Chapter 4:Confused
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Cat POV
I left Jade this morning to be with Tori, because I feel guilty for leaving Tori in the first place. But I'm glad I got to help Jade like she used to help me. I got to feel her true emotions for me again instead of her lying to me by hurting me but those days are over hopefully. No I second guess, those days are over they really are I convince myself. I walk in the school holding Tori's hand and it feels great Tori makes me feel safe. Like when Jade was with Beck it was like Tori was the really pretty prince charming that saved me from the evil dragon. But now Jade is a nice dragon, Tori still doesn't believe that though. She feels that she still needs to protect me. She wants me to ride away on her pretty white horse. But for now we have to stay here as I try to decide who to choose. Because even I know that I'm going to have to soon enough but I just want to enjoy holding Tori's hand for now. As we walk in Sikowit's class I see beautiful Jade writing something down but she quickly looks up when Sikowit's announces me and Tori's name. She frowns and I notice I'm still holding Tori's hand Tori tightens her grip on me when she sees Jade. "Why don't you two find your seats and let's begin" Sikowit's announces I sit by Jade and smile she smiles back. I whisper "Sorry Jade, I had to go back to Tori's this morning." She grabs my other open hand and whispers back "It's Ok Cat, I'm just glad you forgive me." I nod and Tori seems to notice me and Jade so she pulls me closer to her, and it loosens Jade's grip on my hand. While in class it seems like forever I just want to get out of there before Jade and Tori end up killing each other. When the bell rings Tori kisses me bye and the classroom gasps. I blush, Jade sees a boy looking a me like he is about to insult me but she glares at him hard. He just walks off and I hug Jade she whispers in my ear. "I won't let anyone hurt you anymore." I smile and hug her tighter "Thank you Jade" I say we walk out of the classroom but before I can go to my next class. Jade grabs my wrist and takes me to the janitors closet. Where we had our first kiss I can honestly feel my heart about to explode I am so nervous. She finally closes the door and I give her my confused look, she laughs and says "Do you remember our first time in here." I nod and whisper "Of course I do I never forgot, how could I." She walks closer and I start she shake when she touches my cheek. She slowly puts her lips by my ear and softly whispers "Don't be scared I won't hurt you, don't you trust me." I nod and start to remember the first time me and Jade made love, I start to relax. As Jade starts to touch me moving her hands slowly up and down my hips. I give in and kiss her I put my arms around the back of her neck and I loosen. I just want to feel like me used to and as guilty as it sounds I don't want to think about to Tori right now. She breaks the kiss and ask. "Do you want to see what I was writing on my paper, when you came in Sikowit's class." I nod and she reaches and her pocket and gives me the paper I unwrap it fast like it's a Christmas gift. When I finally open it all the way I see my name and Jade's written a big heart with black wings flying in the sky. I smile and feel like I'm about to cry she whispers. "That's how you make me feel like, you make me like I can fly with my dark wings." A tear falls down my cheek and she puts her arms round my waist and pulls me closer. My arms stay around her neck and I pull her closer too and she kisses my tears. I whisper to her "You make me feel the same too." She smiles then says "But you can fly without me too, you are a angel with white wings." She pauses then continues "You help me grow my wings, you have taught me how to fly. Without you I would be lying on the ground, without happiness, without love." I smile and whisper "I never knew you were so poetic." She smiles then whisper back "Neither did I." She kisses me and we begin to fly to our happy place. "Cat!" I hear Tori's voice and hurry up and break apart from Jade. I turn and look at the open door and I see Tori's tears start to fall down her cheeks to the ground. And that's where I am now I have fallen to the ground my wings tearing apart. I don't deserve them I have just hurted Tori. I don't deserve to fly to a happy place now.