Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Run- Snow Patrol
EPOV
The front door wakes me up. I want to murder whomever thinks it is alright to come barging into my dorm room at this hour. Then I notice my surroundings, and realize I am not in my dorm room.
Uh oh.
Then I acknowledge the fact that I'm not in my bed, and that I'm not alone in whoever's bed this is. Fuck. It's Bella.
I barely know her. Shit, shit, shit. She's so warm, and she's so peaceful. And Christ, I think I like her. Even though I was set up with her.
No, no, no. Bad Edward. This is NOT good.
I look down at my body and sigh in relief, I'm still dressed. That means I didn't fuck her over. My mind starts to re-play the events from last night.
The Asshole grinding on Bella, trying to kiss her. I rip him off of her and pull her out back. A kiss. Then here. Then Sleep.A kiss. I kissed her. Score for Edward.
Would she even remember all this? I can't make an idiot of myself and ask hey Bella? So you kissed me the other night, what was that all about? No that's being a complete douche bag, and would prove Bella's predictions true.
That doesn't change how bad this really is, though.
I look throughout the night-stand next to me and grab a pen and paper.
Bella, Last night was amazing. You are amazing. But this is just a stepping stone is what's going to happen. It's all going really fast. I'm not sorry for the kiss, I just wish it happened differently. I am in love with you, but I dont want to see you hurt. I never want to see you cry. To hold you while your heart breaks. I want better for you, and I dont think im that better person.
I'll keep from you… that is unless you don't want me to.
-Love Always, Edward
I pulled on my sneakers and tip-toed out the front door. I quietly walked to my car, just hoping that Alice wouldn't see me and harass Bella. She didn't need any more pressure that's why im leaving her right now. She doesn't need any more pain in her life, I dont need to add to it.
I pulled out of the drive and sped home, I just hope Bella wont hate me. I can stay away from her if I know that she doesn't hate me, but if she hates me I will have to fix what's broken, which would mean breaking my promise to stay away.
BPOV
Edward? Baby? Are you home? Guess not, I closed the door to our off campus housing. He wouldn't be in the kitchen, he doesn't cook. But I heard a noise come from there. I started freaking out, please be okay, please be okay I kept wishing, I ran as fast as I could to the kitchen. There I found Edward, my only love. Stabbed on the floor, there was blood everywhere, I rushed towards him and I couldn't touch him like I was a ghost or something.
Bella? Bella wake up! Why could I hear Alice's voice, why was she here?
I started slipping out of the state I was in, I woke up screaming. Tears streaming down my face, Alice crushed into me.
"Bella? Shhhh it was just a dream, it's okay. Shhh" oh just a dream, thank god. Alice's rocking motions were soothing.
"Im sorry Ali. My dream...was really...intense." I said in between sobs, I hadn't cried like this since my parents. I leaned over to check the time on the clock the red numbers said it was 8am. There was a piece of paper next to the clock with my name etched on the paper in the most beautiful writing I had ever seen.
I opened the carefully folded piece of paper and read the note to Alice.
Bella, Last night was amazing. You are amazing. But this is just a stepping stone is what's going to happen. It's all going really fast. I'm not sorry for the kiss, I just wish it happened differently. I am in love with you, but I dont want to see you hurt. I never want to see you cry. To hold you while your heart breaks. I want better for you, and I dont think im that better person.
I'll keep from you… that is unless you don't want me to.
-Love Always, Edward
"He said he is in love with me? He Left? Alice why? What did I do?" the images started flooding back. The guy grinding on my at the club. Edward pulling me to safety. Me kissing Edward. Him driving me back home. Him coming inside and staying with me because I was scared.
"Oh my god. I kissed Edward, I asked him to stay with me because I was still shaken up from what happened on the dance floor" Alice's eyes widened in shock.
"Bella! What happened on the dance floor? Of course I care about the kiss, but what happened?" Alice's voice rose in concern.
"I'll tell you everything" I replayed the events of the night before not leaving anything out. When I was finished Alice pulled me into a hug and started apologising over and over about what happened. I wriggled out of her embrace.
"Alice, I need to see Edward. I need to explain what happened, he thinks im upset with him, im not. Im in love with him too Alice, he is everything I want. I need to see him." I was demanding this from Alice, I knew I could leave all by myself, but she was like my sister and I trusted her opinion.
"Your...In...Love?" that's all Alice managed to spit out.
"Yes, I am. I don't know how to explain it. But I really think I am." this is all happening so fast, but I needed to see Edward I needed him to know I didn't want him to stay away. I wanted him forever.
"Okay, have a shower and then we can leave" Alice pleaded to me.
"Ali, I need to do this on my own, and I need to leave now. I can't wait. I could loose him forever."
"Okay then, but at least change from your pyjamas."
"Oh, totally forgot I was wearing those" I took off my pyjamas and pulled on a pair of dark jeans and a tight blue shirt, I grabbed the letter from the night-stand and put it into my pocket. I ran from my room down the stairs and shoved my feet into my sneakers and I was practically running out the door. I unlocked my car and hopped in, starting the ignition and reversing out the driveway. I hope he is there, I hope he is there. That's all I could think about. Edward Cullen.
I made it back to campus in about 30 minutes, yeah I broke a few speeding limits, but I needed to get back. I pulled up in the south block so I would be closer to Edwards dorm and not have to run everywhere. But I still sprinted across campus all the way to Edward dorm room, number 18. Do I knock? Do I barge in? Knock Bella, thats the polite thing to do. I tapped lightly 3 times on the door, I really hope he is home. I hadn't even had a chance to see what I looked like, I probably looked like shit, but Edward would say in his seductive tone No Bella, your beautiful at least thats what I imagine he would say.
He obviously isn't here, I should leave. At least I tried right? Tears started falling out of my eyes, I was hysterically crying, id lost the only good thing to come into my life before it even started. Way to go Bella! Ugh. I started running down the hall back to my car when I heard my name getting yelled out.
"Bella? Bella!" it was Edward, he was running after me, I turned around and as I did his lips crushed onto mine in the most passionate sincere kiss I had ever been given. His lips didn't move with force, just slow and steady. Our lips moved in sync with each other, like they always were meant to, as our lips parted Edward rested his forehead on mine and began speaking.
"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have left that note. I should have explained." Why was he apologising this was my fault, it's always my fault.
"It's not your fault Bella, this one was all me." Shit, I said that out loud? I guess I was so happy I just forgot to put my mouth and brain filter back together.
"Why Edward? Because you were protecting me? Yeah if you call being a total gentleman and doing everything right as wrong. Well your completely mistaken."
"But Bell-" I cut him off. I put my hands on either side of his face and lifted it so that he couldn't look anywhere but my deep brown eyes.
"I'm in love with you too" I placed a feather light kiss on his lips and continued speaking. "I never want us to part, I already had pain in my life when you met me, it was filled with it. Adding you to my life will only make that pain disappear." this time Edward kissed me, slowly, and it was too quick.
"It's so good to hear you say that, you have to know I didn't want to leave you but I felt like it was the right thing. All this time since I left this morning I was hoping that this moment right here would happen. And it has. I'm in love with you Bella." I couldn't help but smile at those words as they left his lips.
"So what are we now?" I was intrigued to see what he answered. I mean I pretty much gathered that im his girlfriend now, I just wanted to be sure.
"Would you like to be my girlfriend Bella?" there, he said it. Thank god, I didn't want to have to play dumb. Tears started to fall from my eyes, again.
"Bella? Sweetie, why are you crying?"
"Happy tears, so happy tears this time" I kissed his soft lips again, this time with force, need, I spoke against his lips.
"Yes, ill be your girlfriend" he groaned and kissed me deeper, I figured we were kissing for a substantial amount of time because I was finding it hard to breathe. But Edward pulled him off me. We were both panting.
"I thought I would honestly loose you forever" was Edwards mind really set that I wouldn't come back? I didn't care, he knew the truth now and that's all that mattered.
"Never, you will never loose me. I promise" that's I promise I really hope I can keep.
"Come on. I have something I want to give you." Edward grabbed my hand and intertwined his fingers with mine and lead me back to his dorm room. I was excited, a present? Oh I hope so. The door opened and his room was actually clean this time. He told me to sit down on his bed. It was really comfortable.
"Bella, this might be too soon, but I saw this and I thought of you straight away." he handed me a small box. It had silver ribbon on it tied in a neat bow. I smiled up and Edward before I tugged on the ribbon. It fell away easily. I pulled off the top of the little box and what was reviled...there were no words to how beautiful it was. I was a thin silver chain, with a heart pendent attached. It had a red rose engraved into it.
"Edward, it's beautiful." that's all I could manage to get out.
"You're beautiful." he flashed me that crooked smile I secretly loved. I secured the necklace around my neck and pulled Edward into a hug.
"Thank you. I love it, and you" I pulled back and smiled at this amazing man that told me he loved me and wanted to be with me. I was so lucky.
He led me to his small couch and we started to watch 'Inception'. His arm was around my shoulder and he leaned in for a little kiss. As soon as his soft warm lips touched mine I went into some sort of frenzy and nearly attacked the man I loved. We were kissing hardcore, our tongues planted into each others mouths. He moved so he was hovering over top of me, so now I was lying down on the couch.
I fisted my hands into his bronze locks and tried yanking his head closer to mine, trying to deepen the kiss as much as possible. He moaned into my mouth and it made my lower belly tingle with desire. I was a virgin for fucks sake...
His hands moved off of my hips and in-wards. On of his hands popped open my zipper, and it felt... wrong. I wasn't ready. Images from the previous night flashed into my mind.
"wait.."
He must not have heard me because he was pulling my zipper down, trying to rid me of my pants. He pulled down my pants so they were now around my knees.
"Ah, much better." His fingers were on the elastic band of my underwear. He yanked those down too, so now I was completely exposed to his eyes. I felt like such a whore. The images were faster now, like it was happening again.
He started to un-button his jeans, all while kissing me at the same time.
"I have condoms..." Edward said, without my initial response he rushed over to his desk and pulled one out. He sauntered back over to me, condom in hands.
He started kissing my mouth again, like the hungry savage he was. His kisses started moving south and now he was tounging my neck. It felt so wrong. Too familiar, too soon.
My breath was heavy with adrenaline, so my voice must have sounded a little bit retarted.
"No. Stop."
"Ah Babe, you don't mean that." He started tugging on the hem of my shirt. I felt like I was going to cry, this was so not me.
"Edward- wait. Please."
"What's wrong baby?"
He was holding my body to his, while he was yanking down his pants.
"WAIT-NO!" I screamed, I pushed him off of me and pulled up my panties and jeans.
"Bella? Oh fuck, im so sorry...im so sorry."
"I can't, I see there faces... so many faces," I wheezed, tears pouring down my face.
"Baby, I'm sorry. I love you... I didn't know." He gathered me into his lap, and rocked me back and fourth.
"It-It's f-fine. I just keep...picturing...the other night...It's...too...soon." I stammered, sobbing into his shoulders.
"His face, what he did..." I whispered, Edward started humming to me and within seconds I was asleep, so fast asleep.