Well here's chapter 4, please review and I hope you like it :)
Just as I make eye contact with Josh I hear a beeping noise beside me and I know he's gone.
my mother and I sob into each others shoulders for what seems like forever and I hardly notice Josh come into the room to join in with the hug. we were in the family room now, the doctors had moved us out when they came to collect my dad, me and my mom didn't part from our hug though. "Jen, don't worry, we'll get through this together."Josh said, how the hell would he know he hasn't just lost one of the most important things in the world. "Karen, Ben and Blaine are here." he added as my brothers walked into the room dried tears on both their faces. why couldn't my life be simple for once, why did all the shit happen to me all at once? As my mom walks out of the room to talk to my brothers, Josh takes her place and now im hugging him, letting my tears fall onto his shirt.
3 hours later and we were at my apartment in LA, silence filling the room, not awkward though, just a silence that means everyone's thinking. The room feels empty without my dad filling the room with his laughter, he was always the one that told stories, the one who would make us all happy after something bad had happened. but now he couldn't, now he would never tell any of us he loved us, tell any of us he was happy for what we'd done or tell any of us to carry on living our lives with our head held high.
I didn't think I had this many tears in me, but how wrong was I, I cried untill morning, not caring if anyone could hear me, my mom in the guest room beside mine, Josh on the sofa, he didn't want to leave us alone after Ben and Blaine had left. I didn't have a wink of sleep last night, my thoughts racing around in my head. As I go to the bathroom I hear something clattering in the kitchen, Josh probably, my mother would still be in her room. "Josh,is that you?" I ask waiting for a reply. "oh Jen, your awake." a male voice comes from the kitchen, it was Josh. As I walked into the room, I saw he was making pancakes. "Josh, what makes you think I got any sleep last night, didn't you hear me sobbing?" I asked him "oh and can I have some of those please?" I added. "I dunno Jen, I thought it was your mom crying you know, and yeah sure I've made enough mixture." He replied as he came over and hugged me. "Jen, I know this is a really inappropriate time to tell you this and you don't have to answer right now if you don't want to, but I've felt this way since I first met you, you are amazing and beautiful, I, I like you Jen, as more than a friend, and I really wish you felt the same but if you don't no matter." he said, wow isn't this what I've waited for? isn't this exactly what I thought of him?