Chapter 4 The Diary
Reba was still very angry at Brock because of what happened last night. So she was going to call Lori Ann, but wait where was her purse? She had a diary turned notebook for phone numbers and other contact information.
1 hour later
"Jake are you sure you haven't seen it anywhere!?!"
"For the fiftieth time yes!"
"Craapp! Where could it be!?! Well I'll go to sleep for a while maybe when I wake up then I'll remember where I put it.
Reba had written things in her "diary" that no one else should ever see. If it fell into the wrong hands then who knows what could happen...
Barbra Jean and Brock's house
Barbra Jean had gone to work and Henry was already dropped off at school. So Brock had nothing else to do, and currently he was so confused about what to do anyways, so he just walked around his home and was thinking. Then he noticed something under the coffee table…
"Hey isn't this Reba's purse?"
She had left it here yesterday because when she was trying to help Barbra Jean, she took it as a pillow and was sleeping on it, after Reba took it from her and put it on the coffee table. Then Barbra Jean knocked it off while sleeping.
"Hmm… I shouldn't be looking at what's in it, but… oh whatever." He said while he was grinning.
Slowly he unzipped her purse…
"Let's see what's in here, a cell phone, Kleenex, a pen, and… oh what's this?" He said while starring at a little book.
He started laughing aloud "Reba keeps a diary! Well it could be just an address book, well let's see…"
Slowly he opened it, afraid that if it were a dairy that it might contain something that could completely change his life…
When he finally opened it he saw that it was actually a diary. On the first page Reba had wrote:
May life with Brock never end…
Forever Yours
Brock was pretty shocked by this because he had never seen this diary before, he wanted to put it down because he knew it was wrong to continue reading it but he just could control himself. So he kept on reading.
I have just gotten married to Brock! This must be the best day of my life! I can't wait to see what life will throw at us; I know that as long as we have each other nothing can stand in our way to a life of happiness.
Then he turned a couple of pages and continued reading.
I'm pregnant with our first child! I am so excited; I simply cannot wait to start caring for this child. I know that we will put our heart and soul into caring for this child. I can't wait to have even more kids after this first experience!
He kept on reading and there were some tears rolling down his cheeks. He was deeply moved at all these amazing memories that he had forgotten now. Why did he leave her? He no they had such a wonderful life together, was the dream right? Was it all Barbra Jean's fault that they broke up? No! After all he went after Barbra Jean, but why? He still had no clue.
After a while he flipped some more pages and he started feeling guilty and he was trying to understand the pain Reba suffered.
As hard as this is for me to say I'm afraid our marriage isn't going to last… He's going to leave me..? Why…? What have I done that is so wrong?... Why Brock……? Why……………
He flipped through a couple of more pages.
It's over isn't it? He isn't even trying now to fix our marriage at all... We were supposed to grow old together… but now he's gone and wrecked it… Why…..? Brock I still love you…. Please don't leave me…….
He just couldn't read anymore he felt too guilty about what he had done. He decided against his better judgment to keep her dairy. Then he put back everything in her purse and left it where he had found it.
Reba's house
"Well after an hour of sleep… hm…. What was I looking for? Oh yeah! My little notebook! Oh I remember now! It's at Barbra Jean's house I bet!"
Barbra Jean and Brock's house
Ding Dong
"Oh hey Reba." Brock said.
"Hey Brock have you seen my purse anywhere?"
"No, no of course not."
"Well help me look for it."
"Ok, sure fine whatever."
Reba was staring at him now, what was wrong with him, she thought. "Brock are you drunk or something? Hey have you been crying?
Brock could not let her know that he had her dairy, since she was smart she could probably figure out why he was acting all weird around her. "What!?! No!!! I'm totally and completely at ease with myself!"
Reba was now glaring at him. "Well normally when I do that you go and spill your guts out, but since you didn't I guess… Oh hey here's my purse! Well see ya Brock!"
"Oh have you told Barbra Jean yet…? Also I'm sorry about last time I shouldn't have hit you that many times…"
Brock suddenly went up to her and hugged her, she was so confused about what to do, this wasn't like one of those don't worry I'll be here to help you if you need me hugs; he was hugging her like he was holding on for dear life. Then after he let go and they were just staring at each other.
"Reba…….I……."
"I have to go now Brock…" Then she quickly walked away.
Reba's house
"That was hot!" Reba said to herself.
Reba's heart right now was beating fast, very fast. She had not been in a man's arms for so long that it felt good. She was disgusted with herself because she loved it when Brock was hugging her like that and he was a married man.
"No!!! No!!! Nothing happened, It's not real I don't love him anymore I should hate him for leaving me!" She kept on saying in her head.
Barbra Jean and Brock's house
"Damn… I think I did feel a spark there… No way! I must be imaging it because of that stupid dream"
Brock went back to reading her diary.
Well it's over, the divorce has been finalized and well that's it. My happy ever after has turned to a hellish nightmare, is there no hope for me? I feel too depressed to do anything right now…
He skimmed through the next couple of pages.
This is a very odd divorce; we still see each other every day. Every time I see him my heart skips a beat and I can't breathe for about a second or two but why? Is it because I know he should be with me and not her, or is it because I still find him attractive? No, no it can't be I must hate him for what he did to me. Yet I still hope for him to come back one day…Maybe…just maybe…
Next Page
Today was our anniversary; I cried the whole day almost, I can't stop thinking about him… The smell of his clothes… the way he looks at me in the morning… Why…. Why did you have to go…?
He wanted to stop reading all these sad pages so he skipped about 20 pages and stopped there
Today Barbra Jean told me about the Two Girl Theory. It turns out I have no chance of getting him back. He is actually trying to save his current marriage. He hugged me today and asked if I felt a spark. I of course said no, but deep in my heart I loved it, to have him that close to me again it was almost like heaven.
After reading this Brock grinned and said "Hah I knew she felt a spark that day."
Then Brock decided to go to the end and what he read shocked him. What Reba had wrote on the last page was:
Dear Brock,
You will probably never see this but I feel as though I have to write it here as some sort of release for myself. Anyways I miss you, the smell of your clothes, the way you look at me, the way you talk to me and the way you made me feel like I was your everything. I still love you Brock, I deeply and truly do. If you ever come back to me I'll gladly take you back with me. I'll do anything to get you back, to get back the way that things were before. I love you Brock, and I will forever and always.
-Reba