Chapter 4
He got into his car and stopped, toying with the keys in his hand. What the hell was he doing? Aaron would probably be fine. Besides, after what had happened the night before, what made him so sure that Aaron would just take him back? He'd end off alone, homeless, broke...Not to mention Katie being absolutely insufferable. He couldn't quite understand what his brother saw in her, what HE ever saw in her. She'd rub it in his face at every given opportunity. And shacking up with the local Grease Monkey? Chas' son.. Katie's best friend...He'd never live it down. Not to mention Lawrence would probably kill him. He'd been warned more times than enough about his treatment of Chrissie, threatened him with violence if he ever hurt her. Lawrence is a man to follow through with his actions, Robert knew that all too well.
He gripped the steering wheel and leaned forward, resting his head for moment, desperately trying to forget. Forget about his feelings. forget about Aaron. He loves Chrissie, he's never been more sure of that. But what if he loved Aaron too? Only 12 hours ago he was determined that Aaron wasn't going to ruin this, that he would prove to him that Chrissie was enough. That she had everything he wanted and more. He sighed and lifted his head, and with a deep breath he climbed out of his car, locked it and walked back towards the church.
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Adam sat by Aaron's bed, sobbing softy. "I can't believe you're in here again, in another mess. You really do things in style don't you? Come on Aaron. Wake up. Just talk to me. Whatever it is, I'll help you, I'll get you through it. You were amazing when my Dad died. You were there for me, you went on the run for me! You've done so much and I never appreciate it. I always give you a hard time when you're not pulling your weight at Holy Scrap or whatever, but not once have I ever questioned myself as to why. I should know. I'm meant to be your best friend. And I've made you feel like you can't talk to me. I'll neve forgive myself this Aaron. Knowing you you'll probably die on me just to spite me, then come back and haunt me for being a muppet. Please mate.. We need you. You can fight this, and we can help you fight whatever's made you...do it again."
Adam felt the grip on his hand tighten, he looked up to see Aaron's eyes flickering and slowly open.
Adam couldn't stop the grin creeping on to his face "Aaron? Mate can you hear me?"
"Robert?"
"No, mate it's Adam."
"Where's Robert?" Aaron asked
"Aaron, Robert's getting married mate. He might come and see you tomorrow, but.. I didn't think you were mates really?"
"Adam...I've been sleeping with Robert.."
Adam laughed. "Mate he's as straight as they come!"
"I remember someone saying that about me..." Aaron sighed
"You're serious, aren't you? Oh god Aaron... Is that why you..."
"I love him Adam.." Aaron sobbed. "I really love him. Why do I always want what I can't have?"
"He's not worth trying to kill yourself!"
"I didn't...I didn't mean to cut that deep..."
"You're damn lucky to be alive kid! Would it have been worth it? Is he worth it? Really? He's getting married Aaron! Proof he doesn't give a stuff about you!"
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Chrissie smiled as she looked at Robert, tears in her eyes as she repeated her vows. She reached up and gently wiped away a single tear from Robert's cheek. He smiled back at her, and took her hand, waiting for Ashley to move on to him.
Ashley looked at him and smiled. This was it. No turning back now. He'd made his decison.
"Reapeat after me. I Robert Jacob Sugden.."
"I Robert Jacob Sugden"
"Do take thee, Christine White, to be my lawful wedded wife."
"Do take thee..." Robert stopped and took a breath, the emotion slowly over taking him, his nerves getting the better of him. Chrissie smiled and squeezed his hand gently. Robert composed himself and smiled back at her. "Do take thee, Aaron Livesy..."
TBC