"I do remember some of that night, I remember you both coming to sit with me and then Anne left to sit with Rackham, I didn't know how to start talking to you I mean you were Mary for god sake. Normally you came dressed as James, that's why I asked after him. You sat there proud and beautiful with all the men around you under your control, I started drinking more to attempt to loosen up" its so weird to hear it from another perspective but he's remembered correctly so far "you kept getting that lad to bring you drinks so I thought that's who you were interested in. I remember you saying you were going to the beach after the walk there the rest is a blur" I look at him stunned
"If you were so interested why didn't you tell me! It's not like you couldn't have come to see me!" I'm almost shouting now, so much of this could have been prevented
"I suppose we both struggled finding the right words, when you said in the court you were pregnant I cursed the bastard that had done it, especially when you told me it had been some drunk that you didn't know!" I remember that now, I had panicked so much when he had asked
"I remember you asking me that I got so scared that I'd tell ya and you would have stormed off, although it makes sense that you thought everything at the manor through for us" he smiles and embraces me in a hug "I can't say I love you Edward, but I can't say there's nothing there or our daughter wouldn't be lying in my room right now!" he kisses me on the top of my head and leads me back through to where I left her, we both sit next to each other on my bed and he puts his arms around me and together we watch our daughter.
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January 10th 1721
I Wake up to find Edward staring at me, he does it ever since I moved into his room with him. Not in that way, its more he runs into my room every time Charlotte cries or he sits there watching her and falls asleep so I saved him the hassle. I said we could give things a go and see how they work out, I didn't lie when I said feelings are there and they are growing fonder each day. I find myself watching both of them now not just Charlotte, he'll sings shanties to her and she'll gurgle back in her own way. Every time she has a whimper he sorts it, when she needs feeding he sits with me waiting to get her back. Its surprised me how much this man has changed.
I listen out for Charlotte but she's fast off, I roll over hoping to get an extra few minutes sleep. Edward shuffles so that he's lying behind me one arm around my waist its usually how we fall asleep nowadays
"I love you" he whispers into my hair, he doesn't expect me to say it back yet and I'm thankful he's not pushing me on it. In a way I love when he tells me it, maybe I do love him. I play around with the words in my head, until Charlotte I can honestly say I've never loved anyone so how do I know this isn't love.
"I love you too" its so weird how the words just flow off the tip of my tongue, like I'm meant to say them. Edwards pulls me closer and we sleep like this till Charlotte deems it breakfast time.
Walking around the manor I have a strange urge to go out but there's no way I'm going unarmed, I grab my blade and a pistol leaving a note on the pillow next to Edward and set out towards my beach. Charlotte sits in my arms babbling away to herself.
"You've been here before" I whisper to her "But I thought you might like to see it this time"
The water is as warm as always so I wander out until its just up to my hips, She kicks her feet out and I'm glad she loves the sea as much as I do. I point out at the little fish in the water and watch her follow them with her eyes, I decide to move closer to the shore so I can really let her splash around.
As I suspected its not long until we are joined
"Thank you for leaving a note this time" he jokes, I thought he would appreciate it.
"I thought she should see the beach where we made all of our decisions" I hand her to him and she continues to thrash her hands about in the waves
"What exactly did you decide on this beach then?" I remember all the times I came here, how I lost track of time
"Well first of all she was going to be called William, that was because the whole time I thought she was going to be a boy. Then we wondered whether to tell you and how, she came up with a great speech I'll have you know. Then the last time I came here I decided I needed some space it was when I wondered if I should stay or not, after I had decided to stay I went in search of food and that's when on the way back I got attacked" his breath hitches, I never knew how bad it was until I had removed my bandages and saw the angry red scars that decorated my arms "Thank god Anne heard me screaming or it could have been a lot worse" I can't believe how stupid I was that day I could have lost everything all because I was too stubborn to talk to him.
"I remember that too well! I had heard people coming into the Manor and just assumed Anne had bought people back to continue drinking with, I opened your doors to found you passed out and the bed covered in blood" he brings Charlotte closer to him "That's when I sat with you, she nudged me and I spoke to her for ages. I told her stories of you, of how we met and how you told me your secret on top of the windmill!" he smiles at me and I can't believe he remembered that, although its not something you would forget quickly "When you woke up and accused me of forgetting about Caroline I suppose I flipped, although I don't know why. I guess I was more angry at myself, scared I had made you do something you didn't want to do" I kiss him on the cheek to hopefully reassure him.
"Kenway do you not know me well enough by now that if I don't want to do something, I won't?" its weird hearing him talk about Caroline, I wonder whether to ask him "Will you write to Caroline again?"
"I suppose I should really, maybe one day I'll get a reply" its a weird feeling, I don't want him to but I also don't want to be the reason he doesn't
"Will you tell her about Charlotte?" he looks down at his daughter and his brow furrows
"I suppose in time I will, but I don't think I can start a letter with Dear Caroline I have a daughter out here with a woman I love, hope your doing just grand. Sorry you never saw any of my riches" he laughs and I'm glad he finds it funny but when our situation is said like that it adds a horrible slant to it all.
"I think we should start heading back" I stand up and brush the sand off me, I put my hands out to take Charlotte so he can get up. I clutch her close to my chest, what I hoped to have been a nice day has turned rather sour.
When we are home I get Charlotte ready for a nap, on the way back I made the decision in my head that tonight I would show Edward I truly loved him. I go to the drawers in his room and grab one of his larger shirts, it barely covers me but it'll do.
I go to the doors of my old room and shout him "Edward" he comes rushing up the stairs obviously thinking it has something to do with Charlotte until he sees me stood in the doorway, I saunter in and crawl onto the bed. His footsteps confirm that he's followed me, crawling onto the bed after me he hovers just close enough so that our noses touch
"Yes Mary, can I be of assistance?" with a cheeky wink he has my shirt off swiftly followed by his own
"I can definitely think of one thing you could do" I trail my finger down his chest until I reach the band on his shorts and with my one finger undo the top button, his breath hitches so I continue until we are both completely naked "Unless you don't want this?" I smirk up at him he responds in a deep kiss which leaves me breathless
"I want you more than anything else in the world"
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