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Elena
I stood up from my spot on the floor and walked over to Damon's chair. Sitting down I stared into the fire, getting lost in my thoughts. The urge to run after Damon literally has my body trembling, but Stefan is right, if I go out there now I will be burnt to a crisp. I need to tell Damon I love him. I need to tell him that I made the wrong choice; I was just too scared to admit it. I was afraid of the kind of love Damon has for me. It consumes me, I was afraid of losing myself in Damon.
His devotion to me is overwhelming. The passion, danger, it was too much to handle. I was afraid that if I let myself get lost in him, then he would have the power to crush me. I couldn't let someone have that much of a hold over me and in my pushing him away, I crushed him. The phone call between him and me, before I died kept rushing through my brain. I was willing to let Damon die alone, just because Stefan's love was safe and familiar.
In that moment when confronted with choosing between Stefan and Damon I picked Stefan and now I regret that decision more than ever. I could lose Damon because I was too afraid to confront my feelings for him. Now I have to wait in the boarding house for the sun to go down, so I can find Damon and tell him how I feel.
"Elena..." The voice was hesitant and held a tinge of worry. Turning my head to the side I see Stefan kneeling beside my chair. He looked apprehensive and distressed; the look in his eye had me to believe that he understood what was going on with me.
"I'm so sorry Stefan...but I'm in love with him" my voice broke as choked out the words. I felt terrible for hurting Stefan, but I just couldn't lie to myself or him anymore.
I fell for Damon Salvatore, Hard.
Stefan's whole face crumbled at my admission. I didn't feel right to admit it to Stefan first before I admitted it to Damon, but I need to let Stefan go. I saw tears gather in Stefan's eyes and before I knew what I was doing, I threw my arms around him. His whole frame shook as he tried to hold back the tears.
I kept whispering I'm sorry in his ear; I never wanted to hurt him. He was my first love and I will always love him, but I'm just not in love with him. Abruptly he pulled away and wiped his tears on his sleeve. He backed up a bit, to put some distance between us.
He opened and closed his mouth like he was going to say something, but instead of saying anything he turned around and went upstairs to his room. Wiping some of my own tears off onto my sleeve, I sat back down in Damon's chair. I looked around and spotted a grandfather clock in the corner of the room. Looking at the time I noticed it was only ten a.m. I still had a long time to go until sunset.
I continued to sit immobile in front of the fire place for hours, not moving or breathing. I find it kind of eerie that I don't have to breathe to live anymore. As a human you unconsciously know to breathe to survive, but now I can choose if I want to breathe or not. I wonder if after a certain period you start to do it unconsciously again.
Looking at Stefan, Damon and Caroline; they do it all the time. Right now though it's really unnecessary for me, I don't even have an urge to take a breath. I guess though if you get to go out and be in the public eye, you have to perfect the breathing so people don't start to ask questions.
I looked over to the clock and immediately jumped out of my seat. It was eight p.m. which means it's time to go find Damon and confess my love for him. I'm about to open the door when Stefan steps in front of me. I glare up at him, this is the second time he stops me from going to find Damon and it's starting to irritate me.
"Stefan..." My voice held thinly veiled hostility; I had to take a deep breath in order to not attack him. Everything is heightened right now and it's really hard to control my urges. I can feel my vampire side want to take over, but I pushed it back down.
"Elena you can't go out there" His voice was condescending, like he was trying to explain something to a small child. It really didn't help with my whole, wanting to attack him thing.
"Why?" I mocked him, using his condescending tone right back. I really didn't want to be doing this when I could be out looking for Damon right now.
"Well maybe do to the fact that you turned into a vampire a couple hours ago and now you want to go out into a town full of humans." His words hit home, he knows I don't want to hurt anyone, so he uses that against me. I feel rage bubble up inside me, I can feel my face transform into that of a vampire.
"Well then come on we don't have all day" I attempted to push him aside, but he still held firm. I growled deep in my throat, it sounded foreign to me.
"I'm sorry Elena, but you better just wait until he comes back." His voice was calm, too calm if you ask me. I narrowed my eyes at him. I glare at him and that's when I notice the look in his eyes. He's jealous.
I try again to step around him, but the task seemed impossible. I growled in frustration one more time before stomping off upstairs. Coming up to the landing I instinctually make my way to Damon's room. Opening up the door, I walk straight towards the bed and flop down upon it.
I stare at Damon's ceiling; I close my eyes and bask in Damon's scent. I feel my face transform back to normal as his scent comforts me. Now laying here in Damon's bed, I finally see the logic in Stefan's statement. If I go out into the town now, I could kill someone. I haven't been a vampire for that long, so I haven't learned control yet. I guess I will just have to wait here until Damon returns, and then I can tell him I love him and we can finally be together again.
Damon
I woke up and noticed the hot blonde chick from last draped over my body. I couldn't help, but smile at the memories from last night. Man that women knows what she's doing, she is definitely the best I ever had. It's kind of weird though since I don't even know her name.
I stretched my hands and put them behind my head as I gazed down at this unknown woman. The instant I moved though, she awoke with a smile across her face.
"Hello handsome" she whispered into the night, my ego definitely grew at the complement.
"Why hello beautiful" I whispered back at her. I couldn't help the smile that was permanently plastered on my face. There is something about this girl that makes me happy. I look over at her bedside clock and saw that it was only one a.m. I looked back down at the girl who was now straddling me. She had that sexy smirk from last night etched on her lips.
I felt myself harden at the thought of going for another round. She must have felt it because she bent down and licked the shell of my ear.
"Ready to get your world thoroughly rocked again." I smirked at her libido that also rivals mine. I probably should get her name before we start up again, but quickly that thought was washed away as my body was overtaken by pleasure.
A/N: Okay don't hate me! I know you wanted a Delena scene to happen, but I promise it will happen next. To all you people who want to see Elena jealous, It's going to happen. Trust me. Please leave a review and tell me what you thought.