Technically, this isnt a chapter 4. i will not be writing any more fanfic for the foreseeable future for multiple reasons. if/when i start writing again, i am likely to start a new work, and leave this as it is.
i do not think i am capable of making any long term commitment to writing due to lack of concentration/motivation and a build up of school work. for those of you who want to know why i am not going to be writing any more, read on. if not, then just keep in mind that i will be coming back to this when i start writing again.
the reasons that i am no longer going to be writing fanfic may present a trigger to some people, so be warned. i suffer from severe chronic depression, anxiety and insomnia. i have been suicidal for almost a year and i have been self harming for over 2 years. i thought that it was getting better when, while writing this fanfic, i got a girlfriend, who helped me a lot. she broke up with me on the last day of term before christmas last year. it has just gone downhill from there. 4 days ago (tuesday 28th) i tried to kill myself. since then, i have decided that i need to focus on my recovery more than anything else. so, for that reason, i am putting writing on hold for now, until i get significantly better.
thanks for reading my work up to this point, and hopefully in the future i will be able to continue writing what i enjoy.