a future, and by the looks of it my future would be very dark. The feeling I had didn't leave me, I knew the truth was I wasn't going to see him again and it tore me apart.

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