Chapter 4. Scream

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EPOV

Bella's scream came thru me like lightning burning every part of me, ripping my heart in pieces. I tried to hold her to the bed as best as I could without hurting her. I felt her go totally limp. I fell to my knees. I did not know what to do. Seconds later, the nurses and Carlisle came rushing into the room and took her away. I was not able to move at all. I just followed them with my gaze.

Soon after, the doctors made me leave the room where Bella was to check her vitals. I went to sit in the waiting room. Alice came to my side. She started to tell me that everything was going to be alright, but I could not handle it any longer. I grabbed her face in my hands.

"Alice, you better show me a vision what is happening to her and that she is going to be ok now!"

She was absolutely freaked out with my action but closed her eyes and started to check her visions. After a while, she opened her eyes and stared at me. We both gasped and froze.

Her vision showed Bella in the Operating Room, being checked by Carlisle all over again, what they had missed before that had made Bella scream in pain out of nowhere. He realized Bella was bleeding inside. My senses disconnected again, and I went limp on the floor.

Alice pulled me up and put me on the couch, so people did not suspect and just think I was sleeping or thinking. She was trying to get me out of it when Emmet came into the room and said.

"Carlisle just finished operating on Bella again. She is going to live."

After I heard those words, I snapped out of my current state and straightened up, so I was facing both of them, confused.

Carlisle eventually came into the room and sat by my side. He told everyone to get out and leave us alone to talk. He put his arm around my shoulders.

"Edward, I know you are scared, but I need to tell you that Bella is going to live. She is going to be ok, eventually, but there is something else, and I really do not know how to tell you so I will only say that her physical injuries will heal in a short period of time, but I am not sure how long it will take her to recover emotionally. It was an awful attack. I know you want to avenge her, but now is the time to be with her."

My head turned to look Carlisle in the eyes. "Tell me what's wrong", I demanded.

It was too painful to get confirmation of my greatest fears. The love of my life has gone through something I was so repulsed to in the years when I hunted humans. When I helped a lot of women to get free of their attackers and avenge them by killing them; I even saved Bella once in Port Angeles a couple of years ago when I first met her, but I was not able to save her this time and that broke me in pieces from the inside.

I knew what Carlisle was thinking about when I ran away from him and Esme, when I slipped into what I really am, a monster, but he also knew me well; He knew I had to do something about the attack.

"I will do anything that is possible to gather proof and information for us to search and hunt those guys, my son, but while we track them, please stay with Bella; we are your family and will support you all the way; please know we will do everything in our power to get them."

"Carlisle, what happened to Bella?" I demanded.

He could not even look at me, so I tried reading his mind; it was hard but when I finally read him, he was naming all the bones and muscles in the human body.

"I´m sorry, Edward not now. I think I need to talk to Bella first before saying something." He started to walk away from me.

CPOV

I had to talk to Bella before I say anything to Edward; I knew her injuries, I really did not know what happened exactly; everything pointed to something I really do not want to think but I had to make sure.

I went into the room where Bella was; she was so fragile and weak. "Bella?" I whispered to see if she was awake.

"Carlisle", she answered weakly.

"How are you feeling?" I asked.

"Sore" she responded.

"Bella, I need you to tell me what happened" I asked. I really needed to know exactly what had happened as soon as possible.

"I… I do not remember it", she finally spoke.

"Bella, I really need you to remember what you can. Please think hard; it is important for you to unblock what happened to you", I said again; I waited; after what seemed like minutes, her expression changed; she was in shock and tears began to roll down her cheeks. "Bella, please tell me. I need to know; we need to speak about it; I will not tell Edward a thing unless you consent to it. You really need to speak to me." She simply nodded and tried to compose herself.

"Carlisle, I think… I think I was raped; I do not know exactly, but I do remember the expression of the guy that attacked me and … well and … it was the same as the guys that wanted to attacked me in Port Angeles when Edward saved me." She started to cry again.

"Bella, I know this is difficult for you but I think you have to talk to Edward. I will not say anything to him, but please you need to talk to him so you can start to really heal?"

EPOV

After a couple of hours finally Bella came into the room from recovery. She was awake but her mind was lost. "Bella, my love, I am here. You are going to be alright. I will not go away. I am here for you forever." Her head turned my way and nodded. After a minute, she spoke.

"Edward… I am sorry." She started crying.

"Sorry for what Bella, there is nothing to be sorry about." I said to her calmly.

"No, Edward, it was my fault, if I did not said to those guys it was ok to take pictures of the car and rolling down the window, this wouldn't have happened."

An urge to kill ran thru me as I thought of the scene. I remained calmed on the outside for Bella.

"No, my love do not think about it, you are going to be fine, just rest for now, I am here, you are safe now" I grabbed her hand into mine while I spoke. Bella just turned her face away and said.

"Do you still love me, do you still want me after." Her words came along with heavy tears in her eyes.

"After what Bella?" I started to get worried.

"Please Bella, tell me what happened." I started begging.

She turned her face to the other side of the room.

"Bella, please!" I said again. After a minute she said.

"Edward I am sorry but I think you can figure out what happened to me, so if you do not love me and if you do not want to be with me anymore I will understand." she closed her eyes and started to cry.

I was in shock my worst fears confirmed, but this was not about me, Bella needed me now more than ever, so I composed myself and bent down and kissed her hand and said "How could you say that, of course I still love you, I still want to be with you forever, what is making you say that, you are the love of my life, no the love of my existence, I will love you forever", Bella still not looking back at me said.

"Because I am… well I was … marked by someone else." She continued crying and she took her hand away from mine.

I was speechless, frozen at the thought that someone claimed her as hers, even though I knew that her heart belonged to me I could not take my mind away from the thought that someone had been with her that way, even though it was an attack and she never agree to it, it still pained me to think about it. I always wanted to wait for us to have that first special moment together in our wedding night and now, someone took it from us.

"Bella, no matter what happened, I love you, I want you to think about that and nothing else love, please just sleep now, rest for now you need to heal." Bella shut her eyes and whispered.

"Edward, I cannot be with you or anyone else now, please go."

Tears came running down her cheek, I just could not believe what I heard, I could not be away from her, I could not leave her alone, not now not ever.

"Please go, I want to be left alone." She repeated.

And as hard as this pained me, I walked out of the room.

BPOV

I heard Edward leaving the room, I then continue crying, I thought I will be not able to stop anytime soon, but my weakness won and I felt asleep, and as I sleep I dreamed, the dream started with the face of the tall guy watching me, with the same expression of the guys in Port Angeles some years before, I was yelling at him.

"Please stop, please…don't" but he was laughing and continue his advance on me. It was then when I wake up with a scream.

"No!"

Edward came rushing into the room again, what's wrong.

"I told you I do not want to be with you!" I scream at him.

"Leave me alone!"

His expression was of total pain, but regardless I wanted to be left alone, I did not deserve him or anyone else, I just wanted to die. The nurses arrived just seconds after, but not so long after that they heard me screaming at Edward, and so they told him to get out of the room immediately. His face was torn; he looked at me and left.