Yes I'm back

Sorry I haven't updated this in a while, god I have neglected this story for a while

We get a glimpse into the past of Rin and Haru, explaining how Rin was driven insane

Why he clings to Haru and how he keeps him locked away

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Darkpheonix666

Rin stared in horror as Haru laid upon the marble floor weak and close to death. Blood pouring from his body like water and pooling around him and rippling slightly. The pale marble floor of the palace now being stained with Haru's blood. The gentle night air blowing into the room and blowing the curtains softly in the breeze.

Tears spilling Haru's face as he realized his time was up. His fate now growing closer and his time with Rin had come to an end. How tragic that things had to end this way. He had hoped that they could remain together forever, just the two of them and nothing else would matter.

Rin's body had gone into shock upon seeing it all happen so quickly. The knife going into Haru piercing him deeply and then the enemy running off before he could stop him. His body and mind not really clicking that he was losing Haru. That he was never going to get him back, that their happiness had all but been stolen from him. Their brief happiness now over in a flash.

"Rin… I…I'm sorry…" Haru whispered weakly. He could feel the blood pouring from his body like water. The weight of his body growing heavier and his strength all but leaving him. He should have been more careful, he shouldn't have entered the room alone and unarmed, but life was funny like that.

Rin's eyes widened and he slowly walked towards Haru who was now laying on the ground. His body heavy and his mind in a haze, this wasn't real, right? Haru wasn't leaving him, was he? He would wake up any second and things would be back to normal, they would be happy and kissing each other.

"Haru…" he trailed off quietly his voice cracking. His eyes began to sting eventually being blinded by tears and his throat hurt. This wasn't fair, why was he being punished like this for loving Haru? He didn't understand what was happening. Why did he have to suffer like this?

Haru smiled sadly at him, he didn't want to leave Rin like this. But he couldn't hold on, he was dying of blood loss and shock, but he knew he would meet Rin again in another life. He just knew he would. They were fated to love each other, they were one another's soulmates after all.

Rin then collapsed in front of Haru falling to his knees, as if he carried a heavy weight on his back. He then gripped Haru in his arms tightly and held his hand like a vice. Not wanting to let go of his lover no matter what, scared that if he did he would shatter like glass upon hitting the floor.

He held Haru like a lifeline, not caring about the blood slowly staining his clothes. Just wanting to gaze into those blue eyes one last time before he lost him forever. To imprint the memory on his brain for eternity. To remember the outline of his jaw, the smell of his skin, the small smile on his face.

"Rin… I… I've always…" Haru trailed off weakly. He loved Rin with all his heart even if he never said it. But now before he left him, he would let him know just how precious the other boy was to him. He could feel his strength leaving him, he didn't have long and he knew it. He had to say it now before he lost his chance.

Rin gripped him tighter and cupped his hand close to his own face. He would listen to whatever Haru had to say, he didn't care how stupid it was. He was keep those words in his heart forever. He would never let go of them, they would remain his mantra forever. Repeating in his mind until the end of time.

Haru's eyes then closed quietly and his body stiffened in the other boys grip. He then stopped moving and relaxed in Rin's arms. His life now gone and nothing but a body in the arms of the sharp toothed boy. His soul now departed to the afterlife, at peace from the world around them and no longer in pain.

Rin's eyes widened and his body went into shock all over again. His eyes slowly being blinded by the tears in his eyes. Eventually they pooled over like a waterfall and spilled down his cheeks. They poured down his cheeks onto the face of his lover. He then began to shake uncontrollably as sobs escaped his lips loudly as he mourned over his now dead lover.

"HARU! DON'T LEAVE ME! HARUUUU!" Rin screamed bitterly, his voice echoing the halls. This wasn't fair, this was just too cruel. Why was Haru being torn from him like this? He gripped Haru's body close to him and buried his face in his chest. His tears soaking Haru's clothes as Rin broke down uncontrollably as his pain and grief overwhelmed him.

His screams echoed through the halls attracting the guards and servants to the scen. The killer all but gone and Rin blind to anything but the pain he now carried in his heart. He would never let him go, never again would he leave Haru by himself where he could not be seen. He would stay by his side always.

Rin sat up in bed quickly his heart racing and his eyes wide with horror and tears spiking his eyes. That dream again, the one he had carried in his heart since that day. The grief and rage of losing Haru had all but driven him to insanity. Of not being able to protect him and the helplessness of not being able to do anything to protect him.

Though it had been centuries and he had been reborn in the modern era as a normal boy. The wounds from the past were still embedded in his heart and mind from that day. The day Haru had been murdered by an assassin who had sneaked in and claimed his life. Leaving Rin grief-stricken and enraged, beating the guards to death after they failed to do their job.

During the ceremony of Haru's death he had claimed his own life to be with Haru. Impaling himself with his own sword and allowing himself to die before Haru's cremating body on the pyre. His last words saying he would be reborn with Haru and they would be together again.

He had searched for years, never coming any closer to finding him. All but losing hope that he would ever be reunited with his love like they he had promised himself. Until one day he came across a stray black cat with Haru's eyes, the same blue eyes he had fallen in love with.

Upon learning that the cat was indeed Haru he had broken down. Clinging the small cat to him like a lifeline, sobbing his name over and over again. Happy to have finally found him. The cat had eventually warmed up to him and licked him happily. The two lived happily for some time though Rin had been very worried about how Haru had been reborn as a cat.

He wondered if Haru would be stuck like this forever and looked for a long time for a cure. Reading every book on magic and reincarnations he could find, reading them religiously. Eventually his friend Sousuke gave him a necklace with a moon in the centre, which would allow Haru to revert to human form.

Haru could change back and forth from being human to cat upon touching the necklace. However, it was not permanent and Haru needed to wear the necklace to stay human. But unlike Rin, Haru didn't hold any of the memories of their past lives. He didn't remember Rin nor that they had been lovers. They were complete strangers now.

Upon finding Haru again but knowing he didn't know who he was drove Rin to madness. He then decided he would keep Haru by his side and try to make him remember their love. Reminding him of the bond they once had and the love they had carried for one another, his love for the latter transcending time itself.

He hid the necklace from Haru and kept him in cat form so he could not escape. However, when Haru was well behaved and didn't try to escape him, he would let Haru revert to his human form. But more times Haru would try and escape to the outside world, causing him to have to find him all over again.

He had asked Sousuke about how to return Haru to human form permanently. Sousuke had suspected that Haru had carried so much guilt in a past life of wanting to be free, that he had forgotten Rin completely. His desire to start anew and be a normal person yet be free had caused him to be reborn as a cat. No worries, no responsibilities and simply live life in the moment without care.

Rin closed his eyes, tears spilling down his face upon reliving the memory again. His chest ached and he felt bile rising in his throat. It had been even more painful than the day it happened. Watching the boy he loved be stabbed and die slowly of blood loss in his arms, unable to save his life and only watch the life leave his eyes.

Suddenly a form in the bed moved beside him causing him to jump slightly. It moaned sleepily and yawned upon Rin making a sudden movement and panting heavily for air like that. Not very pleased at the sudden awakening caused by Rin awakening from his bad dreams that had haunted him all this time.

Haru sat up wearily rubbing his eyes of sleep. He had felt Rin stiffening in the bed beside him but had woken as he sat up. What did he need to pee or something? "Rin… what the hell it's 2am…" he groaned sleepily. Was he going to get any sleep at all while in human form? At least as a cat he could hide himself away for some peace and quiet.

Rin turned to face Haru his eyes wide and still flowing with tears. It had all been a dream, a memory of the past. Haru was still here, they were together again. He wasn't dead, he wasn't bleeding, they were safe in his bed. But it had felt so real, as real and painful as the day it had happened. Still sitting in his mind like poison.

"H… Haru…" Rin whimpered weakly. He thought he had lost him all over again. That this was all a dream and he really was gone, that he was all alone like he had been before. But that's all it had been in the end, a dream. They were safe, Haru was safe.

Haru then became concerned, he had never seen Rin in such a state. He looked hysterical, desperate, tears pouring down his face with no intention of stopping. Just what in the hell had caused him to enter such a state? Just what in the hell had been running through his mind as he slept?

Rin then threw himself at Haru rushing into his arms in a heartbeat. He then wrapped his arms tightly around the raven-haired boy, clinging to him for dear life. His hands gripping onto Haru as if he might vanish upon letting him go. His body shaking wit fear and the tears pouring down his face as he erupted into sobs.

Haru's eyes widened and he was rather taken aback by this. Rin seemed so fragile now, so desperate and afraid. But why? Why was he acting like this so suddenly? "Haru… never leave me…. Please … not again" Rin sobbed frantically. He couldn't bear to lose Haru a second time, he would never be able to live with himself if he did.

He could withstand anything Haru threw at him. The ignoring him, the scratches and claw-marks, the bites, the hateful looks, the moodiness, all of it. Just so long as Haru never left his side again. He didn't care how long it took Haru to regain his memories, as long as they were together, that's all that mattered.

Hesitantly, Haru slowly wrapped his arms around Rin and embraced the Maroon haired male. The latter relaxed in his arms and continued sobbing like a small child. He had no idea of what could be going on in Rin's mind to cause him to act this way. It was so unlike him that Haru was a little afraid. He was in the dark and he didn't like it.

He then nuzzled his nose into Rin's hair his eyes heavy and caring. "It's ok Rin. I'm here, I'm not going anywhere I promise" he soothed. He felt so bad for running off all those times. He had never thought how scared, how afraid and how lonely Rin would be. He just got so frustrated that he just ran away. Wanting to be free, to have some head-space and breathe.

Rin continued sobbing while Haru held him close. Stroking his hair and rubbing circles in his back to comfort him. He would never leave Rin, he just wished that he wouldn't keep so many secrets like he was now. He only hoped Rin would one day share the wounds he hid in his heart.