This has been the weirdest three weeks of my life. It's like I've been thrown into a parallel and really retarded universe. Lily's acting all jumpy around me for no apparent reason. Every time I say 'hi' to her she either squeaks like a mouse or starts stuttering.

I have no clue in the name of Merlin as to what's going on with her.

I'll throw myself off the astronomy tower if it's because of something stupid like my fly's open or I have something in my teeth.

Because that would just be even better than her hearing my brain.

But it's every time though, am I really that retarded to leave my fly open and have crap in my teeth like five times a day?

"Yes," Padfoot interrupts my thoughts, "you're Prongs."

I narrow my eyes at him, "are you serious?" I ask sarcastically, pretending to be unaware of who I am.

"Well yes I am," he jokes and everyone rolls their eyes, "I have been since birth thank you."

Why am I friends with him? He's such a…

"Primate?" Remus puts in intelligently.

"Exactly," I reply. I have at least one friend.

"So why are you worried that your fly is open and you have stuff in your teeth?" Remus continues and I feel my cheeks pinken slightly.

"Cuz Lily's acting all weird and jumpy around me."

Both Moony and Padfoot share a look.

It's a private look! One that clearly states that they know something that I don't!

"Has she now?" Moony asks, as if he's not already aware.

"You were there Moony," I state in a surly manner, (I don't' like to be excluded), "when I bumped into her by accident and she went off stuttering like a pressure cooker after I apologized and handed her, her stuff."

He opens his mouth trying to still act ignorant…which is really really weird for Moony…but then closes it.

HA! You're smartness and intelligence overcame you in the end as well my friend…you as well!

They're all silent again.

"Do we need to establish that we heard that rather demented outburst?" Moony asks and all I can do is shake my head.

We walk in silence again for a while before Sirius elbows me rather roughly.

"Ow!" I yelp and turn to him with a scowl, "what the hell Padfoot?"

He looks at me, horrified, then to Moony and then back.

"S..sorry Prongs," he stammers in a very un-Sirius-like manner and then looks back at Remus, obviously having meant the nudge to be for him.

Sirius is just too thick to realize who he's standing next to.

I whip around to scrutinize Remus, my eyes narrowed in the most intimidating way.

Obviously realizing how incredibly stupid that was I turn back to Sirius but he's already sent the stupid secret message to Moony while I was turned away like a plonker.

"Even though we do NOT know what you're talking about," Moony replies as they're both staring ahead.

"We completely agree," Sirius chirps in, still looking ahead.

I scowl at both of them as we walk. What happened to our code of honour? No secrets…from anyone of us, especially when it involves the said person.

We're best mates. How are the marauders going to survive this harsh world if we're continuously keeping…

"Whoah!" I yelp but am out-yelped by a rather feminine squeal.

A silence follows as I sit up onto my knees and gain my bearings.

Ignoring my head that's throbbing like a mild hangover I look down and LO and Behold! There, sitting in a rather dazed and awkward position is the very pretty red-head – Lily Evans.

God, why do you hate me? Why? What have I ever done?

This is the second time this stupid thing has happened today.

She looks at me and her eyes widen and she begins to scramble up faster than ants in front of an anteater.

"Are you…" I begin but she's already on her knees and hauling her bag onto her shoulder.

Before I can even stand up she's on her feet and ready to sprint off.

I clamber up, using elbows, knees and everything else possible until I'm right up in front of her.

"Lily!" I gasp and she whips around to me, looking very scared.

I open my mouth and then close it. I can't think of anything to say…though my brain will probably do it for me.

I thrust the book in my hand towards her.

"You dropped this," I state and she looks down.

She reaches out for the book and out comes that adorable pink blush.

She pauses abruptly, her face behind her hair and I groan.

See I told you! My brain just does whatever the hell it wants!

I clear my throat and try to think of something to say but she's already grabbed the book and is stuffing into her bag.

"Lily," I call again with no specific reason and she turns again to me, this time seeming calmer.

"Yes?" she asks, her voice betraying her demeanor.

I can't think of anything to say so I say whatever the situation offers.

"Sorry."

The silence practically screams 'HOW LAME' at me and I want to walk up to the pillar behind her and bang my head against it till I gain some regular brain cells.

She giggles and I turn to her and frown. What's funny? I don't' find the situation funny at all. I just embarrassed myself again…it's not funny.

She laughs again, "yes it is James," she replies through her laughter.

Now although her laughter is perfectly wonderful to be around…I don't' get it.

Her smile falters slightly but she pulls away from it and laughs again.

"You're not going to gain any brain cells by banging your head on the pillar," she states smiling and my face falls.

This world hates me. Every stupid living thing on this stupid planet hates me.

"I agree," I say in lack of anything else, and she smiles up at me.

Wow! That smile does quite a bit to a guy. I could stand here and look at it all day.

And then of course to ruin it, Peter sneezes and everybody jumps from their reverie.

She looks away from me and fiddles with her skirt and then after smoothening it she starts her stammering again.

"Well…It was um…" she starts and I want to just want to throw Peter off the Astronomy Tower.

Maybe I should try something.

"Yeah…um…you…" I stutter and groan inwardly.

Trying something doesn't mean doing the same bloody thing.

"We're just going to go," Jackie interjects and takes Lily by the arm and pulls her away, shooting a disappointed look at the people behind me and then they both walk away.

Come back! Please!

Why does my life suck?

I turn around and round on Peter.

"Why did you have to sneeze?" I whine at him and he bows his head, "of all the times."

Moony sighs, "though I have to say that poor Peter cannot control his natural bodily functions," he puts in before turning to Peter critically, "his timing is anything but impeccable."

Yeah…whatever he said.

Both he and Sirius sigh heavily before gesturing for us to continue.

What is with them?

"What's with you two?" I express, "you're acting as weird as Lily sometimes.

They both look at each other before shaking their heads.

"Nothing," they say in unison.

Now I know something is COMPLETELY wrong now. Moony and Padfoot never agree…especially not in unison.

"You guys are so obvious," I state and they both look in any direction but at each other, "just tell me what it is."

"There is no 'it' James," Moony retorts, "stop being so paranoid."

And though I argue and argue and push and prod, it is all fruitless.

I'm still stuck in the same place I was three weeks ago – a mental head girl aka love of my life. But now I have the additional secretive best friends.

It's so cool to be James Michael Potter.

Head Patrols

She's awfully quiet. She's not saying anything at all. Usually we have amazing discussions or a joke fest on our patrols and I always make her laugh…which is something so phenomenal because it's only been happening for one year.

But today – she's not saying anything.

"Lily," I call tentively and she turns.

"Hmm?"

But I say nothing, because I once again don't have anything to say. Instead I shake my head and continue walking.

I can feel her eyes looking curiously at me now. She wants to know what I was going to say.

That makes two of us Lily.

We reach an empty classroom twenty very silent minutes later before anything interesting happens.

"Ssssssssh!" a hiss sounds from inside and we both freeze.

Glancing at each other we decide to back up against the wall and listen.

"Just shut up!" the whisper continues in such a low tone that we can't recognize the voice.

"We have to move to Plan B!" a lower pitched voice murmurs and my eyes widen.

That's Sirius! What the bloody hell is he doing in there?

And what's Plan B?

"What the bloody hell is Plan B?" the first voice whispers back critically, as if having read my mind.

"The closet one," comes the reply and Lily and I both look at each other and frown.

Closet?

The whispering continues but now softer than before and we both crane over to hear it.

And being the stupid idiot I am, I crane a bit too much and end up leaning so much forward over Lily that she loses her balance.

She lets out a squeak as she loses her balance and topples forward grabbing onto me just in time to stop her tumbling to the floor.

I arch abruptly from the added weight but manage to grab her around the waist and pull her to me just as we hear frantic shuffling of footsteps approaching the door.

Within seconds I can smell Sirius's cologne just outside the door and I can immediately picture his turmoil as he tries to get past Lily who's blocking the door as I keep her there.

Before any more trouble can be caused I spin us both around so that Lily's back is against the wall and I'm covering her – not moving until I feel a discreet pat on my back and the scent of the cologne disappear.

What an idiot! What a complete moron! Of all the things he could do, he nicks my invisibility coat and sneaks around with someone in a classroom under my rounds!

Who could be so stupid?

What the bloody hell was this closet plan B anyway? 'Closet' is the stupidest name to call a plan in the first place!

Think logically James – Sirius and a plan can only equal…a prank!

He's planning another prank!

…but then how come I don't know about it?

Is he excluding me from a prank?

No! We always plan the pranks together! We're the leaders of the marauders. We're the two master pranksters of the school. He wouldn't not tell me!

…

But it looks like he has. For one or two weeks it seems like it. He's been sneaking weird looks at Moony and they're both acting like a pair of second year girls before valentines day.

Eeeugh…I shudder at the thought of those girls. They always seemed to be behind me and following me, like little mini-stalkers – stupid cows! I had top hide under my invisibility cloak for almost three days, trusting Sirius to pass me food and drink surreptitiously when no one was looking.

…Sirius…

Why don't I know what's going on?

"James?" a soft voice sounds form in front of me and I look down to see Lily standing rather awkwardly between me and he wall, her hands on my chest and her body centimeters from mine.

Oh…

She's so close! Holy sweet Lord, she's so close! I can feel her breathing against my chin and neck.

It's making me go all tingly!

I can't say anything…my mind's gone completely fuzzy.

She's just so beautiful and she's right here, right up in front of me.

She opens her mouth to say something but stop for some unknown reason, and just looks straight back at me, rendering me even more speechless.

Her eyes are so green and deep right now. It's like I could jump in there and never land!

I can see every eyelash, every freckle, and every point on her lips.

I just want to kiss them! They're right here in front of me and they look so soft and endearing.

I just want to kiss her and everything that is her. It's all too perfect to miss.

Her hands slacken slightly on my chest but don't come off and I can feel her heavy breathing.

My own breathing starts deepening as I look at her face.

…I can't even think of a word to say. Everything is so flawless, even the little imperfections like the tiny scar on the side of her lip and the out-of-place freckle on her left cheek. All of it is perfect and I can't hold back any more.

Within seconds of thoughtless action I'm kissing her – one hand holding her face while the other is still around her body, pulling her closer.

Her lips feel so amazing but they would be even more if she responded.

All the high-flying feelings are disappearing now.

She's still Lily Evans and I'm still James Pot…

…

She's kissing me back! She's kissing me back!

One of her hands reaches up and clasps my neck, making it impossible for me to not pull her even closer – just to absorb all of it.

I can't feel anything but her supernatural lips and the feeling of her hand on my neck and her hair between my fingers as she's pressed up against me.

I can't believe it! I'm kissing Lily Evans and she's kissing me back!