Chapter 4
Once the shock of my news wore off, my father came around to the idea as I knew he would. Harold was the only one in the world who at this moment I knew I could trust. My mother wasn't going to accept this. So for now I know that everything would be perfect here in France…and so my perfect life continues. It's so much easier to edit out the scenes that I don't want to see again. Control is good.
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"I need chocolate now!" I whined to my poor step-father.
Roman was always the one at home with me because my real father was usually at work. Four months into my pregnancy and the cravings for anything sweet were driving me crazy. Sitting here in my usual perch on the sun-lounge by the pool basking in the August sun, I could just imagine a bar of creamy, smooth milk chocolate. I can imagine just devouring it and how good I would feel after it.
"Roman…please?" I cried once more.
"Blair… you know that if you eat you will be sick!".
I groaned.
Did I mention that along with the cravings I get morning sickness too and before you think that can't be so bad then wait until I tell you that it's all day sickness. Whoever said that it was only supposed to last for the morning time? Nothing for three months and then like two weeks ago, just as the fourth month rolled around, I woke up feeling like crap. Blair Waldorf doesn't ever feel like crap. She's not supposed to feel like a bloated whale or have cravings for carbohydrates. Well, Blair Waldorf isn't suppose to be pregnant at nineteen either so out with the old and in with the new.
I have been chatting to Serena loads over the last few months. She is flying out here next week before she goes to college. Yes, college. She is attending Yale in September and I'm not. She doesn't know about my situation but my mother does. My father told her. So Eleanor decided that it was better to have people believe my father was dying than face the fact that her daughter was having a baby out of wedlock. Who does that? Clearly, Eleanor Waldorf will go to any measures to hide a scandal.
Anyway, back to my cravings.
"Roman!"
"Here… I have to go to meet Harold now, you be okay?"
Silence. This is because I am devouring the chocolate bar like I have never before seen food. Stupid hormones.
"Call us, if you need us!"
"Sure, thanks!"
After slaying the bar of delicious chocolate I laid back and stared at the blue sky. It's so nice here, it's like an escape from the entire world. Living with my father and Roman is like living on my own because most of the time they leave me to myself and are usually only a call away. They get it that I don't want to be suffocated. The easier my pregnancy can be the better. My first doctor's appointment is next week. Serena's coming with me, when I do eventually tell her. I didn't want my dad there. This is way too much to not have a girlfriend with you. I'll be so glad to see her again, we were always like sisters. One of us, two of us.
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