Title: My Mirror Speaks
Chapter: 4/6
Author: erisgregory
Rating: T, this chapter
Pairing: Chris Colfer/Damian McGinty
Spoilers: noo, not even a little, never happened.
Warnings: RPF, real person fiction.
Wordcount: 2,294
Summary: Chris is comfortable in his world until someone comes along and changes the status quo.
A/N: I just wanted to take a moment and thank you all for reading my insane little story. I keep thinking have all the chapters pinned down and then everyone starts talking and doing what they please, so I wanted to ask that you just hang in there with me while we both see where this is going. I feel pretty confident that this is going to have 7 chapters. Anyhow thanks for all the faves and reviews and alerts. You all have been amazing!
The next few weeks passed in a flurry of activity. Chris and Damian were only able to squeeze in a meal here or there or some time alone in Chris' trailer. They kept whatever was going on between them a secret for no real reason other than they hadn't had enough time alone to talk about what was going on or make plans or anything of that sort. In fact it was sort of nice because being busy meant they were forced to take things slower than they might have liked.
It turned out that they were pretty different from one another in some ways, and then in others they were very similar. Damian was a huge sports fan, really huge. He was always losing Chris when he got excited over some recently watched event. Chris would just smile and nod until Damian slowed down enough to realize that Chris had no idea what he was talking about and then they would both just laugh together. On the other hand they both had music and movies and books they both loved. Damian liked video games slightly more that Chris and Chris liked to while away hours just writing but in the end the differences weren't enough to disinterest ether of them.
They also had their Irish heritage which Chris found secretly amusing. He had to wonder how his family's St. Patrick Day celebrations could hold up to what Damian was used to and if Damian would think they were all crazy. Luckily Damian was just really easy going and fun loving so crazy might just be something he would enjoy.
Despite the onset flurry of activity, Chris was beginning to notice that some of his cast mates were beginning to take notice of his apparently budding friendship with Damian. Ashley, Mark, and Darren seemed particularly keen on the matter, and Lea would shoot Chris these all too knowing glances between takes. It was starting to make him nervous. Not really because he worried what people would think f they knew he and Daman were making out in his trailer occasionally but more because he and Damian hadn't set anything in stone. This was more the wait and see phase.
Neither of them cared to see other people but then neither of them seemed to car to make anything official. So they didn't. It just so happened that this arrangement worked great for Chris who still wasn't entirely convinced that Damian wasn't just having some sort of identity crisis. Which was maybe something Chris should talk to him about, just to get all his fear out on the table, even though Damian had assured him before that wasn't the case. Instead Chris adopted the wait and see attitude and that was where they floated along together. Why mess with a good thing?
So it was with much trepidation that Chris allowed himself to be led off by Darren to talk. Darren hadn't mentioned what this talk was about but Chris had a pretty good idea. He just didn't know what Darren would have to say about it. Darren led them off to his trailer, got Chris a Diet Coke from his fridge and sat next to Chris on the couch. By this time Chris was outright nervous.
At first Darren didn't say anything and it made Chris shift a couple of times, trying to get comfortable or seem relaxed when he wasn't. Finally Chris broke the silence. "Darren? You're supposed to be talking, remember?" Chris tried out a half smile and then Darren grinned.
"Sorry, I was just enjoying the way you were looking like you were waiting to be scolded." Darren started laughing.
"I was not!" Chris shot back at him but he couldn't help but chuckle softly at Darren who was holding his stomach he was laughing so hard.
"You're so evil sometimes." Chris added and then he kicked at Darren's foot until Darren calmed down.
"I said I was sorry." Darren shrugged at him but he kept grinning.
"You don't seem sorry, but tell me what I'm here for if not a scolding." Chris folded his hands in his lap and watched Darren expectantly.
"Okay. We're here because I wanted you to know that you can always come to me if you need to talk, about anything, and also because I think maybe you do have something you need to talk about." Darren said all of this very sincerely. It made Chris' chest tighten just a little because actually he did have a lot on his mind and had been too nervous to say anything. Actually Darren wasn't evil even a tiny bit. He was the best friend anyone could ask for.
"Thank you, Dare, just… thank you." Chris sighed and his eyes cast around the trailer. Darren was giving him time to gather his thoughts and he was grateful.
When he was ready he could only look down at his hands. "It's Damian." He began. Chris felt Darren shift on the seat next to him but he didn't say anything. "We've sort of been… we've basically been seeing each other and umm and we have been keeping it a secret, sort of. We keep meeting up when we can, but, it's just, we haven't talked about it. At all. So, I don't exactly know what we have going on, and I thought I was okay with that but maybe actually I'm not." He took a quick breath. "So I need to just ask, but what happens if we're on different pages or what if we're not and what if it's bad for the show, and maybe I should just stop whatever this is before it can mess with my work, our work." Chris felt like he had a million other things he could say about how fantastic Damian is, how sweet and fun and laid back. How he has the ability to get Chris to stop working and rest when he really should or how he can make Chris laugh even when the day has been too long and too exhausting. Instead he just looks up and meets Darren's eyes.
Darren doesn't hesitate. "You need to have this conversation with Damian, but you know that already." Darren bumped his foot against Chris' leg. "However, I do have an opinion, if you'd like to hear it."
Since Darren was smiling and it felt so nice to have someone to talk to about all of this, Chris nodded. He wanted to hear what Darren thought about all of this.
"You look happy, Chris. Really happy. So does Damian. So I think you should go for it. You deserve to be happy in every way but you won't be able to until you talk to him. Take the risk; I think it's worth it. Besides, you are far too professional to ever let your love life interfere with your work." Darren winked at Chris, the cheeky bastard, and Chris knew he was alluding to that crush Chris had on him when they first met. Even so, he wasn't upset at all, in fact he felt pretty good about everything.
He grinned at Darren. "Alright. I'll do it. Soon. Tomorrow night maybe." Chris said, and now he was even a little bit excited even if he was nervous.
"Good." Darren said and then he leaned back into the cushions. "Stay for Vampire Diaries catch up?" He asked as he switched on the little television set that was mounted on the wall. Apparently Darren was satisfied with their talk.
"You know my weaknesses, Dare, but not right now. Right now I have to find a guy and make a date." He grinned at Darren as he got to his feet. Right before he was out the door he turned back. "Thanks, for everything." Chris said softly.
"Anytime." Darren answered, and Chris left him there with his free time.
Finding Damian wasn't too difficult, he was at craft services chatting up Heather and Naya who grinned just a little too much when he asked if he could steal Damian. Damian waved goodbye to them and Chris led him along until they were on one of the empty sets. T was dim without the lighting but not dark.
"I was wondering if you're free tomorrow night, after rehearsal." Chris tried not to sound like an over eager puppy.
"Uh, yeah, sure. What's up?" Damian asked, his eyes glinting in the shaft of light that came through half the room.
"Well, I was hoping you might agree to come over, to my place; for dinner and maybe a movie." Chris answered, lightly.
"That sounds great." Damian was quick to reply and he smiled at Chris which in turn made Chris smile at him. "Can I bring anything?" Damian offered.
"Sure. What about desert?" Chris offered.
"Good. It's a date." Damian replied and then he leaned in and kissed Chris quickly on the side of his mouth.
Well, Chris thought, that part went pretty easily. They walked back together but then Damian was due in dance rehearsal so it was time to part. The rest of the day went smoothly and Chris decided not to do any actual worrying unless and until he had something to worry about.
The next night Damian met Chris at his house at nine. This was a little later than either of them had hoped for but work really never ended on a schedule so they just ran with it. They ate Thai food and skimmed through moves together until they both agreed on 10 Things I Hate About You, because it was something Damian had never seen. Before Chris put it on, though, he decided to take the plunge.
"Can we talk for a minute?" Chris said, unsure of really how to do this or even f now was the right time.
"Of course." Damian answered, and he turned on the couch so he could see Chris better.
Chris' tongue darted out to his lower lip. He was nervous now, and worried. Was now the time to worry? He couldn't think too hard about it so he just went for it. "I think we need to talk about us; about what we're doing or want to be doing. If that's alright." Chris added at the end.
"Yeah, we can talk about it. I've thought a lot about it myself." Damian told him, his blue eyes all wide and earnest.
"You have?" Chris was surprised, but he supposed he really shouldn't be.
"Of course I have." Damian smiled softly.
"Annnd…?" Chris felt like holding his breath.
Damian chuckled lightly. "And I think we should talk." He said teasing.
"Fair enough." Chris was feeling a little more relaxed about it now. "I like whatever this is, and I'd also like if it were going somewhere." He said the last part slowly.
"I like it too, and I think it already is going somewhere." Damian answered simply.
"Oh, okay. Good." Chris supplies, and then they are just sitting there looking at one another.
"What else?" Damian raises an expressive eyebrow at him.
"Well, we've never talked about…" Chris' voice dies off as he tries to find the right words.
"About my sexual orientation." Damian guesses correctly.
Chris nods. He feels guilty for bringing it up, again, but he can't help but have concerns.
"It's alright. We can talk about it. I'm bi, but I only realized it a couple of years ago. So I've had a couple of girlfriends and both were sort of serious, but I haven't had a boyfriend before. I guess I thought it was because I was always so busy with school and Celtic Thunder and there haven't been any guys I've been interested in that I've actually known so…" Damian looked away for a moment and Chris waited.
"Most of my family knows. It was… difficult at first, but they love me and support me. I can't be exactly sure how everyone will react to the idea of a boyfriend but like I said that hasn't been an issue yet. I haven't spoken about it in public yet either, but I always planned to if the time seemed right." Damian looked back at Chris now. "Lately I've been thinking that the time might be right." He added softly.
Chris took a moment and let all of this sink in. It was a lot to think about, but at least now he had some insight. There were risks involved here still. That was the first thing Chris decided. Damian had never had a boyfriend, well actually Chris hadn't either, so that was unfair, but it was still risky. Darren's voice flitted back to him from earlier, 'take the risk.'
"Thanks, for telling me all of that." He started. "I'm something of a worrier, when it comes to, everything, so I should warn you about that in advance." Chris smiled and Damian chuckled.
"I think I had that figured out already." He said.
"Oh!" Chris laughed too and the atmosphere seemed to lighten around them. "So then I guess we are pretty much on the same page?" He asked after they both settled down.
"I think so." Damian grinned at him.
"So we're going to give this a try?" Chris' voice was much higher than he'd prefer.
"We are." Damian nodded and scooted closer on the couch.
"So…?" Chris was cut off then by Damian crawling into his lap and kissing him hard on the mouth.
Damian pulled back for just a second and nuzzled Chris' nose. "Be my boyfriend?" Damian asked and his lips were brushing Chris'.
"Yeah, y- yes." Chris answered and Damian chuckled into his mouth before tangling his fingers into Chris' hair and pulling him tight for another searing kiss.