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Disobeying Fate
Chapter 4: Mysterious...
Info you need to know: Voice Over. "Talking" Writing.
Translations: Baka = Idiot/Stupid. Hai = Yes. Arigato = Thank You. Onee-San = Elder Sister
After our little encounter with the whole 'suicidal drunk Momo' I walked her home like I promised. She was mad at me. She thought I was pitying her. She was only slightly right. Yeah I felt sympathetic to the girl but I wasn't walking her home because of pity. No, I was walking her home so that she could see that people do care, can care, and will care. If she just let them in then she would have a bunch of people caring for her. If she had just let me in straight away then she would have known it wasn't pity. It was me caring.
Date: Tuesday 13th March 2012. 4.00pmish
Place: On the way back from school, towards Hinamori Household.
The three of them (Momo, Nel on Momo's shoulders and Toshiro) walked back to the house in silence. Momo was slightly ahead of Toshiro, so he wasn't really walking her home. Just tagging along. She was furious. Slightly at him for she thought he was pitying her and furious at herself. She had gotten drunk and spilled her secrets. She had told someone of her father's death. She had never in her life broken down like that in front of someone. Not since that day. But there she was crying in front of the asshole. Only a few people knew what actually happened to her four years ago. Only few knew the reason why she was now badass. Toshiro Hitsugaya was now one of them. She wasn't going to let anymore know. No matter what! She sighed and stopped stomping and just walked normally. She had lost the anger. Lost most emotions now. She felt numb.
"Onee-san, are you okay?" Nel said from on her shoulders. Momo didn't answer. She wasn't aware the child had said anything. She was in her own world. Wrapped up in her own pain and grief. She was remembering the painful memories and couldn't stop.
"I'm fine, Nel." Momo said absentmindedly. Nel wasn't convinced so she put her head right in front of Momo's. Momo frowned at her and stopped walking seeing as she couldn't see anything but Nel's head now.
"Are you sure?" the child asked, innocently. Momo just frowned at her.
"Baka. Of course I'm fine, why wouldn't I be? Now get your face out of mine" Momo said sternly and narrowed her eyes at the child. Nel smiled and nodded and moved her head away and sat normally. Toshiro shook his head at the bickering.
"I don't understand why your cousin is so attached to you. After all it's not like you become a softy when she's around" Toshiro said absentmindedly. Momo turned her gaze to her as she continued walking. She glared at him and Toshiro just blinked at her.
"Onee-san's not mean at all. Onee-san's the kindest person I know" Nel exclaimed cheerfully. Toshiro raised his eyebrow at this and Momo looked away. Blushing slightly embarrassed that a kid was complimenting her when she was supposed to be badass.
"You don't know anybody else other than me, Nel" Momo muttered, trying to hide her embarrassment. Nel protested at that and they continued to bicker. But Toshiro couldn't help but smile one of his rare smiles. After all he could tell that the bickering was friendly, affectionate even. He could just tell that Momo was softer around the little girl. She would be swearing her mouth off at other people if they were speaking to her like Nel was. But Momo didn't swear once at Nel, she even tried not to swear when she was around. Nel had said that Momo was the kindest person she knew. Toshiro was starting to wonder if the little girl might be right.
"Oi, bonehead my house is just there" Momo said, snapping Toshiro out of his thoughts. Toshiro looked over to the right and saw that there was a mailbox with Hinamori on it. He looked at the little white cottage and thought it looked like a nice house. "Thanks for walking me home. Guess I'll see you tomorrow. Ja ne" Momo said and carried on walking to her house before he could reply.
He watched her go surprised on how she left him. Whenever he walked his best friend Matsumoto home she would invite him in. Whenever he walked home any girl they would invite him in. He didn't tend to walk people home but whenever they did they didn't just up and leave with a short goodbye. None of them did that. Except Momo. He turned around and walked home. His thoughts now filled with the mysterious Momo Hinamori.
Date: Wednesday 14th March 2012. Morning.
Place: Karakura Senior School. Momo's form room.
Momo was extremely hung-over. She had a pounding headache and she felt slightly sick. Every noise in the room which used to go unnoticed now felt like someone was screaming in her ear. She felt tired as well. Nel of course was with her, would be until next Monday hopefully. Maybe by then she could convince the girl to wait for her at home while she went to school. Nel was currently sitting on Momo's desk, swinging her legs back and forth. Keeping her eyes focused on the door for a certain familiar face. Momo took no notice of that and just put her arms on the table and put her head in her arms.
"Nii-san!" Nel exclaimed then jumped of the table and ran to the door. She grabbed his legs. Toshiro looked down at his legs and saw a familiar green headed little girl clinging onto his trousers. He was surprised at that but nonetheless bent down and greeted her. With a small smile and a hair ruffle.
"Hey, kid." He said, simply. Nel smiled at him and let him ruffle her hair for a few seconds. Then without replying to him she took his hand (seeing as he was still bent down) and dragged him over to where Momo was.
"Nii-san, cheer up Onee-san! She's not very happy today" Nel said and stopped dragging Toshiro when they reached their destination. Nel climbed back on the desk and continued swinging her feet as she did a moment ago.
"Nel, ears" Momo muttered, her head still buried in her arms. Nel sighed but did as she was told and covered her ears. "I know you were dragged here so I'll say this in the nicest possible way: Fuck off" Toshiro just rolled his eyes and lent on the empty desk next to hers.
"Looks like someone's hung-over" she removed her head from her arms and glared at him. She put one hand over Nel's eyes and used the other hand to put her middle finger up at Toshiro. Once again he just rolled his eyes. Momo removed her hand from the child's eyes and nodded to her. Nel stopped covering her ears when she saw the nod of approval. Momo sighed, placed her elbow on the desk and then her head on her hand with the elbow on the table.
"Nel, why did you bring himhere?" Momo said.
"Eh? You mean Shiro-Chan? I bought him over because I knew Shiro-Chan would cheer you up!" Nel exclaimed. Toshiro stiffened and he frowned at the nickname 'Shiro-Chan' Nel had given him. Momo smiled, finding it funny that Toshiro was uncomfortable with the name.
"My name is not Shiro-Chan!" Toshiro exclaimed. "That's horrible, too cutesy and just – Urgh!" he said and with that Momo burst out laughing. Nel smiled glad to see that Momo was laughing and happy again. She knewToshiro would be able to cheer her up, she could feel it.
"Shiro-Chan! HA! I'm so using that" he glared at Momo and was about to protest. However a guy ran past them and bumped into Momo's desk. Nel had been sitting at the edge of the desk and the bump caused the table to wobble and Nel to slide off the edge. Momo's heart rose in pure panic and she reached out her hand and grabbed the small girl's wrist before she could fully fall off and then hurt herself. Momo sighed a sigh of relief and hugged the girl close to her chest.
"OI, JERK!" the guy turned around (what an idiot) and glared at her. His eyes saying rudely 'what?' "Look where you're going, you almost made Nel fall splat on the ground!" she said angrily. Still hugging the girl close to her. The guy just shrugged apologetically and carried on walking away. Momo threw death glares at the retreating back but said nothing more. Instead she focused her attention on the little girl.
"You alright, Nel?" Momo asked softly. Nel looked up at her, eyes bug wide and nodded.
"Hai, arigato Onee-san for saving me! Again!" Nel said and smiled up at Momo, grateful. Momo smiled back and ruffled her hair. She kept Nel on her lap, just in case something like that happened again. Toshiro who had been seconds away from reaching his hand out to the girl as well, smiled and relaxed. He leant properly against the desk again as he watched Momo speak gently to the girl. Last night he had wondered if Nel was right on saying that Momo was a kind person. After that little scene he knew. Yes, Momo Hinamori was a very kind person indeed. More than she lets on. A lot more. Toshiro made sure that Nel was okay then said a short goodbye before he went over to his side of the classroom.
Sometime during his time he spent with Momo his classmates and friends had arrived. Toshiro saw them sat around and on his desk; they had been watching the whole entire thing with Momo. He frowned at them and glared at the ginger, big-busted girl who was sitting in his seat.
"What was that about?" Rangiku Matsumoto – Toshiro's best friend – inquired whilst getting up from his seat. He shrugged and sat down in the place she had just left.
"What was what about?" he asked, innocently. Rangiku pouted at him and crossed her arms over her chest.
"You know what I mean! How come you were with Hinamori-san? You hardly hang out with us, how come you're suddenly hanging out with her?" Matsumoto gasped. "Don't tell me you're going to ditch us and become badass like she did with Kira-kun and Renji-kun?" Toshiro properly glared at her then. So much so it even started to make her feel uncomfortable and guilty. Two things she rarely was.
"The kid dragged me over there that's all. She wanted me to cheer Hinamori up." Toshiro said his voice deadly. Just daring them to say another thing about Hinamori like Matsumoto did.
"Oh yeah, I heard that kid's her cousin. How do you know her cousin?" Renji Abari said. He had red spiky hair and tattoos all over his face. He was former friends with Hinamori and so was Kira. Kira Izuru was another friend in the little group of Toshiro's. He had pale blond hair which flicked out either side in spikes and a piece of it went over his face as well. Another member of the little group was another guy, he was tall and had short grey hair, he was always grinning and his eyes were usually scrunched up so you couldn't see his eyes. He was Gin Ichimaru. The last one in their group was Rukia Kuchiki. She was petite and had short black hair.
"I don't. I met them last night after school. Hinamori wasn't feeling to well so I offered to walk them home. That's how I know them. Now Nel seems to think I possess the ability to cheer Hinamori up" Toshiro said, staring out the window.
"Eh? You even know the kid's name!" Matsumoto said and paused, and then realisation hit her. "Wait, did you just say you walked them home?" she inquired, Toshiro frowned but nodded. Matsumoto smiled and winked at Toshiro, which just made his frown grow bigger.
"Toshiro you hardly ever walk people home! Heck you hardly ever walk me home and I'm your best friend! All of a sudden a girl comes along and you offer to walk her home." Matsumoto said and she giggled and nudged Toshiro playfully. "Does Toshiro have a wittle crush?" she said in a baby voice. Making kissy faces. Toshiro grew annoyed and felt like he wanted to punch Matsumoto. He didn't. But he still wanted to.
"Baka. I don't know the girl, I walked her home once. Big deal. That does notmean I have a crush on her. It means I was feeling generous" he said, annoyed and thankfully the bell went. Making it so that there was no more room for discussion on the matter. Thank God.
"Onee-san, tell me how to do this sum?" Nel asked, pointing to the one in the exercise book in front of Momo. The one Momo was supposed to know how to do. But didn't. Momo sighed and sat back in her seat. Nel of course accompanied Momo to all lessons and sat on her lap, she usually learned how to do the questions from Momo. But in Maths, Nel usually knew more than Momo! Momo wasn't having a good maths day. When she first got in the class her seat was taken by someone else and their teacher said to sit in the empty seat. Guess who it was next to. Yes, Toshiro!
"I don't know, Nel. If I knew I would tell you. I suck at maths." Momo said glumly.
"If you're stuck, then ask someone" said a voice to Momo's right. Of course she recognized it. Recently it seemed like she couldn't get away from it. Well, him. She turned to her right and half glared at Toshiro. Not particularly liking the unhelpful comment. She knew she could ask and she knew if she did her teacher would explain it. She knew she still wouldn't understand.
"Thanks for that ever so helpful comment. I know I can ask but he'll explain it and I still won't understand. He'll get mad at me because I'll just ask him again and again to explain it. I'll never understand it because I'm crap at maths. Simple as." Momo said, simply. Nel hadn't bothered covering her ears this time, so she heard the girl swear. But Momo didn't care, to her 'crap' was a minor swear word. Not really a swear word at all, in her opinion.
"It's easy once you get the hang of it. Here." he said and leaned over closer to her so he could see her text book. "Which question you on?" she sighed and pointed to the question she was on. The first one. He looked at her a 'are you serious?' look and she resisted the urge to flip him off. So she just glared at him. He sighed but then helped her all the same.
"It's easy trust me. A student takes an exam with 100 questions on it and answers 5 questions incorrectly, what is the ratio of the number of questions he answered correctly to the number he answered incorrectly." He paused, leant back to his desk grabbed a blank piece of paper and pencil then leant back on her desk. "Ok, so if 5 answers out of 100 were incorrect, how many answers were correct?"
"95" he nodded. Then wrote on the piece of paper 95:5.
"The 95 represents the amount of correct answers and the 5 represents the amount of incorrect answers. So that's a ratio, but it's not the correct one. We then have to simplify it. What goes into 95 and 5?" she paused for a moment then answered:
"5!" he nodded.
"Yep, how many 5's are in 95?" this time she was the one giving him the 'are you serious?' look, he just nodded encouragingly. She took a minute or two to work out in her head the answer and then told him.
"19" she said simply, he nodded then wrote down 19:
"How many 5's are in 5?" he asked, knowing she would know it straight away. She did.
"1" he nodded again then completed the ration so it now said: 19:1.
"That's the answer, see it was simple right?" she sighed. He was right. When he broke it down and explained it like that it really was simple.
"Yeah, I suppose your right. Thanks for the help" he nodded and moved away from her, back to his desk. He went back to work and Momo was about to look at the next question when the bell rang. Momo packed up her bag quickly and left with Nel on her shoulders. She noticed in the corner of her eye that Toshiro was right behind her. She sighed and continued towards the roof top. She was about to go up as well when she saw a group of people standing by the door which led to the roof-top. They all looked vaguely familiar and around her age, so Momo guessed they were some of her classmates. There were three guys and two girls. She extremely recognised two of the guys as her former friends but she took know notice of them. She knew that she was the one who had made their friendship disappear and she fully accepted that. It had been four years and they hadn't bothered to try and repair it, she hadn't either. So she knew, she was stuck with being alone. But she accepted it. After all, she knew that it was her fault.
"Toshiro-kun" exclaimed the ginger, big-busted girl in the group. She waved to her friend and Toshiro glared at her. Like he always did. Momo continued on walking towards the group. Well towards the roof-top door which the group was standing by. Toshiro was close behind.
"What are you doing here, Matsumoto?" Toshiro asked, annoyed. He had a feeling something bad was about to happen.
"You know, Toshiro-kun you don't really like hanging out with us do you?" she asked, loudly then gasped. "Don't tell me you're going to complete ignore us suddenly and then turn badass?" she said her voice still loud. Momo knew that Matsumoto was directing it at her. But she ignored it, she felt terrible but she ignored it. She pushed on past Matsumoto and headed up the stairs to the roof. She heard a girl's laughter behind her and then an annoyed guy's voice. But she didn't care.
Matsumoto had hit a sensitive nerve. Momo now felt awful. She dumped her bag and put Nel down before sitting on the floor of the roof. She pulled her knees up to her chin, put her chin on her knees and wrapped her arms around her legs. Nel could tell she was upset. But she could also tell that Momo didn't want to be bothered right now. She wanted to be alone and to think. So Nel laid down next to her and closed her eyes for a quick nap.
Momo took out a cigarette from her back and light it. Sighing she smoked the cigarette whilst she tried not to cry. She didn't like feeling like this. Feeling like she was the worst person in the world. But she knew she deserved it. After all that's what she had done. She had suddenly ignored her friends and turned badass. But she couldn't help feeling annoyed at Matsumoto, Kira and Renji. After all they didn't know that her father was dead. They didn't know the reason why she turned badass. Her friends hadn't thought to ask. They had just felt sorry for themselves. Even though their former best friend really needed some friends at the time. Momo still needed friends now. But she tried not to show it.
She heard the door open but ignored it, continuing to smoke. She hoped it was just some couple and they would see her and get lost. But she knew who it was. She didn't know how but she could just tell it was him. The wind was blowing her hair everywhere and she knew she looked like a mess but she didn't care. He had seen her at her worst and didn't she didn't care. But the thing that she did care about was that there were tears in the corner of her eyes. Threatening to spill at any given moment. He had seen her cry before. She didn't want him to see her cry again. Toshiro sat down next to Momo. Silently he took the cigarette and put it out. She didn't look at him though. Still not wanting him to see how much his friend comment had upset her.
"I'm sorry about Matsumoto" he said quietly, looking out at the horizon. It was glorious sunny day and Momo would've been enjoying it if it wasn't for that stupid comment.
"Not your fault. Besides, I'm not upset about it" Momo said, somehow managing to keep her voice from breaking.
"Alright, well just in case you are don't take what Matsumoto said to heart. Yeah, she may seem a bit harsh but she's alright when you get to know her. The only reason she said that is because she's fearsomely protective of her friends, not to mention incredibly loyal" he said and kept quiet so the girl could think. She looked at him when she thought he wouldn't look but he did look. She gasped and quickly looked away. Not before he saw the two tears running down both of her cheeks. "I knew you were upset" he murmured. She still looked away, ignoring him.
"I can't help it. I'm not upset with Matsumoto, I'm upset with myself." She said and turned to him, teary eyed. "I'm upset because what she said is true. I suddenly abandoned my friends without saying why. I'm a horrible friend and I know it. That's what upset me, hearing Matsumoto say that made that fact hit my face" she said and struggled to keep the tears inside her.
"Don't beat yourself up about it, Hinamori. You had a perfectly good reason for doing what you did" he said and got up. "They're the ones at fault for not bothering to try and find out that reason. Besides if they were real friends they wouldn't have let you stop talking to them. They would've fought for your friendship." He looked at her seriously. "They would've fought for you" he said and then left. Damn was he mysterious.
Momo sighed. Well, she at least felt a little better after that. But she sighed again; she wished she was friends with Toshiro. Somehow he always managed to cheer her up. No matter how depressed she was. When she was in her worst state, Toshiro would make her feel like she was in her best.
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Ja ne - Tilda