Alright, guys. I hope you like this chapter (let alone the actual story!).
If it's too boring, it'll pick up soon, I promise! .
DISCLAIMER: Don't own Kingdom Hearts blah blah blah.
I had migrated to my room after the whole event with Riku went down. I remained in Roxas/Axel's house, though... I didn't have the energy to go back home to my house. Demyx stayed too, but we were all best friends so it really didn't bother Axel and Roxas how long we stayed.
I sat on my bed with my back against the wall and my knees curled up to my chest. My head was spinning; thoughts were racing through my mind at lightning speed. I might actually be gay. Or maybe the feelings were just for Riku. Is that even possible?
I rested my chin on my knees, trying to sort everything out. Now I was completely confused about my sexual orientation, and that isn't a fun thing to contemplate, especially when I thought I was straight my whole life. I got rather depressed over the subject, actually.
A knock on my door interrupted my thought process. I didn't want to talk to anyone about it, so I just groaned and buried my face in my knees in hopes the person would go away. "Sora... It's getting to be dinner time you know," I heard Axel say. Dinner time already? Guess I was in my room longer than I thought. "We were planning on going out to eat at Radiant Garden, if you're interested," he continued to say behind the door. I was grateful that he didn't just barge in like Roxas normally does. At least Axel was respectful.
"Yeah, I'll be right out," I told him. A night out with my friends might be good for my self-esteem.
Radiant Garden wasn't very casual, but it wasn't too formal, either. I decided to change into a black button-up collared shirt and light denim jeans. I put on a pair of black Skecher's dress sneakers (yes, half of my closet was at this house) and met everyone downstairs.
"How you feeling, Sora?" Roxas asked. His voice actually sounded concerned instead of the normal hostile voice he had with me. He was a pretty trustworthy brother when times were serious. For instance, we were really there for each other when Dad got into drugs.
"I'm feeling alright. Pretty damn confused, though," I admitted. That made everyone snicker, and I felt better already. Thank God for friends.
"Don't worry, that's normal. Sometimes you just need a little push to be completely sure. Try kissing him again, see what happens," Roxas said. He winked, which made me wonder if it was legitimate advice.
"Whatever, let's just get going." I pushed a hand in front of me, as if I were trying to push away the conversation. I didn't want to think about how much I longed for Riku's kiss again. My friends complied, smiling, then followed me out the door.
We all piled into the huge "creeper van" (as Demyx liked to call it), Axel in the driver's seat, Roxas in the passenger's seat, and Demyx and me sharing space in the back with a drum set.
Axel turned the stereo on, which emitted loud booming of our band's sample CD through the speakers. "I hate our name, by the way," I decided to add to the noise. Right now would be a good time to talk about it.
"Fuzz? Why? It's great! Short, sweet, and to the point," Axel said with a satisfactory smile on his face.
"We've changed our name six-thousand times," Roxas added. He obviously wasn't too fond of this conversation.
"... Fine, we'll discuss this another time," I said, accepting my defeat (rather quickly). I was pretty annoyed, since I hated the freaking name, but I figured it could wait. Besides, it wasn't my main concern at the moment.
A few minutes passed by where we all just listened to the CD, studying and criticizing the music. We arrived in the parking lot after a few minutes of discussing the music, and walked into a fairly busy restaurant.
Thankfully, we were seated immediately. No waiting required. Each of us took a seat on a separate side of the square-shaped wooden table. The four of us casually ordered our drinks and food, completely content with the setting. Well, for the most part.
"So, Sora. What's the name of the lucky guy?" Demyx asked with no hesitation. I never noticed before, but I was beginning to think he was interested in me. After all, there was a slight hint of jealousy behind his question.
"His name is Riku. Don't go assuming he's 'lucky', though. It was just an accidental kiss," I told him. I hoped that if I acted like it was nothing, it would be nothing.
"The look on your face definitely assumed that it was anything but accidental," Demyx retorted. Axel and Roxas looked at each other, but stayed silent, sensing the jealousy in Demyx's voice. Also, unlike Demyx, they kept in mind that I was suffering from a brief identity crisis.
"I was just shocked is all..." My voice started to die down. I was unsure of my own words.
Roxas coughed. "Ahem. I'd hate to break up the love-fest you two have going on, but Sora... red alert." His eyes widened. I was sitting directly across from him with my back facing the entrance of Radiant Garden, which meant he had a perfect view of the door. Seeing his eyes widen made me curious. I slowly turned my head, trying to see-
"DON'T look. You'll draw attention to yourself." I first thought he was implying Riku until he continued talking. "Dreaded, crazy ex-girlfriend," he finished through clenched teeth.
I groaned; Kairi was the last person I wanted to encounter at the moment. Demyx, being the blunt person he is, decided to give me "advice" of his own. "Well, Sora, you could drive her off by telling her about your new found sexuality."
At first I got pissed off, but after a moment's thought, I realized what a great idea it could turn out to be. My body cringed when I heard a shriek from Kairi.
"Sora! Did you get my rose? I left it on your doorstep. Look, I'm sorry for-"
"Go away, Kairi. No apology could make up for what you did to me," I hissed.
"Soraaaa!" she whined. She thought she was cute. I beg to differ.
"By the way, Kairi... You turned me gay. Congratulations. Now please, leave me the fuck alone." I didn't care if I was mean or cruel. I never wanted to associate with her. Ever again.
Kairi didn't cry. Instead, she huffed, stomped her foot, and stormed off to wherever.
Axel cheered and gave me a high-five. A smile appeared on my face while my friends congratulated me.
Eventually, the celebration faded away, and I drowned myself in my thoughts.
I leaned back in my chair, crossed one arm over my abdomen and rested my chin lightly on the other hand. I stared intently at the edge of the table, zoning off.
"Sora, you know I love you, right?"
"Of course, Kairi. And you know I love you too," I said, gently brushing her nose with my index finger.
"Then hear me out, and listen to what I'm about to tell you with an open mind."
It was our six month anniversary; I was planning on singing her a song I wrote for her. In front of a crowd. A small crowd, but nevertheless, a crowd. I gave her a reassuring smile, hoping she would accept my trustworthy look.
"I've been cheating on you for the past two and a half months," she said, rather bluntly. Well, I wasn't expecting that at all...
I frowned and stared at her in disbelief. I didn't want to believe it. The pain my heart felt couldn't compare to any other pain I've ever felt before. My chest sank; I felt my heart drop into the pit of my stomach.
I noticed her hand resting on mine. I pulled away quickly, jaw agape. I started breathing heavily, soaking in her words. 'I've been cheating on you for the past two and a half months.' My body was shaking. One of my hands covered my mouth, the other clenched to my chest, desperately trying to support my aching heart.
"Sora..." Kairi leaned in closer to me, trying to kiss me.
"Get the fuck away from me..." I said, softer than I had intended. I pushed her off, then ran. I had no idea where I was going, but I ran. The show was canceled.
The waiter brought my fettuccine Alfredo out and rested the plate in front of me. I suddenly lost my appetite. I pushed my plate away, then grabbed my napkin and a pen in my pocket to furiously write lyrics. My fellow band members stared at me with curiosity, trying to read what I was writing. I looked up.
"Lyrics," I said simply. Everyone around me nodded, then continued eating. "I'd like to play it for you guys tomorrow morning, if that's alright," I said, never tearing my eyes away from the napkin.
"Yeah, of course," they all agreed.
Some of Sora's past was exposed :O
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