Forever Night
Chapter 4
Didn't Know Better; Didn't Try Harder
I wonder; time is a fluid thing. Easily disrupted by ripples of disruptions made when a tiny grain of sand touches the surface of a fraction of a second. The big things … well we all consider the big things. What if I never went in the first place? What if we stopped sooner? Stopped later? What if I knew nothing of the cove? If he never saw the job on the board?
But little things are important too.
The log. The kindling. Lily taking the top bunk. Going to bed earlier. Going to bed later. Eating only rations. Eating at all.
We were moving closer together. My shadows and his highlights. My skin remembered the softness of his hair against my palm, and the way his smiles were softer. Sometimes. Maybe half the time. But often with me.
And Lily, but his smiles would always be soft with Lily, so that didn't count.
We were occasional partners and every-day friends. Of course I was optimistic. Of course I closed my eyes that night with sparkling champagne in my veins.
Of course, of course. I'm me. I'm happy. I'm smiles and laughter and giddy dancing and spontaneous hugs. No one would be surprised and very few would blame me.
Except me.
Me.
I failed them.
I loved them.
Love them.
But I let them down.
"Fairy Tail," my hand is over my guildmark. "Fairy Tail. I won't come back. I won't come back alone. I promise. By this sign, I promise.
"I'll bring them home."
Author's Note: So yeah. Apparently this is taking a depressing turn. But then, that suits my style, so such is life. Short update, so quickly it comes. Thanks for reading, thanks for reviewing!